Our New Year's Eve Bash

Book 109

Lamentations 3:40 - 40. Let us search and try our ways, and turn again to the LORD




It's New Year's Eve, and I'm getting ready to bring it in with a bang. But...a bang isn't what it amount to be with an explosion. I woke up this morning with a mild pain in my right side. I didn't know what to expect, but...I've decided not to think no more of it. At least for now.

My brother-in-law Lorenzo decided to start barbecuing for the start of our New Years Eve bash, because he had to work for the New Year. He had a lot of food to be prepared and to place on the grill: Chicken, hot dogs and hamburger. I love the smell of the grill burning. It reminded me of my FATHER when he was grilling in his front yard. I really miss him very much.

Sherri, our mother Ruth and I sat and watched "In The Heat Of The Night" to pass time while we waited on Lorenzo to put the food on the grill to cook. We loved that show very much. Lots of big things happen in a small imaginary town of Sparta, Mississippi. The moments were peaceful as we sat very quietly on the couch and watched our favorite television sit com. Even my puppy dog Sheba sat quietly without a sound.

I would took a moment out of my time during this post and of the New Year's Eve bash to talk about something that came to mind while I'm sitting with my sister and mother Ruth watching In The Heat Of The Night. Something I thought of that happened 13 years prior before my FATHER died. I remembered a time when I was in my first apartment, I had this dream. It was so weird, I had to tell it in order to ease my conscience about what happened and how it came to pass. I dreamed of my FATHER laying in a casket in this place that was unknown to me.

I didn't know where it was, or how I got there to be exact. This place had so many rooms in it. One of the rooms (this one room in particular) I found my FATHER in the casket. In one of the other rooms, I found this choir singing. I didn't know, or quit comprehend what they were singing, but...they were all lined up in this one room just singing up a storm. This one room I was totally focused on where my FATHER was lying in his casket.

I started walking into this room to see and view my FATHER in his casket. I couldn't believe or place into terms of my FATHER dying! I looked around in this room and I could not find my FATHER. I thought, "That's odd!" I'm in tears, and I'm wondering, 'where is he?'

I was traveling from room to room to room trying to find my FATHER, but I couldn't find him anywhere, like he disappeared into thin air. And then...I came back to the room where the choir were singing their praises. I was crying so hard! Here's how the dream ended. I got up out of my bed and I was looking around for my FATHER in my apartment and I couldn't find him anywhere.

My face was flooded in tears. I looked around as I started back to my bedroom and found that my pillow was soaking wet with my tears. Then...I looked around while I was in my bed out into the living room, wondering where my FATHER was in the equation. I found myself in a catatonic like state for just a brief moment.

Then I came to my senses. I had been up all night with that dream on my mind. I got ready for work. I remembered at work telling a woman who was into the LORD about my dream, and she said, "I dreamed of a wedding, not a funeral." I told myself, "How can that be when I dreamed of my FATHER in a casket?" From that point...I might dreamed of my FATHER'S death and I didn't know it come to pass 13 years to the date. In The Heat Of The Night just ended it's episode. Lorenzo had just finished a round of chicken, butt pork steaks, hamburger and hot dogs, I decided to get started on the baked beans and put the macaroni on for my sister Sherri, because she had just taken our mother for her dialysis treatments. She will then make the cheese for the macaroni when she got back from taking our mother Ruth for her dialysis treatments.

Wow! I really enjoy time with my family at our New Year's Eve barbecue bash. I'm very thankful for the time we share together. Sherri returned to make the cheese for the macaroni, I stood and watched,  while the rest of my immediate family stood around outside talking and laughing about everything that was mentioned, while my brother-in-law Lorenzo finished cooking on the grill. Still...the thought of my FATHER cooking on his grill brought back a lot of wonderful memories. Memories that would last a lifetime.

I finished up the baked beans; Sherri had just finished the cheese for the macaroni. She placed two long pans of macaroni and cheese in the oven. She then put a pot of Italian green beans.We waited until everything were ready to eat. Sherri and I couldn't wait until the real celebration for our barbecue bash began so that we as a immediate family can really began sharing time together and enjoying the barbecue (chicken, butt pork, hamburgers and hot dogs) macaroni and cheese, baked beans and real Italian green beans.

Wow...I can't wait until then! And to end it all...my family and I were to attend watch night services (church) to bring the New Year in the name of GOD and his son JESUS. Wow! I pray that my family and I make it to see the New Year 2019 come in. I will be truly a blessing indeed.

Resolutions: Only If They Are Promised

Book 108 -

Matthew 24:36 - 36. But of that day and hour knoweth no man, no, not the angels of Heaven, but my Father only. 





What is a resolution? I know is a thought, or a decision to doing something constructive, or making plans to do something I feel that is very exciting, especially when it comes to the New Year. Many people make plans on what their resolution for the New Year would be. I'm not for making a resolution if you don't know if you're going to be here to see it or not. I like to live one day at a time, because everyday isn't promised to no one. Only GOD and his son JESUS gives resolutions to every one's life.

I don't know! I guess I'm not into planning when it comes to life and its values. I only live one day at a time and pray that GOD and his son JESUS to spare my life as I go into the New Year, or even before. That's the only belief I have when it comes to resolutions and keeping it on the real when it comes to my life. My family and I have those values and thoughts of not believing in things like making a New Year's resolution and planning on what were going to do when that time comes. We all got to remember that everyday isn't promised to no one no matter if every one in this galaxy believes me or not. I'm going to be on the real when it comes to New Year's resolutions.

I know as sure as I'm writing this post, I maybe putting a damper on every one's New Year's resolutions and what they're planning when that time comes...and that's a big if. As a matter of fact...I'm only being logical and stating the facts. If I'm putting a damper on every one's resolution for the New Year, than I'm sorry! I apologize. I'm must stating the logic of what's true to the fact.

As I stated...I'm praying to GOD and his son JESUS that I make it to see the New Year and many days, weeks, months and years, that's all I'm saying.

Open Discussion: Everything Is Worth The Communication

Book 107 - Open Discussion Communication -

There's a time once again for open discussions on Author: Terri Celestine Brunson. You can talk about anything you want in this post. It could be anything you want: Love, Happiness, Conversations with friends, family, or associates, this post is for everyone with a positive attitude. Lets give a little coffee talk here at Author: Terri Celestine Brunson. Who's the first to start communicating?  Everyone...join in the coversation on Disqus.

Indiscretions Are Easy To Forgive But Hard To Forget

Book 106 -

Romans 12:2 - 2. And be not confirmed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that we may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect will of GOD.

Ephesians 4:31 - 32 - 31. Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking be put away from you with all malice. 32. And be ye kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as GOD for Christ sake hath forgiven you.

I just had a unkindly thought that would make any one's stomach turn to the point of no return, if...thoughts were made of steal, I would have a "hard" time thinking twice of what I'm about to say. I had a thought about an ex cousin of mine, and I remembered something she did that made me feel really bad. I didn't want to bring up old rubbish and relex in the same breath, but...this need to come out on Author: Terri Celestine Brunson so that I can feel better about myself and be understood at the same time. I was with my sister at my sister-in-law Neyome's home; this thought I had was when I asked my ex cousin (of whom I will keep anonymous) for a appointment to cut my hair down a little at the top and back. She wouldn't accept the appointment, because she made all kinds of excuses of why she could keep my appointment.

I began to think, "Was it because she didn't have time to cut my hair, or she didn't want to do it at all?" I had my thoughts and questions to match about what I was thinking when my sister and I was turned down by our own cousin. It seemed that every time I asked her for an appointment, she either say, "Oh...I don't have time, or I can't do it." It seemed odd that my ex cousin had an excuse for every time I  scheduled an appointment for my hair, she 'flat out' turn me down. She never turned down anyone else down, but...my sister and myself.

I thought, "What did my sister and I do to our ex cousin for her not to give us a cut, or a style?" I truly believe that she fell 'out of tune' with us mentally, emotionally and completely. Like she was too good to put her hands into our hair. Only a person with common sense would think otherwise. I guess my sister and I had more common sense to notice that our ex cousin and the rest of our extended family did not want anything else to do with us if we weren't made of money, or had hair that was worth styling.

"Living like The Joneses" I would call it. No time, no acknowledgement, and no money (in which we didn't have) for them to even give my sister and I and my immediate family circle the time of day to know, or see if we were even part of their equation. I don't know why she acted the way she did, but...I know that when it comes to peeping over the horizon, I say, "Forget what was once was and focus on what's in front of me which is family." What was once was, is now a part of my past. I don't think I'll ever give my ex cousin the time of day ever again.

It was just a thought I had. I had to write it in my post so that I can feel better about myself, because my immediate family has been hurt so much by my extended family to the point that we want nothing to do with them. Either one of them! I can say that I can live without them and wouldn't think twice if they existed. I don't think it's all bad to not want someone there in your life if they don't appreciate you. I choose not to include my ex cousin, or the rest of the extended family in my equation, or in my thoughts.

I forgive all those who hurt my immediate family circle, but...I want forget their indescretions.

The Heart Of Christmas Spirit

Book 105 -

Isaiah 11:2 - 2. And the spirit of the LORD shall rest upon him, the spirit of wisdom and understanding, the spirit of counsel and might, the spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the LORD.

It looks as though the Christmas  festivities are done and over with. I'm looking forward to the New Year 2019. What can I say about the memories my family and I shared over the Christmas Holiday? Tons and tons of presents to open and the enjoyment of watching all children of my family open their presents, revealing what they got for Christmas. Wow...what a moment that was.

My son got almost a thousand dollars worth of clothes, video games and shoes galore in his assortment of gifts from his father. I was totally amazed for the amount of gifts Zachary's father sent him. I don't think I ever doubt Zach's father about anything else, but...to come and see him more than twice a year. I don't think in Zachary's case, material things will ever amount up to physically seeing and spending time with him on a regular basis. That will mean more to Zach, than clothes, shoes and video games.

At least that's what Zachary told me. I'm for one acknowledge the fact that his father need to get on the ball and come and see his son more often. I know! Too much talk about my son and his father, my focus is on my family's festivities. After all the children opened all of their presents, it was time to eat. Octavia...my niece, fixed plates for everyone so that everyone would get their equal share of the vittles being distributed.

Everyone sat down and ate until their hearts content. It was good eating! Everything down to the turkey and ham was totally scrumptious. Dessert...don't even ask about that! If everyone in my family really had a sweet tooth for all the desserts we had (apple pie, sweet potato pie, peach pie, carrot cake and red velvet cake) we would all be arrested for the crime of getting sugarcoated.

Afterwords...it was time to relax and have the full extent of family time with laughter filled with memories. Who could ever in pass up on all the memories my family and I could share in a heartbeat? We talked about all the past-times each of us lived to the fullest extent. Some of the memories we're about the times when most of us were growing up and did things the were completely out of the ordinary. My times were about my FATHER and the memories I shared with him when he was alive.

Every moment shared with my immediate family and friends were the best I have had. I hope that next year (if GOD and his son JESUS) spare all of our lives, we can have memories more greater than the ones here and now. I'm very thankful to the ones here and now. It was a pure monologue of the Christmas Spirit filled with love, happiness, hope and joy.

Joy To The World For The Love Of Family

Book 104 -

John 14:27 - Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you; not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

2 Thessalonians 3:16 - Now the LORD of peace himself give you peace always by all means. The LORD be with you all.


Romans 15:33 - 33. Now the GOD of peace will be with you all. Amen.

Christmas Eve is here and I'm enjoying family time with my immediate family. What a day to treasure a great memory. Sherri and I will be cooking a little later in the day. We found a little money to work with in getting Christmas gifts for at least the children of our immediate family. I'm really thankful for that.

Sherri had a small five minute video on her tablet she shared with our mother, me and herself. We looked at the video; Sherri's grandbaby Christmas caroling during a school play. Wow! What a treat just to observe the video. Sherri's grandbaby Justin was so cute dressed as one of the wise men during the birth of JESUS.

He didn't participate in much in the play; Justin stood mostly silent during the entire play, but..it was okay. Sherri and I enjoyed the caroling from the kids performing Christmas Carol's. After it was over, Justin was to receive his ornament off of the Christmas tree in the facility. What a joy it was just to be there at Justin's Christmas play. A wonderful memory to place into my time capsule.

Sherri's other grandbaby, Christian decided he wanted to go to the store and get a donut. I observed as he kept begging for one. I laughed at the expression he had on his face. Sherri gave into her grand baby and took him to the store for that donut. The memories of that moment we're piling up with warmth and beauty.

The excited expression on Christian's face was totally phenomenal. You could help but to look at him smile. I got to admit...when time like the ones I share with my family are a total blessing. I never feel left out of anything like I feel when I was with my extended family. Total loneliness when I was with my extended family will leave you invisible.

I'm just blessed to have my immediate family circle. I feel totally close to home when I'm with my family. Wow! What a wonderful feeling to have at every direction of life and not worry about if you're there or not. Joy, peace, and happiness was what Sherri, my mother Ruth, and I made it in one outstanding moment.

A memory in itself. No one else can compete with the love we have when it comes to enjoying time with my immediate family circle.

Just Another Day In Paradise

Book 103 -

Philippians 1:3 - 5 - 3. I thank my GOD upon every remembrance of you, 4. Always in every prayer of mine for you all making request with joy, 5. For your fellowship in the gospel from the first day until now.

We're on our (Sherri and I) to pick up our mother from dialysis. It's just another day for us, we still got a lot of Christmas shopping to do and no money to do it with. I guess this is the season of the struggle we go through everyday. Most of all...I can say, "We still got our life, health and strength and the blood running warm in our veins and that's a blessing in it self.

I think about what it would of been like if I still had my FATHER here for the Holiday's on top of game, breathing the breath of life and joking around? That's a memory in itself I choose to keep closest to my heart. I miss him so much and it's hard to fathom sometimes, but I rejoice the life he lived on this Earth. I'm still moving on with life though. What else can do, or say to bring my FATHER back to family?

I know for sure that it's difficult to bring anyone back if you have that divine faith like GOD and his son JESUS has. I'm only thankful that I had my FATHER most of my natural mortal life. I had to reminisce my FATHER for just a brief moment. My sister and I are very at the dialysis center to pick up our mother. Sherri went in the facility to retrieve her while I sat in the car writing about it and accepting it as one of my memories.

Usually our mother would have us to stop at a store, or a restaurant to get her something to eat. Our mother had us to stop at Burger King to get her a order of fries. That's it! Nothing else. I guess it was one of our mother's days that she wasn't all that hungry after getting off the dialysis machine.

The wait in the line at Burger King was very demanding. Someone had to of ordered a very huge order, or the wait in the car line wouldn't of been so bad. "What the heck!" 15 - 20 minutes in line...something has got to give. "What is going on here?" I'm sold on slowness.

Maybe we'll move in the car line  someday. Only the thought of this day can be placed in my time capsule of memories. Yes indeed! What a blast that last 15 to 20 minutes in my day. We went home afterwards.

We (Sherri, mother and I) arrived home and sat out the remainder of the day watching Cold Case, laughing and talking other things that memories are made of.

Why Waste Time On Things We Can't Change

Book 102

Colossians 1:20 - 20. And having made peace through the blood of his cross, by him to reconcile all things unto himself; by him, I say whether they be things in Earth, or things in Heaven




I find it more than a waste of my time to keep dawning on things that doesn't need no more of my attention. I can sort of reflect on the matter my ex aunt's and why I keep them so logical in my blog posts. It's obvious that they were the main source of why I go through so many trial and tribulations. I got to talk about them no matter what the cost is to practically complete this post. I don't know about how much more I can stand, but the thought of those two women and what they done to me and immediate family, I find it more of a healing process for me in particular.

The more I speak of them about everything they have done to my immediate family and myself, it's seems...the better I feel in the long run. When I find myself wanting and yearning to get back at them for everything they've done to my family and I...I find myself praying for them in return. I'm not going to sell myself short of an ounce of happiness just because...my ex aunts decided to steal, kill and destroy everything that was valuable to my family. I'm going to keep going on and living my life to the fullest. Try not to think of them so much.

Just maybe I'll finally get over being so mad and upset over my ex aunt's indiscretions. The logic of it is far too old to fathom wasting time on their pathetic lives. Every now and then I'll write about them in good omens when it time to bring up old rubbish. It's still part of my healing process. And...I don't want to waste time healing old wounds.

What more can I possibly give to what's worth wild than to be proscribed a hypnosis session to talk about things that matters to me? I'm resting on a couch in a deep coma and I'm spilling my guts to find some sort of closure when it comes to communicating about my FATHER. Maybe closure will finally become a factor...maybe it wont. I know that it won't. Only GOD and his son JESUS will continue to be my rock of glory and everything will finally be okay.

The Jollies Of Christmastime With Our Families

Book 101 -

Leviticus 23:4 - 8 - 4. These are the feasts of the LORD, even holy convocations which ye shall proclaim in their seasons. 5. In the fourteenth day of the first month at even is the LORD'S Passover. 6.And on the fifteenth day of the same month is the feast of unleavened bread unto the LORDS: seven days ye must eat unleavened bread. 7. In the first day ye shall have an holy convocation: ye shall do no service work there in. 8. But ye shall offer an offering made by fire unto the LORD seven days: in the seventh day is an holy convocation: ye shall do servile work therein.

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Christmastime is coming to town. Lots of shopping to do; lots of cooking that will set off an aroma in all America's kitchens. Kids will be out of school in a matter of days. Spending time with family during the Christmas holidays brings back the American way of tradition. I'm so ready for the holidays.

I haven't started my Christmas shopping and I don't want to wait until the last minute to the point that the store are very crowded. I may get some shopping done in a few days from now. My sister and I got a lot to do when it come around to cooking our traditional Christmas dinner. I believe this year we may get a ham instead of a turkey, some candied yams, string beans, squash casserole, macaroni and cheese, cranberry sauce, deviled eggs, and to top it off my brother-in-law's famous corn bread dressing. That's what I'm talking about...the best of the best in a Christmas feast.

I think about all the presents that will be present under the tree. Wow...what a sight that would be? Then I think of my FATHER...my third Christmas without his presence. It's still hard sometimes to imagine that he's not going to ever spend a Holiday with my family and I again. But...I rejoicing that he's in a better place for Christmas that is more Heavenly than on Earth.

I'm totally thankful for that and for my family circle and for my dog Sheba. In tell my FATHER that Sheba's fine and we're (my family and I) are taking good care of her for him. I can continue to smile with joy that everything will be fine according to the fact that my FATHER is gone to Glory. Merry Christmas to everyone who will view, read, or maybe comment on this post. I'm very thankful.

100th Milestone Post - Our Lives Is Like A Box Of Chocolates

Book 100 - A Milestone Post -

1 Peter 1:3 - 3. Blessed be the GOD and father of our LORD JESUS Christ, which according to his abundant mercy hath begotten us again unto a lively hope by the resurrection of JESUS Christ from the dead. 

Ecclesiastes 6:12 - 12. For who knoweth what is good for man in this life, all the days of his vain life which he spendeth as a shadow. For who can tell a man what shall be after him under the sun? 





*I'm pleased to announce my 100th milestone post to everyone who supported me by just viewing and acknowledging my posts with comments. Thanks again for your support everyone.


When life is like a box of chocolates you never ever know what you're going to get, no matter what, or how life goes. It's just a mystery we all need to figure out if only GOD and his son JESUS spare all of our lives. My twin sister and I have those moments when our thoughts get the best of us. There were so many thoughts of our past-times we can't seem to let go. It's just a number on our horizon that we haven't figured out according to our feelings when it comes to two members of our extend family.

One - Why do our ex aunts of our extended family seem to hate us so much that they had to steal from us? That's one instance! Two - What was it a purpose to steal, kill and destroy everything that belonged to my immediate family and myself? Three - Why greed was such a factor when it came to my FATHER'S estate? Four - Why was a Power of Attorney such a powerful weapon to use against my immediate family and I over the course of six months to gain control of my FATHER and his estate to keep us from having any say over anything about my FATHER?

The answer was simply obvious down to the buttered tooth of deceit, deception and indiscretion. "MONEY!" When money is used as the root of all evil, you know that all hell would break loose. My sister and I never thought our family would struggle so hard after our FATHER'S death. My ex aunts have no idea of our lives and what they both put my immediate family and I through when they decided to take over our FATHER'S life and over our family.

I think about the time when my ex aunts and their siblings had their struggles growing up. Yes...my FATHER told me and my siblings the story of when he had to stop going to school full time and get a part time job at a place called Sho-More Fertilizer to make ends meet for his immediate family. My FATHER'S...father (my grandfather) was a drunk and didn't really support his family like he should. My FATHER had to step in as the head of house...take care of his mother (my grandmother) and his three sisters and two brothers. I remember my FATHER telling me about the time they had to eat oranges for two weeks, nothing else.

The thought of my FATHER going to school part time to care for his immediate family and eating oranges for two weeks, brought back what I was feeling about my ex aunts and how they treated my immediate family for the last six months of my FATHER'S life. I asked myself, "How could they treat their brothers family like 'something' on the bottom of their shoes?" That question in itself was obvious to answer when the thought of it was so simple. "My ex aunts didn't give a hang about my FATHER, or his immediate family, or myself no matter the consequences; they didn't care so as long as they were banking on my FATHER'S life and disrespecting his family with no respect for him." Greed guided their lives when they had a truck backed all the way up to the door of my FATHER'S house two days after his burial and removing his possessions from his house.

That told me how much my ex aunts really cared for their brother...my FATHER. No one in their right mind would of did what they did over a live family. "My immediate family!" But...when it comes to GOD and his son JESUS vengeance, "Woe beyond to their evil deeds, because GOD and his son JESUS don't like ugly at all. I hate to be in their shoes when my pilots vengeance do them in.

All I can think about is when greed guides the lives of people of whom I thought loved us; it makes me sad to the fact of acknowledging what is and what's not when it comes to hate and disgust. I kind of suspected the attitudes of my ex aunts from the time they buried their mother...my grandmother. Nothing about them or anyone else in my extended family has ever been the same since. It's like being out of existence to everyone on that side in mind, body and soul...more like invisible. But...I know one day my immediate family and I will be first to see the many blessings that will come to us, and for my ex aunts, the repercussions will be the last thing they see for what's coming to them, and when it comes to their reaping time.

Claiming Victory On The Battlefield

Book 99

Ephesians 6:18 - 18. Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints.




When GOD and his son JESUS had everything in their unchanging hands, you seem to have the whole world lifted off your shoulders. I know in my heart that they have fought battle after battle for me so that I can live in peace. I don't think I could of gotten it better than that. When I think of the times I've been hurting and grieving because of the death of my FATHER, I find myself praising GOD and his son JESUS for deliverance, and for grace to move on without hesitation. No more feeling sorry for myself because my FATHER is in a better place.

It's hard to imagine sometimes that he's not here, it's hard not to smell his barbecue, or to hear him mortally to talk, laugh and joke around. But...by GOD and his son JESUS, I can now rejoice unto my heart's content and I can continue to be happy. I can continue to live with that fact that I don't have any indiscretions of any sort what so ever. But my GOD and his son JESUS will bring vengeance to those (my two ex aunts) who mentally, financially, and emotionally hurt me and my immediate family with their evil ways they "dumped" upon us when we were at our weakest times of despair. Woe beyond to them! I give all my hurt, pain, and disgust to GOD and his son JESUS that I can finally feel and be comforted with their grasps with security upon my body.

I know now I will feel good, great and awesome after I struggled for two whole years with total grief for my FATHER. I can now manage my anger towards my ex aunt's who brought me and my immediate family circle pain and despair. What more can I say about the way I feel about things, but to pray and forgive those who brought pain and despair to my life and the lives of my immediate family. Prayer changed a whole lot in my life and I will continue to pray with guidance and understanding. I can imagine a DITTO for my standards for being grateful to my pilots in Heaven.

The Point In Being Right When You Don't Want To Be Wrong

Book 98 -

Exodus 14:14 - 14. The LORD shall fight for you, and you shall hold your peace.

I found myself thinking ahead of everything in my life. In one instance I saw myself more prouder than I ever been in my whole entire life. I finally come to terms with the fact that my FATHER'S gone. I know he's never coming back. I know that he's in a better place than this desolate place that we call earth.

I can live with myself knowing that I don't have to think twice about being an accomplice of what happened to my FATHER the last six months of his life, or selling myself as a martyr to everything that has happened during the last six months of my FATHER'S life until his death. I can say, "I'm totally out in the clear with no flaws, and with no indiscretions holding me back from a wonderful life. What more can I think of than to be just out right happy, glad, and great with pride and wisdom? Needless to say, "I'm full of joy and happiness and I'm moving on with life as I see fit to live for the first time in two years" Thank GOD and his son JESUS for my happiness.

I got to say this! I knew that my ex aunt had a party for my twin cousins tonight. I couldn't not attend, because I couldn't see myself there in the mist of people who down right don't give a hang about me or my immediate family if we would of came. Knowingly that when it comes around to us sitting a table alone with no one to communicate with us the entire time like we weren't there, I felt that using common sense would be the most logical thing to do. The logic was, "Don't come and be the black sheep that we've always been" under their wings. I didn't want to suffer that fate at any point necessary.

The more responsible thing to do was to stay home and enjoy my immediate family like always, even with our family dog Sheba. I like that in a heart beat! I know I'm right about how I feel and I know I'm not wrong about what I'm saying when it come to my extended family. This is what my immediate family feel about attending any events, parties, and get togetherness with extended family. I don't think we'll ever be family again.

My FATHER'S demise left a family so separated (thanks to my ex aunt who I still chose to keep anonymous) for breaking up both families. I have no will to ever put our families (extended and immediate) back together again. What's the point when you have an extended family who don't want to give the time of day? My immediate family and I will continue to move on without any hesitation...maybe go to Disney World to see Mickey and Minnie Mouse...have fun....what ever it takes to continue to be happy with life to the fullest.

Lies Two Ways More Than One

Book 97 -

Hosea 7:3 - 3. Work unto them! For they have fled from me. Destruction unto them! Because they have transgressed against me; though I have redeemed them, yet they have spoken lies against me.



When it come to thinking about everything that has gone on in my life, I have come to a conclusion that resulted in a decision that I had to make on my own free will. I've decided not to give my extended family anymore of my life, my time, but...my love will continue to be there for them no matter what. After the lies that was told to me from my ex aunt (who will continue to remain anonymous) I never want her to visit my home again, no matter what. I don't think my immediate family and I will ever get the full truth from either of my ex aunts about what really happened to all of my FATHER'S things two days after my immediate family and I buried him. The lies and all the lies for the sake of lying will continue to go on no matter how long it takes to get the real truth out of those two women.

I just the understand the concept of why everything had to be kept a secret between them (my ex aunt's)  when it come to my FATHER'S well being, his health, and especially his finances. But...I know for sure that deception will always continue to guide their natural lives until they come clean about everything that has happened since my FATHER'S death. Deception and their indiscretions  played a part in all the dirt they have done to my immediate family and myself, and GOD and his son JESUS will claim their vengeance over them when they least expect it. And...I would hate to be in their shoes when that day comes. Why my ex aunt's continue to lie about what really happened with my FATHER'S health and his finances?

Only time will tell with a blink of an eye and the light that shines upon our grief that the truth will finally come out for the sake of my immediate family and for myself. My ex aunts will then find themselves on their knees pleading for forgiveness from the almighty GOD and his son JESUS for their evil and deceitful ways and their sins and indiscretions. And from that...my immediate family and I shall find peace. I look forward to that. My FATHER will finally rest in peace.

I want nothing more to do with my ex aunt's... possibly...the family. I get so sick and tired of the repeated lies and the deception. My immediate family and I deserve the truth and I'm wondering if we'll ever get the truth from those two women. I doubt it seriously! Because...deceit, deception and indiscretion will always guide their lives, no matter what.

Faults Of A Father To His Family

Book 96 -

James 5:16 - 16. Confess your faults one to another and pray one for another that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of righteous man availeth much.

1 Peter 2:20 - 20. For what Glory is it, if when ye be buffeted for your faults, ye shall take it patiently. But if...when ye do well, and suffer for it, ye take it patiently. This is acceptable with GOD




I found myself in deep thought of my FATHER'S faults against his family that lead to my extended family's silence against my immediate family. Its obvious to say this for a fact in the matter of my FATHER'S indiscretions. When he spoke against his immediate family about everything that goes on behind closed doors, you get a sense betrail in every direction you look, or every turn you make no matter what. I give a lot of fault to my FATHER of why my extended family don't give my immediate family and I the time of day...even though...most of them share some sort of respect for us generally. I guess when my parents in general had their ups and downs throughout their marriage, my FATHER had some sort of dislike (not hate) against my mother Ruth.

Not everyday my parents shared their day, or any brief encounters at all, just a word here and there and that's it. I do remember a time my FATHER told his brother-in-law Ron about the way my mother kept her house (things out of place and unclean) on a daily basis. I figured from that time when he told his brother-in-law that (which the brother-in-law might of relayed his response about my immediate and I to everyone else in my extended family) that my mother Ruth kept a dirty house was the reason why everyone in my extended family didn't eat from us when my FATHER'S had his restaurant. Don't get me wrong here about speaking ill my FATHER. This was a thought that came from my heart when I think of the negative side of my FATHER'S indiscretions.

His thoughts of his immediate family wasn't all peaches and cream; it was like oil and water. It was like a simple case of dislike in so many ways. It was hard to figure whether my FATHER had at least 99% of love for his immediate family, and then that 1% of dislike to make everything complete. It was hard in a whole lot of ways to figure him out for that matter. I know for a fact that my immediate family is totally without a doubt "ignored" completely from parties, events and get togetherness in every sense.

Nothing will help the fact that my FATHER spoke against his immediate family about certain things that didn't need to be said, especially when it came from behind close doors. This is why both of our families don't have anything in common when it comes to being on point with everything that is going on between our two families. This is why we don't talk period about anything all.  I truly believe this was why when my FATHER closed his eyes for eternity, it ended a relationship (even though my immediate family haven't had a relationship in over thirty years with our extended family) ended completely without thought, or hesitation. My immediate family and I can now deal with the fact that my extended family doesn't want anything else to do with us.

It proves a fact. That we (my immediate family and I) are not a part of their cup of tea when it comes to having and being more like "The Joneses" in every sense of value that are the most highest in regards for their way of life. My immediate family and I may not have the top of the world sitting on our shoulders, but we have each other at the end of the tunnel. And when we meet each on the other side of that tunnel, we do it with heart, love and understanding. That's why my immediate family and I can do without them in every way we can and have more fun together in a micro second doing it.

I find that everything I said in my post is based on fact, and my opinion. The one thing I don't do is sugarcoat the truth as I see fit to its facts. If it hurt those who read it, and have a sense of doubt of what is being said, all I can do is to express myself as I see fit, because..."It was the way it happened in every sense." I'm proud to be happy and be a part of my immediate family's circle of love. I will never give that up for anything but GODS and his son JESUS love for my immediate family.

Don't get me wrong here, because of my post. This was my deepest thoughts when it came to my FATHER'S negative indiscretions of his immediate family. I felt I needed to get it out of my system with every ounce of my feelings. I still love him anyway's no matter what, because he was in fact my FATHER. I still love him even though he's in his grave.

To end this post for sure, "My mother Ruth wasn't a true housekeeper (all perfect) in every sense, but...she did keep a clean house most part" just to let everyone know and that's a fact.

The Wonders Of The Lights

Book 95 -

1 John 1:2 - 1. For the life was manifested, and we have seen it, and bear witness and she's unto you that eternal life, which was with the Father, and was manifested unto us.



There's nothing like spending time with family. We just got back from a event called the Lights of Lakeland on the highlands side of the City of Lakeland. It's was just a brief walk through, lots happening. There were different settings to visit. The most important one was a tour of Bethlehem.

What was my most favorite attraction. Everything seemed so real as my family and I walked through each and every settings at Lights of Lakeland. Even all the way up to the birth of Christ. What a sight to see as I looked at the woman who played as the Virgin Mary hold the baby known as baby Jesus in her arms. I felt the realness of the moment far as I could see as though I was back in that era in time.

Afterwords...it didn't take long at all for my family and I to walk out of the Lights of Lakeland attraction before we were on our way back to our cars. Why was our visit so short? Because...my son, niece and nephews didn't want to take any pictures with any of the super hero's at the attraction. So with that said with just a short tour, we left as fast as we breezed through. My family and I found our cars and we left the attraction for home...where the heart was.

My brother-in-law agreed to bring the smaller children back to Lights of Lakeland the next day, so that they will be able to take pictures with all the super hero's that were present there. Maybe that time around when my family and I visit, our visit would be much longer than we can possibly imagine staying to a wonderful attraction. I look forward to which was from yesterday, striving towards today when our visit would be magical. My family and I gathered for our tour at the Lights of Lakeland. It would be hours from now until we take that magical tour.

I look forward to visiting once again.

"Two Years"

Book 94 - Special Edition Post

Exodus 14:14 - 14. The LORD shall fight for you, and ye shall hold your peace.

There is not a day...not a day I don't think about him. It's hard sometimes when you deal with a death. It's hard knowing that my FATHER is no longer here to joke around, laugh that funny laugh, give you that blank look when he's serious about being funny about something, no matter what. Let me not forget. His world famous barbecue.

Wow! How can I forget my FATHER'S barbecue? That falling off the bone taste. Wow! I still can't believe it's been two years since his death.

I can kind of deal with things now. I don't cry as much as I use to. I've learned to live and move on from grief. But still...I catch myself looking at his picture from time to time, capturing some wonderful memories of my FATHER. LORD only knows there were a lot more of those wonderful memories where that came from.

Without a doubt, and with the help of GOD and his son JESUS. My heart may heal one day of the gash it sustain from the horrible and evil ways of my ex aunts and what they did to my FATHER. I just don't want to continue to wollow in self pity, grief and anger. GOD and his son JESUS is now in control of the madness that dewell within me and in my family. But...there is one thing to be true, "I miss my FATHER soooooo much." 

There nothing or no one in the world take his place. Ever! If there is anything that I can only think of, is that...I believe he did in fact make it into Heaven. Only GOD and his son JESUS only knows that. I love my FATHER with all my heart, body, and soul and no one can take that from me ever.

It's been two years, and it's going to continue to be hard for my family and myself. How can I ever get over the fact that my FATHER is no longer here? I don't think anyone in this whole world can really get over someones death. You got to be cast iron to do that. The outspokenness of my character will never get over what has made me weak in the heart.

"I was in fact a daddy's girl indeed." 

When The Lies Weigh More Than The Truth

Book 93 -

Hosea 7:13 - 13. Work until them! For they have fled from me: destruction until them, because they have tresgressed against me: though I have redeemed them, yet they have spoken lies against me.




What's it going to take to tell the truth? What is going to take for some people to stop lying to themselves? Those questions are obvious. Never...that's how! I had asked my aunt, who will remain anonymous to come over to my home to give me some kind if closure about my FATHER.

I wondered, what was taking her so long to come over to my home so that we can talk about my FATHER, his finances, his life. About an hour later, I saw police racing down the road about yards from my home. I didn't know what to make of what was happening until I saw another police car racing down the road on a emergency call. At lease... that's what I thought it was. Then my aunt called me.

My aunt said (who will continue to remain anonymous) she had backed into a deep ditch trying to turn around from on of the side road yards from my home. Police stayed with her until a tow truck arrived to pull her out. I responded immediately to her call. I got into my car and proceeded down to where she was in the ditch. I waited with police for a tow truck to come and pull her out of the ditch.

After thirty more minutes, my aunt was finally pulled out of the ditch. She decided to come to my home after her hour long ordeal in that deep ditch, to try in give my sister and I some kind of closure about our FATHER. I welcomed her inside my home even though...how I felt about her was a whole lot of animosity.  She and her sister (who are now my ex aunts) treated my family and I like we weren't there when they had Power of Attorney over my FATHER'S life, over my live family. She came in the living room and made herself comfortable.

I immediately question her about my FATHER'S finances (Retirement and his social security) and other things that needed to be asked about. She told me some things that made me think about the fact that she was continuously lying to me and my sister about our FATHERS finances and estate. I truly believe she scheme some of my FATHER'S social security for the last six months of my FATHER'S life and also his retirement. Here's another lie my ex aunt told me on top of the lie she told about my FATHER'S finances and estate. She told me that her and my brother had a secret between them about some money from a bank account my FATHER had.

My ex aunt said that there was a thousand dollars in one of his accounts that my immediate family and I didn't know about...as she assumed it was. She said that it was between my her and my brother she had this secret. She told me that my brother had told her to keep the money in the account. And for the life of me...there was no way...no way my brother told her that. "No way!"

Then I say, "My ex until thinks I'm a fool to believe that my brother gave her a thousand dollars from an account she said my FATHER had without telling his family." She was totally nuts that I figured her to be. And in another instance, my ex aunt  told me that she didn't know where my FATHER'S suits, hats, bicycle, floor television, rings, necklaces and the whole nine yards was (just like my other ex aunt) she didn't know where everything was. All I can say is that one of them (or both of them) is totally lying for the sake of lying and GOD and has son JESUS will handle them with vengeance.  Then I come to an conclusion about the fact that this woman who "was" an aunt of mine, was continuously lying about everything with my FATHER'S finances, his clothes, and his entire estate.

Greed has guided both of my ex aunt's lives no matter who they hurt. There was no way I can trust them again. No way! I guess the thing to do right now is to give my ex aunts lies and deception to GOD and his son JESUS. Because that's the only justice for my FATHER that I can get from my ex aunt's indiscretions is the love of my pilots.

My sister and I will try to move on with life without either one of them and their families. I'm so tired of the lies and deception.

When All You Have To Be Thankful For Is Family

Book 92 - Special Edition Post

Psalms 107:22 - 22. And let them sacrifice the sacrifice of Thanksgiving, and declare his works with rejoicing.




Its Thanksgiving today. So many people celebrate this day like no other celebration in the world. Lots of food and family gather around different tables, observing the food that was given unto there from GOD and his son JESUS. We all give thanks for the abundance of each morsel cooked and thank GOD and his son JESUS for our lives, health and strength. We all sit down and eat.

For me...thanks not the real meaning of Thanksgiving. For me... Thanksgiving is about my immediate family circle. I give thanks that I have my immediate circle today. No one in my extended family, or in the equation of extended family members celebrate with my immediate family circle...ever. But you know what, "My immediate family members always have each other."

I find that a true blessing, no matter how I present it here today as I write this post. GOD and his son JESUS has bought my immediate family and I a very...very long way from desperate measures of being completely ignored in every event we have (or just family time) and the narcissistic hearts of my extended family. Even when I thought we were coming together as one 'family unit' I still have doubts if we'll ever come together again. My immediate family and I still live with the fact that we still don't get invited anywhere for family get together, or just have family time by our extended family members.

But you know what, "I've been dealing with a lot of things since my FATHER'S death and I'm totally thankful that I have my small immediate family circle for Thanksgiving." That's truly a blessing to have people who always do things together and have fun at the same time doing the things my immediate family and I love to do. Simply...that's all I need for Thanksgiving to celebrate. I wouldn't take it back for nothing in the whole world. Who's the say if having a group of people you love the most (immediate family) is enough to celebrate to celebrate the Thanksgiving holiday?

I say that my immediate family circle is more than enough to celebrate Thanksgiving in it's abundance and then some. I'm very proud of that and I'm truly thankful to have my immediate family circle to gather around one huge table and celebrate what many families around the world celebrate each year, for hundreds of years. Now that...I would give up for nothing in the whole world. Love around table, we take into our hearts forever and ever. I thank GOD and his son JESUS for my immediate family circle and the food we are about to eat around and about our beautiful table this year.

When Words Of Wisdom Means Everything

Book 91 - Special Edition Post

Proverbs 1:2 - 3 2. To know wisdom and instruction; to perceive the words of understanding. 3. To receive the instruction of wisdom, justice and judgement, and equity

It's coming up on the day that my FATHER told me he couldn't breathe. How can I come to terms with that? How can I come terms with the fact that my FATHER (not knowing at the time...in three days) that he was going to die? Who could of prodicted that my FATHER'S dying would happen? There were many question I had to ask to make since of what was about to happen.

It's been hard this past year and eleven months and two weeks exactly. But...I thank GOD and his son JESUS for bringing me through my trials and tribulations that I've endured.  There was not one day I don't think about him. But there are days I must come to terms with my FATHER'S death. It's time to do so and move on with life.

I know I must come to terms and move on. My sister-in-law told me something that made me think about the time my FATHER showed more love to my extended family instead of his immediate family, even in sickness and on his death bed. Don't get me wrong, I did love my FATHER, still do. I finally figured out some things that made me think about what's totally important, thanks to my sister-in-law Neyome. She is truly a GOD send. Thanks to her inspirational words of encouragement.

I see things now in a better light than I did when I was still weeping for my FATHER. I can now let go of my FATHER and really move on with life. It doesn't feel right some times when I come to think about my FATHER and what he really wanted was his siblings and my cousins more than he wanted his immediate family. That's okay with me now. Blood is more thicker than water.

Water was what me and my imediate family were, and that's what we will always be to his extended family. I could live with the fact that we were never wanted by my FATHER'S extended family and by my FATHER in a whole lot of ways. I can now live with that. I have no regrets about anything anymore. I've learned from from and given words of wisdom, and from my wonderful sister-in-law Neyome.

She sees things that no one else could see in an instant. The goodness in people and the faults in people that I wasn't aware of. Neyome saw that. I'm pretty much thankful for that. I see myself as a whole and no one could ever take that from me now.

The tears has stopped completely. I can now let go of my FATHER...move on. Let him rest in peace. I'm happy about that if only a brief moment. Im fine with it now.

Day Time Memories Of The Heart

Book 90 - Special Edition Post

Philippians 1:3 - 5 - 3. I thank my GOD upon every remembrance of you. 4.  Always in prayer of mine for you all making request with joy. 5.  For your fellowship in the gospel from the first day until now. 











I found myself like any other day sitting around doing nothing but spending time with my son Zachary and watching Cold Case. I love watching Cold Case, because it gives me a chance to catch up on unsolved cases from the past times that no other person want to solve. While I watched Cold Case, I began to think about some of the times I spent with my FATHER. I miss him so much. But...there's nothing I could do to bring him back. He's gone forever.

Finally I'm starting to accept the fact that's he's gone forever. I know now I must move on now with my life. It's been hard to fathom sometimes, knowing that I'm never going to have my FATHER back in my life again. I'm missing the smell of barbecue every single day that I want a piece of chicken, or pulled pork. Life as I know it will never be the same as it was and how I saw it when my FATHER would always stand in his front yard barbecuing, telling jokes and laughing with his old friends from his high school days.

So many memories still cloud my mind when I think of the time when my FATHER was in the hospital off  and on for the last six months of his life. All and all...the memories of my FATHER'S "last" stay in the hospital was terrible, but all and all was forgiven, but never forgotten. I found myself in that mode for forgiveness...for my now ex aunt (of whom I choose now not to mention) Mrs "POA" aka Power of Attorney. I added another aunt of whom I believe...chose to scheme from my FATHER'S accounts while he was alive. I now found myself not wanting to talk about, or mention their names, or what they did to my FATHER the last days of his life.

I find myself wanting peace more than I want to talk about what these two women did to my FATHER. I feel as though I just want to move on with life and let GOD and his son JESUS take care of their indiscretions. I know I would finally feel better about what's going to happen to my ex aunt's when reaping and sowing for what they had done to my FATHER will come to past. But...the memories of my FATHER will always going to be there no matter what I do, or how I see it. As I mentioned before, it's been hard of my immediate family trying to fathom without my FATHER, or to live without his jokes, his laughter and his world famous barbecue.

I'm going to continue praying amongst myself and with my immediate family and I will move on from this. I can no longer talk against what has past tense. It's better to move on and let GOD and his son JESUS take care of everything and everyone who caused us sorrow. I find myself more happier than I've ever been in my life. I just want to find peace to live with the death of my FATHER and move on.

The Mind Of Guilt And Conspiracy

Book 89

Proverbs 21:26 - 21. He coveteth greedily all the day long: but the righteous giveth and spareth not.

I thought that my sister and I would be over our FATHER'S passing, but...I guess not. Who could get over losing a parent from this world? I know that one day we all must go. There is no way around it. It's just the reality of life as we live it to our extent in the way GOD wants us to live.

My sister and I think of our FATHER more often than anyone could ever think of losing a loved one...more the less, a parent. His death did a number on our lives and it was so hard to explain the magnitude of all the events that occurred during his sickness until his death on December 4, 2016. When we thought all was well with finding some comfort after our FATHER'S passing, then all of a sudden, the unexpected came completely out of the blue. My sister and I found out some things about what really happened to our FATHER the last six months of his life. With the news my sister and I received would make any one's stomach turn, and I already have an stomach ulcer confirming this notion of any one's stomach turning upside down and inside out.

In the course of what happened to our FATHER and the events leading up to his death 5:00 am that early Sunday morning on December 4, there were still missing pieces of our puzzle that we couldn't complete. After a while after our FATHER'S death, each piece Sherri and I started receiving by people who wanted to share their thoughts and concerns with all the course of events that happened during the time our FATHER fell totally ill on June 22 while he was cooking on his unique handmade barbecue grill (A kitchen on wheel) on that day, until he suddenly passed away on December of 2016. Sherri and I try to put all the pieces of our puzzle together. Every piece fit snuggled by this one missing piece we both couldn't find. We looked every possible direction for resources of this missing piece and why our FATHER suddenly died.

That question remained totally anonymous by the one who had the answer the entire time Sherri and I searched with many different resources we could use to get the truth, so that my family and I could be at peace with my FATHER'S death. Here are the resources found leading up to my FATHER'S death that I got to share with everyone. With information that corresponds to the first piece of our puzzle that Sherri and I received. We began to investigate and to find some of the facts surrounding what was done to our FATHER during the course of his sickness. Starting from June 27th, the second piece of the puzzle was received when my family and I found out that my FATHER was admitted to Lakeland Regional Medical Health hospital five days after the fact and nobody in our extended family told us that he was in fact admitted to the hospital, being that my FATHER didn't live with us at the time to make it easier for people to understand this post.

We had thought that he went out of town as usual. My FATHER would always call the house and tell us when would plan and leave town to places like Biloxi, Mississippi to one of many casinos he visited, Las Vegas, Nevada, or on one of his many cruises to Cancun or Cozumel, Mexico, or the Grand Bahamas with people other than his own family. With that said briefly...let me get back to what I was talking about in this post. From the time my family and I found out that my FATHER was admitted into the hospital, I made plans to meet with the entire hospital staff, supervisors and managers who were caring for my FATHER during his course of stay there at the hospital. My family and I wanted to find out why he was admitted and what was going on with him.

The appointment was schedule for three days after my FATHER'S admission to LRMH. Then all of a sudden...I get this call from the hospital Administration telling me that they (the doctors, nurses and management) couldn't take a meeting with my immediate family and myself because of a Power of Attorney labeled and taken over my FATHER'S health by none other my ex aunt Minnie Lou Wright. This was over a my FATHER'S live immediate family. That was the third piece of the puzzle my sister and I received before it was too late for my immediate family and I to take charge of my FATHER's well being. The news from hospital administration upset every one's stomach in our home.


It made my mother Ruth totally angry with my now ex aunt. This was also the night my we visited my FATHER in the hospital. He looked as though he was suffering from his pain my family and I knew in fact that my FATHER had cirrhosis of the liver and he was at stage four level, nothing else...nor would we get any more information unless we asked my ex aunt about the details of my FATHER'S health. It was a shame and with the puke in our mouths that this woman (ex aunt) went over my own mother's head to take charge of my FATHER'S health so that we couldn't get any information of his health at anytime, unless we asked her about it. Then I found out from my brother's wife while we were in the room, saw some money clutched in my FATHER hand while he was laying in his hospital bed. Hours later...it was missing.

Then I thought, "I often wondered why didn't my sister-in-law get the money out of my FATHER'S hand and gave it to my mother?" That was a question that remained in my heart and in my mind as time went on. That was the fourth piece of the puzzle received when my sister-in-law told our family of the missing money that was clutched in my FATHER'S hand. There were so many people in his room that night. I got an idea of who stole that money that night and she (not the ex aunt who took Power of Attorney over my FATHER'S health) was sitting very close to my FATHER'S hospital bed.


That was as time went on from the first of many hospital visits my FATHER endured, he made a call to my brother was the time when he came home to his place of residence. My FATHER was very talkative and he seemed well at the time. My brother and his wife was there with him on my ex aunts permission to visit with our own FATHER at his home without her being there. My brother and his wife had asked about what was our FATHER'S plans just in case he passed away for his immediate family. Our FATHER would never answer my brother, or his wife at all about his final plans for his immediate family.


The fourth piece of the puzzle was not difficult to fathom. My FATHER mind had been taken over by his sisters in question. Nothing that my sister, brother, my sister-in-law, or what my mother said, made a difference to my FATHER anymore, as so it seemed. Only to his nieces and nephews of whom paid him a visit mattered to him under a lot of circumstances. At the time...my FATHER'S silence was pretty much okay with his immediate family. Then all of a sudden...we started getting notion that my FATHER'S sisters started taking over everything, including his health and finances.


Everyone in my extended family's inner circle, started backing out of the grasps of the Power of Attorney, except my two ex aunts. And from that particular moment...all hell continued to break lose. Monies started disappearing from my FATHER'S accounts. More like scheming for that last six months of his life. Twenty-three hundred dollars just don't disappear just like that. Bills got paid I know, but where did the rest go?


The fifth piece of the puzzle was obvious. Now we know enough to convict the culprit who stole from my FATHER financially. Family and I now want nothing to do with her as well. Thanks to the two people we have in the world who gave my immediate family and I the information we needed to know and understand that there are people who say they love you and then turn around a put a huge dagger in all of our backs. No more we have to offer in love to these two women who caused us so much pain.

Once Upon Time

Book 88

First of all...I would like to thank GOD and his son JESUS for life health and strength. I thank my pilots above for giving me the knowledge and wisdom to write this post without animosity and without haste for anyone, not even my enemies. "I keep them very close to me, even if they are within distance. So...with that said, I don't want to go there with my enemies, because GOD and his son JESUS helped me find peace and comfort, even in my darkest days. Once upon a time I was filled with anger; now I know how to control my frustrations with prayer, with joy, and with faith, hope and with peace.

I know for sure that it's going to take a very long time for immediate family and myself to heal from the death of my father. But...I know in time my we will over come the pain that still dwells in our heart, mind, body and soul. No one in my immediate family expected everything to happen like it did, but...it did and there is nothing and no one can change the past. My immediate family and I now have the wisdom to move from very old things that could hinder our way of thinking and our way of life. Only pray can change anything if we all ask in the name of GOD and his son JESUS.

I've done that and then some. I know that GOD and his son JESUS vengeance is theirs. I want ever tough it again if I could help the consciences and the repercussion that my enemies must face in the eyes of GOD and his son JESUS. My troubles and my trials and tribulations are now over the horizon where it belongs. I don't need to feel anger in my heart, or haste against any one. Just the hurt that remains. My immediate family's deep scars will never heal all the way.

People would tell me that life would get better as time passes from the hurt that was sustained from ignorance. Once upon a time, I'm very thankful I didn't cause that ignorance. Once upon a time, I used my trials and tribulations and turned them into a learning lesson of what not to do when I know GOD and his son JESUS got it. No more worries here, but my enemies need to worry about how they are going to live in my Pilots vengeance.

Thoughts Of My Chocolate Diary

Book 87

Isaiah 11:2 - 2. And the spirit of the LORD shall rest upon him, the spirit of wisdom and understanding, the spirit of counsel and might, the spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the LORD





I've been slacking lately with my manuscript, "The Chocolate Diaries." Why? Because I haven't had the time to lay out the foundation for what I want to talk about in terms for my second chapter, I call, Chocolate Two. It's my live diary on display, and I'm not sure what I want to talk about in sequel to Chocolate One. It seems the words want come out for some reason.

I know in my mind, my heart and soul, the words want come out to save my life. My goal for a successful book was to pray about it before I start writing. I haven't obeyed GOD and his son JESUS to pray about what I want to write about so that I will have the ability to breeze through my writing with every piece of chocolate unknown to me and the rest of the world. As Forrest Gump said, "Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're going to get." And it's true!

This is why I'm going to obey GOD and his son JESUS and pray about what I'm going to write before I write from now on, like how its working for me thus moment. I really find myself breezing through my post here on Author Terri Celestine Brunson with fierce notion of what I'm trying to say in reference to my draft manuscript. I guess my blog is the easiest place to express how I feel about things in my life. Coping with what was once was and is now. Here, I'm able to breeze through to my public play ground in order to express my feelings certain things.

It's totally different with 'The Chocolate Diaries' of course. It will some day be published for the world to see; hopefully taken into the heart by those who are interested in reading it when that time comes, and taken into consideration by those who are truly interested when I'm chronicling my life as I live it publicly. As for my blog site, Author Terri Celestine Brunson, its totally easy for me to find out what I want to talk about. When I write, I truly want to be understood by the sight of what is written here and for those to take heed into what I'm talking about when I express my thoughts and concerns and asking questions in between those thoughts and concerns. I think I summed it up here praying that everyone understood what I'm trying to say.

GOD and your son JESUS, I pray for the knowledge you gave me to think and to take into heart the most precious moments in my life. It's truly a blessing to be able to tell my story even in a nutshell. Finding my way out of that shell, I find success at the peak of what is my chocolate of life. I'm praying for that patience to meet it when 'The Chocolate Diaries' is published. In the name of my pilots above.

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Book 87 - Special Edition Post

Psalms 118:24 -  24. This is the day which the LORD hat made; we will rejoice and be glad in it. 





It was one of my days that I didn't feel all that well with my health. I didn't let it get me down from writing this post. I was determined to get what I needed to say off of my chest. Nothing negative, or dramatic, because that don't work here on Author Terri Celestine Brunson. Only the truth will prevail it's wonderful face according to my post.

I took Zachary to his first football practice for this season 2018. I had decided to take Zachary on what was our usual Subway day for a late lunch. I ordered our usual subs for dining in, since Zachary and I had enough time to sit and eat our subs. Then all of a sudden, my uncle Carl come into the Subway to buy a lunch. I didn't know he worked at an major insurance company as an executive just around the corner from the Circle K convenient store.

As ordered his lunch, I got up to greet him and have a conversation with him, since he is my uncle. Our conversations were very pleasant. I didn't have time for animosity, nothing of the sort, because he did nothing wrong towards my immediate family and myself. As a matter of fact, my uncle and his wife, my aunt Tammy was totally supportive of my immediate family since day one during my father's illness back in 2016 until he died on December 4.  Uncle Carl then asked if my immediate family and I were okay.

I was very happy he asked about us and was very concerned about how my immediate family and I were.  I was very happy to update my uncle with a positive outcome about my immediate family's well being and health. I assured my uncle Carl that everything was quite well. I also assured my uncle that everything was quite okay with me after dealing with the death of my father. I told him that I had came to terms with my father's death and that I let old rubbish and my bad patches go (giving all of my trials and tribulations to GOD and his son JESUS) in their vengeance against those who did wrong towards my immediate family and to my father in his last days.

I didn't want to dawn on anything from the past, because my father is gone and I can't bring him back to life. So...I told my uncle that my immediate family and I had moved on with life and living it to the fullest. It wasn't long before my uncle Carl had to be back to work. So we departed our ways to our destinations. I told uncle Carl to relay a message to my aunt Tammy, my cousin Tammika, and Caturah that I loved them.

We both went our separate ways from there. I can say that my visit with my uncle Carl was a pleasant one. It was totally a breath of fresh air I wanted to breathe, and I thank GOD and his son JESUS for that. I don't want to go back in time when I could have those precious moments as I did with my uncle Carl, because it meant a great deal to me. Amen!