When You Know You're Talked About

 Book 197

Acts 26:31 - 31. And when they were gone aside, they talked between themselves, saying, This man doeth nothing worthy of death, or of bonds.

Mark 3:5 -  5. And when he looked round about them with anger, being grieved for the hardness of their hearts, he saith unto the man, Stretch forth thine hand. And he stretched it out: and his hand was restored whole as the other.

Romans 10:3 - 3. For they being ignorant pf GOD's righteousness, and going about to establish their own righteousness., have not submitted themselves unto the righteousness of  GOD.

Romans 3:23 - 23. For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of GOD.

No one can put nothing pass me If I know I'm being talked about. I am there in my head! But...you know what, "Sticks and stones, might break my bones, but...names will never hurt me in a flash." And...I do mean that from the heart. I do know that there is "one culprit" who's fueling it all to get everyone against me. I wasn't born yesterday, or the day after that. I am passed it with the abundance of common sense, and no one will take that away from me.

I gained that common sense from GOD and his son JESUS to know, and to see between every line that is shared and posted about me on social sites. "I'm not stupid by a long shot!" I know what I see without hearing about it word of mouth, and I am also tired of my M O T H E R S name used as a cop-out from their indiscretions. I am done with the people who are being stupid about things that don't make no sense when I'm not doing anything to them. Their indiscretions will send them to "Hell" if they don't stop doing what their doing. And...to say this, "The one culprit who is fueling the indiscretion, will send their offspring to Hell as well, if they don't stop using what was told to them against me."

This is why I let God and his son JESUS have it, because...I don't have time for nonsense, and people like the culprit, and the offspring to bring me down, and using my M O T H E R...once again as a cop-out. But let me tell about the offspring. The offspring acts as though it hurts to say, "Hello, or talk to about anything they want to talk to me about it." That's not right! To the culprit who is fueling these indiscretions to the offspring, "Woe beyond to them with a passion, if they're feeding the offspring indiscretions that makes no sense to place on their table, because...it's not only hurting them, but...it's hurting the offspring in this fiasco that will send both of them to Hell."

This is why I am telling it straight from my heart, because...I am tired of the offspring treating me like I am poison, and I am not there in presents in their eyes. I am tired of being ignored in the heart of the offspring. "I am also tired of the eye rolls too!" I am tired of the culprit using my M O T H E R as a cop-out for every sentence from their mouth every time I look around. 

Once Twice The Indiscretions

 Book 194 

Romans 5:9 - 11 - 9. Much more them being justified by his blood we shall be saved from draft through him. 10. For if, when we were enemies, we were reconciled to GOD by the death of his son, much more, being reconciled, we shall be saved by his life. 11. And not only so, but we also joy in GOD through our LORD JESUS Christ, by whom have now received the atonement. 

When a person like myself have a situation at hand when it comes to a sibling, you got to take the bitter with the sweet to get through the day without going crazy. This is how it is with me and my sister Sherri. She makes you so angry sometimes to a point, you want to peel her skull and not ruin her hair in the process. Yes, we are in a spat about WiFi Internet that I asked her nicely to for, Sherri acted like she didn't want me to access to it. I decided to go ahead and change my mind about having access to her WiFi Internet.

Then, all heck broke loose, because I changed my mind and decided to back out. I told her that, "I am not trying to start anything with her, but...I notice that she was not talking and that she looked like she wasn't feeling well." At that moment, Sherri had told me she had a headache. I was going to accept the fact that she had a headache, until she told me that I was evil, and that our M O T H E R was right about me being rough and mean to her. Sherri had brought back and opened up old wounds about my spats with our M O T H E R, that I simply apologized to her on her death bed, before she was released to the Kingdom of GOD. It seemed like every time we had a spat, she would throw our M O T H E R in my face about the spats we use to have. I felt that was wrong of her to do that to me, when I already made peace with my, before she died. 

Sherri other indiscretion was also throwing her husbands parents in my face so that they can get them upset with me for them to look at me any kind of way like I am trash. I wasn't going to take it anymore with my sister throwing people in my face, including our deceased M O T H E R because it was a low blow to me to use our M O T H E R in that manner. I told my brother Wesley about what she did. He was totally upset with Sherri that she would rehash and bring up old wounds about our M O T H E R and I having having spats, and throwing her husband Lorenzo parents in the mix to get them upset with me over our spat with each other. I wasn't going to take it no more with my sister throwing people in my face, the main one I loved so much in my face, because it was ludicrous, unfounded, and ignorant. 

That was when I started praying for Sherri about her actions, and the fact that she had a headache, and about the fact that I was concerned about her, because she wasn't talking at all throughout the morning. It was like she was taking her frustrations out on me, and accusing me for arguing with her and I wasn't raising my voice to her. I was totally shock at the way she was acting. I left well enough alone and let GOD handle her problem, whether if it was all of her medicine she's taking bothering her, or if she just had a bad attitude from the effects of her medicines. I don't know anymore! 

My whole demeanor had changed about her when it came to her throwing people, including our M O T H E R in my face, and then rehashing up old wounds. "I am done taking it!" 

Broken With Sentimental Value

 Book 191 - Special Edition Post 

Psalms 147:3 - 3. He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds.

How can anyone break something so "Sentimental" to us? This was a heart that wasn't meant to be broken for 8 years past its expiration date. Then you have someone at the cemetery where my M O T H E R is buried, brake what was sentimental and precious to me and the rest the family. "What does it take for someone to care about someone's property?" Maybe so...that one day, someone will care about the dead in GOD and his son JESUS, and the family who gave great thought in placing a "heart" that was beautifully engraved with the most beautiful name in the world to me, Ruth Ann Brunson. 

I was so hurt when I saw my M O T H E R S broken heart solar light when my brother in law Lorenzo brought from the cemetery. I got to admit, I was pretty upset with the cemetery grounds keeper for breaking my M O T H E R S heart solar light. He said, "That there was to be nothing stuck in the grounds of the cemetery as he mowed the ground" and common sense would of told him to pick up the solar and place it on top of my M O T H E R S vault; my family and I would of understood more without all the animosity that came with broken hearts that crumbled into reality. My family and I can't fix what was broken, or its past that was so sentimental to us. We are owed an explanation and that's all that there was to it. 

My brother Wesley suggested that he would have a talk with the cemetery grounds keeper about my M O T H E R S broken heart solar light. I gave in my two cents to sum of the cause for Wesley to relay the message. I don't mean to be upset with the cemetery grounds keeper, but...I had a reason to be with every ounce in my body, heart and soul without tooT my haste. I questioned the thought. I said...and I quote, "What if...and I meant what if someone were to brake something that was sentimental to him?" 

Should this man cry wolf? I thought not! Because...when it came to our property value of my M O T H E R S broken heart solar light, I think that the cemetery grounds keeper should pay my family and I for our grief by saying "sorry" for the inconvenience, because... GOD know he wasn't going to pay us back for what broken in the base of our minds and in our hearts. My M O T H E R S solar hear can be replaced, but...my family I chose not too for its expensive, just it case it gets broken again. We did not want that fate on our conscience again with haste. All we want is peaceful beginnings as we move on with our lives as we see fit. 

Fight My Battles For My F A T H E R Like A Toy Soldier

 Book 186 - Special Edition Post

1 Samuel 8:20 - 20. That we may be like all nations; and that our king may judge us, and go out before us, and fight our battles. 

2 Chronicles 32:8 - 8. With him is an arm of flesh, but with us is LORD our GOD to help us, and to fight our battles. And the people rested themselves upon the words of Hezekiah king of Judah.

Isaiah 30:32 - 32. And in every place where the grounded staff shall pass, which the Lord shall lay upon him, it shall be with targets and harps: and in battles of shaking will he fight with it. 

Step by Step, Heart to Heart...left right left, we all fall down, like Toy Soldiers. Whenever I hear that song, I think of my F A T H E R mostly, because...the woman who sung that song, lost her F A T H E R. It's very hard to fathom sometimes, because he is no longer here in my life, but...he will always be a part of the memories I have of him. "I will always treasure that unconditionally." I am hanging in there with every ounce of strength I have with every breath I take step by step, heart to heart for my F A T H E R. 

Left right left, I will not fall down in despair, grieve, and unhappiness like a Toy Soldier in this battle fought so hard through the last six months of my F A T H E R. "Who else can endure the kind of pain my family and I went through in one battle fought?" GOD and his son JESUS strengthen me and brighten me in my mind with all the tools I needed to win that battle for my F A T H E R in my pilots name sake. GOD and his son JESUS gave me the courage, the wisdom, and the talent to document without saying a word. The Toy Solider was left standing throughout everything it been through and won with an ounce of victory. With 427 battles fought, I was determined I give those battles to GOD and his son JESUS for my F A T H E R. 

Rest assure...my F A T H E R S story will continue to be true and told. There is justice for that solider known as my F A T H E R who has fallen, not by the wayside, but...in spirit so that he can rest in peace. I also think about my M O T H E R in the same way, and she could also rest assure that her story will also be told and is told in the present and in past tense in documentation without saying a word. I have a long way to go with fighting my battle 427 times for her. Rest assure...her story will be told in one heartbeat. 

There is no holding back in winning the battle 427 times 2 when it comes to loving the two people who are three years, four months apart from each other that I lost in my lifetime. I will not give into the battle I fought, because...GOD and his son JESUS are my captain from my latitude to my longitude, my battle will soon be a victory. 

Our M O T H E R: Riding The Storm

 Book 180 - Special Edition Post 

2 Corinthians 1:6 - 6. And whether we be afflicted, it is for your consolation and salvation, which is effectual in the enduring of the same sufferings which we also suffer: or whether we be comforted, it is for your consolation and salvation. 

Psalms 19:9 - 9. The fear of the LORD is clean, enduring for ever: the judgements of the LORD are true and righteous altogether. 

When I write this post, I think of my M O T H E R and everything she has been through in her life. That's almost three scores and ten years before, she was called home to glory! How can anyone began to know the Hades she went through? Requiring minds want to know about the evil that was casted upon my M O T H E R S sweet soul. I can't forget the time when my F A T H E R was in the hospital for his stage four cirrhosis of the liver.

I remember he was having a hard time dealing with the pain of his disease. At the time, everyone one was there visiting him; my aunts Curline, Minnie Lou (The one that had Power of Attorney over my F A T H E R S life), Tammy, uncles Carl and Alfonzo, and his nieces and nephews. My M O T H E R S came, in support of my F A T H E R, since they were separated. I remember when my M O T H E R was on the side of his bed in a wheelchair, and she asked my F A T H E R, how he was doing? He told her right in front of everyone to, "Get out of his room!"

What my F A T H E R said to my M O T H E R, truly embarrassed her in front of everyone there in his hospital room. I looked over at my M O T H E R, and she had this look of disbelief; A shocking experience to know that my F A T H E R deceived her in a way that was unfounded. My niece Octavia looked over at her grandfather, and she became was angry with my with him at that peculiar moment. She walked over to my M O T H E R (her grandmother) and rolled her in her wheelchair chair; out of my F A T H E R S hospital room to a near by waiting room. Sherri, my twin sister followed her daughter Octavia and our M O T H E R to the waiting room. 

They never returned! I had stayed behind, because I wanted to ask my F A T H E R, "Why he disgrace my M O T H E R the way he did in front of everyone?" I was angry with my F A T H E R. He had no right to do what he did to my M O T H E R; embarrassing her like that in front of everyone there. I can only remember it as a bad memory against my M O T H E R. 

She was depressed for quite some time over my F A T H E R S indiscretion over what occurred that day. But, my M O T H E R...in the midst of her depression, kept a smile on her face, even though...she was hurting inside from my F A T H E R S deception. I remember a time when my F A T H E R first went out on my M O T H E R in an adulterous affair. It was Christmas Day. My M O T H E R, Sherri's boyfriend Lorenzo at the time; now husband, my brother Wesley Jr., and I had been at a party that my uncle Carl and aunt Tammy had hosted. 

My F A T H E R had left the party early. My M O T H E R noticed. Before reality came crashing down on my M O T H E R, she was told by an anonymous source that my F A T H E R was seen at this woman's house prior to my M O T H E R blinded fate that her husband was cheating on her. Wesley Jr., Sherri and Lorenzo, my M O T H E R, and I decided to leave the Christmas party with directions given to us from our anonymous source. It was after twelve midnight! In my M O T H E R S hands was  my  F A T H E R S location.

It was totally hard to fathom at first, what my M O T H E R was about to experience, as we travelled at a moderate pace of speed. We were in no hurry to find the deception of my F A T H E R S indiscretions. We took our time enroute to this woman of despair and my F A T H E R in the center of it. It took over forty for Wesley Jr., Sherri and Lorenzo, my M O T H E R, and I to arrive at this woman's house. My M O T H E R did not hesitate as she got out of car; she walked up to the front door as we (her children) and Lorenzo looked on. 

My M O T H E R knocked, and the woman answered the door. My M O T H E R looked, and she saw my F A T H E R sitting on the sofa (as my M O T H E R stated) "Without a care in the world", and then my F A T H E R raced out behind my M O T H E R as she was fiercely in tears. My F A T H E R said, "Now you know" like....he did not care about my M O T H E R S feelings at all. Wesley Jr., Sherri and Lorenzo, my  M O T H E R, and I did not waste anytime leaving the premises. 

The early morning after Christmas Day, I remembered it as a particularly bad memory, not even for me, but...especially for my M O T H E R to carry the deception of my F A T H E R S indiscretion into heart, mind, body, and soul. My M O TH E R cried of many days after she caught my F A T H E R cheating on her. She even had to leave the state to clear her head, but...my M O T H E R always kept a smile on her face, and a totally awesome spirit, no matter what storm comes her way of a hurricane. My F A T H E R S deception continued until the day, thirty plus years later, divorce papers were sent by a police officer to my M O T H E R S  front door. That's when the chain of events came crashing down on all of us. 

My F A T H E R had began planning for the end of his life, with the help of his oldest sister, Minnie Lou. I would always believe she had those divorce papers written up for my F A T H E R for a reason, and it was all health wise and financial. I remember a day before my F A T H E R was admitted to the hospital, that he came out to the house with papers in hand. I met him at the end of the drive way that day. He was trying to get my M O T H E R to sign some papers, including the divorce papers. 

I asked my F A T H E R was he okay. He said, "I am fine for now." As we were walking up the driveway, my F A T H E R was talking about the papers and how my M O T H E R used a credit card he had to file for divorce. The credit card was maxed out. I told my F A T H E R that he wasn't going into the house he built to confront my M O T H E R about those papers, because I knew that the papers he had was something that was against my M O T H E R, and I wasn't going to let him go inside the house to stir up chaos. 

Then, all of a sudden, my F A T H E R said something that disturbed my until this day. He said, "I know that you M O T H E R hopes I die of cancer." I asked him, "You got cancer?" My F A T H E R never answered me like...wow...why would he said that, and I question it, and he doesn't answer me? At that particular moment, I most definitely did not let him go inside the house to confront my M O T H E R. 

I didn't want any chaos between them. That was a memory that disturbed me so much; I often wondered on the top of things, "Did my F A T H E R have cancer on top of his liver disease, since my ex aunt Minnie Lou had Power of Attorney of his life instead of my M O T  H E R having that power if something was to happen to my F A T H E R?" I thought of my M O T H E R and how she felt over everything that has happened to her with my F A T H E R and his siblings going against her with every ounce of deception they had against my M O T H E R? But, my M O T H E R kept smiling no matter what, even though, she was hurting inside. I knew this! 

My M O T H E R has been through a lot in the 70 years of her life. The first twenty-five years of her life was good (she told me) and the rest of her life came crashing down on her. Instead, she kept smiling and loving her enemies (my extended family members) no matter what. My M O T H E R was a "Legend of Love" and she took that with her to her grave. My M O T H E R rode the storm with every obstacle thrown her way.

She didn't let anything bring her sweet spirit down all the way, but she had the strength to continue riding the storm, and I will always remember that about my M O T H E R. I think of what my M O T H E R went through, and I cry about it every now and then when I look at my pillow with her picture on it. I forgave my F A T H E R for everything he did to my M O T H E R, but...I would never forget what he did to my M O T H E R no matter what. She was a strong woman in a frail body. I can't imagine the strength she had to endure everything that has happened to her. I thank GOD and his son JESUS that my M O T H E R will never have to endure pain or crying again, because she is with our maker in Heaven. 

I am happy about that!  

An Unfounded Dose Of Betrayal

 Book 172

Mark 11:25 - 25. And when ye stand praying, forgive, if ye have ought against any; that your Father also which is in Heaven may forgive you your trespasses

One day niece, you will know what it feel like to be betrayed by the one that suppose to love you unconditionally. One day niece, you will know what it feel like to be ignored when you call out to that person by their name and that person keeps walking away from you without listening to what you had to say to them and them without uttering a sound. One day niece, you will know what it feel like for you to want a hug and that person tells you that "they don't want that hug, or they don't want to talk to you, or they don't want you to touch them and they just walk out to door so full of resentment against you because...they found a indiscretion that you did that they didn't like." Understand niece, how it feels to be betrayed by the person you thought suppose to love you no matter what circumstances hit over the horizon. After all said and done, your eyes are so full of tears, because...you can't fathom the thought of what you did that was so wrong that person seem to carry so much hate. 

Yes...the facts are mutual that it is a love/hate relationship this person carries for you that you can't understand why they are doing this you when all you did was to love them with all of your might. One day niece, you are going to ask yourself, "Why did I do this to the one that loves me unconditionally without thinking twice." One day niece, you are going to imagine the thought of what you done to bring unhappiness, tears, and depression to the one who only want to reason with you when you said, "I didn't utter a greeting to you that morning, when it was obvious that you get the same greeting every morning you enter the front room. Now, it is time that I give you niece an ultimatum! How you carried yourself that morning was totally unfounded and it was betrayal to you've endured on me when all you would of received is love unconditionally. 

All this boils down to niece was all you had to do was to tell me my indiscretion straight forward and that indiscretion would of made a 360 to your satisfaction. All that could of been worked out accordingly if only you didn't have that kind of demeanor you had that morning. I didn't know how to come at you, because of this demeanor you carried so graciously. "It was scary to fathom how you were feeling that morning niece!" I will say this, "How you treated me as a elder...you had no right to treat me like that otherwise, because...I am a elder...and you treat your elders with respect." 

R-E-S-P-E-C-T, you did not administer that thought. You just walked out the door in haste, and with that haste, you will reap the consequences and the repercussions of your actions. One day niece, you will know what that feel like to want love and you can't receive it. There was one thing I was told niece, and here is what I was told by someone that was also suppose to close to me when I had no one else to turn to but my self. "My daughter loves you very much!" 

Well here is my saying to the one that suppose to be close to me when I didn't have no one to turn to or to back me up when it comes to being decieved and betrayed. "If I was truly loved, everything I said in this post, would of never came to past." That's not love if a person ignores you when all you wanted to do was to talk to them and they keep walking away from you without listening to that word you had to say them; and what was so hurting, was that they tell you that say they didn't want a hug from you and that they didn't want to talk to you; and most of all...acted like they didn't want you to touch them and they walk straight out the door with that kind of haste is not love. That in itself is hate and it is total betrayal!  

For My Father: Who Rides On Deception?

Book 155

2 Chronicles 29:35 - 35. And also the burnt offerings were in abundance with the fat of the peace offerings, and the drink of offerings for every burnt offering. So the service of the house of the LORD was set in order

Synopsis - Through my felling's I still have over my FATHER'S passing, my post expresses what I feel everyday of my life, when I can't stop thinking of my FATHER, and everything that has happen. One thing is certain I have GOD and his son JESUS in my life, and that's all I need to get through the day of my grief, my tears, my memories of my FATHER through and through.

I didn't feel the need to write about my FATHER throughout the month of February, even though, his birthday was in the month. I felt it was too painful to write about my FATHER until now. He is truly missed every hour of the day, day after day, month after month, year after year. I still can't fathom his passing, but...I've learned to deal with the way he went was so tragic. Why I say tragic?

The logic of my FATHER'S passing was beyond what I didn't expect until he told me what was happening to him before he went into a coma indefinitely. When he told me that "She's killing me" that and every ounce of anger in me took toll on my way of thinking, and my actions were well noted in this blog. I could never forget what I think Minnie Lou Wright did to her brother behind closed doors (maybe telling the hospice nurse to administer an overdose of morphine to my FATHER)  leaving my mother (my FATHER'S wife) myself, my twin sister Sherri, and my brother Wesley Jr. without knowledge of what's going on behind that closed door during the time his blood family (immediate) should of been by his side. That was why my FATHER said to my face, "She's killing me." That in itself will leave a scar with me for the rest of my life. 

"Wow beyond to those who do evil upon others" like myself, my mother Ruth, my twin sister Sherri and my brother Wesley Jr.. "What Minnie Lou sow...sow shall she reap all the conscequences, and all the repercussions of her actions towards us, and especially towards my FATHER ultimately." She maybe...or she claim that she is so 'holy' but her day is coming, thus saith the LORD thy GOD, and anyone else who was involved putting my immediate family through hell throughout my FATHER'S sickness. Thank GOD...I can now move on! I was hard not to think that this was my FATHER'S birthday month. 

All is done! What happened in the past...some say...should stay in the past. My FATHER is part of that past, and none of us can't bring him back to us. I continue to think about him a whole lot. Its hard not to under the circumstances revolving around his death. But...I'm trying to live each day with GOD and his son JESUS grace, trust, love, and faith in my pilots. 

Minnie Lou and all who was involved, will never rest easy until they apologize to my family for their foul odor of evil, their twisted bloody lies, and the Power of Attorney Minnie Lou had over my FATHER'S life in conflict over our lives. I want the world to know this about Minnie Lou and her gang of monsters who racked havoc and chaos over my immediate family lives. GOD and his son JESUS removes stumbling blocks out of the way, so the meek can prosper. I can finally deal with that!

We Will Never Forget The One We Love This Holiday Season

Book 152

Numbers 35:31 - 31. Moreover ye shall take no satisfaction for the life of a murderer, which is guilty of death: but he shall be surely put to death

I miss my popski so much...I can't began to fathom what it's been like for us. We think of him everyday, especially around this time of the year, from the day of my FATHER'S death on the 4th of December 2016, three years ago. It's hard not to think of him when it comes to missing his barbecue. We (Sherri,Wesley Jr. and I) haven't been the best of children towards him, I admit that, but...we saw him when we needed to see him) and we continued to come, and we came, and we saw him before we knew fully that our FATHER was really sick.

"That part was kept from us!"  But...I don't want to rehash the past, because it's a bum rush; we (the family) would like to keep old relic in it's place. It's time to think ahead into the future, because...I finally after all this time...let my FATHER go, because I can't bring him back to us ever, but...I would let GOD'S vengeance take over what was done to my MOTHER and his children. We forgive and love everyone involved, but...we will never forget it for infinity. It's not easy to forget what was once a beautiful family...to no family connection at all, because of what was done to my family. No more grudges held against those culprits, because they will meet their day of judgement. I'm only saying what I must say; I'm only expressing how I really feel, and it's only natural to do so when the man we (the family) love has been taken from us for infinity. But...like I said, "We (the family) must let old relic go...and for it to our past tense.

GOD and his sons vengeance is their virtue to fight our battles, but...karma will soon meet up with those who meant my family sorrow. I can say, "I'm comfortable with the way I feel about most things...one...is the death of my FATHER and loving him enough to let him go." Like I said...I can't bring him back to life, but I must go on with living life to the fullest in the name of my pilots. Nothing in my life without my FATHER will never be the same, but...I must go on, no matter how much it hurt. All I have is memories of a lifetime.

I'll settle for those fine memories, because...it's all I have to hold onto.

When We Lease Expect It

Book 149

Job 36:17 - 17. But thou hast fulfilled the judgment of the wicked; judgement and justice take hold on thee. 

I never thought that this could happen to us in a man fold, but...our family can't do nothing about it now. Our situation can't even be won in court, even if we took a fine tooth comb through the facts of the matter when our lease was terminated. If we were not on a lease (when it was time for it to be renewed) and we are living month to month, then at any time the landlord had can relinquish their home and property back from us. That's what the judge would say! Yes...our family has a little under three weeks to vacate the premises.

What a bad situation to be in! But...with GOD almighty and his son JESUS in charge of our situation; what turns out to be a no win situation, can be a wonderful situation turned around by GOD almighty and his son JESUS to provide for his children at no cost. My family and I have already started packing some of our stuff, but...a little at a time until we're finished packing up the house. In a way...I'm kind of glad that we're moving (I suggested this months prior to our eviction notice, that we needed to go ahead and give up the two acres and the home, because of what ever issues the landlord had with the land the home is sitting on) but its specifically wrong time of the year to be moving out of a home with no money to spare after we (the family) had already paid the rent. Thanksgiving haven't reached our equation as of yet as I speak.

I know that my family and I will be fine once we find another home to live in, even if we don't have the money to move. This is where faith come in for all of us! This we can fathom its mystery, but...with belief unconditionally. So with this said, none of us are worried about the money, or where we're going to live, because we all know that GOD and his son JESUS are in charge of our situation. GOD'S vengeance will play a role in the landlord's decision to not require a lease for my family and I to sign off on, instead of living from month to month (in which the landlord set it up for our lease to be terminated) but...with this said, my family and I will relinquish their home and land back to them without a fight. Our move could be where the grass is greener, if GOD and his son JESUS will have every thing to do with this situation. Trusting and giving our situation to our pilots is the key to good living...when we get there.

When Demands Are Overrated

Book 148

Proverbs 3:6 - 6. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. 

                16:1 - 1. The preparations of the heart in man, and the answer of the tongue, is from the      LORD.

                16:9 - 9. A man's heart deciseth his way: but the LORD directeth his steps. 

*I will keep this "girl" anonymous throughout my post



I'm starting to think that I had this girl wrong from the get go. I thought that she would change her tune about a whole lot of stuff, but...I was totally wrong when I comes her way of thinking about the consequences and the repercussions of her actions. Here's what happened! She tried to plan a birthday party for her son, which is common for someone who loves her son very much. But...here's the problem! She planned her son's birthday party without telling my twin sister Sherri and her husband about it.

So what is the verdict of the situation of this girl's son's birthday party? Well...here is the answer! I don't think Sherri was going to let this girl have the birthday party at our family home. Or at least...for now, being so that this girl's son's birthday party is tomorrow. Here's what I know. If you'r e going to plan something as important as birthday party, tell the person, or person's in charge, and are the heads of the home, and not plan anything ahead of self, if it can be helped.

I guess this girl thought she had more leverage than my twin sister and her husband to request her demands anytime she felt like dropping them like a dime on a catch. Common sense will tell her otherwise not to do what she did instantaneously without thinking ahead of herself, and making strong demands without telling my twin sister and her husband about her plan to have her son's  birthday party at our home. It's only logical to assume right and let my twin sister and her husband know extremely ahead of time, and not ahead of self, just like this girl has done. With this said, it would give awesome quality on our way of thinking that making demands is a way of life without suffering it consequences and the repercussions that comes along with those demands. Think twice and ask first before you place a demand cause you think you can anytime.

DITTO!!!!!

Understanding Zachary's World

Book 141

Job 4:6 - 6. Is not this thy fear, thy confidence, thy hope, and the uprightness of thy ways. 

        31:24 - 24. If I have made gold my hope, or have said to the fine gold, thou art my confidence.

Psalms 118:8 - 8. It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man. 

Isaiah 30:15 - 15. For thus saith the LORD GOD, the Holy One of Israel; in returning and rest shall ye be saved; in quietness and in confidence shall be your strength; and ye would not. 

Acts 28:31 - 31. Preaching the kingdom of GOD, and teaching those things which concern the LORD JESUS Christ, with all confidence, no man forbidding him.

2 Corinthians 7:16 - 16. I rejoice therefore that I have confidence in you in all things. 

Galatians 5:10 - 10. I have confidence in you through the LORD, that ye will be none otherwise minded: but he that troubleth you shall bear his judgment, whosoever he be. 

I have a hard time putting the pieces of Zachary's puzzle together sometimes. It's hard to imagine the magnitude of which piece goes with which! What I'm trying to say is, when it comes to finding those different pieces of Zachary's puzzle, because it has to be put together by its color code, And from those pieces of Zachary's puzzle, I began to think about the various stages of his internal emotions that he's been dealing with for a brief period of time. For Zachary...it's being accepted where ever he goes, and what ever he does to be acknowledged for who he is. I figure that one piece of Zachary's puzzle will always make a difference in finding the cause  that triggered his internal emotions about being accepted on his football team.

And when that cause, it has  become a factor of what I'm trying to seek about my son's internal emotions, and I pray to GOD...whatever it may be, the answer will become my mission to figure out its mystery that has been plaguing my son for quite sometime, and for him being accepted as a young man with Autism on his football team; and  then I will see all the pieces of Zachary's puzzle come together correctly by its color code. I've watched some of the head coaches (one in particular) on (JV) Zachary's Junior Varsity team, place his favorite team players in positions they want to be in. I find that every time Zachary wants a certain position (Defense End... which is his strength and more action) he doesn't receive where his strength makes a difference and  it will become a factor of Zachary's goals that will lead him towards winning championships for his team. But...he is consistently placed on the offensive side of the field, where he doesn't want to be, because of the limited action the offensive side of the field gives with the option to block in order to protect the quarterback. The coaches lack of concern for Zachary, it has caused quite a bit of concern for me and for Zachary to accept the fact that this one head coach will put him where he's doesn't want to be to keep him out of the way of his favorite team players.

I'm not going to tolerate Zachary being ignored of the benefits of being where he want to be to accomplish his goal and determination of taking down the quarterback. This was why I felt that there will be many games lost because of crooked coaches who only want to keep their favorites team players in the midst of the field to win games, instead of placing good players (like my son) who I feel will take his football team to championships. Zachary is that player with determination and strength to do what he need to do to bring his football team towards championships, if he's given a chance to prove himself worthy of the position he could have as defensive end. It seems that I'm taken back to the last team Zachary hardly played on where he no real chances to play in any of the games, because he was always on the sideline...even at his practice too.

I always felt his Autism had everything to do with why Zachary was extremely limited to the amount of games he could play in. That's why I changed team organization with the feeling that the grass was greener on the other side of the goal line. I'm not going through another organization (and it's an excellent organization with the Lakeland Eagles) of crooked coaches. I would love to see one coach in the midst of other coaches that will give a darn about every last one of his team players and not just a few that are their personal favorites. I'm not tolerating it! Not another year.

I'm going acknowledge my feelings to the coach who is in fact, part of my problem when it comes to Zachary. Now I'm starting to see all the pieces of Zachary's puzzle coming together by color code. All I got to do is acknowledge my feelings to the coach that was giving me a lot of problems when it came to the position Zachary wanted to play. That last piece of the puzzle...the only piece...would fit nicely with all the other surrounding color coded pieces of Zachary's puzzle. His puzzle will be officially complete, and his internal emotions will be reduced with confidence in himself to strive for the goal he wants to achieve, and that's going after the quarterback.

Confession Made Into Salvation

Book 128

Romans 10:8 - 15 - 8. But what saith it? The word is nigh thee, even in the mouth, and in that heart that is the word of faith, which we preach. 9. That if thou shalt confess with the mouth the Lord Jesus and shalt believe in thine heart GOD hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. 10. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made into salvation. 11. For the scripture saith, whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed. 




It is time for me to confess what I've been keeping in my heart for almost three years. I just want to  let go of this ton of old rubbish. And now...it is time to give it up and let it go forever. Thanks to GOD and his son JESUS and a woman of integrity to help me see the way to the light and stop grieving all the time and move on with my life. It all started with a question I asked her about our boarder crisis that's going on south of our boarder.

Then all of a sudden, our conversations were about my FATHER and everything my ex aunt(s) put my immediate family and myself through in a nutshell. This woman listened to every single thing I told her. She was in shocked to know of the torment, the lies, and the Power of Attorney my ex aunts had over my FATHER'S life and everything that they put my family and I for the last six months of my FATHER'S life. She told me, "To let GOD and his son JESUS have it; let them handle all of the pressures, the torment, your trials and tribulations, and the battles of wars, and rumors of wars that only they can fight for my immediate family and myself", "There is nothing else you could do, or try to do to bring your FATHER back", "He's gone and there's no reversing his life." Let it go, she said.

This woman also told me, "Don't wallow in something you can never change, because...your only going to be in tears for the rest of your life, and the death of you FATHER is always going to weigh heavy on your emotions, if you let it happen everyday of your life." That brought me to thinking about how much the death of my FATHER has worn down on me like a huge weight. Yes...I can't bring him back to life. The woman was right, "I can't let what happen to my FATHER weigh on me like a weight everyday I think about him. I must let him go and move on with my life." I got to finally let him go and move on, because I was making myself so sick until I almost went crazy again to the point of flaring my Post Traumatic Stress that I was diagnosed with after the death of my FATHER.

After that woman spoke with me...all of a sudden, I felt this huge weight lifted off of my shoulders that weighing me down for almost three years. Yes...here and there, I'm going to think of my FATHER, and I'm going to shed a tear or two, but...I'm starting to feel more relieved to know that I can deal with my FATHER'S death to the point that I'm not crying all the time, every time he comes to thought. I think about what that woman said to me, and how she expressed it in a way that I can clear understand the magnitude of what it was doing to my mind and health. For that...I'm totally grateful to her for talking to me and making realize the reality of my FATHER. I confessed with my grief to her, so that she can give me a solution to my problem, and she gave it. I think I've come to terms with the reality of my FATHER'S death, but it will never get any better knowing that he will never live on the face of the earth anymore.

GOD'S Vengeance, Justice, Wisdom And My Comfort Will Prevail

Book 125

Job 38:17 - 17. But thou hast fulfilled the judgment of the wicked: judgment and justice take hold on thee.

Psalms 89:14 - 14. Justice and judgment are the habitation of thy throne: mercy and truth shall go before thy face. 

Psalms 119:121 - 121. AIN. I have done judgment and justice: leave me not to mine oppressors. 

Isaiah 56:1 - 1. Thus saith the LORD, Keep ye judgment, and do justice: for my salvation is near to come, and my righteousness to be revealed. 

Isaiah 59:14 - 14. And judgment is turned away backward, and justice standeth afar off: for truth is fallen in the street, and equity cannot enter. 

Everyday it seems to get easier, but...sometimes it get harder to fathom the heartbreak I feel. I'm not going to mention too much what is most important to me, because...I know everyone get tired of me going on and on about my FATHER, but...he was everything to me and more. He is the reason why I write so many posts dedicated to him, so that I can cope, find some comfort, and remember the good times I had with him. But...I don't know how to get rid of the fact that he was murdered. How do I get rid of that thought...that bad memory I ingested into my heart?

Who's to say, or judge the fact that my FATHER was murdered by an extreme overdose of morphine? Because he was! GOD and his son JESUS is the only supernatural awesomeness that can fight my battles, and my trials and tribulations I got through everyday to try and cope with the death of my FATHER. For those who participated in his death, will suffer their fate. And...they know who they are in a man-fold.

I must try to get over him, but...its still hard for me to fathom his murder. I know I must! I know I must give this hurt, this void I feel to GOD and his son JESUS to deal with for my name sake. I know I must leave what was once was alone and let my pilots handle the pain I endured, the emotional havoc and chaos, the deception and indiscretions of those who brought shame to my immediate family and I. It's the only way I'm going to finally heal...just a little...from my heartbreak, the torment my immediate family and I went through, and with the Post Traumatic Stress I was diagnosed with.

Only GOD and his son JESUS will prevail with their vengeance. Stepping back is my only option towards comfort and healing. My pilots is the answer for my world today and then some. I know that one day, I will finally find the comfort from my traumatic situation. One day I will!

The Penetrating Scar That Will Last For All Eternity

Book 124

Psalms 16:3 - 3. But to the saints that are in the earth, and to the excellent, in whom is all my delight.
             27:7 - 7. Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice; have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
             39:12 - 12. Hear my prayer, O LORD, and give ear unto my cry; hold not they peace at my tears; for I am a stranger with thee, and a sojourner, as all my fathers were.
             56:9 - 9. When I cry unto thee, then shall mine enemies turn back: this I know; for GOD is for me. 
             57:2 - 2. I will cry unto GOD most high; unto GOD that perfrometh all things for me. 
Isaiah 58:9 - 9. Then shalt thou call, and the LORD shall answer; thou shalt cry, and he shall say, Here I am. If thou take away from the midst of thee the yoke, the putting forth of the finger, and speaking vanity.
John 12:46 - 46. I am come a light into the world, that whosoever believeth on me should not abide in darkness.
Hebrews 13:5 - 5. Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. 




Who knows why things happen when you're living with a deep gash of a scar that effects my life each and every day, no matter the time, or minute, or micro second? I don't think I'll ever heal from that deep gash! What happen to my FATHER effects me when I least expect it to dawn on me like a bad memory. I know that everyone who reads this, get tired of me talking about my FATHER, but...he's the reason why I write about him consistently, so that I can gain some sort of comfort for what happened to him and my immediate family and I when life as I expected had gone totally bad. When you got Satan (Minnie Lou) on the other side of the horizon effecting everything that meant something to us, then I have a reason to talk about it and then some, so that the whole world will know her and what she did.

My FATHER is the reason why I express every trial and tribulation and the hell of what my immediate family and I went through with my ex aunt Minnie Lou and her blanket Power of Attorney over my FATHER'S life. I was in church today fellow-shipping with the body ("bride" in the book of Revelation) of the church. My cousin Amanda came up to my mother and I and gave us a sweet hug...acknowledging our presents. All of a sudden...my mother spoke about my FATHER and how Minnie Lou deceived our immediate family through her blanket Power of Attorney over my FATHER'S life. I gave Amanda the complete truth about what happened to my FATHER.

It was something she couldn't possibly know about when it came to the magnitude of what effects me to thus day. So...I had to give Amanda a brief refresher course of what happen during the last fateful six months of my FATHER'S life. First thing's first...I had to tell her about the last thing my FATHER said to me at close range, before he closed his eyes for all eternity. He said, "Keep Minnie away from me, I didn't want to come from the hospital, because...she's killing me!"  How do I cope with that on my own?

I can only ask GOD and his son JESUS for comfort, because I'm never going to forget what was like a thorny bush within reach for me to get poked. Who could forget what was once was after it happened? I know within a ounce of emotion, I will never forget those words my FATHER said towards the end of his life. My tears are real and plain as day as they continue to thus day when they roll down my face. My FATHER didn't deserve to be overdosed with morphine as instructed by Minnie Lou to the hospice nurse secretly behind closed doors.

I don't care what kind of comfortable she tried to administer like that morphine, my FATHER didn't deserve for his life to be cut short like it did. I will never forget it the day Minnie Lou helped my FATHER into a casket. Never! "Woe beyond the day Minnie Lou made sure the amount of morphine administered to my FATHER was fatal." Only jumping through hoops will fathom her fall, but...it will not clear her from the actual cost of reaping and sowing the possible consequences and the repercussions and everything she put my immediate family and I through with that blanket Power of Attorney and her extremely nasty disposition...she will ultimately suffer within that fate...only in the eyes of the GOD and his son JESUS she will suffer.

Deception Is Without A Doubt

Book 122

Mark 7:20 - 22 - 20. And he said, that which cometh out of the man, that defileth the man. 21. For from within, out of the heart of men, proceed evil thoughts, adulteries, fornication's, murders. 22. Thefts, covetousness, wickedness, deceit, lasciviousness, an evil eye, blasphemy, pride, foolishness: 

Romans 12:2 - 2. And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of GOD. 

Ephesians 4:31 - 32 - 31. Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice: 32. And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another even as GOD for Christ's sake hath forgiven you.

Synopsis: I would like to wish my FATHER a Happy Birthday in Heaven. This post reflects what's happening to us (immediate family) during our days of continuous mourning for my FATHER. Without a doubt, we believe that someone is messing with my FATHER'S grave, and in this post (without judgment) vengeance will prevail in the name of GOD for the culprit...if that's the case in the matter of Minnie Lou Wright. 

I don't understand for the life of me for someone (of whom I think) would go out and disturb a grave is beyond me. It seems as though my twin sister Sherri and I can't seem to keep flowers on our FATHER'S grave. "I mean, What the heck!" I'm not trying to judge anyone out of haste, or spite, but...it seems like a coincidence that every time my sister and I go out to visit our FATHER'S grave, at least a few weeks later, the flowers disappear. Then we look over at the other graves surrounding our FATHER'S grave...they are covered in flowers.

I have an idea about this one person who is evil beyond repair; that she would do just what I think she would do. Satan herself...Minnie Lou Wright! I got a strong feeling...and I don't want to judge her until I'm really certain that she's doing what I think she doing, by removing flowers from our FATHER'S grave. My sister and I truly think that she thinks we aren't showing our FATHER love by putting flowers on his grave, or visiting him occasionally. But...if this is happening (what we think is happening) then "woe" beyond to her and her wicked and evil ways.

We had solar lights placed on each side of our FATHER'S tombstone. Within weeks...they were gone. Then we happen to look over, and we saw the same set up with solar lights on our grandfather's and grandmother's grave. Solar lights on each side of their tombstone. So...with this said, I have a distinct feeling that Minnie Lou is the culprit of moving the flowers off of my FATHER'S grave. Maybe...it could be her daughter (the one that look like her) Lousondra.

I wondered within my heart...if this is the case, "Why...if so...are they doing this to us?" We (my immediate family and I) haven't done anything else to anyone in my FATHER'S family. We want nothing to do with either one of his family members, after what they did to my immediate family when my FATHER was alive, until his death. It's obvious in a whole lot of ways to think that Minnie Lou had something to do with what's happening at my FATHER'S grave site. If so...she will pay, and she will pay royally for it, I promise, thus saith GOD and his son JESUS vengeance!

"Infinity"

Book 119

Ruth 2:13 - 13. Then she said, Let me find favour in they sight, my LORD; for that thou hast comforted me, and for that thou hast spoken friendly unto thine handmaid thought I be not like unto one of thine handmaidens.

Job 6:10 - 10. Then should I yet have comfort; yea, I would harden myself in sorrow; let him not spare; for I have not concealed the words of the Holy One. 

       9:27 - 27. If I say, I will forget my complaint, I will leave off my heaviness, and comfort myself

       42: 11 - 11. Then came there unto him all is brethren, and all his sisters, and all they that had been of his acquaintance before, and did eat bread with him in his house; and they bemoaned him; every man also gave him a piece of money, and every one an earring of gold

Synopsis: I designed this post as personal, and there is no amount of sorry said that will bring my FATHER back to (family) us. The ultimate has happened, and in my post I take it as personal. 

He would of been 69 years old on February 19th and I've been thinking of him so much. I don't know what else to say right now, or how to totally deal with it! Maybe a whole lot of people really don't understand how much I really loved my FATHER, no matter what he did to me, or my family thought out the thirty plus years of our lives. I forgave my FATHER for his indiscretions. Maybe...if everyone put themselves in my shoes and realize how close I was to my FATHER; maybe even closer to sum it up.

I wish everyone will realize that there is not a day I don't think of him. "I was basically a daddy's girl." It's hard to fathom sometimes, when I thought  I could finally put my FATHER to rest and out of my mind. But...there came a time when there is a good memory within my heart that keeps me smiling consistently; and then...there are bad memories that still make me weak and totally angry. I try to erase those bad memories out of my mind, but there is no use for that, no matter how much I try.

When my FATHER said to my face on his death bed, "She's killing me!" That thought will never go away for infinity. Its embedded in my mind and in my heart and soul for infinity. My Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome I suffered and diagnosed with keeps coming back when I think of doing something crazy to make my ex aunt Minnie Lou pay for what she did to my FATHER...and then I start to think of GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time.

I really need my pilots to help me seriously with my heart; help me with my mind, my body and especially my soul. I need GOD and his son JESUS to bring me comfort and understanding of why my FATHER'S death took a toll on my life and my heart. I also need my pilots to help not to think evil thoughts of Minnie Lou. I try to live for the present (today) because tomorrow isn't promised to me, or anyone on this earth. All I could do and say is that I'm trying so hard to deal with my FATHER'S death the best way I can.

But...I know that the hurt will never go away, no matter how much I want it to go away. All I can do is to try and deal with my FATHER'S death the best way I can. That's all I can do! I miss my POPSKI very much. "My GOD and his son JESUS, I miss him so much. There will be a time in my life, I will have some good days, and there are times I will have some bad days. Nonetheless...I will try to focus on the good days to bring me through the tragedy I suffer, and still suffer to this day, for nearly three years. GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time.

Just Passing The Time Watching Crime Sitcoms

Book 117

* No Bible Verses On Criminal Activity In The Bible





I'm here once again with nothing to do. I'm sitting here for a brief moment, waiting to leave the house to go and pick up my son at 2:20 p.m. Maybe, just maybe I can drop a few paragraphs, before I get ready to leave the house en-route for my son, Zachary. I'm sitting here watching 'Crossing Jordan', a new sitcom that took the place of one episode out of three episodes of my favorite show in the world, Cold Case. I'm not sure who the characters are for this show, Crossing Jordan; and I haven't got them figured out yet,  but...the show seems interesting enough to me for a crime sitcom. The fact that I'm killing time watching it...was held in high regards. On the Crossing Jordan, I noticed that this same guy (Jerry O'Connell) getting beat up by a woman, who in fact knew karate, then the next minute, he getting  kidnapped and torched to death, and now Jerry O'Connell is getting chased by a doberman pincher.

I think I'm sold on this guy. He's not having a great day at all. Jerry O'Connell has been through the middle...sideways...and underneath the surface. I'm in joy with laughter as I watch this guy go through the motion on every deep end of the patch of destruction. Now...he brings in a bag of money to this black guy, played by (Leon) a so called lieutenant, or a detective, who I believe was a crook by nature and was using Jerry O'Connell in some sort of scheme I truly don't understand, even if I tried.

Like I said...I'm passing time until I leave to pick up my so Zachary. On the other hand...I'm spending time in communication with my twin sister, Sherri while I watch Crossing Jordan. We found ourselves talking about an episode of "Medium", another crime show that deals with the fact that this woman by the name of Alison Dubois, was a psychic woman who could see into the future of things out of the ordinary. There was this particular episode where these two Navajo Indians robbed banks, but...were killed one by one, as they were begging for their lives, this unknown assailant (this guy) killed them for the cash that they stole from the bank. In conspiracy...this Navajo woman (who was a so called friend of Alison Dubois, the psychic) was behind both the killings of these two Navajo Indians who robbed a bank.

In return...this Navajo woman had gotten a taste of her own very bad medicine, when she thought that she gotten away with murder. She then...bought a necklace from this vendor at a flea market, a black guy, who seemed like he knew this woman. The next thing I knew as I watched this woman begging for her life, this black guy, the vendor was holding a gun in the face of this Navajo woman, who conspired to killing the two Navajo Indians who robbed a bank, shot the Navajo woman to death. That's how the crime sitcom, Medium ended; with this Navajo woman getting shot to death. That's it! I found that episode of Medium, a very interesting one, even know it was truly violent. I know that Sherri was pleased with that episode of Medium, we could not stop talking about it.

 It's coming down to the time until I had to leave the house to go and pick up my son, Zachary. I rather enjoyed posting this post in order to kill some time before I have to leave home. I've seen some of the most dramatic mysteries of both crime sitcoms. Maybe, just maybe when I have more interesting posts, I will be sure to post to my ability with great posts as they come to mind.

The Fortress Of Mortal Damnation

Book 116

1 Corinthians 15:53 - 53. For this corruptible must put on in corruption, and mortal must put o immortality. 

Mark 3:29 - 29. But he that shall blaspheme against the Holy Ghost hath never forgiveness but i danger of eternal damnation. 

Luke 20:47 - 47. Which devour widows houses and for a shew make long prayers; the same shall receive greater damnation. 

Matthew 23:14 - 14. Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites, for ye devour widows houses, and for a pretense make long prayer; therefore ye shall receive the greater damnation. 

Romans 13:2 - 2. Whosoever therefore resisteth the power, resisteth the ordinance of GOD; and they that resist shall receive to themselves damnation. 

I couldn't believe it! I saw what use to be my ex aunt, Minnie Lou (the one who murdered my father) at a wake I went to pay my respects to an old friend who died just recently. I didn't want to believe it, but...with all of the friends and family my old friend had, I was bound see my ex aunt in attendance after almost three years of not wanting anything to do with her at all. And as Minnie Lou was passing through the crowds of people that were exiting the church, she happen to reach over, and touch my mother and told her she looked great. My mother looked over at her, and she didn't utter a word to her, not one syllable,; she just stared at her. 

My status...I wouldn't give her a second look; not even the first look to sum it up to what the second look...look like. I'm still quite bitter with her, because of what she did my FATHER during the last days of his life. I hate to be that way, but...it can't be helped, not even a little bit. I guess people in general need to step in my shoes in order to get a touch of the pure 'hell' Minnie Lou put my immediate family and I through. Knowing and understanding how we feel when someone like her file Power of Attorney over a "live family" on my FATHER'S life and it's hard to forget.

I for one...will never forget the magnitude of it for as long as I live. Minnie Lou had the nerve to even utter one word (I'll pray for you, when she desperately need the prayer herself) to my mother, after lying about everything, including my FATHER'S finances and the whereabouts of my FATHER'S clothes and personal accessories. I'm telling everyone who finds this post truly alarming; she really did a number on all of us for those last six months of my FATHER'S life. But it's time to move on from old relex like Minnie Lou. Her reaping day is coming for her with a vengeance. That heart attack, or whatever she had when she had surgery on her heart (I felt for her, don't get me wrong) but... it not nearly enough for my immediate family and I to receive justice for my FATHER.

GOD and his son JESUS only kept my Minnie Lou alive for a good reason, so that one day, she will see the full magnitude of her reaping time in a manfold. I have to admit...seeing her at my old friend's funeral after almost three years since my FATHER, was very hard to bare sure enough, and I'm not kidding about that. Although...I still found it safe in my heart to move on with my life and let GOD and his son JESUS continue to work on Minnie Lou, because...my pilots above isn't done with her yet. She has a whole lot of "riff raft" to pay off for and I wouldn't want to be in her shoes when that day of strong reaping comes for her. Then my FATHER will have his justice, as well as my immediate family and myself.

The Peacemaker

Book 115

Hebrews 13:20 - 21 - 20. Now the GOD of peace, that brought again from the dead our LORD JESUS that great shepherd of the sheep, through the blood of the everlasting covenant. 21. make you perfect in every good work to do his will, working in you that which is well pleasing in his sight, through JESUS Christ; to whom be glory for ever and every. Amen

I think my mother, Ruth misses my FATHER very much. I can see it in her eyes sometimes. Even though...my FATHER indiscretions wore heavy on my mother's conscience, she still had a huge heart for my FATHER, no matter what. Who can say that its a bad to think of someone who has done you wrong almost of half your marriage life? I spotted her with a blank stare as she looked at some pictures my FATHER in his casket.

My mother had asked me to send some pictures of my FATHER to her cell phone, so that she can always keep him there in memory of what he once was to her. I can completely remember a time when my mother and FATHER use to laugh about everything, no matter what it was they were laughing about. They had some good and bad times together. In my heart, I knew my FATHER had settled all of his differences with my mother, and became square with the house above, before he passed on. For him...it was like setting his heart, mind, body and soul; more like cleaning up his act before he closed his eyes for the last time.

I totally think my mother accepted my FATHER"S apology for everything he has done to her. It's the only logical way...most likely, a Godly thing to do when you're strongly into the LORD...JESUS Christ, born again Christian like my mother was. I'm happy to say that I'm proud of that in every sense. Most of all...I'm very happy that my ex aunt Minnie Lou didn't put more of a damper in between my mother and FATHER'S relationship any more than she did when she filed that Power of Attorney on my FATHER"S life.

I will never forget what she did, when she helped put my FATHER in a casket. But...I'm moving on. because I don't want cry anymore. Its too hard on me as it is.