An Author's Successful Journey

 Book 184

Joshua 1:8 - 8. This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according g to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt .and thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have success. 

What good webs I weave into existence. My son Zachary and I lives are about to change forever, certainly with GOD and his son JESUS ahead of all the things Zachary and I are about to do. It is a big deal for me, because I have never experienced anything like having a movie adapted from my first book, "The Minorities, The Pilot". The right of course; from my book will be asked in permission to script my book at its entirety. I for one will be giving that permission to the production companies that are interested in my work. 

There are two production companies: Chad Conley Productions and Kaoticklone Productions. I am beyond excited and totally blessed to have those production company's interest in my work. I know that I am patient in waiting for both production companies to ask for the rights of my book, so that " The Minorities, Pilot can be produced. I know in fact that my F A T H E R and M O T H E R would be happy if they could see my potential success, but...in memory of my parents, I know that they are proud of me. 🕊 My GOD and his son JESUS...may they rest in peace. 🕊

GOD and his JESUS has blessed me so much in my life. I should have saw all the blessings that my pilots have dwelled throughout the extent of my life. I am no longer blind to see what GOD and his son JESUS has been giving me. The gift of writing has led me into a world I never thought existed. It's no longer a fantasy to me. 

This is for real! A movie adaptation is not just fun and game. It's coming to my presence and its journey into the future. Hallelujah... praise GOD and his son JESUS for giving me the opportunity to shine like the mirror I can look into completely without a smudge or streak. Hallelujah...praise GOD for giving me this chance for an opportunity of a lifetime. My F A T H E R and M O T H E R would have been totally proud to see me make a difference, not only for myself, but...for my son Zachary as well.

Ruth's Legacy Of Love Continues On In Spirit

 Book 183 - Special Edition Post

Ruth 4:11 - 11. And all the people that were in the gate, and the elders said, "We are the witnesses". The LORD make the woman that is come into thine house like Rachel and Leah. Which two did build the house of Israel and do thou worthily in Ephrata, and be famous in Bethlehem.

Psalms 78:4 - 4. We will not hide them from our children, she sing to the generation to come the praised of the LORD, and his strength, and his wonderful works that he hath done. 

Psalms 145:4 - One generation shall praise the works to another, and shall declare they acts.

I got some wonderful news to tell my viewers and posters. I happy to announce that my niece Octavia company is now official. She named her 18 wheeler truck after my M O T H E R. It is called, "Ruth's Legacy Trucking, LLC." That give a nice ring to the most beautiful name in the whole world. 

I cried when I saw my M O T H E R S picture, the day she was born (Alpha) and the day she died (Omega) and then Ruth's Legacy Trucking, LLC on my nieces truck. My sister Sherri and I did not expect to see nothing but the name Ruth's Legacy Trucking, LLC, that's it! All that I knew that it made me cry tears of joy. Octavia travels with my M O T H E R in spirit. It's like my M O T H E R journeying in time, but...in spirit.

I am proud of Octavia for everything she does when she drive her truck around the country in memory of my M O T H E R. So beautiful! 

Giving Success To GOD And His Son JESUS Almighty

 Book 182 - Special Edition Video

Hebrews 10:36 - 36. For ye have need of patience, that after ye have done the will of GOD, ye might receive the promise. 

Genesis 39:2-3 - 2. And the LORD was with joseph, and he was a prosperous man; and he was in the house of his master the Egyptian. 3. And his master saw that the LORD was with him, and that the LORD made all that he did to prosper in his hand. 

I did an interview with my sister-in-law Neyome live, so that I could get people to donate to my Go Fund Me site. So far, no people donated to my Go Fund Me site! What I am going to do is put my Go Fund Me site in the hands of GOD and his son JESUS. They know all about what I have to do to get my screenplay in to production with the producers of Chad Conley Productions. This is what my post is all about, trying to get people to donate to my Go Fund Me site.

I am not going to worry no more about it! I am going to leave my fundraiser in the hands of my pilots. That is all I could do to get people in general to pay attention. GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time no matter what the cause, or situation is. I know in my heart I am going to raise the $4,000 dollars needed for one half of the screenplay and my screenwriter will take care of the rest. Brett Johnson (screenwriter) has given me two months to come up with the funds so that he could start my campaign. 

I am asking that everyone here who views my post will give towards my Go Fund Me site. I am praying for that to happen, because I am dedicating the cause to my parents: Ruth Ann Thomas Brunson (M O T H E R) and my (F A T H E R) Wesley Brunson Sr. I very much want to make them proud of my accomplishment. By GOD and his son JESUS almighty, let it be real; let me be able to raise the $4,000 dollars needed to cover half the cost of my screenplay. I am going to continue to leave my fundraiser in the hands of my pilots.

Christmastime Memories Of My Parents

 Book 179

Isaiah 7:14 - 14. Therefore the LORD give you a sign; Behold A virgin shall conceive, and bear A son, and shall call his name Immanuel

Luke 2:11 - 11. For unto you is born this day in the city of David, A Saviour, which is Christ the LORD. 

My twin sister Sherri and I decided to decorate two small Christmas trees for each parent so that we can take them to their grave sites. There were also two identical vases to put on the bases of their tombstones. Sherri and I both dread going out to our parents grave sites, because it was too painful for us to fathom their deaths to reality. It was especially hard us bare that reality. Time must move on with only the memories we will carry of our F A T H E R and M O T H E R.

The small Christmas was decorated and ready to be placed on each of our parents grave sites. Yet, we were still dreading that moment when we would actually have to go out to the grave sites and place both small Christmas trees and their vases. My brother-in-law Lorenzo decided to come along for the ride for support. Since we were more close to the grave site of my M O T H E R S, Lorenzo, Sherri, my son Zachary, my great nephews Christian and Justin Jr. went to my M O T H E R S grave site first. Sherri and I was totally emotional as we headed towards the graveyard to our M O T H E R S eternal resting place. 

All of a sudden, Sherri and I cried out when we came upon and looked over at our M O T H E R S grave site. With our eyes so full of tear drops, my brother-in-law Lorenzo drove up beside our M O T H E R S grave, and Sherri and I got out of the SUV on the passenger side where our M O T H E R grave site was located. Sherri and I was so shaken up with grief, we stood there crying out for our M O T H E R and calling out to her. It took us less than two minutes tops to do what we came out to our M O T H E R S grave site for. Afterwards, we began placing our M O T H E R S heart shaped solar light on the right side of her tombstone facing us, and then place the Christmas tree on top of her vault. Sherri and I had to anchor it to keep it in place in case of a windy day. 

The other flowers that were there we place on each side of our M O T H E R S vault so that the small Christmas tree would stand out. The vase of flowers we placed on top of her vase, praying that a strong wind will not blow it off. After Sherri and I were finished placing the vase and the small Christmas tree, we took so pictures of our M O T H E R S grave decorated full from our hearts and souls. We stood there starring with our eyes full of tear drops once again until we loaded up the SUV. It was on to my F A T H E R S grave site.

Another emotional vendetta Sherri and I had to deal with. Our eyes continued to be filled with our tear drops as we went...I'll say over 5 to 6 miles to my F A T H E R S grave site to place his small Christmas tree and flower vase onto his tombstone. As Lorenzo, Sherri, my son Zachary, Christian, and Justin Jr. arrived at the grave site of my F A T H E R, Sherri, the boys, and I got out on the passenger side of the SUV; walked around and proceeded to my F A T H E R S grave site. Sherri had to tear the base part of the small Christmas tree apart, because we could not place the tree on the ground due to the graveyard was  privately owned and it's grounds keepers try and keep the graveyard cleaned. So, with that said, Sherri could not place our F A T H E R S solar light in the ground in front of his tombstone. After Sherri took off the base of the Christmas tree, I put the tree into our F A T H E R S vase so tightly that the wind could not blow it out of the vase, as though we were hoping that wind would not blow the Christmas tree out of its vase. 

We then place my F A T H E R S small flower vase on the base of the tombstone, hoping that will not blow off from a strong wind. It was heavy enough to withstand a strong dose of wind. Our decoration of our parents graves were completed. Sherri and I started taking pictures of our F A T H E R S decorated tombstone. We stood for minutes looking at our work and thinking of our F A T H E R, before Sherri, the boys and I got into the SUV to depart the graveyard. 

Our duties when it came to our parent was done. Sherri and I was still full of emotions that our parents will not be with us for Christmas, but...will remain in our spirit and our hearts. We will have nothing but awesome memories of our parents. F A T H E R and M O T H E R can now rest during their Heavenly holiday. 

Where Is The Heart Of Home?

Book 161

Psalms 34:17 - 20 - 17. The righteous cry, and the LORD heareth, and delivereth them out of all their troubles. 18. The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite. 19. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but...the LORD delivereth him out of a them all. 20. He keepeth all his bones; not one of them is broken. 

I'm wondering where is home going to be in a few weeks. A lot of people don't know what it's like to be in a position where you're put on the spot, once again, after 2nd of December 2019, my family and I had to move out of our double wide mobile home, due to the month to month status that we were secretly placed in when our landlord did not want to renew our lease back in September of 2019. We were considered homeless (since we didn't have "our" own roof anymore) to the point we had to move in with my niece Octavia, until we found another place to stay...so I thought. We've been with my niece for four months and one week exactly. My brother-in-law Lorenzo doesn't want to rent anymore.

He want to build a magnificent home for all of us to live. But...my family and I are placed in situation once again; it's like we're put on the spot of being homeless...once again. May 2nd is arriving very fast, and my niece Octavia will not be renewing her lease where we're all in residence, and there is so much for me to do and think about. My twin sister Sherri, her husband Lorenzo, their grand children: Ta'Neisha, Laila, Christian, and our mother Ruth, have a place to go, along with my niece Octavia. They will be residing with at my brother-in- law Lorenzo mother's home. For Zachary and I...we do have a place to go with my nephew Justin, but...it seems like my nephew really don't want us there (just saying...) because of a girl he wants there with him. Justin (for the time being) has no choice but to let Zachary and I reside temporarily at his new home, until my family and I magnificent home is built.

All we (my family and I) could do is put our hardships of moving around so much within four years, in the hands of GOD and his son JESUS to prepare us for what's ahead. There will be a lot of work to do in the time we have at Octavia's home. I'm dreading the big move after four months and one week, but...we (family and I) don't have any other options. Yes...it was Octavia's decision to do what ever she want to do, and that's to end her lease with the residence we've resided for months. "Our hardships are in GOD and his son JESUS hand!"

Home Is A Luxury

Book 160

Romans 16:26 - 26. But now is made, and by the scriptures of the Prophets according to the commandment of the everlasting GOD, made known to all Nation's for the obedience of faith.



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My blessings is full of joy as I post. Staying home is a luxury due to the #COVID19 virus that's hitting us hard worldwide. Lots of people complain about staying home and being couped up with hardly nothing to do. "Praying to GOD and his son JESUS is totally nice to do, when their giving you another life to live during this deadly #COVID19 virus." Giving your life to our pilots for sparing you from getting the #COVID19 is a all time luxury to have, and is truly a blessing to be thankful for.

I wish people in general will take that to heart, instead of thinking only about themselves, and not giving thanks for their lives, health and strength, and living beyond the #COVID19 virus without any thought of being fearful of the disease, if they trust in GOD and his son JESUS to surround themselves with their shield of protection. It's not hard to fathom why this virus spands worldwide, but...you got remember this, "When our pilots are mad of how evil this world has become to the point their vengeance is released with a vengeance to let us all know, their not kidding about the possibilities of one gaining repentance for all of our sins, and the evil we've done in and around this globe, and unto others that are totally unfounded." If we're told to stay home for many reasons, '#COVID19' is the ultimate reason why we are secluded to our homes, or we pay the ultimate price for being hard headed, and not obeying this lock down that has gone into effect worldwide. Don't complain about things we as a Nation, and worldwide cannot change, even if we all wanted to do so. We can't get another life (if we survive with a miracle) the #COVID19 once it hit our bodies.

A whole lot has to be considered in this case. Obedience is a must! If our Governor's, Senators, down to our President say, "Stay home for your protection, then do as your told without uttering a complain about your freedom to wander when you want to, because you may just end up paying that ultimate price of someone who are randomly in our midst, and out there coughing on you and everyone without covering their mouths." Think of the logics of this matter, and stay home, because it's a luxury to do so. May GOD add a blessing to our souls, for the edification of our hearts. This is what we all need to correct and change for our protection.

Let's Be Honest About The Things We Should Be Honest About!

Book 158

2 Corinthians 4:2 - 2. But have renounced the hidden things of dishonesty, not walking in craftiness, nor handing the word of GOD deceitfully; but by manifestation of the truth commending ourselves to every man's conscience in the sight of GOD.

1 Timothy 2:2 - 2. For kings, and for all that are in authority that we may lead a quiet and peaceable life in all godliness and honesty. 

What more can I do about the situation I'm in with Alrick. He doesn't really understand what I'm trying to do to make his surprise more exciting. But...I told my twin sister Sherri to forget his surprise, and go with what I have with the money to Jamaica. $2,500 dollars to be exact! For me...I feel what I told my sister (to forget the surprise) will be a learning lesson for Alrick, to never doubt what I'm trying to do to make things better for us in Jamaica.

I know in my heart that he'll be upset with me, as he always have been, for a week; in and out of one argument to the next, and its about the money. How will I tell Alrick about the money I had in the bank for my trip to Jamaica? How will I tell him that I'm very short of the amount I said I had? How will I tell him that I had to use most of the money for things I had to do that were very important? I've kept this secret in far too long to let him know why my trip is prolonged.

When I told him about my sister and her husband Lorenzo had to cancel their trip to Las Vegas, Nevada, because of the "Corona Virus" that's lingering around the entire world, and that my son Zachary will not be home alone after all, he snapped on me in a heartbeat. We argued for at least an hour and a half about my sister and her husband's cancellation of their trip, and I don't why that was. I knew for sure that Alrick was going to ask me about their money, and the money I had in the bank. This was why I couldn't tell him about the money in the bank, because I'm very short of cash, and I need a little more to equal the amount I'm bringing to Jamaica (that my sister and her husband are going to give to me) instead of Alrick's surprise that I had in store for him. With all the arguments we had, is the reason I told my sister to cancel Alrick's surprise, and I didn't tell her why I cancelled the surprise.

Like I stated at the beginning of this post, "Cancellation of the surprise will be a learning lesson for Alrick" to never doubt me about anything I'm trying to do to make our lives better. That is the repercussions that one must endure for their attitude, spasms, and mayhem that was inflicted on me. But...most part, I deserve most of the problems that were inflicted on me for not telling Alrick about the money I had in the bank, and that it wasn't enough to really do anything, like taking care of the house the Alrick had reserved for us in Jamaica. I pray the house is still there in the name of JESUS! LORD I pray that it's still there 'reserved' for us to have for the entire month I will be in Jamaica.

I hope that Alrick will forgive me for everything I put him through. For the amount of love that he give me unconditionally, I really need to change my ways, as he stated to me in a conversation we had over a week ago, I believe. I guess I never had that kind of love before, not even with my son's father. I know now how important I am to Alrick. I admit to all the problems I cause Alrick for not disclosing the truth about the money I had in the bank.

I guess I felt...I was most afraid that I would lose my "sweet boy" who's all man for his age...over twenty plus years my senior. I guess I was to...testing myself to see how much this man love me. But still...I'm so afraid I will lose my sweet boy! I pray that he allow me to still come and be with him as his wife in Jamaica. I can only hope when he read this post if the offer still stand and that he will still love me, and be his wife. This is a learning lesson for me as well!

"Well...I had to express myself on 'electronic paper' to prove a point to my fiance, because I couldn't tell him to his face in fear that he would leave me." 

When GOD And Is Son JESUS Fulfill Their Glory And Their Blessings

Book 151

Matthew 18:26 - 26. The servant therefore fell down, and worshipped him, saying, LORD, have patience with me, and I will pay thee all. 


I sit everyday, and wonder about what our lives (the family) would be like on a manfold. It's difficult to say where our future lies when your basically homeless, and no where to go at that particular moment. But...you know what I thought? I thought about how good GOD and his son JESUS is when we knew, as a family that they have forseen our home, before we did. For me my self...I found it amazing what my pilots have done to forsee our future in an image (created by their own) eyes; they see our home, and where it is, and how it's going to be. Blessings fulfilled with greatness and glory.

Our faith is truly strong as Platinum is precious. We (the family) is holding on to faith, trust, belief, hope and grace. That's all that matter in a heartbeat. The people who were responsible for the demise of our lease, and for putting my family out of our home, because of us being on a month to month (without us knowing it) they will see it again when karma fulfill their consciousness, and their eyes will be opened as wide as the latitude would fulfill it width. We already know  our blessings will already be done in a manfold we (the family) will be happy.

GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time as we continue to live one day at a time with my niece, while she's out trucking her big ole 18 wheeler truck. We are very thankful for her giving us (our family) a place of residence for now. Nothing more could of made us more happier. As for Sheba Gold, our family dog, has a place of her own temporarily until we're able to receiver and give her awesome home setting with love. I know that we would be once again be together again (the family and Sheba Gold) whenever GOD and son JESUS say, "We can move now where they will provide us to be as our permanent residence...in the name of the Father (GOD) and in the name of the son (JESUS) and in the name of the Holy Ghost (in Spirit) that's all that matter to us."

Uncommon Valor Towards Its Common Virtue

Book 147

Deuteronomy 31:6 - 6. Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the LORD thy GOD, He it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee. 

1 Chronicles 28:20 - 20. And David said to Solomon his son, Be strong and of good courage, and do it; fear not, nor be dismayed; for the LORD GOD even my GOD will be with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee, until thou hast finished all the work for  the service of the house of the LORD

*I choose to keep the "girl" and the "woman" anonymous throughout my post

What do I mean when I say, "Uncommon Valor Towards Its Common Virtue?" It means exceptional bravery...a common denominator and courage was found in the hearts of those who fought for what they believe in. This is what I saw in this "girl" who fought totally hard to make ends meet. Her suffering, and her exceptional bravery was rewarded with a job, and a potential status for child support from the father of one of her babies, so that she want have to worry about her sons (who are practically babies), or whether they are going to eat, or to be clothe from one day to the next. But...GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time.

I find that the "girl" in this post was telling the truth all the time about what was really going on in her life, when we (my family) known her to be a compulsive liar. We were all wrong about this girl! She was really struggling with her self esteem. She was crying all the time, because...she was trying all she could as a single mother with two babies. Sometimes I had to ask myself, "Why did I doubt this girl, when all she tried to do is tell us about how hard her life was?"

It's obvious to know when this woman this "girl" lived with had thrown her out of her house, because of her crying babies. I had to ask myself, "What is the real reason this woman throw this "girl" out of her home?" Just like I said, "The girl's crying babies!" This woman couldn't stand for the babies to cry all day, everyday when she have a two year old walking around the house crying too. I feel it was totally wrong what this woman did to this girl.

How would she feel if someone threw her out of the house with her baby? He reaping day is coming for her in full force. But...I'm proud to say that this 'girl" is being totally brave with self confidence and her self esteem. There will be days that she will be overwhelmed with taking care of two babies, and she will cry of many days, because of being overwhelmed, but...she chose to stick it out; take care of her babies and move on to big and better things. This "girl" is getting ready to finish school and receive her GED. I couldn't be more prouder of her.

When Your Burden Down With Fear

Book 147

Isaiah 41:10 - 10. Fear thou not; for i am with thee. Be not dismayed; for I am thy GOD. I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.




*The two young women in this post, will remain anonymous


I found myself in the midst of being burden down with a situation completely out of my control. I believe my family feel the same vibes as well. There is this young woman naive to the fact. She has two children she has no idea how to take care of. Babies to be exact! Soon after she had one baby, she had another already developing in the process.

What do you say to a woman who couldn't resist the fact that she laid down and got another baby before her first could turn a year old that she couldn't take care of without assistance? Here's how the story goes. She was living with her what was suppose to be her sister-in-law. She had asked if she and her crying babies stay with my family until her suppose to be sister-in-law get her lights on again, due to non payment on time. My brother-in-law (of whom I will keep anonymous) had a heart for this girl; he let her stay until her suppose to be sister-in-law get her lights turned back on.

One week and a day pass, and still no word from her suppose to be sister-in-law confirming if she got the lights back on. And from my point of view, I didn't see this girl, whose staying with us, confirming to us that her suppose to be sister-in-law confirming to her that she got the lights turned on. So what's the verdict here? I feel the girl was trying to find her way in a already crowded home with consistently crying babies. Don't get me wrong...I do have a heart for this girl, but...with a girl who has no job, no kind of future to look forward to without an ambition to consume her independence, whose dependence on all of us who already live in the home; who pay all the bills together, has to pull her weight too.

I have a problem with that, because she is totally needy, I mean really needy! Still...don't get me wrong for a person in a dire situation, but...I feel she's not trying hard enough to find her way in the world for her two babies, and it bothers me. She has become a burden on my family, I hate to say. I don't know if she's afraid to go out on her own with her babies! She states she has put in sixteen applications, and no one is calling her for an interview. I'm wondering if she's checking on each application to speed up the process.

Aggravate the people behind the applications. Do what you have too to speed up that process of getting a job at least. She doesn't do that! So what to think when everyone in my house thinks she's a burden? Because...none of us believe she's trying to find a job if she doesn't aggravate the employers, or try picking up the phone and making a phone call to check on her applications.

So what to think when someone like her is a burden on you and the family? We are all thinking of the children in the situation, and she's given so many chances to better herself. But...in so many cases pending against her, we feel she's not trying to give us that notion that she wants a job for one...and to better herself for her children and herself. She is totally a burden with fear in her heart to fail otherwise, depending on others every single day without a notion to pick up the phone and check on her applications to really get a job. Once a freeloader, always a freeloader is the vibes I'm receiving from this girl.

What's the verdict again? I feel she should return back to the woman she was living with, because I truly believe she has had the lights back on for at least almost a week ago. "At least that's what I think, I don't want to judge it.

Love, Honor And To Be Trustworthy

Book 142

1 Corinthians 4:2 - 2. Moreover it is required in stewards, that a man be found.



* Using the word "him" keep his identify partially anonymous


I don't know what he want sometimes. I'm trying to accept the fact that he has a strong jealousy streak that's really beginning to push me away. I don't know what else to do to make him believe whatever I tell him. The majority of the time, I feel this since of him twisting everything around about what I tell him about my activities and he make it seem like I'm cheating, or doing things that I haven't gotten any business doing. It's like...I don't know what to do, or what to tell him that would make him understand me and what I do with my time, whether it's spending time with my family, or putting my thinking cap into my writing.

I'm doing everything in my power to not mess up (in other terms...f***) up what we have together...as though his thoughts became judgmental when it came to my three Facebook profiles that I have. One is a public profile...which I'm never posting, or sharing anything on, and the other two are profiles I have, they are private profiles. The first of my private profiles, I rarely never post onto it, but...only to share my blog posts to my Facebook Page: Author Terri Celestine Brunson.  That profile also has people on it (my ex. extended family) that I'm not associated with anymore, because of what happened to my FATHER, but...my Facebook pages: Author Terri Celestine Brunson and The Minorities are part of this first private profile and can never erase it. So with that said, I've decided to make another Facebook profile...keeping my ex extended family members away from it.

This profile...I do not use my last name, because of my ex. extended family history and bloodline. I don't want nothing to do with my last name, even though it is my bloodline. There...I have other pages that I share posts from my other blogs: Celestine's Coffee Cup,and The Chocolate Chronicles and Socialites Social Club, but...no writing on it's profile. My significant other thinks I'm hiding something from him by writing on all three of my profiles, or good as to say that I may have other people that I'm writing to and that's not at all the case. What I'm doing is sharing my work to my pages, because that's what I do.

Writing is what I do! I don't have time for Facebook, or its shenanigans in general. My love also states that I have accepted a man on my recent profile...the second private profile, that I didn't know was his friend, but...I don't associate with him at anytime, even though I accepted his friendship. I'm only human here and I'm getting my head bitten off by him, because I accepted a man of whom I don't associate with. With this said...I can't erase this profile, because my Facebook pages are on this recent profile...my second profile.

So what to do about how I feel about things when it comes to the man I love? Why do he find things to argue about? I'm doing everything in my power to support him; give him what he want and to love him unconditionally. It's like when he goes out to find things in and about my life that I had before we met, he doesn't approve of, he brings it to my attention, and then he argue with me about it. How do I cope with the fact I have a man with this jealous streak that I'm still afraid of?

I trying so hard not to break like glass, or fall to pieces like the leaves during the fall season. I love this man, but...he makes me feel like I got to be careful of everything I do. Just a brief second of my happiness and listening to my music, he told me not to screw up on him; or break his heart. Why would I want to screw anything up with us, or break his heart? What trust does he have in me to say what he said to me?

I'm truly hurting from the outburst he consumed on my conscience. So what I did...was to let him know to calm his demeanor and call it a early morning so I can do some thinking and write this post. Anytime I write a post it's about what I'm thinking and the state of mind I'm in. Even with my thoughts during the time I wrote about my FATHER on this blog site for years in order to cope with my heart of losing him, I'm writing about the man I love and where his mind is sometimes. Like I said, "I'm only human sometimes with what I do and did before I met him."

What I did in my life before I met him wasn't unfaithfulness, and I didn't have any other relationship other than my son's father. I didn't know I was going to experience being careful about everything I do. But...what I'm doing is only part of my honesty to him with out deception, or not to encounter any indiscretions of any sort. All I can do is to do my best and not keep anything a secret, or it will be an indiscretion I can't put myself out of. So with this said, "All I can do is talk to him and make him understand me for a change and what I'm about, so he doesn't think I'm cheating on him, or got secrets that I'm keeping from him. I also don't want be stuck in a situation to the point that he doesn't believe, or trust me, because I don't know what I do if he think that I can't be trusted, or if it's the other way around for me to think of him in the same manner otherwise.

"I'm only human, but...I'm sharing my honesty in return for his trust in me and my trust in him." Communication is the key to an understanding and why things happen, and how to mend what could be broken in the matter of our relationship!

The Lighthouse Of Abundance And Praise

Book 121

1 Kings 2:3 - 3. And keep the change of the LORD thy GOD, to walk in his ways, to keep his statutes, and his commandments, and his judgements, and his testimonies, as it is written in the law of Moses, that thou mayeat prosper in all that thou doesn't, and whithersoever thou turnest thyself:

Jude 1:3 - 4 - 3. Beloved, when I gave all diligence to write until you of the common salvation, it was needful for me to write until you, and exhort you that ye should earnestly contend for the faith which was once delivered until the saints. 4. For there are certain men crept in unwares, who were before of old ordained to this condemnation, ungodly men, turning the grace of our GOD into lasciviousness, and denying the only LORD GOD, and our LORD JESUS Christ.

Jeremiah 29:8 - 9 - 8. For thus saith the LORD of hosts, the GOD of Israel; Let not your prophets and diviners, that be in the midst of you deceive you, neither hearken to your dreams which ye cause to be dreamed. 9. For they prophesy falsely until you in my name: I have not sent them, saith the LORD.

I find myself in a world where living testimonies. They are the basis of life experience happening all over the world. And when I see the people of Lighthouse Ministries come out to the church to give living testimonies of their life experiences, It gives me a warm sinsation within my heart. I take that very seriously indeed. The glory have come to meet St Mary Missionary Baptist Church and it's warm welcome to The Lighthouse Ministries.

I listen to angels singing their praises during devotional service. This little boy singing his heart out to GOD and his son JESUS. I watched as the people of The Lighthouse Ministries stood up and took in the praises of my pilots and that little boy throughout the devotional service. It brought me so much joy! I couldn't get over the love, warmth, gentleness, and praises that took over the devotional service.

GOD and his son JESUS was worthy to be praised, not only by the bride of my pilots (the church) but...by The Lighthouse Ministries presence there beyond our mist. After devotion ceased, our church went into another selection in the services, where there will be songs, and extreme heart warming testimonies, and the word of our GOD and his son JESUS Christ. This speaker got up and mentioned about "Getting to the root of a problem so many of the people of Lighthouse Ministries experience." Not only on the outside of their problems they had, before the people of The Lighthouse Ministries had given their hearts and souls to GOD and his son JESUS, but the joy of letting those problems, and those trials and tribulations become a thing of the past, was what got my heart singing praises. Wow! I sat and watched the people of The Lighthouse Ministries sing more praises to my pilots; I was mesmerized totally.

Then more testimonies came to it's serious consequences. There was this one testimony; this young woman expressed when she was on drugs at the age of 13. It became an everyday thing for her (you name it, heroin, marijuana, xanax, meth, and all sorts of other drugsdknown to man) until she said that her mother committed suicide. She found her hanging in a closet, two days after it happened, which in fact sent the young woman into a strong haze of drugs after the death of her mother. She came to The Lighthouse Ministries, which in fact...saved her life from the direction she was heading in, which was death to her indefinitely. Her testimony did a number on me and it got me to thinking about how blessed I was to have a wonderful family and support.

Then onto the word of GOD and his son JESUS. This woman by the name Joelle, got up and preached a good sermon that made you think twice about how precious life is for me in general. We're talking about the term oil this woman went through in her life. I'm talking about the lifetime of drugs, being totally bullied, torchered by different men. She didn't know where she was most of the time she was so high on drugs, and she was extremely sexually active and motivated. This was Joelle's life!

I couldn't began to imagine this of me, as I listened to her sermon. It was powerful! It was food that I needed to eat and take it my heart. Her sermons was from the book of Jude 1:1 and Jeremiah 29. Wow! What sermon.

A New Year Blessing

Book 110

Ezekiel 34:26 - 26. And I will make them and the places round about my hill a blessing; and I will cause the shower to come down in his season; there shall be showers of blessing.




What a blessing it is to see another year. Just like I stated in a recent post, I don't make New Year's resolutions, I live day by day. Only GOD and his son JESUS provide you and bless you with days on your life. And I'm very thankful to see this day of celebration. Happy New Year's!

I'm up with my sister Sherri, my son Zachary (since he's out of school for the holidays) at 1:56 am watching a Friday the 13th marathon. Yes...I love horror films of curse. My son does too. I guess I like 'creepy' comedy before bedtime. No nightmares intended for my son and I, because nothing seem to scare us on a regular basis.

We watch episodes of Friday the 13th until we couldn't watch them anymore. Sherri, Zachary and I went to bed. It was six hours in the early morning. I went to get my mother Ruth from her home at The Avenue and brought her back to my home. We arrived at my home shortly after I had stopped to the store to get gas and other things I need to get. We didn't do much but sat around watching Cold Case and making conversation...maybe ate a little and that's it.

All and all it was a great day. I took my mother home hours after her visit with us (Sherri, Lorenzo, Zachary and myself) and then I had to go to Walmart to the customer service desk to set up my car payment and credit card payment account. Afterwards...Sherri, Zachary, my great nephew Christian and I were on our way back home, until we got this call out of the ordinary. Sherri received a call from one of her niece's about another niece that was in trouble. She had just gotten thrown out of a home that her mother placed her in where she was a stranger to everyone in the home.

Sherri's niece Kristal...who lived in a home with this woman (who was unknown to her and to us) and her six son's. "Six son's!" Kristal was the only girl in the house full of boys, and her mother placed with all these boys was totally unfounded. She called and let us (Sherri and I) know that she got thrown out, because one or more of the boys touched her she claimed. Sherri and I didn't waste time going to pick her up from the location where she said she was, which was the Circle K.

We retrievced Kristal and took her to her sister Alexis over in the City of Tampa. She had been very worried about the whereabouts of her sister Kristal, because of their so called mother had placed Kristal in that home with this woman and her six son's, so that her and Alexis wouldn't have contact with each other ever again. Some kind of nasty situation isn't it? This was how Kristal and Alexis biological mother was. Neglectful, abusive, digusting, and pathetic. I know Sherri and I did the right thing when we went and picked up Kristal and took her to her sister, Alexis, because all and all, Social Services gave full custody of her sister Kristal to Alexis.

That was the most amazing thing that happened, and it was all within a hour, when the two sisters was reunited after months and months of not knowing where one another were. I was thankful Sherri and I had something to do with reuniting the two sisters together. "January 1, 2019." That will always be the day Sherri and I did a super awesome deed for two sisters, a New Year's blessing. We will never forget it!

The Point In Being Right When You Don't Want To Be Wrong

Book 98 -

Exodus 14:14 - 14. The LORD shall fight for you, and you shall hold your peace.

I found myself thinking ahead of everything in my life. In one instance I saw myself more prouder than I ever been in my whole entire life. I finally come to terms with the fact that my FATHER'S gone. I know he's never coming back. I know that he's in a better place than this desolate place that we call earth.

I can live with myself knowing that I don't have to think twice about being an accomplice of what happened to my FATHER the last six months of his life, or selling myself as a martyr to everything that has happened during the last six months of my FATHER'S life until his death. I can say, "I'm totally out in the clear with no flaws, and with no indiscretions holding me back from a wonderful life. What more can I think of than to be just out right happy, glad, and great with pride and wisdom? Needless to say, "I'm full of joy and happiness and I'm moving on with life as I see fit to live for the first time in two years" Thank GOD and his son JESUS for my happiness.

I got to say this! I knew that my ex aunt had a party for my twin cousins tonight. I couldn't not attend, because I couldn't see myself there in the mist of people who down right don't give a hang about me or my immediate family if we would of came. Knowingly that when it comes around to us sitting a table alone with no one to communicate with us the entire time like we weren't there, I felt that using common sense would be the most logical thing to do. The logic was, "Don't come and be the black sheep that we've always been" under their wings. I didn't want to suffer that fate at any point necessary.

The more responsible thing to do was to stay home and enjoy my immediate family like always, even with our family dog Sheba. I like that in a heart beat! I know I'm right about how I feel and I know I'm not wrong about what I'm saying when it come to my extended family. This is what my immediate family feel about attending any events, parties, and get togetherness with extended family. I don't think we'll ever be family again.

My FATHER'S demise left a family so separated (thanks to my ex aunt who I still chose to keep anonymous) for breaking up both families. I have no will to ever put our families (extended and immediate) back together again. What's the point when you have an extended family who don't want to give the time of day? My immediate family and I will continue to move on without any hesitation...maybe go to Disney World to see Mickey and Minnie Mouse...have fun....what ever it takes to continue to be happy with life to the fullest.

"Two Years"

Book 94 - Special Edition Post

Exodus 14:14 - 14. The LORD shall fight for you, and ye shall hold your peace.

There is not a day...not a day I don't think about him. It's hard sometimes when you deal with a death. It's hard knowing that my FATHER is no longer here to joke around, laugh that funny laugh, give you that blank look when he's serious about being funny about something, no matter what. Let me not forget. His world famous barbecue.

Wow! How can I forget my FATHER'S barbecue? That falling off the bone taste. Wow! I still can't believe it's been two years since his death.

I can kind of deal with things now. I don't cry as much as I use to. I've learned to live and move on from grief. But still...I catch myself looking at his picture from time to time, capturing some wonderful memories of my FATHER. LORD only knows there were a lot more of those wonderful memories where that came from.

Without a doubt, and with the help of GOD and his son JESUS. My heart may heal one day of the gash it sustain from the horrible and evil ways of my ex aunts and what they did to my FATHER. I just don't want to continue to wollow in self pity, grief and anger. GOD and his son JESUS is now in control of the madness that dewell within me and in my family. But...there is one thing to be true, "I miss my FATHER soooooo much." 

There nothing or no one in the world take his place. Ever! If there is anything that I can only think of, is that...I believe he did in fact make it into Heaven. Only GOD and his son JESUS only knows that. I love my FATHER with all my heart, body, and soul and no one can take that from me ever.

It's been two years, and it's going to continue to be hard for my family and myself. How can I ever get over the fact that my FATHER is no longer here? I don't think anyone in this whole world can really get over someones death. You got to be cast iron to do that. The outspokenness of my character will never get over what has made me weak in the heart.

"I was in fact a daddy's girl indeed." 

When The Lies Weigh More Than The Truth

Book 93 -

Hosea 7:13 - 13. Work until them! For they have fled from me: destruction until them, because they have tresgressed against me: though I have redeemed them, yet they have spoken lies against me.




What's it going to take to tell the truth? What is going to take for some people to stop lying to themselves? Those questions are obvious. Never...that's how! I had asked my aunt, who will remain anonymous to come over to my home to give me some kind if closure about my FATHER.

I wondered, what was taking her so long to come over to my home so that we can talk about my FATHER, his finances, his life. About an hour later, I saw police racing down the road about yards from my home. I didn't know what to make of what was happening until I saw another police car racing down the road on a emergency call. At lease... that's what I thought it was. Then my aunt called me.

My aunt said (who will continue to remain anonymous) she had backed into a deep ditch trying to turn around from on of the side road yards from my home. Police stayed with her until a tow truck arrived to pull her out. I responded immediately to her call. I got into my car and proceeded down to where she was in the ditch. I waited with police for a tow truck to come and pull her out of the ditch.

After thirty more minutes, my aunt was finally pulled out of the ditch. She decided to come to my home after her hour long ordeal in that deep ditch, to try in give my sister and I some kind of closure about our FATHER. I welcomed her inside my home even though...how I felt about her was a whole lot of animosity.  She and her sister (who are now my ex aunts) treated my family and I like we weren't there when they had Power of Attorney over my FATHER'S life, over my live family. She came in the living room and made herself comfortable.

I immediately question her about my FATHER'S finances (Retirement and his social security) and other things that needed to be asked about. She told me some things that made me think about the fact that she was continuously lying to me and my sister about our FATHERS finances and estate. I truly believe she scheme some of my FATHER'S social security for the last six months of my FATHER'S life and also his retirement. Here's another lie my ex aunt told me on top of the lie she told about my FATHER'S finances and estate. She told me that her and my brother had a secret between them about some money from a bank account my FATHER had.

My ex aunt said that there was a thousand dollars in one of his accounts that my immediate family and I didn't know about...as she assumed it was. She said that it was between my her and my brother she had this secret. She told me that my brother had told her to keep the money in the account. And for the life of me...there was no way...no way my brother told her that. "No way!"

Then I say, "My ex until thinks I'm a fool to believe that my brother gave her a thousand dollars from an account she said my FATHER had without telling his family." She was totally nuts that I figured her to be. And in another instance, my ex aunt  told me that she didn't know where my FATHER'S suits, hats, bicycle, floor television, rings, necklaces and the whole nine yards was (just like my other ex aunt) she didn't know where everything was. All I can say is that one of them (or both of them) is totally lying for the sake of lying and GOD and has son JESUS will handle them with vengeance.  Then I come to an conclusion about the fact that this woman who "was" an aunt of mine, was continuously lying about everything with my FATHER'S finances, his clothes, and his entire estate.

Greed has guided both of my ex aunt's lives no matter who they hurt. There was no way I can trust them again. No way! I guess the thing to do right now is to give my ex aunts lies and deception to GOD and his son JESUS. Because that's the only justice for my FATHER that I can get from my ex aunt's indiscretions is the love of my pilots.

My sister and I will try to move on with life without either one of them and their families. I'm so tired of the lies and deception.

When All You Have To Be Thankful For Is Family

Book 92 - Special Edition Post

Psalms 107:22 - 22. And let them sacrifice the sacrifice of Thanksgiving, and declare his works with rejoicing.




Its Thanksgiving today. So many people celebrate this day like no other celebration in the world. Lots of food and family gather around different tables, observing the food that was given unto there from GOD and his son JESUS. We all give thanks for the abundance of each morsel cooked and thank GOD and his son JESUS for our lives, health and strength. We all sit down and eat.

For me...thanks not the real meaning of Thanksgiving. For me... Thanksgiving is about my immediate family circle. I give thanks that I have my immediate circle today. No one in my extended family, or in the equation of extended family members celebrate with my immediate family circle...ever. But you know what, "My immediate family members always have each other."

I find that a true blessing, no matter how I present it here today as I write this post. GOD and his son JESUS has bought my immediate family and I a very...very long way from desperate measures of being completely ignored in every event we have (or just family time) and the narcissistic hearts of my extended family. Even when I thought we were coming together as one 'family unit' I still have doubts if we'll ever come together again. My immediate family and I still live with the fact that we still don't get invited anywhere for family get together, or just have family time by our extended family members.

But you know what, "I've been dealing with a lot of things since my FATHER'S death and I'm totally thankful that I have my small immediate family circle for Thanksgiving." That's truly a blessing to have people who always do things together and have fun at the same time doing the things my immediate family and I love to do. Simply...that's all I need for Thanksgiving to celebrate. I wouldn't take it back for nothing in the whole world. Who's the say if having a group of people you love the most (immediate family) is enough to celebrate to celebrate the Thanksgiving holiday?

I say that my immediate family circle is more than enough to celebrate Thanksgiving in it's abundance and then some. I'm very proud of that and I'm truly thankful to have my immediate family circle to gather around one huge table and celebrate what many families around the world celebrate each year, for hundreds of years. Now that...I would give up for nothing in the whole world. Love around table, we take into our hearts forever and ever. I thank GOD and his son JESUS for my immediate family circle and the food we are about to eat around and about our beautiful table this year.

Once Upon Time

Book 88

First of all...I would like to thank GOD and his son JESUS for life health and strength. I thank my pilots above for giving me the knowledge and wisdom to write this post without animosity and without haste for anyone, not even my enemies. "I keep them very close to me, even if they are within distance. So...with that said, I don't want to go there with my enemies, because GOD and his son JESUS helped me find peace and comfort, even in my darkest days. Once upon a time I was filled with anger; now I know how to control my frustrations with prayer, with joy, and with faith, hope and with peace.

I know for sure that it's going to take a very long time for immediate family and myself to heal from the death of my father. But...I know in time my we will over come the pain that still dwells in our heart, mind, body and soul. No one in my immediate family expected everything to happen like it did, but...it did and there is nothing and no one can change the past. My immediate family and I now have the wisdom to move from very old things that could hinder our way of thinking and our way of life. Only pray can change anything if we all ask in the name of GOD and his son JESUS.

I've done that and then some. I know that GOD and his son JESUS vengeance is theirs. I want ever tough it again if I could help the consciences and the repercussion that my enemies must face in the eyes of GOD and his son JESUS. My troubles and my trials and tribulations are now over the horizon where it belongs. I don't need to feel anger in my heart, or haste against any one. Just the hurt that remains. My immediate family's deep scars will never heal all the way.

People would tell me that life would get better as time passes from the hurt that was sustained from ignorance. Once upon a time, I'm very thankful I didn't cause that ignorance. Once upon a time, I used my trials and tribulations and turned them into a learning lesson of what not to do when I know GOD and his son JESUS got it. No more worries here, but my enemies need to worry about how they are going to live in my Pilots vengeance.

My Sweet Spirited Aunt Juliet

Book 81

Proverbs 13:19 - 19. The despite accomplished is sweet to the soul: but it is abomination to fools to depart from evil.

                    16:24 - 24. Pleasant words are as an honeycomb, sweet to the soul, and health to the bones.

I'm so happy to see my aunt Juliet in Florida celebrating her birthday for the first time. I'm totally excited about her visit. I hope to see her soon before she leaves for Rodchester, New York. It's just...I couldn't go to her birthday celebration because of Minnie Lou. I saw at lease one of my other family members in attendance there besides Minnie Lou.

I was totally happy see my cousin Alkoya and my uncle Alfonzo there in attendance to see my aunt Juliet and to celebrate her birthday. GOD and his son JESUS know I really wanted to be there so very bad for my aunt Juliet, but I didn't want to face off with Minnie Lou presents, because I didn't want to rain on aunt Juliet's perfect day without all the animosity of what happened with my over a year ago. I wish to visit with my aunt Juliet at another time frame while she's in Florida. That in itself will mean the world to me. If I could see her right now, I will truly feel some peace out of confusion...something I've been longing for ever since the death of my FATHER.

What else I can say about my aunt Juliet's sweet spirit and the love that she carries for everyone. She makes me feel very awesome to see her in her live videos on Facebook. I want some of that awesome if its just for a day. I'd rather have it for a lifetime with lots of prayer, hope, faith, trust, belief, joy and understanding. GOD and his son JESUS has truly blessed my aunt Juliet with a awesome heart for everyone.

I feel truly blessed to call her my aunt. I really do. What can a girl ask for? I see my real family in her wrapped by a totally sweet spirit and not an evil one. I will always cherish that for infinity.

Our Own Family Circle Of Love

Book 77

1 John 4:1 - 1. Beloved, believe not every spirit, but the spirit whether they are of GOD: because many false prophets are gone out into the world.

Colossians 3:13 - 13. Forbearing one another, and forgiving one another, if any man have a quarrel against any: even as Christ forgave you, so also do ye. 






I tried so hard to bring my family (extended family) back together for the sake of my FATHER. Thanks to Minnie Lou Wright, she ruined everything I tried to do to bring both of my families back together again. It's like a deep cut in my heart. She caused this fate, according to all my posts made here on Author Terri Celestine Brunson during the last six months of my FATHER'S life.  But...that's all over with, because now...I don't care to put my extended family back together again. Ever!

It may look, or sound mean in my post, but...I'm so tired of crying over spoil milk duds when it comes to bringing both my immediate and extended families back together. I'm tired of talking, assuring, planning and patching things up with a family who are not interested in doing things, or spending time with my immediate family in the light of day and in the mist of the night. Both families have been separated since my grandmother, Lou Bertha Brunson passed away in July 1991. I'm tired of talking and wasting my breath. I would like to move on with life within my inner family circle of love. I guess that's what counts for me now.

I thank GOD and his son JESUS for the family I do have. We have so much fun together when it's just us. What more can we (my immediate family) want in life now. My past with "most" of my extended family ended with my FATHER the morning he closed his eyes forever. Don't get me wrong here too! I love all of my family, even the ones who are my enemies now, but really love the ones who supported us my immediate family and I when we bereaved my FATHER. That's what count to me the most.

The holidays has come and gone. 2018 will be the beast for my immediate family. We are looking forward to the best of the best. All the cooking, enjoying each others company, looking at ball games are our priority. Most of all...GOD and his son JESUS will be at the head of everything we do. But...in the back of my mind, my FATHER will always be thought of during any occasion my immediate family and I bring forth during the up coming holiday in GOD and his son JESUS will. This was my second Christmas holiday without him. and he is  truly missed by his immediate family, no matter what.