When You Know You're Talked About

 Book 197

Acts 26:31 - 31. And when they were gone aside, they talked between themselves, saying, This man doeth nothing worthy of death, or of bonds.

Mark 3:5 -  5. And when he looked round about them with anger, being grieved for the hardness of their hearts, he saith unto the man, Stretch forth thine hand. And he stretched it out: and his hand was restored whole as the other.

Romans 10:3 - 3. For they being ignorant pf GOD's righteousness, and going about to establish their own righteousness., have not submitted themselves unto the righteousness of  GOD.

Romans 3:23 - 23. For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of GOD.

No one can put nothing pass me If I know I'm being talked about. I am there in my head! But...you know what, "Sticks and stones, might break my bones, but...names will never hurt me in a flash." And...I do mean that from the heart. I do know that there is "one culprit" who's fueling it all to get everyone against me. I wasn't born yesterday, or the day after that. I am passed it with the abundance of common sense, and no one will take that away from me.

I gained that common sense from GOD and his son JESUS to know, and to see between every line that is shared and posted about me on social sites. "I'm not stupid by a long shot!" I know what I see without hearing about it word of mouth, and I am also tired of my M O T H E R S name used as a cop-out from their indiscretions. I am done with the people who are being stupid about things that don't make no sense when I'm not doing anything to them. Their indiscretions will send them to "Hell" if they don't stop doing what their doing. And...to say this, "The one culprit who is fueling the indiscretion, will send their offspring to Hell as well, if they don't stop using what was told to them against me."

This is why I let God and his son JESUS have it, because...I don't have time for nonsense, and people like the culprit, and the offspring to bring me down, and using my M O T H E R...once again as a cop-out. But let me tell about the offspring. The offspring acts as though it hurts to say, "Hello, or talk to about anything they want to talk to me about it." That's not right! To the culprit who is fueling these indiscretions to the offspring, "Woe beyond to them with a passion, if they're feeding the offspring indiscretions that makes no sense to place on their table, because...it's not only hurting them, but...it's hurting the offspring in this fiasco that will send both of them to Hell."

This is why I am telling it straight from my heart, because...I am tired of the offspring treating me like I am poison, and I am not there in presents in their eyes. I am tired of being ignored in the heart of the offspring. "I am also tired of the eye rolls too!" I am tired of the culprit using my M O T H E R as a cop-out for every sentence from their mouth every time I look around. 

Not Living In Persecution

 Book 195

Exodus 20:2-17 2. I am the LORD thy GOD, which have brought thee out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage. 3. Thou shalt have no other gods before me. 4. Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth. 5. Thou shalt not bow down thyself to them, nor serve them: for I the LORD thy GOD am a jealous GOD, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation of them that hate me; 6. And shewing mercy unto thousands of them that love me, and keep my commandments. 7. Thou shalt not take the name of the LORD thy GOD in vein; for the LORD will not hold the guiltless that taketh his name in vain. 8. Remember the sabbath day, to keep it holy. 9. Six days shalt thou labour, and do all thy work: 10. But the seventh day is the sabbath of the lord god: in it thou shalt not do any work, thou, nor thy son, nor thy daughter, thy manservant, nor thy maidservant, nor thy cattle, nor thy stranger that is within thy gates: 11. For in six days the LORD made heaven and earth, the sea, and all that in them is, and the rested seventh day: where for the LORD bless the sabbath day, and hallowed it. 12. Honour thy Father and thy Mother: that thy days be long upon the earth which the LORD thy GOD giveth thee. 13. Thou shalt not kill. 14. Thou shalt not commit adultery. 15. Thou shalt not steal. 16. Thou shalt not bear false witness against they neighbor. 17. Thou shalt not covet thy neighbor's house, thou shalt not covet thy neighbor's wife, nor his manservant, nor his maidservant, nor his ox l, nor his ass, nor any thing that is thy neighbor's.

Sometimes I feel like everyone is against me for no reason, nor did I give them a reason to be so judgemental against me. Even though my siblings, nephews, and especially my niece are on the outside; and trying to look inside my thoughts, and they have no clue about what's going on with me, or how I feel about things, or know the flavor of my Kool Aid. My issue run deeper than an open wound, and it seems like everyone loves to pick at it like the center of a nucleus. I am not trying judge anyone in my family, but it's the way I feel sometimes when I feel everyone trying to nit pick an argument up for no reason, and I haven't cause any haste, nor done anything to no one,  and I am truly convinced. Anytime I feel the way I feel when I think my family trying to get me frustrated, especially my sister Sherri, only to start a argument with me, I start to pray. 

And then...I think of my M O T H E R when these provocative occurrences of anger my family is trying to inflict on me for no reason what so ever. I remember times when I did my M O T H E R wrong out of haste. I wasn't a perfect child to her, and I don't bite my tongue when I tell the truth about it.  No one is perfect in their sense of character. I did apologize to my M O T H E R the day she went to glory. 

But...I'm still reaping the consequences and the repercussions for my indiscretions and actions against my M O T H E R. Then I think of the book of Exodus 20:12, "Honour thy Father and thy Mother: that thy days may be long upon the earth which the LORD thy GOD giveth thee." The bible is fulfilling itself at its entirety. I know what I had to go through, and pray about, before I could receive fully salvation, and be forgiven for my sins, and my sins against my M O T H E R. Back to my family! All I ever wanted from my family, was to fit somewhere in the equation, and like a missing piece of a puzzle.

If I did anything wrong to anyone, I would to tell my family: I am truly sorry in the name of JESUS, my LORD. My pilots know I do not want any more haste with my family, nor with anyone else. I made my peace with my M O T H E R before she went to glory, and I know she forgave me a long time ago. I just want to live holy; laugh with my family every chance I get, and love my family for every second of every minute I live on this earth. "That's my destiny in a way life that we all should be living in the mist of GOD and his son JESUS."

Once Twice The Indiscretions

 Book 194 

Romans 5:9 - 11 - 9. Much more them being justified by his blood we shall be saved from draft through him. 10. For if, when we were enemies, we were reconciled to GOD by the death of his son, much more, being reconciled, we shall be saved by his life. 11. And not only so, but we also joy in GOD through our LORD JESUS Christ, by whom have now received the atonement. 

When a person like myself have a situation at hand when it comes to a sibling, you got to take the bitter with the sweet to get through the day without going crazy. This is how it is with me and my sister Sherri. She makes you so angry sometimes to a point, you want to peel her skull and not ruin her hair in the process. Yes, we are in a spat about WiFi Internet that I asked her nicely to for, Sherri acted like she didn't want me to access to it. I decided to go ahead and change my mind about having access to her WiFi Internet.

Then, all heck broke loose, because I changed my mind and decided to back out. I told her that, "I am not trying to start anything with her, but...I notice that she was not talking and that she looked like she wasn't feeling well." At that moment, Sherri had told me she had a headache. I was going to accept the fact that she had a headache, until she told me that I was evil, and that our M O T H E R was right about me being rough and mean to her. Sherri had brought back and opened up old wounds about my spats with our M O T H E R, that I simply apologized to her on her death bed, before she was released to the Kingdom of GOD. It seemed like every time we had a spat, she would throw our M O T H E R in my face about the spats we use to have. I felt that was wrong of her to do that to me, when I already made peace with my, before she died. 

Sherri other indiscretion was also throwing her husbands parents in my face so that they can get them upset with me for them to look at me any kind of way like I am trash. I wasn't going to take it anymore with my sister throwing people in my face, including our deceased M O T H E R because it was a low blow to me to use our M O T H E R in that manner. I told my brother Wesley about what she did. He was totally upset with Sherri that she would rehash and bring up old wounds about our M O T H E R and I having having spats, and throwing her husband Lorenzo parents in the mix to get them upset with me over our spat with each other. I wasn't going to take it no more with my sister throwing people in my face, the main one I loved so much in my face, because it was ludicrous, unfounded, and ignorant. 

That was when I started praying for Sherri about her actions, and the fact that she had a headache, and about the fact that I was concerned about her, because she wasn't talking at all throughout the morning. It was like she was taking her frustrations out on me, and accusing me for arguing with her and I wasn't raising my voice to her. I was totally shock at the way she was acting. I left well enough alone and let GOD handle her problem, whether if it was all of her medicine she's taking bothering her, or if she just had a bad attitude from the effects of her medicines. I don't know anymore! 

My whole demeanor had changed about her when it came to her throwing people, including our M O T H E R in my face, and then rehashing up old wounds. "I am done taking it!" 

What Sow...Sow Shall I Reap

 Book 185 - Special Edition Post

Luke 6:38 - 38. Give, and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed down, and shaken together, and running over, shall men give into your bosom. For with the same measure that ye mete withal it shall be measured to you again.

Galatians 6:8 - 8. For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting. 

2 Corinthians 9:6 - 6. But this I say, He which sleety sparingly shall reap also sparingly and he which sleety bountiful my shall reap also bountifully.

  

I wrote a letter in memory of my parents. I mostly wrote about my M O T H E R and my indiscretions I had against her when she was alive. Now...I reap what I sow through my son Zachary. I deserve what GOD and his son JESUS raft which is inflicted on me. I am going to take it, because I deserve it for the way I treated my M O T H E R. She continue to love me so much. Before she left me, she was at peace, and she forgave me with peace. I asked GOD and his son JESUS for forgiveness for my M O T H E R, and now, I am at peace.

My letter as it reads: 

I have issues dealing with the death of my parents. I know in my heart that my F AT H E R was the most important key to my existence, but...my M O T H E R was a different form of importance. She was the one who gave me life; she was the one who provided me comfort and with the knowledge to do so. She was my hover over me when things got bad. She made sure I was alright, along with my F A T H E R say in this. She made sure I had everything I needed to live in this world. Along with my F A T H E R, my M O T H E R was my safety net without confusion of what to do next. 

I have been taught by the best of the best. I have nothing but memories of my parents. Those memories continued with rules and regulations; the law of GOD and his son JESUS put into my parents hearts to instill it in me, so that I could learn from my mistakes if there were any. I can say right now, that I appreciate everything that my parents did for me when they were alive and well. I had a few bad patches with my M O T H E R I never got a chance to apologize to her about. Yes, I was a bad person only by choice at the time. 

I use to bad mouth my M O T H E R. My sister would tell me all the time, "To never talk to our M O T H E R like I did, and I did it anyway." But...my M O T H E R kept loving me even though, and she just kept smiling, never letting what I did bother her. In her heart, mind, body, and soul, she had already forgiven me for what I done to her. My M O T H E R was at peace through GOD and his son JESUS almighty. She had already forgiven me for all of indiscretions. I live through my reaping everyday through my son Zachary. 

He was so rebellious to me. He talks back to me just as I did my M O T H E R. Zachary did what he wanted and still doing what he wants just as I did my M O T H E R. He yells and screams at me just as I did to my M O T H E R. "I get it now!" I get it. What I sow...sow shall I reap. 

My reaping days is here in a ten fold through my son Zachary. He is totally letting me have it! Now I have the memory of my M O T H E R telling me so. She told me numerous times that everything I did to her was going to come back to me. It's here and it is ten times worst than I imagined for the way I treated her. I did love my M O T H E R with every breath I took and with every ounce of strength I had in my body, but...I didn't show her at the time when I treated her wrong when she was living on this earth. 

But...she forgave me before she she left me. Then...I asked GOD and his son JESUS to forgive me for what I did to my M O T H E R, and everything she had been through with me. I was totally amber to my F A T H E R, but...my M O T H E R rode the storm with me, my F A T H E R, and everyone else who did her wrong, and she just kept smiling to the four winds. I can say this with comfort, and with peace in my heart, "GOD and his son JESUS has forgiven me for my M O T H E R, and my M O T H E R has forgiven me through GOD and his on JESUS." 

I can say and continuously say, "I am at peace with it and myself included. I love you M O T H E R, I love you F A T H E R. Rest well.with the angels.

Healing A Bad Patch

 Book 178

Malachi 4:2 - 2. But unto you that fear my name shall the Sun of righteousness arise with healing in his wings; and he shall go forth ANF grow up as calves of the stall.

Luke 9:11 - 11. And the people when they knew it, followed him: and he received them, and spend unto them of the Kingdom of GOD, and healed them that had need of healing.

1 Corinthians 12:9 - 9. To another faith the same Spirit; to another the gifts of healing by the same Spirit.

As usual on a Monday evening when I go out to my son Zachary football practice to watch him practice until he was finished practicing. While I sat there watching my son, my mind was in thought of my M O T H E R...only a brief moment. I remember a time when she sat in the exact spot where I was sitting, just watching her grandson practice and enjoying herself. It's hard sometimes not having my M O T H E R in my presents, or to the point where I could talk to her in person. I know GOD and his son JESUS took her home to be with them, but...sometimes I feel that I am totally alone without a care in the world for me to fathom that I exist. 

That's the way I feel sometimes, like I am not there in reality. On a Monday, I was in Wal-Mart Christmas shopping when I saw a woman on a motor car inside the store. With the strain of my eyes, I thought I saw my M O T H E R on that motor car riding towards me. For a minute my mind was out of reality of the fact that my M O T H E R was dead. I started riding towards this woman with a smile on my face, then I came to reality when I understood that the woman was not in fact my M O T H E R. My M O T H E R in reality was deceased. 

I immediately started crying out so loud until this man and woman came towards me like they wanted to console me. They asked was I alright. I told them I will be alright. I told them that,  I'll be fine. Two days later, the though of my M O T H E R that Monday evening stayed with me after seeing that woman in Wal-Mart. On Thursday I had a really bad patch about my M O T H E R. She was totally on my mind. I remember when I got into an argument with her over certain things; minor things that didn't make no sense to me.

I found that after my M O T H E R died, I never got the chance to apologize to her, or tell her that I loved her with all of my heart. That fate ate away with me, and I cry to the point that my blood pressure rises. I have been living with the guilt of that for quite sometime, until my brother Wesley and my sister-in-law Neyome invited me come and join their church. I joined and I got Baptised so that my sins can be washed away. And then...Wesley explained to me about my baptism. When you are baptized under GOD, all of your sin are washed away, including my guilt of not apologize to my M O T H E R when I had the chance. 

I now feel better about my indiscretions when it came to my apology to my M O T H E R. My LORD had already forgiven my sin. I feel that a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders. I now see that my M O T H E R can now rest in peace. I feel much better where I am. I find myself a Christian for GOD and his son JESUS. 

It feels good to be where I need to be and worship with people are warm and loving towards me, no matter what color you are. I am proud to be a part of the congregation for Christ our LORD. The memories of my M O T H E R will stay with me for the rest of my life. I can tell here, " I love her" anytime, even though she has gone home to glory where she will never suffer pain, or the pain of her dialysis; she will never cry again about anything. My M O T H E R is happy living with the LORD, and I am happy about that.

An Unfounded Dose Of Betrayal

 Book 172

Mark 11:25 - 25. And when ye stand praying, forgive, if ye have ought against any; that your Father also which is in Heaven may forgive you your trespasses

One day niece, you will know what it feel like to be betrayed by the one that suppose to love you unconditionally. One day niece, you will know what it feel like to be ignored when you call out to that person by their name and that person keeps walking away from you without listening to what you had to say to them and them without uttering a sound. One day niece, you will know what it feel like for you to want a hug and that person tells you that "they don't want that hug, or they don't want to talk to you, or they don't want you to touch them and they just walk out to door so full of resentment against you because...they found a indiscretion that you did that they didn't like." Understand niece, how it feels to be betrayed by the person you thought suppose to love you no matter what circumstances hit over the horizon. After all said and done, your eyes are so full of tears, because...you can't fathom the thought of what you did that was so wrong that person seem to carry so much hate. 

Yes...the facts are mutual that it is a love/hate relationship this person carries for you that you can't understand why they are doing this you when all you did was to love them with all of your might. One day niece, you are going to ask yourself, "Why did I do this to the one that loves me unconditionally without thinking twice." One day niece, you are going to imagine the thought of what you done to bring unhappiness, tears, and depression to the one who only want to reason with you when you said, "I didn't utter a greeting to you that morning, when it was obvious that you get the same greeting every morning you enter the front room. Now, it is time that I give you niece an ultimatum! How you carried yourself that morning was totally unfounded and it was betrayal to you've endured on me when all you would of received is love unconditionally. 

All this boils down to niece was all you had to do was to tell me my indiscretion straight forward and that indiscretion would of made a 360 to your satisfaction. All that could of been worked out accordingly if only you didn't have that kind of demeanor you had that morning. I didn't know how to come at you, because of this demeanor you carried so graciously. "It was scary to fathom how you were feeling that morning niece!" I will say this, "How you treated me as a elder...you had no right to treat me like that otherwise, because...I am a elder...and you treat your elders with respect." 

R-E-S-P-E-C-T, you did not administer that thought. You just walked out the door in haste, and with that haste, you will reap the consequences and the repercussions of your actions. One day niece, you will know what that feel like to want love and you can't receive it. There was one thing I was told niece, and here is what I was told by someone that was also suppose to close to me when I had no one else to turn to but my self. "My daughter loves you very much!" 

Well here is my saying to the one that suppose to be close to me when I didn't have no one to turn to or to back me up when it comes to being decieved and betrayed. "If I was truly loved, everything I said in this post, would of never came to past." That's not love if a person ignores you when all you wanted to do was to talk to them and they keep walking away from you without listening to that word you had to say them; and what was so hurting, was that they tell you that say they didn't want a hug from you and that they didn't want to talk to you; and most of all...acted like they didn't want you to touch them and they walk straight out the door with that kind of haste is not love. That in itself is hate and it is total betrayal!  

Let's Be Honest About The Things We Should Be Honest About!

Book 158

2 Corinthians 4:2 - 2. But have renounced the hidden things of dishonesty, not walking in craftiness, nor handing the word of GOD deceitfully; but by manifestation of the truth commending ourselves to every man's conscience in the sight of GOD.

1 Timothy 2:2 - 2. For kings, and for all that are in authority that we may lead a quiet and peaceable life in all godliness and honesty. 

What more can I do about the situation I'm in with Alrick. He doesn't really understand what I'm trying to do to make his surprise more exciting. But...I told my twin sister Sherri to forget his surprise, and go with what I have with the money to Jamaica. $2,500 dollars to be exact! For me...I feel what I told my sister (to forget the surprise) will be a learning lesson for Alrick, to never doubt what I'm trying to do to make things better for us in Jamaica.

I know in my heart that he'll be upset with me, as he always have been, for a week; in and out of one argument to the next, and its about the money. How will I tell Alrick about the money I had in the bank for my trip to Jamaica? How will I tell him that I'm very short of the amount I said I had? How will I tell him that I had to use most of the money for things I had to do that were very important? I've kept this secret in far too long to let him know why my trip is prolonged.

When I told him about my sister and her husband Lorenzo had to cancel their trip to Las Vegas, Nevada, because of the "Corona Virus" that's lingering around the entire world, and that my son Zachary will not be home alone after all, he snapped on me in a heartbeat. We argued for at least an hour and a half about my sister and her husband's cancellation of their trip, and I don't why that was. I knew for sure that Alrick was going to ask me about their money, and the money I had in the bank. This was why I couldn't tell him about the money in the bank, because I'm very short of cash, and I need a little more to equal the amount I'm bringing to Jamaica (that my sister and her husband are going to give to me) instead of Alrick's surprise that I had in store for him. With all the arguments we had, is the reason I told my sister to cancel Alrick's surprise, and I didn't tell her why I cancelled the surprise.

Like I stated at the beginning of this post, "Cancellation of the surprise will be a learning lesson for Alrick" to never doubt me about anything I'm trying to do to make our lives better. That is the repercussions that one must endure for their attitude, spasms, and mayhem that was inflicted on me. But...most part, I deserve most of the problems that were inflicted on me for not telling Alrick about the money I had in the bank, and that it wasn't enough to really do anything, like taking care of the house the Alrick had reserved for us in Jamaica. I pray the house is still there in the name of JESUS! LORD I pray that it's still there 'reserved' for us to have for the entire month I will be in Jamaica.

I hope that Alrick will forgive me for everything I put him through. For the amount of love that he give me unconditionally, I really need to change my ways, as he stated to me in a conversation we had over a week ago, I believe. I guess I never had that kind of love before, not even with my son's father. I know now how important I am to Alrick. I admit to all the problems I cause Alrick for not disclosing the truth about the money I had in the bank.

I guess I felt...I was most afraid that I would lose my "sweet boy" who's all man for his age...over twenty plus years my senior. I guess I was to...testing myself to see how much this man love me. But still...I'm so afraid I will lose my sweet boy! I pray that he allow me to still come and be with him as his wife in Jamaica. I can only hope when he read this post if the offer still stand and that he will still love me, and be his wife. This is a learning lesson for me as well!

"Well...I had to express myself on 'electronic paper' to prove a point to my fiance, because I couldn't tell him to his face in fear that he would leave me." 

When Our Lives Is About Unconditional Love And Happiness

Book 157 - Special Edition Post

1 Peter 3:7 - 7. LIkewise, ye husbands, dwell with them according to knowledge, giving honour unto the wife, as unto the weaker vessel, and as being heirs together of the grace of life; that your prayers be not hindered. 

Ephesians 5:31 - 31. For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother, and shall be joined unto his wife, and they two shall be one flesh.



I've learned so much about my life in one heartbeat after another. I found myself in a midlife crisis, and it was hard for me to believe that I can act out of malice and self pity over things that was not necessary to argue about. My fiance Alrick and I had a terrible argument about doing thinks that mattered to both of us. And for no apparent reason, I started an argument about money, and other things that I don't care to explain, because it's too private to talk about. I was very mean and nasty to Alrick, and I felt so ashamed of myself for carrying on like I did.

I did apologize to my Alrick for my totally ugly behavior. It's just...I don't want to lose what I have with him. I trying to make my way into his heart and into his arms in Jamaica by the end of this month. I just hope that nothing out of the ordinary come up, or I don't let him down, because I've already changed plans from the middle of the month (on the 15th) to the end of month on the 31st of March. I just hope I don't disappoint him! And...I don't want him to be upset with me if something comes up and I can't make the trip at the end of the month.

I'm really praying to GOD and his son JESUS to make it happen for me to travel (even with the Corona Virus) that's going around, I know that my GOD and his son JESUS will put a shield of protection around me as I travel to Jamaica. I know I will be covered in the name of my pilots above. "Please GOD, let me make my trip to Jamaica without anymore problems, or delays." I've delayed Alrick enough to want to be there in Jamaica, and in his arms as soon as I get off of my plane. Please GOD...let it be for me to travel and be with Alrick, and we get married, conceive our baby, and move on with our lives as we see it.

I know it will be beautiful! Alrick love's me more than himself put together. He has shown me more than twice, more than I can count. Communication is a must, as well as trust for one another with honesty without holding back. I give my life to Alrick, as I live it without haste and anger.

I love him so much; even more than myself. Alrick and I will always love unconditionally! 😍😘🙏 "Father GOD...in you holy and blessed name, I pray for Alrick and I, that we make it in our marriage, and that we shall prosper with our lives as we see fit with you ahead of all things that we will go through as husband and wife." We will have problems; we will go through battles fought in wars that we can win together; we can strive and mend our relationship with communication, trust, faith, hope and glory and that we solve our problems in a instant; we will continue to live by your word, I pray...amen. 

Surrendering All The Love One Can Ever Have

Book 154

Ecclesiastes 7:3 - 3. Sorrow is better than laughter: for by sadness of the counternance the

I did something thus day I had no control over. I had to surrender my puppy dog Sheba, because I had no where to place her in the midst of things, and people alike. I had no choice, because where I am, she can't be, with the proper financial stability. I hurt so bad right now, because I had to give her up with tears beaming down my cheek bones, like a river flows it's rapids beating against the shore. I could see Sheba's face in my memory of her.

I hear her bark as though she's right here with me. I know I will never forget Sheba for as long as I live. She was a very beautiful house broken dog with a lot of funny qualities about her. Sheba kept a smile on my face everyday I walked her, pet her, and gave her all the love I could give her, before I turned her over to my brother-in-law, who took charge of her while I tried to look the other way, so I would see her leave out the front door one last time.

I miss her more than the hours that she was taken away from my heart. All I know...I will never forget my Sheba, and I pray to GOD and his son JESUS that Sheba will be provided with a good family who will love her like I did, and that she's not neglected, nor abused. I pray that Sheba will have a forever home to go to.

Uncommon Valor Towards Its Common Virtue

Book 147

Deuteronomy 31:6 - 6. Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the LORD thy GOD, He it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee. 

1 Chronicles 28:20 - 20. And David said to Solomon his son, Be strong and of good courage, and do it; fear not, nor be dismayed; for the LORD GOD even my GOD will be with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee, until thou hast finished all the work for  the service of the house of the LORD

*I choose to keep the "girl" and the "woman" anonymous throughout my post

What do I mean when I say, "Uncommon Valor Towards Its Common Virtue?" It means exceptional bravery...a common denominator and courage was found in the hearts of those who fought for what they believe in. This is what I saw in this "girl" who fought totally hard to make ends meet. Her suffering, and her exceptional bravery was rewarded with a job, and a potential status for child support from the father of one of her babies, so that she want have to worry about her sons (who are practically babies), or whether they are going to eat, or to be clothe from one day to the next. But...GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time.

I find that the "girl" in this post was telling the truth all the time about what was really going on in her life, when we (my family) known her to be a compulsive liar. We were all wrong about this girl! She was really struggling with her self esteem. She was crying all the time, because...she was trying all she could as a single mother with two babies. Sometimes I had to ask myself, "Why did I doubt this girl, when all she tried to do is tell us about how hard her life was?"

It's obvious to know when this woman this "girl" lived with had thrown her out of her house, because of her crying babies. I had to ask myself, "What is the real reason this woman throw this "girl" out of her home?" Just like I said, "The girl's crying babies!" This woman couldn't stand for the babies to cry all day, everyday when she have a two year old walking around the house crying too. I feel it was totally wrong what this woman did to this girl.

How would she feel if someone threw her out of the house with her baby? He reaping day is coming for her in full force. But...I'm proud to say that this 'girl" is being totally brave with self confidence and her self esteem. There will be days that she will be overwhelmed with taking care of two babies, and she will cry of many days, because of being overwhelmed, but...she chose to stick it out; take care of her babies and move on to big and better things. This "girl" is getting ready to finish school and receive her GED. I couldn't be more prouder of her.

Forgiveness With A Clean Slate

Book 139

Romans 5:3 - 8 - 3. And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also; knowing that tribulation worketh patience. 4. And patience, experience, and experience hope: 5. And hope maketh not ashamed, because the love of GOD is she'd abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given to us. 6. For when we were yet without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. 7. For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet peradventure for a good man some would even dare to die. 8. But GOD commendeth his love towards us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. 

Galatians 6:1 - 1. "Brethren, if a man be overtaken in a fault he which are Spiritual, restore such an one in the spirit of meekness; considering thyself lest thou also be tempted."


What is to forgive? The benefits are phenomenal when your forgive someone who meant you harm, and has done you wrong in so many ways. It''s only right to forgive in order to clean your slate of despair. Don't build up in your heart of the many things that you consistently consume against a person, or persons, because your thoughts alone will send you to Hades. It's better to forgive than to be bitter with that person, or persons who meant you harm.

When GOD forgives your sin, he doesn't put a mark on who he forgives. Committing sins and living in sin will make you dirty like a filthy rag on a pedestal. Seek in your heart the burden that kept you from seeking forgiveness for all of your sins, and find peace for the way you feel after forgiving that person you had indiscretions with. Forgiveness is the key to abundance...a true gain that will make you free from despair. Live life in a way that brings in a blank slate for success, without a mark of discrepancy.

Always forgive those who have sinned against you. You'll find yourself free of the guilt that kept you holding onto a very heavy weight. Free yourself of that weight, because you will feel lighter than you've ever felt and imagined. Clear your mind, your hear, and most definitely rebuild your soul abundantly from Hades.

The choice is yours to deal with if you want to live free of hate, grief and despair.

Just Passing The Time Watching Crime Sitcoms

Book 117

* No Bible Verses On Criminal Activity In The Bible





I'm here once again with nothing to do. I'm sitting here for a brief moment, waiting to leave the house to go and pick up my son at 2:20 p.m. Maybe, just maybe I can drop a few paragraphs, before I get ready to leave the house en-route for my son, Zachary. I'm sitting here watching 'Crossing Jordan', a new sitcom that took the place of one episode out of three episodes of my favorite show in the world, Cold Case. I'm not sure who the characters are for this show, Crossing Jordan; and I haven't got them figured out yet,  but...the show seems interesting enough to me for a crime sitcom. The fact that I'm killing time watching it...was held in high regards. On the Crossing Jordan, I noticed that this same guy (Jerry O'Connell) getting beat up by a woman, who in fact knew karate, then the next minute, he getting  kidnapped and torched to death, and now Jerry O'Connell is getting chased by a doberman pincher.

I think I'm sold on this guy. He's not having a great day at all. Jerry O'Connell has been through the middle...sideways...and underneath the surface. I'm in joy with laughter as I watch this guy go through the motion on every deep end of the patch of destruction. Now...he brings in a bag of money to this black guy, played by (Leon) a so called lieutenant, or a detective, who I believe was a crook by nature and was using Jerry O'Connell in some sort of scheme I truly don't understand, even if I tried.

Like I said...I'm passing time until I leave to pick up my so Zachary. On the other hand...I'm spending time in communication with my twin sister, Sherri while I watch Crossing Jordan. We found ourselves talking about an episode of "Medium", another crime show that deals with the fact that this woman by the name of Alison Dubois, was a psychic woman who could see into the future of things out of the ordinary. There was this particular episode where these two Navajo Indians robbed banks, but...were killed one by one, as they were begging for their lives, this unknown assailant (this guy) killed them for the cash that they stole from the bank. In conspiracy...this Navajo woman (who was a so called friend of Alison Dubois, the psychic) was behind both the killings of these two Navajo Indians who robbed a bank.

In return...this Navajo woman had gotten a taste of her own very bad medicine, when she thought that she gotten away with murder. She then...bought a necklace from this vendor at a flea market, a black guy, who seemed like he knew this woman. The next thing I knew as I watched this woman begging for her life, this black guy, the vendor was holding a gun in the face of this Navajo woman, who conspired to killing the two Navajo Indians who robbed a bank, shot the Navajo woman to death. That's how the crime sitcom, Medium ended; with this Navajo woman getting shot to death. That's it! I found that episode of Medium, a very interesting one, even know it was truly violent. I know that Sherri was pleased with that episode of Medium, we could not stop talking about it.

 It's coming down to the time until I had to leave the house to go and pick up my son, Zachary. I rather enjoyed posting this post in order to kill some time before I have to leave home. I've seen some of the most dramatic mysteries of both crime sitcoms. Maybe, just maybe when I have more interesting posts, I will be sure to post to my ability with great posts as they come to mind.

A Time To Rejoice, Love And Move On

Book 112

Ecclesiastes 3:8 - 8. A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace. 





We'll it's about time for school to start up again and Zachary says, "He's ready to go back." That's hard to believe when he was so ready for Christmas vacation last year 2018. I guess I'm not ready to get up those early mornings and take him to school, but one of many jobs of a mother's is never done when it comes to taking the kids to school on a regular basis. Zachary was already in bed at 10:00 pm, while I'm having a little me time, watching television and on my computer writing this post. I guess I'm also killing off time trying to find something else to do, and talk about.

Most of the time, I can find something to do, or talk about in a instance, especially when I'm not thinking about what I'm going to say. It just comes out when I least expect it too. This is one of those instances! I found myself wondering in my mind and in my heart about something that truly made sense to write about when I'm expressing my thoughts. I figured, "Let's get this out in the open and tell all about it!"

I just found out that my sister's niece Kristal, who just had been reunited with her sister Alexis, had just received full and legal custody of her sister. Their biological mother had to sign an affidavit to release her to her sister. She will have no say so about Kristal up to this point at any wave, shape, or form. She has basically lost the battle when it comes to her daughter; well...both of her daughters if I call the kettle black. My family and I are very happy about the fact that the biological mother (who is consistently a compulsive liar) has lost custody of her daughter, because of the way she treated her on a regular basis.

When a pathetic person like Alexis and Kristal's mother throws her thirteen year old daughter Kristal  out of the home and into a situation where she is set to live in a home with a mother and her seven sons. Seven sons! She has to be either perverted, lost her rocks, or just plain lost her marbles where the seven sons are concerned for having her daughter in the same home with all those boys. I'm happy to say that Kristal is no longer in that predicament, or living with that woman and her seven sons. She is where she needs to be, and that's with her sister Alexis.

Alexis will soon be receiving all of Kristal's benefits what's known as cash assistance and food stamps (in which their pathetic mother has been sponging off of while Kristal wasn't in her custody) when the process with Children and Families are complete. With this said, we (the family) believes that Kristal has a little neurological problem that may include the fact that she has Autism. We're not fully sure about that. But...it has been determined! All and all...I hope that the two girls will have a prosperous life, and we hope that Alexis make sure that Kristal is in school and doing what she need to make sure that Kristal is on the up and up with her life. I just hope everything goes well with these two girls.

Lies Two Ways More Than One

Book 97 -

Hosea 7:3 - 3. Work unto them! For they have fled from me. Destruction unto them! Because they have transgressed against me; though I have redeemed them, yet they have spoken lies against me.



When it come to thinking about everything that has gone on in my life, I have come to a conclusion that resulted in a decision that I had to make on my own free will. I've decided not to give my extended family anymore of my life, my time, but...my love will continue to be there for them no matter what. After the lies that was told to me from my ex aunt (who will continue to remain anonymous) I never want her to visit my home again, no matter what. I don't think my immediate family and I will ever get the full truth from either of my ex aunts about what really happened to all of my FATHER'S things two days after my immediate family and I buried him. The lies and all the lies for the sake of lying will continue to go on no matter how long it takes to get the real truth out of those two women.

I just the understand the concept of why everything had to be kept a secret between them (my ex aunt's)  when it come to my FATHER'S well being, his health, and especially his finances. But...I know for sure that deception will always continue to guide their natural lives until they come clean about everything that has happened since my FATHER'S death. Deception and their indiscretions  played a part in all the dirt they have done to my immediate family and myself, and GOD and his son JESUS will claim their vengeance over them when they least expect it. And...I would hate to be in their shoes when that day comes. Why my ex aunt's continue to lie about what really happened with my FATHER'S health and his finances?

Only time will tell with a blink of an eye and the light that shines upon our grief that the truth will finally come out for the sake of my immediate family and for myself. My ex aunts will then find themselves on their knees pleading for forgiveness from the almighty GOD and his son JESUS for their evil and deceitful ways and their sins and indiscretions. And from that...my immediate family and I shall find peace. I look forward to that. My FATHER will finally rest in peace.

I want nothing more to do with my ex aunt's... possibly...the family. I get so sick and tired of the repeated lies and the deception. My immediate family and I deserve the truth and I'm wondering if we'll ever get the truth from those two women. I doubt it seriously! Because...deceit, deception and indiscretion will always guide their lives, no matter what.

When The Lies Weigh More Than The Truth

Book 93 -

Hosea 7:13 - 13. Work until them! For they have fled from me: destruction until them, because they have tresgressed against me: though I have redeemed them, yet they have spoken lies against me.




What's it going to take to tell the truth? What is going to take for some people to stop lying to themselves? Those questions are obvious. Never...that's how! I had asked my aunt, who will remain anonymous to come over to my home to give me some kind if closure about my FATHER.

I wondered, what was taking her so long to come over to my home so that we can talk about my FATHER, his finances, his life. About an hour later, I saw police racing down the road about yards from my home. I didn't know what to make of what was happening until I saw another police car racing down the road on a emergency call. At lease... that's what I thought it was. Then my aunt called me.

My aunt said (who will continue to remain anonymous) she had backed into a deep ditch trying to turn around from on of the side road yards from my home. Police stayed with her until a tow truck arrived to pull her out. I responded immediately to her call. I got into my car and proceeded down to where she was in the ditch. I waited with police for a tow truck to come and pull her out of the ditch.

After thirty more minutes, my aunt was finally pulled out of the ditch. She decided to come to my home after her hour long ordeal in that deep ditch, to try in give my sister and I some kind of closure about our FATHER. I welcomed her inside my home even though...how I felt about her was a whole lot of animosity.  She and her sister (who are now my ex aunts) treated my family and I like we weren't there when they had Power of Attorney over my FATHER'S life, over my live family. She came in the living room and made herself comfortable.

I immediately question her about my FATHER'S finances (Retirement and his social security) and other things that needed to be asked about. She told me some things that made me think about the fact that she was continuously lying to me and my sister about our FATHERS finances and estate. I truly believe she scheme some of my FATHER'S social security for the last six months of my FATHER'S life and also his retirement. Here's another lie my ex aunt told me on top of the lie she told about my FATHER'S finances and estate. She told me that her and my brother had a secret between them about some money from a bank account my FATHER had.

My ex aunt said that there was a thousand dollars in one of his accounts that my immediate family and I didn't know about...as she assumed it was. She said that it was between my her and my brother she had this secret. She told me that my brother had told her to keep the money in the account. And for the life of me...there was no way...no way my brother told her that. "No way!"

Then I say, "My ex until thinks I'm a fool to believe that my brother gave her a thousand dollars from an account she said my FATHER had without telling his family." She was totally nuts that I figured her to be. And in another instance, my ex aunt  told me that she didn't know where my FATHER'S suits, hats, bicycle, floor television, rings, necklaces and the whole nine yards was (just like my other ex aunt) she didn't know where everything was. All I can say is that one of them (or both of them) is totally lying for the sake of lying and GOD and has son JESUS will handle them with vengeance.  Then I come to an conclusion about the fact that this woman who "was" an aunt of mine, was continuously lying about everything with my FATHER'S finances, his clothes, and his entire estate.

Greed has guided both of my ex aunt's lives no matter who they hurt. There was no way I can trust them again. No way! I guess the thing to do right now is to give my ex aunts lies and deception to GOD and his son JESUS. Because that's the only justice for my FATHER that I can get from my ex aunt's indiscretions is the love of my pilots.

My sister and I will try to move on with life without either one of them and their families. I'm so tired of the lies and deception.

The Mind Of Guilt And Conspiracy

Book 89

Proverbs 21:26 - 21. He coveteth greedily all the day long: but the righteous giveth and spareth not.

I thought that my sister and I would be over our FATHER'S passing, but...I guess not. Who could get over losing a parent from this world? I know that one day we all must go. There is no way around it. It's just the reality of life as we live it to our extent in the way GOD wants us to live.

My sister and I think of our FATHER more often than anyone could ever think of losing a loved one...more the less, a parent. His death did a number on our lives and it was so hard to explain the magnitude of all the events that occurred during his sickness until his death on December 4, 2016. When we thought all was well with finding some comfort after our FATHER'S passing, then all of a sudden, the unexpected came completely out of the blue. My sister and I found out some things about what really happened to our FATHER the last six months of his life. With the news my sister and I received would make any one's stomach turn, and I already have an stomach ulcer confirming this notion of any one's stomach turning upside down and inside out.

In the course of what happened to our FATHER and the events leading up to his death 5:00 am that early Sunday morning on December 4, there were still missing pieces of our puzzle that we couldn't complete. After a while after our FATHER'S death, each piece Sherri and I started receiving by people who wanted to share their thoughts and concerns with all the course of events that happened during the time our FATHER fell totally ill on June 22 while he was cooking on his unique handmade barbecue grill (A kitchen on wheel) on that day, until he suddenly passed away on December of 2016. Sherri and I try to put all the pieces of our puzzle together. Every piece fit snuggled by this one missing piece we both couldn't find. We looked every possible direction for resources of this missing piece and why our FATHER suddenly died.

That question remained totally anonymous by the one who had the answer the entire time Sherri and I searched with many different resources we could use to get the truth, so that my family and I could be at peace with my FATHER'S death. Here are the resources found leading up to my FATHER'S death that I got to share with everyone. With information that corresponds to the first piece of our puzzle that Sherri and I received. We began to investigate and to find some of the facts surrounding what was done to our FATHER during the course of his sickness. Starting from June 27th, the second piece of the puzzle was received when my family and I found out that my FATHER was admitted to Lakeland Regional Medical Health hospital five days after the fact and nobody in our extended family told us that he was in fact admitted to the hospital, being that my FATHER didn't live with us at the time to make it easier for people to understand this post.

We had thought that he went out of town as usual. My FATHER would always call the house and tell us when would plan and leave town to places like Biloxi, Mississippi to one of many casinos he visited, Las Vegas, Nevada, or on one of his many cruises to Cancun or Cozumel, Mexico, or the Grand Bahamas with people other than his own family. With that said briefly...let me get back to what I was talking about in this post. From the time my family and I found out that my FATHER was admitted into the hospital, I made plans to meet with the entire hospital staff, supervisors and managers who were caring for my FATHER during his course of stay there at the hospital. My family and I wanted to find out why he was admitted and what was going on with him.

The appointment was schedule for three days after my FATHER'S admission to LRMH. Then all of a sudden...I get this call from the hospital Administration telling me that they (the doctors, nurses and management) couldn't take a meeting with my immediate family and myself because of a Power of Attorney labeled and taken over my FATHER'S health by none other my ex aunt Minnie Lou Wright. This was over a my FATHER'S live immediate family. That was the third piece of the puzzle my sister and I received before it was too late for my immediate family and I to take charge of my FATHER's well being. The news from hospital administration upset every one's stomach in our home.


It made my mother Ruth totally angry with my now ex aunt. This was also the night my we visited my FATHER in the hospital. He looked as though he was suffering from his pain my family and I knew in fact that my FATHER had cirrhosis of the liver and he was at stage four level, nothing else...nor would we get any more information unless we asked my ex aunt about the details of my FATHER'S health. It was a shame and with the puke in our mouths that this woman (ex aunt) went over my own mother's head to take charge of my FATHER'S health so that we couldn't get any information of his health at anytime, unless we asked her about it. Then I found out from my brother's wife while we were in the room, saw some money clutched in my FATHER hand while he was laying in his hospital bed. Hours later...it was missing.

Then I thought, "I often wondered why didn't my sister-in-law get the money out of my FATHER'S hand and gave it to my mother?" That was a question that remained in my heart and in my mind as time went on. That was the fourth piece of the puzzle received when my sister-in-law told our family of the missing money that was clutched in my FATHER'S hand. There were so many people in his room that night. I got an idea of who stole that money that night and she (not the ex aunt who took Power of Attorney over my FATHER'S health) was sitting very close to my FATHER'S hospital bed.


That was as time went on from the first of many hospital visits my FATHER endured, he made a call to my brother was the time when he came home to his place of residence. My FATHER was very talkative and he seemed well at the time. My brother and his wife was there with him on my ex aunts permission to visit with our own FATHER at his home without her being there. My brother and his wife had asked about what was our FATHER'S plans just in case he passed away for his immediate family. Our FATHER would never answer my brother, or his wife at all about his final plans for his immediate family.


The fourth piece of the puzzle was not difficult to fathom. My FATHER mind had been taken over by his sisters in question. Nothing that my sister, brother, my sister-in-law, or what my mother said, made a difference to my FATHER anymore, as so it seemed. Only to his nieces and nephews of whom paid him a visit mattered to him under a lot of circumstances. At the time...my FATHER'S silence was pretty much okay with his immediate family. Then all of a sudden...we started getting notion that my FATHER'S sisters started taking over everything, including his health and finances.


Everyone in my extended family's inner circle, started backing out of the grasps of the Power of Attorney, except my two ex aunts. And from that particular moment...all hell continued to break lose. Monies started disappearing from my FATHER'S accounts. More like scheming for that last six months of his life. Twenty-three hundred dollars just don't disappear just like that. Bills got paid I know, but where did the rest go?


The fifth piece of the puzzle was obvious. Now we know enough to convict the culprit who stole from my FATHER financially. Family and I now want nothing to do with her as well. Thanks to the two people we have in the world who gave my immediate family and I the information we needed to know and understand that there are people who say they love you and then turn around a put a huge dagger in all of our backs. No more we have to offer in love to these two women who caused us so much pain.