Thoughts Of A Gentle Woman

 Book 201

1 Peter 3:9 - 9. Not rendering evil for evil, or railing for railing; but contrariwise blessing; knowing that ye are thereunto called, that ye should inherit a blessing.

Sherri went down to our M O T H E R S grave to check on things, and to see if anything was disturbed on the grave. So far so good, nothing was disturbed on the grave. Everything was intacted! I was truly glad of that. I wish that my sister would of let me know when she was going to our M O T H E R S grave. I would of liked to visit too. But...her visit put me into thought about the solar light that she ordered for our M O T H E R. Maybe that's why Sherri went out there, because personally, you couldn't get Sherri to go out to our M O T H E R S grave for anything, because of her thinking about her all the time without a break.

Lorenzo told me that Sherri took it rough out there while on their visit to M O T H E R S grave. As much as I think of the memories we shared with my M O T H E R, I don't think it would get any easier for us when it comes to the grieving process. Then, I think about Sherri and what she must be going through living so close to graveyard, and knowing that our M O T H E R is buried out there. She want her husband Lorenzo to move her away from being near the graveyard, even though she's almost quarter of a mile away from it. Sherri told me once that she would never be straight from our M O T H E R dying like she did with no one around her because of the pandemic back in 2020. 

I guess being as close as she is to the graveyard, I can truly understand why she feel the way she do about living so close. It has been hard on all of us as a very small version of our immediate family. Sherri, Wesley Jr. and I are all we have from our immediate family. I still wished that Sherri would of told me that she was visiting our M O T H E R. I wanted to go as long as someone was near, because I still can't go out into the graveyard on my own right now. I am so glad that everything was intact. Nothing was disturbed on my M O T H E R S grave and I am happy about that. 

Thinking About M O T H E R S Day Blues

 Book 199

John 16:22 - 22. And ye now therefore have sorrow; but I will see you again, and your heart shall rejoice, and your joy no man taketh from you

 

It is still fresh in our hearts, our M O T H E R S death. Grief has no season according to our reality when it comes to our M O T H E R. Sherri, Wesley Jr. and I long for our M O T H E R each day of our lives, never letting go of her is a hard thing to do right at this very moment I...myself...think of her without a break. I remember when I spoke to my brother just a few days ago. His whole conversation was about our M O T H E R. He said, "She just came across my mind all of a sudden, and it hit me very heart to the point I started crying." I never thought till this day I would hear my brother cry, being the man that he is. Our M O T H E R S death broke him down to a breaking point, missing her was totally a precious moment in all of our lives. 

My brother did not want to tell our Sherri about his break down being that she was epileptic. Our conversations was between Wesley and I. We were having a M O T H E R S day blues just shy of M O T H E R S Day. None of us could go out to our M O T H E R S grave, because it was too painful for us to visit her, knowing that she was no longer with us in our hearts, but in spirit. Sherri, Wesley Jr. and I pray about it from time to time, and maybe our grief will come a little bit more easy for us to bare. Like I always say, "Grief doesn't have a time limit" and I felt this hurt will always be with us the rest of our lives. 

We know that we are not the only ones experiencing a death in the family. But...prayer changes everything in its place. Sherri, Wesley Jr. and I will manage our grief one day at a time. 

Memories And A GODSEND To Our Family

 Book 195

John 8:42 - 42. JESUS said unto them, if GOD were your father, ye would love me; for I proceeded forth and came from GOD; neither came I of myself, but he sent me. 

My family and I find ourselves thinking of our parents a lot more than we want to. The reason why I said it the way I did, is because it's been hard on all of us in a sense of grieving. Our parents are still fresh in our minds, no matter what. What it is to do with these memories? That's hard to answer right now as I post. 

Our M O T H E R is the hardest one to forget, because she was such a beautiful and sweet woman. She always gave all of us her signature smile, no matter what she's been through in her life. That smile shines brighter than a LED light. My brother seems to have it the hardest, because I believe when he watch our M O T H E R get buried, he never got over see it happen. I wished he wouldn't have saw that happen. He is experiencing a hard time right now as I post. 

My twin sister on the other hand; she don't want me to mention our M O T H E R until she does, because...she seems to have days where she is thinking of our M O T H E R constantly without a break. She get headaches every time our M O T H E R is mentioned, and that can cause her to have seizures at any moment. Sherri wants to be the one that mentions our M O T H E R when she feels the notion to do so. I have my days when I just start crying when I have a memory of my M O T H E R out of the blue come upon me. It's so hard on me some times I cry out of control. 

I have problems with my blood pressure shooting up every time I have an episode. I also find that my niece and nephews have that time in their lives where my M O T H E R (their grandmother) come across their minds. They cry out of control! Even the littlest of people in my family have their days too. No matter how young a person is, my M O T H E R had a greater affect on them. 

She left her mark with us, and it would be with us for the rest of our natural lives. Sherri and I would work in our vegetable and herb garden, and all we think about is our parents. We talk to them when we go out and work in our garden, our F A T H E R mostly, because he is part of the reason why we can grow a lot of things. Our F A T H E R farmed in his days, and he did quite well with it. "It was his passion, as it is for us." 

Sherri and I talk mostly to him when we are gardening. Our sister in law Neyome, she helps keep all of sane. She is a total GODSEND by GOD and his son JESUS Christ. Neyome is a beautiful soul indeed. Our family in Canada my M O T H E R also had quite an affect on them when she traveled there during the winter season. 

Parents have an amazing affect on everyone lives when they are no longer a part of the equation. If anyone has experienced otherwise, you would know especially how we feel as a family. 

An Author's Successful Journey

 Book 184

Joshua 1:8 - 8. This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according g to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt .and thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have success. 

What good webs I weave into existence. My son Zachary and I lives are about to change forever, certainly with GOD and his son JESUS ahead of all the things Zachary and I are about to do. It is a big deal for me, because I have never experienced anything like having a movie adapted from my first book, "The Minorities, The Pilot". The right of course; from my book will be asked in permission to script my book at its entirety. I for one will be giving that permission to the production companies that are interested in my work. 

There are two production companies: Chad Conley Productions and Kaoticklone Productions. I am beyond excited and totally blessed to have those production company's interest in my work. I know that I am patient in waiting for both production companies to ask for the rights of my book, so that " The Minorities, Pilot can be produced. I know in fact that my F A T H E R and M O T H E R would be happy if they could see my potential success, but...in memory of my parents, I know that they are proud of me. 🕊 My GOD and his son JESUS...may they rest in peace. 🕊

GOD and his JESUS has blessed me so much in my life. I should have saw all the blessings that my pilots have dwelled throughout the extent of my life. I am no longer blind to see what GOD and his son JESUS has been giving me. The gift of writing has led me into a world I never thought existed. It's no longer a fantasy to me. 

This is for real! A movie adaptation is not just fun and game. It's coming to my presence and its journey into the future. Hallelujah... praise GOD and his son JESUS for giving me the opportunity to shine like the mirror I can look into completely without a smudge or streak. Hallelujah...praise GOD for giving me this chance for an opportunity of a lifetime. My F A T H E R and M O T H E R would have been totally proud to see me make a difference, not only for myself, but...for my son Zachary as well.

Giving Success To GOD And His Son JESUS Almighty

 Book 182 - Special Edition Video

Hebrews 10:36 - 36. For ye have need of patience, that after ye have done the will of GOD, ye might receive the promise. 

Genesis 39:2-3 - 2. And the LORD was with joseph, and he was a prosperous man; and he was in the house of his master the Egyptian. 3. And his master saw that the LORD was with him, and that the LORD made all that he did to prosper in his hand. 

I did an interview with my sister-in-law Neyome live, so that I could get people to donate to my Go Fund Me site. So far, no people donated to my Go Fund Me site! What I am going to do is put my Go Fund Me site in the hands of GOD and his son JESUS. They know all about what I have to do to get my screenplay in to production with the producers of Chad Conley Productions. This is what my post is all about, trying to get people to donate to my Go Fund Me site.

I am not going to worry no more about it! I am going to leave my fundraiser in the hands of my pilots. That is all I could do to get people in general to pay attention. GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time no matter what the cause, or situation is. I know in my heart I am going to raise the $4,000 dollars needed for one half of the screenplay and my screenwriter will take care of the rest. Brett Johnson (screenwriter) has given me two months to come up with the funds so that he could start my campaign. 

I am asking that everyone here who views my post will give towards my Go Fund Me site. I am praying for that to happen, because I am dedicating the cause to my parents: Ruth Ann Thomas Brunson (M O T H E R) and my (F A T H E R) Wesley Brunson Sr. I very much want to make them proud of my accomplishment. By GOD and his son JESUS almighty, let it be real; let me be able to raise the $4,000 dollars needed to cover half the cost of my screenplay. I am going to continue to leave my fundraiser in the hands of my pilots.

Riding The Successful Storm

 Book 181

Joshua 1:8 - 8. This book of law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt mediate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success. 

Matthew 6:33 - But seek ye first the kingdom of GOD, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. 

Proverbs 3:9-10 - 9. Honor the LORD with thy substance, and with the firstfruits of all thine increase. 10. So shall thy barns be filled with plenty and thy presses shall burst out with new wine. 

Philippians 4:19 - 19. But my GOD shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus. 

I just miss the ole girl so much, I can't began to fathom my life with out my M O T H E R. It's still hard for me to bare the though that I am never going to see my M O T H E R again. I am still grieving for her in my own way. It is not a day I don't think of her. All I could do is to pray for comfort to ease the pain I feel about losing my M O T H E R. 

This was why I will dedicate my road to success to my M O T H E R and to my F A T H E R. I just found out that my book, "The Minorities, The Pilot" is going to be scripted into a movie. That is the greatest accomplishment that I have ever received. Just like my M O T H E R, I am riding the storm to success. Yes, I got Hollywood producer eager and ready to turn my book into a movie. 

But, the only thing that I need to accomplish is getting the screenplay to the producers of Chad Conley Productions. Screenplays aren't cheep! I am looking to pay thousands of dollars to provide the screenplay to producers. That's money that I don't have on me; not even my account. I decided to do a fundraiser in order to raise at least $9000.00 to cover the cost of the screenplay.

I know that I can't let this opportunity get away from me, because it is a chance of a lifetime deal. I would like to provide for my son Zachary everything that I never had so that he can have a better life. That is my goal to do so, even if I need to use my car as collateral to cover the cost of the screenplay. Using my car as collateral is risky, but...when it comes to Zachary, I am willing to do what I need to see that he have a better life. I am riding the storm for Zachary. 

I can't pass up a chance of lifetime to live a better life. I guess I am like most people who have the opportunity to live a successful life, and I don't blame them not one bit. This is my goal for Zachary and I am not to pass this opportunity of being famous up. 

Memories

 Book 177

 

Philippians 1: 3 – 5 – 3. I thank my GOD upon every remembrance of you. 4. Always in every prayer of mine for you all making request with joy. 5. For your fellowship in the gospel from the first day until now. 

As I look outside my nieces apartment, I see a lot of rain pouring down fiercely without an end in sight. My joints ache from the coldness of the weather along with a touch of arthritis. I see myself not moving an inch out into this kind of weather due to my condition. I hear that it is a storm brewing out in the Gulf of Mexico. Its name is Eta. 

I better get set for the storm. I am going out later on today to buy some supplies just in case the storm hit again here in Florida. I know that the Florida Keys had been affected by the storm and I just want to prepare just in case it makes a direct turn and it hits Florida again. I am sitting here thinking while I am thinking of about the storm Eta; I thinking about my M O T H E R S grave and the flowers that are still intact. Maybe, I should go out and remove those flowers, so that they don't fly away just in case the storm hit Florida again. 

It is a lot to think about during this day; my M O T H E R S grave and her flowers affected by this "Greek" letter storm. I guess I find my M O T H E R grave accessories very important, because they were apart of her and her burial. I don't want them to fly about during a potential storm if it hits here in Florida again. It may sound odd to everyone who reads this post, but...my M O T H E R S earthly grave possessions mean everything to me, because...they were a part of her and her burial and I want to protect them in any way I can. 

I also find myself in deep thought of her, even with a dry face. No tears in sight! I can't help but miss her with every ounce of my heart. M O T H E R will be missed terribly, even throughout the upcoming holiday seasons. I truly believe Christmas will be the toughest on my family. I remember a time when my M O T H E R use to sit on the couch and watch Sherri and I cook up our Christmas dinner and her always sampling our cooking. My family and I will miss that with our Queen, my M O T H E R, because it will never be the same, ever.

The one thing I will always miss about my M O T H E R is that she would always have her Christmas shopping done way ahead of time before everyone else get their Christmas shopping started. She was very punctual about her time and the way she did things. I admired that from my M O T H E R! I will most definitely miss that about her majorly. Thanksgiving is coming up. There is a lot of things to do and prepare for and I know that it would be a holiday that I will cherish in memory of my M O T H E R S cornbread dressing that she use to make so good.

The cornbread would be just right according to my M O T H E R S hand in making the best dressing ever. She would always cut up the chicken gizzards very fine and with all the seasons she used they were just right to perfection. M O T H E R S giblet gravy; it was phenomenal! I don't think anyone can make an extraordinary gravy like my M O T H E R did. She would be also greatly missed during the Thanksgiving holiday along with her famous cornbread dressing and I forgot her fruit salad he use to make. 

Those sweet touches my M O T H E R she use to put towards what she made according to food; I don't think I will ever know how to make cornbread dressing just like her, or her fruit salad. She took that with her to her grave and I know I will never retrieve those great recipes ever again. I know that I will have to do my best to make a good cornbread dressing or a fruit salad. My M O T H E R S genious in her cooking will never faulter in my mind, because...they will always be my greatest memories of her. GOD and his son JESUS help me to cope with the fact that my M O T H E R S death and just cherish the memories I have of her, because...it is all I have of her in an instant. 

 from her ever again. 

Just Reminiscing Life

 Book 176

Genesis 19:17 - 17. And it came to pass, when they had brought them forth abroad, that he said, Escape for they life; look not behind thee, neither stay thou in all the plain; escape to the mountain lest thou be consumed. 

Genesis 45:5 - 5. Now therefore be not grieved, nor angry with yourselves, that ye sold me hither; for GOD did send me before you to preserve life. 

Maybe I should stop talking about my M O T H E R for a while, because I like to keep a non grieving head on my shoulders. Don't get me wrong, but...everyone has a right to grieve for their loved ones. It is just I get so tired of crying my eyes out each and everyday. Yes, I do miss my M O T H E R very much; just as much as I miss my F A T H E R. I am trying to find something else to talk about here on this blog of mines.

Let's see...what to say? Perhaps, let me talk about why I am still up so late in the wee hours of the morning? I answer is obvious! My insomnia is acting up! Most of the times I cannot sleep, especially with the anxiety attacks I have to the point I awake out of my sleep and I cannot breathe sometimes. 

I have to take deep breathes to regain consciousness; and I find myself blessed to have received my consciousness required by GOD and his son JESUS. Thank GOD and his son JESUS I took my meds. Sometimes I miss taking my meds and I find myself not thinking about the importance in taking my meds. GOD and his son JESUS show me that I need to take better care of myself and balance my diabetes, so that my A1C's can resume a 6 or 7 on the charts and those are the best readings. Sometimes I do think of my M O T H E R and how she kept herself up with her diabetes and other underline issues she had just before she had her stroke unto her death. 

I am so thankful to GOD and his son JESUS for giving me that chance to live, but...I need to take better care of myself, so that I don't end killing myself. GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time. I am going to work on myself and get better with my diabetes. I think I am going to make this post short and I think I will get ready and prepare myself for bed, because...I am a bit tired and sleepy. I had to talk about myself and not so much about my M O T H E R and F A T H E R, even though I miss them very much.

The Pain Seems To Never Go Away

 Book 171

Revelation 21:4 - 4. And GOD shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.

I don't think I will never get over the death of my M O T H E R as well as my F A T H E R. It is too hard to bare to even think about giving them up. I know in my heart that my pain will get better as the years go by without an ounce of forgetting that they were my parents. It is so hard on me when I heard that my M O T H E R had passed away for 45 minutes on that day of August 8. She was revived, because...the doctors and nursed did not have our permission not to revive her. I had wished that the doctor's and nurse's at that particular moment would of let my M O T H E R go so that she would not have any pain from her body hurting, or going through dialysis, no more sorrow, or crying again.

My sister Sherri, brother Wesley, and I needed to give that permission not to resuscitate our M O T H E R. That was the hardest thing that we ever had to do is to give that order. Sherri, Wesley, and I did not want our M O T H E R to suffer anymore than she had to. The order was given by my self to not resuscitate our M O T H E R, because...we as our own family unit did not want our M O T H E R to suffer. That was the reason when I went to the hospital that day on the 8th of August to make that decision to sign what took me ten minutes or more to sign those papers to remove the ventilator, the medicines that my M O T H E R  was hooked up to, and the compressors around her legs and arms. 

I did not want to stay and watch that after I signed the papers. I had the nurses assistant to remove me from the ICU (Intensive Care Unit) before they removed everything away from my M O T H E R, because...it would of been too painful to watch. I was on a journey with my sadness. I was wheeled in a wheelchair, because...I could not walk up to see my M O T H E R in ICU. I was wheeled all the way to my car and helped into it. My niece Ta'Neisha did the driving for me, because...I was not able to drive not even a little bit due to my grief. 

After the drive...I was met with Sherri, her husband Lorenzo, Wesley and his wife Neyome that day so that we all could wait for that phone call in grief about my M O T H E R S passing and to ask us what funeral home we wanted to place my M O T H E R in. That was so hard to do; it was hard on all of us to wait around for my M O T H E R S passing during the awful pandemic COVID 19 virus. It took only an hour after I came from seeing my M O T H E R in the hospital for the call to come through about her passing. My entire immediate family cried without the reluctance of shedding tears. Those tears were ever so real in our hearts for our M O T H E R. 

I would never forget that day of my family's grief. I was totally hard not grieve for the "Queen" who has given us so much love, so much comfort as my F A T H E R did as well. The pain will never go away from us no matter what we do or say. It will be hard to do even if Sherri, Wesley, and I and the rest of the family. I was only the start of a very long process for years to come. 

Memories of a M O T H E R

 Book 170

Copyright © 2020 By Author:Terri Celestine Brunson. All Rights Reserved

Synopsis:  This post is totally personal to me. I felt I had to write and tell everyone how I feel when it comes to losing my M O T H E R. It is about love, grief, and pain. I pray I can someday be eased of the pain I feel and move on with my life. 

Ephesians 6:1 - 24 - 1. Children, obey your parents in the LORD for this is right. 2. Honor they father and mother which is the first commandment with promise. 3. That it may be well with thee, and thou mayest live long on the earth. 4. And, ye fathers, provoke not your children to wrath: but bring them up in the nurture and admonition of the LORD. 5. Servants, be obedient to them that are your masters according to the flesh, with fear trembling in the singleness of your heart , as unto Christ. 6. Not with eyeserivice, as menpleasers; but as the servants of Christ doing the will of GOD from the heart. 7. With good will doing service, as to the LORD and not to men. 8. Knowing that whatsoever good thing any man doeth, the same shall he receive of the LORD whether he be bond or free. 9. And ye masters, do the same things unto them, forbearing threatening: knowing that your master also is in Heaven; neither is there respect of persons with him. 10. Finally, my brethren, be strong in the LORD and in the power of his might. 11. Put on the whole armour of GOD, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. 12. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. 13. Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of GOD, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. 14. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the brestplate of righteousness; 15. And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace: 16. Above all, taking the shield of fatih, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. 17. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword the spirit which is the word of GOD. 18. Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the spirit and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints; 19. And for me, that utterance may be given unto me, that I may open my mouth boldly, to make know the mystery of the gospel. 20. For which I am an ambassador in bonds: that therein I may speak boldly as I ought to speak. 21. But that ye also may know my affairs, and how I do, Tychicus a beloved brother and faithful minster in the LORD, shall make know to you all things. 22. Whom I have sent unto you for the same purpose, that ye might know our affairs, and that he might comfort your hearts. 23. Peace be to the brethren and love with faith from GOD the Father and the LORD Jesus Christ. 24. Grace be with all them that love our LORD JESUS Christ in sincerity. Amen (To the Ephesians written from Rome, by Tychicus) 

No one could never replace my M O T H E R. My feelings are mutual when it comes to her. It was hard to see her without life in her body, but... to know that her soul is in Heaven, I know it! My M O T H E R was a "Legion of Love" and she was loved by everyone, known or unknown. She carried that sweet heart and sweet spirit everywhere she went.

When my M O T H E R went to glory on August 8, 2020, part of me went with her. It is hard to imagine life without my "Queen" but...with the help of GOD and his son JESUS, she helped guide me on the right path of righteousness. I acknowledge that very much to everyone who reads this post. My M O T H E R did so much for me, I can never repay her for what she has done for me in my lifetime. I miss times when me, my twin sister Sherri and I went to her favorite store "Ross." She would go into that store and get buried in the clothes in a heartbeat, while searching for that one dress to add to her collection of many dresses she had in her closet. 

Two hours she is in the store, while Sherri and I try to pull her out of the clothes. That was hard to do of course! But...Sherri and I let our M O T H E R shop as long as wanted to satisfy her needs to find a dress, or several dresses she wanted for church. My M O T H E R always shopped for a dress for church and other occasions that she was considering taking part of. She loved to shop that is all I got to say for a woman who dressed to perfection. 

I miss the times whenever Sherri, her husband Lorenzo, my son Zachary, and I would take a stroll in Lorenzo's SUV and we would go to Walmart, or to the Wawa, the fish market to buy fresh fish, or just riding around until the sunset over the horizon, my M O T H E R would always be in tow, no matter what. She was never left home...never! My M O T H E R was never lonely; never wanting to be alone. She basically rode all over the globe, especially when it came to traveling regional and international. My M O T H E R was ready and willing to travel with her suitcases already packed. I will miss that time with my M O T H E R the most. 

She loved hanging out with her classmates; since, she was on the executive board with planning Social gatherings: Banquets, Christmas Party's, Breakfasts celebration at the Recreation Center, or just getting  together with her classmates communicating about things that they loved and cherish. Either me, or Sherri would take our M O T H E R to these events. We never mind it at all, because...that was our M O T H E R. My thought...whatever benefits her enjoyment, Sherri and I made sure she had the luxury of getting there and having a awesome time at each event. 

My M O T H E R never quit, no matter how she felt being on dialysis, having diabetes, or feeling a little faint, that 70 year old woman would always push herself to beat all odds no matter how she was really feeling. I admired her strength totally in my heart. There were days when I thought I would not make it, and my M O T H E R was kicking boldly the rocks at full speed. I found myself honored and proud to have had "Mrs. Ruth Ann Thomas-Brunson" as my M O T H E R. My thoughts are totally clear when I carry this monologue I had about my M O T H E R. 

I can talk about her all day and stretching it out to the four winds of faith and peace when it came putting all my love I had for my M O T H E R, and still I still have that unconditional love for her in the grave. Everyone...love your M O T H E R unconditionally, because...once she gone, she is gone. You lose your whole word in a heartbeat. You cannot replace the "Queen" ever! She is the only one that bore you, nursed you, work almost 24 hours a day, sometimes without rest, gave love unconditionally. Everyone, love you M O T H E R while she is still on this earth, because...you will never get another M O T H E R in your lifetime. 

The Wisdom of the Mitchell and Brunson Family

Book 166 - Special Edition Post - A Real Family

Ephesians 2:8 - 9 - 8. For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves it is the gift of GOD. 

Hebrews 11:6 - 6. But without faith it is impossible to please him for he that cometh to GOD must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him. 

Mark 16:16 - 16. He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned. 

Romans 10:10 - 10. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. 

There were many things that the Brunson and Mitchell family's did not take for granted, and that was love, happiness, trust, belief, faith, and glory. There was nothing we would do for family. We hang out together no matter where we were on the globe. My family and I would always be together. There was something in our lives that was too painful to take. 

It was not my FATHER this time, It was my MOTHER is the light of our lives. She got stuck down by a stroke almost a month ago without notice. I was told by my twin sister Sherri around 11:30 that night when I was getting ready for bed that our MOTHER was sick and that she had to go to the nearest hospital for care. I raced over to my brother-in-law Lorenzo's mother house to see what was going on with my MOTHER. When I arrived, my MOTHER was being placed in back of an ambulance. 

She looked like nothing was wrong with her. She was talking and looking around while the paramedics were securing her in the back of the ambulance. Sherri and I were then told by one of the paramedics that our MOTHER will be taken to the nearest hospital for treatment, because...he believed at that moment that she was having a possible stroke. Sherri and I was in shock about what the paramedic had told us. Sherri had told me that day when our MOTHER told her that she was in pain behind her left eye and that her left eye was incredibly red like a blood vessel had ruptured throughout her eye.

She also said that our MOTHER had just had dinner that night.No one thought no more about that something silently was going on with our MOTHER. While my MOTHER was eating, she had dropped her fork on the floor and began to lay back on the sofa. Sherri notice our MOTHER laid back on the sofa unresponsive. She told me that she immediately call 911 emergency at that moment to come out to the house and that our MOTHER did not feel well at all at that moment. Then...I received the call to come over to Lorenzo's mother's house to check on my MOTHER. At that moment, I did not waste anytime getting my clothes and shoes from my night attire. 

And that was the timeline of what I saw when I arrived at Lorenzo mother's house to see my MOTHER in the back of the ambulance. Sherri and I stood there in the yard as we watched our mother leave in the ambulance to South Florida Baptist Hospital. It was the nearest hospital to take my MOTHER for treatment, even though...I did not like that hospital for its history for how they treated their patient and not getting certain things done to improve the quality of the hospital. So with that said, my MOTHER had to receive immediate care. My family and I had to remain outside of the hospital, because of the COVID19 virus. 

I was very worried about my mother, because...of the COVID19 virus. I prayed as she was inside of the hospital that she would not contract the virus. Thirty minutes into my MOTHERS hospital visit, a nurse came out to meet with me and Sherri about our MOTHERS condition. She had informed us that our MOTHER had a stroke and that she had to air lifted to a hospital in Tampa, Florida. Our MOTHER was air lifted to St. Joseph's Hospital. It was one of the best hospitals for patients who experience what my MOTHER experienced during her time of despair. 

Sherri and I were totally worried about our MOTHER, because...her situation was a matter of life and death when she was flown to St. Joseph's Hospital in Tampa. We were distraught about what was going to happen with our MOTHER. Tears beaded down our faces as I tried to drive to Tampa following the helicopter. Sherri had gotten a call to turn around and go home from a nurse South Florida Baptist Hospital, because...there was no need for us to go to St. Joseph's Hospital. We were going to sit outside of the hospital anyway, because...of the COVID19 virus. No one was allowed through the hospital entrance where the patients were, or in the lobby crowding around. 

Sherri and I started back home so that we could inform our family about our MOTHER serious condition. It took less than twenty minutes for us to reach home. As soon as Sherri and I walked in the door of Lorenzo's mother's home, we started praying for our MOTHERS recovery. Continuously distraught, Sherri and I parted ways. I told Sherri and Lorenzo that I would come back over as soon as the sun came up good and when I gotten myself cleaned up. 

Our family came together to pray for our MOTHERS recovery. Wesley had came around to the house later that day, so that we could comfort each other in our time of despair. Our MOTHER was totally important to us and we did not want anything to happen to her in the midst of her stroke and the situation that she was in as she was placed in the intensive care unit at St. Joseph's Hospital. Sherri, Lorenzo, Wesley, and I could only pray for our MOTHERS recovery from her stroke and that would come out from that catharsis state that she was in. All that we knew, we knew in our hearts that our MOTHER would recover and that it was going to take some time until she was able to become mobile again with her body and that she will be able to become verbal to tell us that she will be alright. 

Home Is A Luxury

Book 160

Romans 16:26 - 26. But now is made, and by the scriptures of the Prophets according to the commandment of the everlasting GOD, made known to all Nation's for the obedience of faith.



Links To Main Website For #COVID19



My blessings is full of joy as I post. Staying home is a luxury due to the #COVID19 virus that's hitting us hard worldwide. Lots of people complain about staying home and being couped up with hardly nothing to do. "Praying to GOD and his son JESUS is totally nice to do, when their giving you another life to live during this deadly #COVID19 virus." Giving your life to our pilots for sparing you from getting the #COVID19 is a all time luxury to have, and is truly a blessing to be thankful for.

I wish people in general will take that to heart, instead of thinking only about themselves, and not giving thanks for their lives, health and strength, and living beyond the #COVID19 virus without any thought of being fearful of the disease, if they trust in GOD and his son JESUS to surround themselves with their shield of protection. It's not hard to fathom why this virus spands worldwide, but...you got remember this, "When our pilots are mad of how evil this world has become to the point their vengeance is released with a vengeance to let us all know, their not kidding about the possibilities of one gaining repentance for all of our sins, and the evil we've done in and around this globe, and unto others that are totally unfounded." If we're told to stay home for many reasons, '#COVID19' is the ultimate reason why we are secluded to our homes, or we pay the ultimate price for being hard headed, and not obeying this lock down that has gone into effect worldwide. Don't complain about things we as a Nation, and worldwide cannot change, even if we all wanted to do so. We can't get another life (if we survive with a miracle) the #COVID19 once it hit our bodies.

A whole lot has to be considered in this case. Obedience is a must! If our Governor's, Senators, down to our President say, "Stay home for your protection, then do as your told without uttering a complain about your freedom to wander when you want to, because you may just end up paying that ultimate price of someone who are randomly in our midst, and out there coughing on you and everyone without covering their mouths." Think of the logics of this matter, and stay home, because it's a luxury to do so. May GOD add a blessing to our souls, for the edification of our hearts. This is what we all need to correct and change for our protection.

My Time, My Life On Standby

Book 159 - Special Edition Post -

     

Romans 8:18 - 18. For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.

I didn't know...I just found out, since I don't look at the news often, but...for the past three days, the State of Florida has been on a lock down, because of the #COVID19 virus pandemic. All of the counties have curfews to be inside their homes at a certain time; I don't know what time the curfew will go into effect, but...I know that it will be until further notice. "I knew this would happen!" Some where along the line, I knew this would happen. This will delay my trip to Jamaica for the up coming days ahead.

I know for sure, Alrick is going to be very upset. I can't help the fact that I can't make the trip to Jamaica. He told me not to delay my trip at no given time. With that said, I got to abide by what is official until the lock down is over. So again...with that said, my trip to Jamaica will have to wait until in April. I don't know where in April that I will be traveling; I know that I'm going to be on delay until then. I'm still waiting on my funding so I can travel to Jamaica, because...my heart aches and I really want to be with my future husband.

I need time with him! I can't stand to look at him through video on my phone no longer. I want to see Alrick face to face. I guess...I can say, things like this happen for a reason, and I don't know why. I know that so much has happened during the time Alrick and I were in a argument, I do know that things with us will get better as soon as I arrive in Jamaica.

I'm praying to GOD, and his son JESUS, that I will finally make my trip to Jamaica. I know that Alrick's anger will soon turn into joy when I arrive there, and we will find ourselves in the midst of our love making; and I know that nothing more will interfere with that. I know our love making will last a lifetime and that it will bring the next generation of our new family into reality. I know that I will always keep that close to my heart for as long as I live life with Alrick as his devoted wife. When this lock down is over, and I receive my money, I will find myself on a plane to Jamaica to be with my future husband, and we can start building our lives to the fullest.

So I say to Alrick, "I know that the time you've been waiting on me to come to Jamaica has been rough, prolonged, and impatient on you, but...I know in my heart when I tell you this, 'When time finally fulfill your needs as your wife, as your companion, as your lover, as your best friend, and as one." lapse, it's a reason for everything that is happening', but...when that time come for me, I will Please baby...be patient with me, because I know that you would like nothing more, than for me to be there side by side with you. GOD and his son JESUS does everything for a reason. I pray so hard that I will be there before our anniversary, which is on the 7th of April.

Your told me once to tell you everything you need to know about me, and what I'm doing and how I'm preparing myself for life with you. Please I beg you...please...please...be patient with me. "I love you more than my life right now!" I love you unconditionally.

Let's Be Honest About The Things We Should Be Honest About!

Book 158

2 Corinthians 4:2 - 2. But have renounced the hidden things of dishonesty, not walking in craftiness, nor handing the word of GOD deceitfully; but by manifestation of the truth commending ourselves to every man's conscience in the sight of GOD.

1 Timothy 2:2 - 2. For kings, and for all that are in authority that we may lead a quiet and peaceable life in all godliness and honesty. 

What more can I do about the situation I'm in with Alrick. He doesn't really understand what I'm trying to do to make his surprise more exciting. But...I told my twin sister Sherri to forget his surprise, and go with what I have with the money to Jamaica. $2,500 dollars to be exact! For me...I feel what I told my sister (to forget the surprise) will be a learning lesson for Alrick, to never doubt what I'm trying to do to make things better for us in Jamaica.

I know in my heart that he'll be upset with me, as he always have been, for a week; in and out of one argument to the next, and its about the money. How will I tell Alrick about the money I had in the bank for my trip to Jamaica? How will I tell him that I'm very short of the amount I said I had? How will I tell him that I had to use most of the money for things I had to do that were very important? I've kept this secret in far too long to let him know why my trip is prolonged.

When I told him about my sister and her husband Lorenzo had to cancel their trip to Las Vegas, Nevada, because of the "Corona Virus" that's lingering around the entire world, and that my son Zachary will not be home alone after all, he snapped on me in a heartbeat. We argued for at least an hour and a half about my sister and her husband's cancellation of their trip, and I don't why that was. I knew for sure that Alrick was going to ask me about their money, and the money I had in the bank. This was why I couldn't tell him about the money in the bank, because I'm very short of cash, and I need a little more to equal the amount I'm bringing to Jamaica (that my sister and her husband are going to give to me) instead of Alrick's surprise that I had in store for him. With all the arguments we had, is the reason I told my sister to cancel Alrick's surprise, and I didn't tell her why I cancelled the surprise.

Like I stated at the beginning of this post, "Cancellation of the surprise will be a learning lesson for Alrick" to never doubt me about anything I'm trying to do to make our lives better. That is the repercussions that one must endure for their attitude, spasms, and mayhem that was inflicted on me. But...most part, I deserve most of the problems that were inflicted on me for not telling Alrick about the money I had in the bank, and that it wasn't enough to really do anything, like taking care of the house the Alrick had reserved for us in Jamaica. I pray the house is still there in the name of JESUS! LORD I pray that it's still there 'reserved' for us to have for the entire month I will be in Jamaica.

I hope that Alrick will forgive me for everything I put him through. For the amount of love that he give me unconditionally, I really need to change my ways, as he stated to me in a conversation we had over a week ago, I believe. I guess I never had that kind of love before, not even with my son's father. I know now how important I am to Alrick. I admit to all the problems I cause Alrick for not disclosing the truth about the money I had in the bank.

I guess I felt...I was most afraid that I would lose my "sweet boy" who's all man for his age...over twenty plus years my senior. I guess I was to...testing myself to see how much this man love me. But still...I'm so afraid I will lose my sweet boy! I pray that he allow me to still come and be with him as his wife in Jamaica. I can only hope when he read this post if the offer still stand and that he will still love me, and be his wife. This is a learning lesson for me as well!

"Well...I had to express myself on 'electronic paper' to prove a point to my fiance, because I couldn't tell him to his face in fear that he would leave me." 

Love Doesn't Discriminate Ones Obligations To Love Unconditionally

Book 156 - Special Edition Post

Psalm 85:10 - 10. Mercy and truth are met together; righteousness and peace have kissed each other. 

When I think of all the laughing and talking about everything we could think of off the top of our heads, I remember the good times we had as soul mates so happy and in love. "Those were the good times Alrick and I shared." And then...I think of all the times we argued off the top of our lungs about everything we could think of off the top of our heads, "Those were our trials and tribulations that consumed us at the time of despair." But...we can still love unconditionally with all the strength we have in our bodies to survive it's raft, not only once, or twice, but...a dozen times to the point of losing count of all the times we laughed, talked and argued. This is all in a relationship!

Alrick and I have been through so much in our lives in such a brief time, it's hard to cross all the "T's" and dot all the "I's" through those rocky paths we struggled to walk through without cutting into our conscience. We both pray, we continue in communication about our rights and wrongs, only to see which one weight the most in our vocabulary. We live for our lives, we live for the future; we will still live for all the good times we will have, and all the bad times we must go through just to see how much we can still survive without wallowing in our grief. Alrick and I know there will be times that we will shed tears of sorrow after we've been through an argument, and we know there will be tears of joy when we live, laugh, and love every minute of every second we have a pleasant conversation. That's life above and beyond everything a couple "soul mates" must go through without being reluctant to the consequences and the repercussions it has on the relationship itself. 

Alrick and I are going to live a lifetime of those repercussions it will have on our relationship. We must continue to survive it's raft, and continue to move on towards the future. Alrick and I will love a lifetime, even though our child we will conceive through the unconditional love that we have for one another. Nothing could come in between that, but the LORD our GOD, if they chose to separate us in death. Only prayer and patience will keep us in a abundance of faith, trust, belief, grace, glory, blessings and love with the strength of our pilots above.

We cannot ask for more than that!

When We Lease Expect It

Book 149

Job 36:17 - 17. But thou hast fulfilled the judgment of the wicked; judgement and justice take hold on thee. 

I never thought that this could happen to us in a man fold, but...our family can't do nothing about it now. Our situation can't even be won in court, even if we took a fine tooth comb through the facts of the matter when our lease was terminated. If we were not on a lease (when it was time for it to be renewed) and we are living month to month, then at any time the landlord had can relinquish their home and property back from us. That's what the judge would say! Yes...our family has a little under three weeks to vacate the premises.

What a bad situation to be in! But...with GOD almighty and his son JESUS in charge of our situation; what turns out to be a no win situation, can be a wonderful situation turned around by GOD almighty and his son JESUS to provide for his children at no cost. My family and I have already started packing some of our stuff, but...a little at a time until we're finished packing up the house. In a way...I'm kind of glad that we're moving (I suggested this months prior to our eviction notice, that we needed to go ahead and give up the two acres and the home, because of what ever issues the landlord had with the land the home is sitting on) but its specifically wrong time of the year to be moving out of a home with no money to spare after we (the family) had already paid the rent. Thanksgiving haven't reached our equation as of yet as I speak.

I know that my family and I will be fine once we find another home to live in, even if we don't have the money to move. This is where faith come in for all of us! This we can fathom its mystery, but...with belief unconditionally. So with this said, none of us are worried about the money, or where we're going to live, because we all know that GOD and his son JESUS are in charge of our situation. GOD'S vengeance will play a role in the landlord's decision to not require a lease for my family and I to sign off on, instead of living from month to month (in which the landlord set it up for our lease to be terminated) but...with this said, my family and I will relinquish their home and land back to them without a fight. Our move could be where the grass is greener, if GOD and his son JESUS will have every thing to do with this situation. Trusting and giving our situation to our pilots is the key to good living...when we get there.

Those Who Are Acknowledged Of Their Great Works

Book 145

Philippians 4:13 - 13. I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. 

Hebrews 10:35 - 36 - 35. Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompence of reward. 36. For ye have need of patience, that after ye have done the will of GOD, ye might receive the promise.

                 13:6 - 6. So that we may boldly say, the LORD is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me. 

Psalms 27:3 - 3. Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident. 

For the ones who are acknowledged, I pray for each and everyday. I also pray that their lives are as bountiful and more prominent as they continue to strive with their achievements. My son Zachary doesn't get that kind of luxury in acknowledgement from either of his coaches on his football team the Lakeland Eagles. I'm trying not to envy those who are more popular within a twinkle of  the eyes of each coach. Sometimes I think that maybe my son isn't equip as much for his team to make a difference in what he know and don't know, or maybe he does know a little all in the same, but...my son's calling hasn't made his big debut as of yet.

I'm not going to say his Autism is the cause, because its like a joke to me. But...what I'm going to say is that Zachary need to have the determination to know what he's doing at all times; then I say...just maybe he doesn't know what he's doing half of the time. That bother's me to a point that I'm wondering if he's going to make it in his life without me pushing him to succeed in what his goals may be to him. But...with prayer to GOD almighty, Zachary will succeed in anything he sets his mind to. I just know he will!

As Zachary's mother...I understand the kind of obstacles he is faced with each and everyday. I just want my son to succeed in where his potential goals made lead him. And then...just maybe, he'll get the acknowledgement he very well deserve as a teen with Autism. Zachary need to be given that chance to prove to himself and to his coaches of the Lakeland Eagles that he can be as one of the boys on his team that can tackle, guard, be a running back, and make a touchdown to the point that he can stand out more and be noticed as a key player on his team. I for one long until I see the day Zachary make an important play just enough that his coaches can say, "You did awesome out there on the field, keep it up!" That would certainly make my day like he did thus past Saturday on September 21, 2019.

Running thirty-one yards down the field with nineteen yards to go for a touchdown did make my day. I'm very proud of Zachary for having that small chance...at least to make a difference. He needs more!

Our Lives In Purgatory

Book 144

2 Corinthians 5:10 - 10. For we must all appear before the judement seat of Christ; that everyone may receive the things done in his body, according to that he hath done, whether it be good or bad.

Matthew 5:26 - 26. Verily I say unto thee, thous shalt by no means come out thence, till thou hast paid the uttermost farthing.

Revelation 20:12 - 12. And I saw the dead, samll and great, stand before GOD; and the books were opened: and another book was opened, which is the book of life; and the dead was judged out of those things which were written in the books, according to their works. 

When it's prudent to handle all of our troubles with such good judgment of those who have hurt us the most in our lives; I put so much wisdom in my heart to leave my troubles where they may lie and plan for the future to come...if so...in the name of JESUS to spare all of our lives. It's totally common sense to lay aside what was once was in our past, and let GOD and his son JESUS to fight "all" our battles with a vengeance. I had that chance to let go of my past, and live for what GOD and his son JESUS has in store for me. In order to get it right with my pilots, I have to have a certain purpose in my life in order for me to walk that narrow path towards righteousness. That's my resolution, to find that purpose in which it gives me divine glory to live each day without any flaws, even though...that would also be a challenge to work towards making things right in my life...with my pilots help.

A hard and demanding life to look forward to; and there is so much temptation out there just waiting to curve me back into damnation. I don't want to ever go that route again, and that's if I can help it! With this said, I had to give an example of an experience I had on the morning of September 11...the day....eighteen years later, after the towers of the World Trade Center, the Pentagon, and Shanksville, Pennsylvania fell to a terrorist attack. I was to be at a doctors appointment at 9:45 am, and I decided to go and get some breakfast from a fast food restaurant known as Krystal's. There...I was faced with a situation I was not expecting from a employee of this fast food chain.

I went in and ordered my usual breakfast: A sausage, egg, and cheese scrambler, orange juice and coffee. I proceeded to present my order to this employee....a woman with sort of a husky type build, tall, with short blue bobbed hair. At that particular moment...I was blinded by knowledge of this woman's actions, as she ignored my order as I gave it to her. I looked at her with a surprised look for the way she treated me and I said, "What did I do to deserve this...like I wasn't there, as she proceeded to the next register, and to converse with her friends briefly like I was totally invisible, like I didn't give her my order." She didn't even key in my order. It took a young woman (in the drive-thru) with respect for the customer to take my full order.

After my order was taken, I waited a little under five minutes for receive my order from this woman. She then...proceeded to fill my order. I decided to stay inside the restaurant to have my breakfast...until I found a problem with my scrambler. My breakfast bowl was half full; my scrambler only had the sausage and grits, but no eggs. So I carried my it back up to complain!

And in a sarcastic way, this woman asked me, "What's wrong?" I told her, "My scrambler looked half full, and I didn't have any eggs." She told me,"There is eggs in your scrambler." I went back to my table to check to see if I had any eggs in my scrambler, since she told me the eggs was in the bottom of the bowl, instead of the grits being at the bottom...the correct way.

I checked my scrambler with my spoon. I saw that there were no eggs present! I took my scrambler back to the counter to complain again. This woman asked, "What's wrong now in a sarcastic way?" I told her in a respectful way, "There were no eggs in my scrambler!" 

She looked at me in a way that will kill over if I were a opossum fiercely runned over with a car in the road. It took another respectful woman to accommodate me by filling my order completely. She gave me a side of eggs in my scrambler. I thanked her kindly for filling my order. My point was this, "When a person like myself experience ignorance at its entirety, I took it upon myself to turn the other cheek and look the other way as making a mends to not disrespect and act ignorant like this woman did, who seemed to me like she had a chip on her shoulder, just because I came into the restaurant (Krystal's) to order breakfast.

If my experience as a customer "hindered" her in a way when certain people (like myself) come into a restaurant (Krystal's) to order fast food...to this woman...customers like myself shouldn't be "beautiful on the inside and out" or "have a respectful mind to respect others as I would like to be respected for myself" than to have a "ghetto fascious mind with no common sense whatsoever" to give her attention (without judgment) to people like herself. I didn't deserve how I was treated just because I went into Krystal's to order breakfast was (to her) my indiscretion. I needed to present myself without being mad, or acting without haste. It in return...it gives me more leverage to do a good will in the name of GOD and his son JESUS. I that brief instance, I came out looking like a beautiful white rose, than the despair of a thorny bush in the brush on a warm sunny day.

It takes everything in ones power to get things right before the day of judgment day. I don't want to find myself left back in a time of despair with a blank look on my face, or finding out where I am and how I'm going find myself through that narrow path towards the passion of glory. I choose to look the other way without hesitation or haste, and from mistreating a person who has done nothing to me in anguish towards my better judgment. With that said, it brings me to a comment one of my ex. aunts said and how we really feel about her, when she thinks we (my brother, my sister and I) hate her. because of what she and everyone put us through during the time my FATHER was sick, and until he died. I nor my siblings, or my mother don't hold any grudges towards her, or either one of my ex. aunts and my ex. uncle and other people in my ex. family who acted with their indiscretions.

I choose not to talk to them, or have anything to do with them in order to keep down confusion, or any haste towards my extended family, I really hate it has to be this way, when a Power of Attorney with everyone's signature attached to it was the key to destruction of my extended family. At least two of them backed out of the Power of Attorney, because they said, "This is wrong! What you're doing is wrong to my brother's family." All this didn't have to be that way, if money was the resort of it taken to be their root of evil. I for one can't deal with the fact that it happened; GOD help me and continue to help me with my heart.

When You Love, You Love With Everlasting Love

Book 143

Jeremiah 31:3 - 3. The LORD hath appeared f old unto me, saying, Yea...I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with loving kindness have I drawn thee. 




First of all...I would like to give thanks to GOD and his son JESUS for life, health and strength. It's going to take everything in my power to write this post on such short notice. I've been thinking about my significant other a whole lot lately. Wow...there is so much I want to say about my feelings for him. I've never had anyone...besides my sons father...to love me like he does.

I can understand the over protection of me, but...it's like a lonely cloud in the sky with a whole lot of space within the atmosphere in which he travels within his heart for me. I sort of imagine a strong phenomenal Ora that surrounds his whole body with thoughts within that cloud that he has placed me in, and most of the time it creeps me out. "I know in my heart...for me, it's a honor to be thought of in such a romantic way!" But as usual...I still have some concern of his jealousy...even though, he has lighten up on that without so much control over my being. I love my significant other with all of my heart.

I even find myself slightly jealous of him, but without so much control over his life. We're "even" without so much of control over one another in our lives, and that's the way I like to keep it for as long as we live. Now I find myself living and longing for him each and every day of my life. We talk though an application within cyber space and thousands of miles between us. I know that one day we will meet face to face with the love that we share for one another in a heartbeat.

I no longer feel deprived of love everlasting. I truly believe I have my soul mate, my significant other, my love everlasting. I'm praying every day for this strong hold we have for one another, and that GOD and his son JESUS keep us together all the days of our live, and to continue to have the love that we will always share for one another...forever.

To Give Wisdom For Things That Are Past

Book 133

Proverbs 4:7 - 7. Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom and with all thy getting get understanding. 

Ecclesiastes 7:12 - 12. For wisdom is a defence, and money is a defence, but the excellency of knowledge is wisdom giveth life to them that have it. 

1 Corinthians 2:7 - 7. But we speak wisdom of GOD in mysteries, even the hidden wisdom which GOD ordained before the world unto glory. 

1 Corinthians 2:13 - 13. Which things also we speak not the words which means wisdom teacheth, but...which the Holy Ghost teacheth comparing spiritual things with spiritual. 



I didn't follow suite posting on FATHER'S Day, because I didn't want to give some son story about how I felt about my FATHER being gone. I guess I wanted to provide my readers with a cheerful and positive post; to bring just a little bit of happiness. I find myself more happier than I've ever been these past few months. No negative emotions, or negative words to say about anyone, not even about my ex aunt's. I find myself proud to the fact that I can finally put old rellex behind me and move on with my life.

I'm getting ready to start my own social club called Socialites. It's bringing together people who I feel will be an awesome match for what I'm looking for. Prominent...well known to society in order to bring more stamina, and financial means to promote greater things to happen in a social club. I hope my idea for this social club works out to be more conglomerate, than myself put together. I find myself more excited than I could ever imagine about my new social club.

There is work to be done and I must get started on my new fliers and a little word of mouth to acknowledge my social club existence. I think I would give it eight months, or more to get everything in order according to officers I need to bring into action: Secretary, Financial Advisor, Manager, Chaplain, and a Events Coordinator. My twin sister is already Vice President, and I am Founder and President. Success is the key and I'm determined to make my social club a very successful one. A positive attitude and a positive atmosphere is what I need to get over the loss of my FATHER.

I know I'll be okay. It comes to show that anything can be possible in order to come to terms with your past. I think I'm doing awesome with that, I'm happy to say. But...one thing I know that I'll always have good memories of my FATHER, no matter what.