Our M O T H E R: Riding The Storm

 Book 180 - Special Edition Post 

2 Corinthians 1:6 - 6. And whether we be afflicted, it is for your consolation and salvation, which is effectual in the enduring of the same sufferings which we also suffer: or whether we be comforted, it is for your consolation and salvation. 

Psalms 19:9 - 9. The fear of the LORD is clean, enduring for ever: the judgements of the LORD are true and righteous altogether. 

When I write this post, I think of my M O T H E R and everything she has been through in her life. That's almost three scores and ten years before, she was called home to glory! How can anyone began to know the Hades she went through? Requiring minds want to know about the evil that was casted upon my M O T H E R S sweet soul. I can't forget the time when my F A T H E R was in the hospital for his stage four cirrhosis of the liver.

I remember he was having a hard time dealing with the pain of his disease. At the time, everyone one was there visiting him; my aunts Curline, Minnie Lou (The one that had Power of Attorney over my F A T H E R S life), Tammy, uncles Carl and Alfonzo, and his nieces and nephews. My M O T H E R S came, in support of my F A T H E R, since they were separated. I remember when my M O T H E R was on the side of his bed in a wheelchair, and she asked my F A T H E R, how he was doing? He told her right in front of everyone to, "Get out of his room!"

What my F A T H E R said to my M O T H E R, truly embarrassed her in front of everyone there in his hospital room. I looked over at my M O T H E R, and she had this look of disbelief; A shocking experience to know that my F A T H E R deceived her in a way that was unfounded. My niece Octavia looked over at her grandfather, and she became was angry with my with him at that peculiar moment. She walked over to my M O T H E R (her grandmother) and rolled her in her wheelchair chair; out of my F A T H E R S hospital room to a near by waiting room. Sherri, my twin sister followed her daughter Octavia and our M O T H E R to the waiting room. 

They never returned! I had stayed behind, because I wanted to ask my F A T H E R, "Why he disgrace my M O T H E R the way he did in front of everyone?" I was angry with my F A T H E R. He had no right to do what he did to my M O T H E R; embarrassing her like that in front of everyone there. I can only remember it as a bad memory against my M O T H E R. 

She was depressed for quite some time over my F A T H E R S indiscretion over what occurred that day. But, my M O T H E R...in the midst of her depression, kept a smile on her face, even though...she was hurting inside from my F A T H E R S deception. I remember a time when my F A T H E R first went out on my M O T H E R in an adulterous affair. It was Christmas Day. My M O T H E R, Sherri's boyfriend Lorenzo at the time; now husband, my brother Wesley Jr., and I had been at a party that my uncle Carl and aunt Tammy had hosted. 

My F A T H E R had left the party early. My M O T H E R noticed. Before reality came crashing down on my M O T H E R, she was told by an anonymous source that my F A T H E R was seen at this woman's house prior to my M O T H E R blinded fate that her husband was cheating on her. Wesley Jr., Sherri and Lorenzo, my M O T H E R, and I decided to leave the Christmas party with directions given to us from our anonymous source. It was after twelve midnight! In my M O T H E R S hands was  my  F A T H E R S location.

It was totally hard to fathom at first, what my M O T H E R was about to experience, as we travelled at a moderate pace of speed. We were in no hurry to find the deception of my F A T H E R S indiscretions. We took our time enroute to this woman of despair and my F A T H E R in the center of it. It took over forty for Wesley Jr., Sherri and Lorenzo, my M O T H E R, and I to arrive at this woman's house. My M O T H E R did not hesitate as she got out of car; she walked up to the front door as we (her children) and Lorenzo looked on. 

My M O T H E R knocked, and the woman answered the door. My M O T H E R looked, and she saw my F A T H E R sitting on the sofa (as my M O T H E R stated) "Without a care in the world", and then my F A T H E R raced out behind my M O T H E R as she was fiercely in tears. My F A T H E R said, "Now you know" like....he did not care about my M O T H E R S feelings at all. Wesley Jr., Sherri and Lorenzo, my  M O T H E R, and I did not waste anytime leaving the premises. 

The early morning after Christmas Day, I remembered it as a particularly bad memory, not even for me, but...especially for my M O T H E R to carry the deception of my F A T H E R S indiscretion into heart, mind, body, and soul. My M O TH E R cried of many days after she caught my F A T H E R cheating on her. She even had to leave the state to clear her head, but...my M O T H E R always kept a smile on her face, and a totally awesome spirit, no matter what storm comes her way of a hurricane. My F A T H E R S deception continued until the day, thirty plus years later, divorce papers were sent by a police officer to my M O T H E R S  front door. That's when the chain of events came crashing down on all of us. 

My F A T H E R had began planning for the end of his life, with the help of his oldest sister, Minnie Lou. I would always believe she had those divorce papers written up for my F A T H E R for a reason, and it was all health wise and financial. I remember a day before my F A T H E R was admitted to the hospital, that he came out to the house with papers in hand. I met him at the end of the drive way that day. He was trying to get my M O T H E R to sign some papers, including the divorce papers. 

I asked my F A T H E R was he okay. He said, "I am fine for now." As we were walking up the driveway, my F A T H E R was talking about the papers and how my M O T H E R used a credit card he had to file for divorce. The credit card was maxed out. I told my F A T H E R that he wasn't going into the house he built to confront my M O T H E R about those papers, because I knew that the papers he had was something that was against my M O T H E R, and I wasn't going to let him go inside the house to stir up chaos. 

Then, all of a sudden, my F A T H E R said something that disturbed my until this day. He said, "I know that you M O T H E R hopes I die of cancer." I asked him, "You got cancer?" My F A T H E R never answered me like...wow...why would he said that, and I question it, and he doesn't answer me? At that particular moment, I most definitely did not let him go inside the house to confront my M O T H E R. 

I didn't want any chaos between them. That was a memory that disturbed me so much; I often wondered on the top of things, "Did my F A T H E R have cancer on top of his liver disease, since my ex aunt Minnie Lou had Power of Attorney of his life instead of my M O T  H E R having that power if something was to happen to my F A T H E R?" I thought of my M O T H E R and how she felt over everything that has happened to her with my F A T H E R and his siblings going against her with every ounce of deception they had against my M O T H E R? But, my M O T H E R kept smiling no matter what, even though, she was hurting inside. I knew this! 

My M O T H E R has been through a lot in the 70 years of her life. The first twenty-five years of her life was good (she told me) and the rest of her life came crashing down on her. Instead, she kept smiling and loving her enemies (my extended family members) no matter what. My M O T H E R was a "Legend of Love" and she took that with her to her grave. My M O T H E R rode the storm with every obstacle thrown her way.

She didn't let anything bring her sweet spirit down all the way, but she had the strength to continue riding the storm, and I will always remember that about my M O T H E R. I think of what my M O T H E R went through, and I cry about it every now and then when I look at my pillow with her picture on it. I forgave my F A T H E R for everything he did to my M O T H E R, but...I would never forget what he did to my M O T H E R no matter what. She was a strong woman in a frail body. I can't imagine the strength she had to endure everything that has happened to her. I thank GOD and his son JESUS that my M O T H E R will never have to endure pain or crying again, because she is with our maker in Heaven. 

I am happy about that!  

Christmastime Memories Of My Parents

 Book 179

Isaiah 7:14 - 14. Therefore the LORD give you a sign; Behold A virgin shall conceive, and bear A son, and shall call his name Immanuel

Luke 2:11 - 11. For unto you is born this day in the city of David, A Saviour, which is Christ the LORD. 

My twin sister Sherri and I decided to decorate two small Christmas trees for each parent so that we can take them to their grave sites. There were also two identical vases to put on the bases of their tombstones. Sherri and I both dread going out to our parents grave sites, because it was too painful for us to fathom their deaths to reality. It was especially hard us bare that reality. Time must move on with only the memories we will carry of our F A T H E R and M O T H E R.

The small Christmas was decorated and ready to be placed on each of our parents grave sites. Yet, we were still dreading that moment when we would actually have to go out to the grave sites and place both small Christmas trees and their vases. My brother-in-law Lorenzo decided to come along for the ride for support. Since we were more close to the grave site of my M O T H E R S, Lorenzo, Sherri, my son Zachary, my great nephews Christian and Justin Jr. went to my M O T H E R S grave site first. Sherri and I was totally emotional as we headed towards the graveyard to our M O T H E R S eternal resting place. 

All of a sudden, Sherri and I cried out when we came upon and looked over at our M O T H E R S grave site. With our eyes so full of tear drops, my brother-in-law Lorenzo drove up beside our M O T H E R S grave, and Sherri and I got out of the SUV on the passenger side where our M O T H E R grave site was located. Sherri and I was so shaken up with grief, we stood there crying out for our M O T H E R and calling out to her. It took us less than two minutes tops to do what we came out to our M O T H E R S grave site for. Afterwards, we began placing our M O T H E R S heart shaped solar light on the right side of her tombstone facing us, and then place the Christmas tree on top of her vault. Sherri and I had to anchor it to keep it in place in case of a windy day. 

The other flowers that were there we place on each side of our M O T H E R S vault so that the small Christmas tree would stand out. The vase of flowers we placed on top of her vase, praying that a strong wind will not blow it off. After Sherri and I were finished placing the vase and the small Christmas tree, we took so pictures of our M O T H E R S grave decorated full from our hearts and souls. We stood there starring with our eyes full of tear drops once again until we loaded up the SUV. It was on to my F A T H E R S grave site.

Another emotional vendetta Sherri and I had to deal with. Our eyes continued to be filled with our tear drops as we went...I'll say over 5 to 6 miles to my F A T H E R S grave site to place his small Christmas tree and flower vase onto his tombstone. As Lorenzo, Sherri, my son Zachary, Christian, and Justin Jr. arrived at the grave site of my F A T H E R, Sherri, the boys, and I got out on the passenger side of the SUV; walked around and proceeded to my F A T H E R S grave site. Sherri had to tear the base part of the small Christmas tree apart, because we could not place the tree on the ground due to the graveyard was  privately owned and it's grounds keepers try and keep the graveyard cleaned. So, with that said, Sherri could not place our F A T H E R S solar light in the ground in front of his tombstone. After Sherri took off the base of the Christmas tree, I put the tree into our F A T H E R S vase so tightly that the wind could not blow it out of the vase, as though we were hoping that wind would not blow the Christmas tree out of its vase. 

We then place my F A T H E R S small flower vase on the base of the tombstone, hoping that will not blow off from a strong wind. It was heavy enough to withstand a strong dose of wind. Our decoration of our parents graves were completed. Sherri and I started taking pictures of our F A T H E R S decorated tombstone. We stood for minutes looking at our work and thinking of our F A T H E R, before Sherri, the boys and I got into the SUV to depart the graveyard. 

Our duties when it came to our parent was done. Sherri and I was still full of emotions that our parents will not be with us for Christmas, but...will remain in our spirit and our hearts. We will have nothing but awesome memories of our parents. F A T H E R and M O T H E R can now rest during their Heavenly holiday. 

Memories

 Book 177

 

Philippians 1: 3 – 5 – 3. I thank my GOD upon every remembrance of you. 4. Always in every prayer of mine for you all making request with joy. 5. For your fellowship in the gospel from the first day until now. 

As I look outside my nieces apartment, I see a lot of rain pouring down fiercely without an end in sight. My joints ache from the coldness of the weather along with a touch of arthritis. I see myself not moving an inch out into this kind of weather due to my condition. I hear that it is a storm brewing out in the Gulf of Mexico. Its name is Eta. 

I better get set for the storm. I am going out later on today to buy some supplies just in case the storm hit again here in Florida. I know that the Florida Keys had been affected by the storm and I just want to prepare just in case it makes a direct turn and it hits Florida again. I am sitting here thinking while I am thinking of about the storm Eta; I thinking about my M O T H E R S grave and the flowers that are still intact. Maybe, I should go out and remove those flowers, so that they don't fly away just in case the storm hit Florida again. 

It is a lot to think about during this day; my M O T H E R S grave and her flowers affected by this "Greek" letter storm. I guess I find my M O T H E R grave accessories very important, because they were apart of her and her burial. I don't want them to fly about during a potential storm if it hits here in Florida again. It may sound odd to everyone who reads this post, but...my M O T H E R S earthly grave possessions mean everything to me, because...they were a part of her and her burial and I want to protect them in any way I can. 

I also find myself in deep thought of her, even with a dry face. No tears in sight! I can't help but miss her with every ounce of my heart. M O T H E R will be missed terribly, even throughout the upcoming holiday seasons. I truly believe Christmas will be the toughest on my family. I remember a time when my M O T H E R use to sit on the couch and watch Sherri and I cook up our Christmas dinner and her always sampling our cooking. My family and I will miss that with our Queen, my M O T H E R, because it will never be the same, ever.

The one thing I will always miss about my M O T H E R is that she would always have her Christmas shopping done way ahead of time before everyone else get their Christmas shopping started. She was very punctual about her time and the way she did things. I admired that from my M O T H E R! I will most definitely miss that about her majorly. Thanksgiving is coming up. There is a lot of things to do and prepare for and I know that it would be a holiday that I will cherish in memory of my M O T H E R S cornbread dressing that she use to make so good.

The cornbread would be just right according to my M O T H E R S hand in making the best dressing ever. She would always cut up the chicken gizzards very fine and with all the seasons she used they were just right to perfection. M O T H E R S giblet gravy; it was phenomenal! I don't think anyone can make an extraordinary gravy like my M O T H E R did. She would be also greatly missed during the Thanksgiving holiday along with her famous cornbread dressing and I forgot her fruit salad he use to make. 

Those sweet touches my M O T H E R she use to put towards what she made according to food; I don't think I will ever know how to make cornbread dressing just like her, or her fruit salad. She took that with her to her grave and I know I will never retrieve those great recipes ever again. I know that I will have to do my best to make a good cornbread dressing or a fruit salad. My M O T H E R S genious in her cooking will never faulter in my mind, because...they will always be my greatest memories of her. GOD and his son JESUS help me to cope with the fact that my M O T H E R S death and just cherish the memories I have of her, because...it is all I have of her in an instant. 

 from her ever again. 

We Will Never Forget The One We Love This Holiday Season

Book 152

Numbers 35:31 - 31. Moreover ye shall take no satisfaction for the life of a murderer, which is guilty of death: but he shall be surely put to death

I miss my popski so much...I can't began to fathom what it's been like for us. We think of him everyday, especially around this time of the year, from the day of my FATHER'S death on the 4th of December 2016, three years ago. It's hard not to think of him when it comes to missing his barbecue. We (Sherri,Wesley Jr. and I) haven't been the best of children towards him, I admit that, but...we saw him when we needed to see him) and we continued to come, and we came, and we saw him before we knew fully that our FATHER was really sick.

"That part was kept from us!"  But...I don't want to rehash the past, because it's a bum rush; we (the family) would like to keep old relic in it's place. It's time to think ahead into the future, because...I finally after all this time...let my FATHER go, because I can't bring him back to us ever, but...I would let GOD'S vengeance take over what was done to my MOTHER and his children. We forgive and love everyone involved, but...we will never forget it for infinity. It's not easy to forget what was once a beautiful family...to no family connection at all, because of what was done to my family. No more grudges held against those culprits, because they will meet their day of judgement. I'm only saying what I must say; I'm only expressing how I really feel, and it's only natural to do so when the man we (the family) love has been taken from us for infinity. But...like I said, "We (the family) must let old relic go...and for it to our past tense.

GOD and his sons vengeance is their virtue to fight our battles, but...karma will soon meet up with those who meant my family sorrow. I can say, "I'm comfortable with the way I feel about most things...one...is the death of my FATHER and loving him enough to let him go." Like I said...I can't bring him back to life, but I must go on with living life to the fullest in the name of my pilots. Nothing in my life without my FATHER will never be the same, but...I must go on, no matter how much it hurt. All I have is memories of a lifetime.

I'll settle for those fine memories, because...it's all I have to hold onto.

There's No Mountain High Enough

Book 150 - Special Edition Post - Happy 50th Birthday Sherri and Terri

Psalms 100:1 - 1. A Psalm of praise. Make a joyful noise unto the LORD, all ye lands. 2. Serve the LORD with gladness; come before his presence with singing. 3. Know ye that the LORD he is GOD; it is he that hath made us, and not we ourselves we are his people, and the sheep of his pasture. 4. Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise; be thankful unto him, and bless his name. 5. For the LORD is good; his mercy is everlasting; and his truth endureth to all generations

Psalms 118:24 - 24. This is the day which the LORD hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it. 




Praised the GOD and his son JESUS for a blessed "milestone" birthday. What can we (Sherri and I) ask for? We're so thankful for another life, our health, and strength upon this earth. We are far more blessed to see another year in advance, and we're loving the atmosphere that surrounds us with happiness. What more can Sherri and I ask for! "Ain't no mountain high enough", as we stand together on the peak; closer than we ever imagined towards GOD and his son JESUS; surrounded by the deep blue skies so crisp and clean.

LORD we (Sherri and I) thank you! As we start our day; an extra day that GOD and his son JESUS has given to us. We start life with a positive feeling of love, peace and happiness. I find myself on the eve of my birthday writing this post in the wee hours of this morning. Sherri and I are totally excited. We don't know what the day may bring us later on today.

"There is no mountain high enough" for Sherri and I to climb all the way to the peak I say. We share that adventure as we reach a half of century old (Sherri 12:12 pm and I...12:13 pm) was the time we landed on this earth, with just a minute apart from one another. It's truly a blessing indeed. Sherri and I both started the day like any other day. Boring, dull, but...blessed! We were hoping that we had a party, because of our milestone birthday. but...we didn't...for now.

Maybe someone will plan a party for the both of us. My family always had something up their sleeves when it came to doing something out of the ordinary. Sherri and I will see what's in store for us with a little peaky poo here and there.

Our Family Time At Old Town

Book 118

Psalms 133:1 - 1. (A Song of degrees of David) Behold, how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity.

1 John 4:7 - 7. Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of GOD; and every one that loveth is born of GOD, and knoweth GOD.





My family and I went to ole town today. We traveled throughout the town, the same route as usual, observing the old classic cars and stopping between the shops and old cars to grab a bit to eat. As a family, we enjoy that very much. I guess ole town will be one of our attraction every other week in each month. We make it our business to enjoy every moment of every event that we share together as family.

Our family traveled from one store to another; observing the merchandise; wondering how much things cost; buying the merchandise; and moving from one store to the next store; and to the next store; until we were all out of options when it came to stores and shops. When push came to shove, our family made it our business to go into the fun center where all of the arcades, large rides, and funnel cakes were a reality. There were all kinds of fun and activities that everyone can get use to when it comes to having a great time in the fun center and then some. My mother Ruth, my twin sister Sherri and I shared a funnel cake with powered sprinkle that covered every inch of our funnel cake, because we all had the same thing in common....we all had diabetes. Afterwords...my family and I retired to the other side of the fun center, close to the arcade where my mother's scooter needed a charge for at least an hour before we decided to leave.

While my mother Ruth's scooter was charging, we watched as everyone else unknown to us having a great time riding on the scariest rides in the world...rides we wouldn't think of riding, if our lives depended on it. That's all we did (my mother Ruth, Sherri and I) was watched everyone else ride and have a good time. We thrived on it! One hour and a half later, my family and I decided it was time to leave Old Town. We started on our way towards the exit that lead us to our vehicles.

My family and I were all tired from all the activities we've achieved in Old Town. We didn't waste time getting into our vehicles and calling it a day. Our family found that it was a super great day at Old Town and we looked forward to the next time we visit, which will be the following week from next week. We all look forward to it!

A New Year Blessing

Book 110

Ezekiel 34:26 - 26. And I will make them and the places round about my hill a blessing; and I will cause the shower to come down in his season; there shall be showers of blessing.




What a blessing it is to see another year. Just like I stated in a recent post, I don't make New Year's resolutions, I live day by day. Only GOD and his son JESUS provide you and bless you with days on your life. And I'm very thankful to see this day of celebration. Happy New Year's!

I'm up with my sister Sherri, my son Zachary (since he's out of school for the holidays) at 1:56 am watching a Friday the 13th marathon. Yes...I love horror films of curse. My son does too. I guess I like 'creepy' comedy before bedtime. No nightmares intended for my son and I, because nothing seem to scare us on a regular basis.

We watch episodes of Friday the 13th until we couldn't watch them anymore. Sherri, Zachary and I went to bed. It was six hours in the early morning. I went to get my mother Ruth from her home at The Avenue and brought her back to my home. We arrived at my home shortly after I had stopped to the store to get gas and other things I need to get. We didn't do much but sat around watching Cold Case and making conversation...maybe ate a little and that's it.

All and all it was a great day. I took my mother home hours after her visit with us (Sherri, Lorenzo, Zachary and myself) and then I had to go to Walmart to the customer service desk to set up my car payment and credit card payment account. Afterwards...Sherri, Zachary, my great nephew Christian and I were on our way back home, until we got this call out of the ordinary. Sherri received a call from one of her niece's about another niece that was in trouble. She had just gotten thrown out of a home that her mother placed her in where she was a stranger to everyone in the home.

Sherri's niece Kristal...who lived in a home with this woman (who was unknown to her and to us) and her six son's. "Six son's!" Kristal was the only girl in the house full of boys, and her mother placed with all these boys was totally unfounded. She called and let us (Sherri and I) know that she got thrown out, because one or more of the boys touched her she claimed. Sherri and I didn't waste time going to pick her up from the location where she said she was, which was the Circle K.

We retrievced Kristal and took her to her sister Alexis over in the City of Tampa. She had been very worried about the whereabouts of her sister Kristal, because of their so called mother had placed Kristal in that home with this woman and her six son's, so that her and Alexis wouldn't have contact with each other ever again. Some kind of nasty situation isn't it? This was how Kristal and Alexis biological mother was. Neglectful, abusive, digusting, and pathetic. I know Sherri and I did the right thing when we went and picked up Kristal and took her to her sister, Alexis, because all and all, Social Services gave full custody of her sister Kristal to Alexis.

That was the most amazing thing that happened, and it was all within a hour, when the two sisters was reunited after months and months of not knowing where one another were. I was thankful Sherri and I had something to do with reuniting the two sisters together. "January 1, 2019." That will always be the day Sherri and I did a super awesome deed for two sisters, a New Year's blessing. We will never forget it!

Our New Year's Eve Bash

Book 109

Lamentations 3:40 - 40. Let us search and try our ways, and turn again to the LORD




It's New Year's Eve, and I'm getting ready to bring it in with a bang. But...a bang isn't what it amount to be with an explosion. I woke up this morning with a mild pain in my right side. I didn't know what to expect, but...I've decided not to think no more of it. At least for now.

My brother-in-law Lorenzo decided to start barbecuing for the start of our New Years Eve bash, because he had to work for the New Year. He had a lot of food to be prepared and to place on the grill: Chicken, hot dogs and hamburger. I love the smell of the grill burning. It reminded me of my FATHER when he was grilling in his front yard. I really miss him very much.

Sherri, our mother Ruth and I sat and watched "In The Heat Of The Night" to pass time while we waited on Lorenzo to put the food on the grill to cook. We loved that show very much. Lots of big things happen in a small imaginary town of Sparta, Mississippi. The moments were peaceful as we sat very quietly on the couch and watched our favorite television sit com. Even my puppy dog Sheba sat quietly without a sound.

I would took a moment out of my time during this post and of the New Year's Eve bash to talk about something that came to mind while I'm sitting with my sister and mother Ruth watching In The Heat Of The Night. Something I thought of that happened 13 years prior before my FATHER died. I remembered a time when I was in my first apartment, I had this dream. It was so weird, I had to tell it in order to ease my conscience about what happened and how it came to pass. I dreamed of my FATHER laying in a casket in this place that was unknown to me.

I didn't know where it was, or how I got there to be exact. This place had so many rooms in it. One of the rooms (this one room in particular) I found my FATHER in the casket. In one of the other rooms, I found this choir singing. I didn't know, or quit comprehend what they were singing, but...they were all lined up in this one room just singing up a storm. This one room I was totally focused on where my FATHER was lying in his casket.

I started walking into this room to see and view my FATHER in his casket. I couldn't believe or place into terms of my FATHER dying! I looked around in this room and I could not find my FATHER. I thought, "That's odd!" I'm in tears, and I'm wondering, 'where is he?'

I was traveling from room to room to room trying to find my FATHER, but I couldn't find him anywhere, like he disappeared into thin air. And then...I came back to the room where the choir were singing their praises. I was crying so hard! Here's how the dream ended. I got up out of my bed and I was looking around for my FATHER in my apartment and I couldn't find him anywhere.

My face was flooded in tears. I looked around as I started back to my bedroom and found that my pillow was soaking wet with my tears. Then...I looked around while I was in my bed out into the living room, wondering where my FATHER was in the equation. I found myself in a catatonic like state for just a brief moment.

Then I came to my senses. I had been up all night with that dream on my mind. I got ready for work. I remembered at work telling a woman who was into the LORD about my dream, and she said, "I dreamed of a wedding, not a funeral." I told myself, "How can that be when I dreamed of my FATHER in a casket?" From that point...I might dreamed of my FATHER'S death and I didn't know it come to pass 13 years to the date. In The Heat Of The Night just ended it's episode. Lorenzo had just finished a round of chicken, butt pork steaks, hamburger and hot dogs, I decided to get started on the baked beans and put the macaroni on for my sister Sherri, because she had just taken our mother for her dialysis treatments. She will then make the cheese for the macaroni when she got back from taking our mother Ruth for her dialysis treatments.

Wow! I really enjoy time with my family at our New Year's Eve barbecue bash. I'm very thankful for the time we share together. Sherri returned to make the cheese for the macaroni, I stood and watched,  while the rest of my immediate family stood around outside talking and laughing about everything that was mentioned, while my brother-in-law Lorenzo finished cooking on the grill. Still...the thought of my FATHER cooking on his grill brought back a lot of wonderful memories. Memories that would last a lifetime.

I finished up the baked beans; Sherri had just finished the cheese for the macaroni. She placed two long pans of macaroni and cheese in the oven. She then put a pot of Italian green beans.We waited until everything were ready to eat. Sherri and I couldn't wait until the real celebration for our barbecue bash began so that we as a immediate family can really began sharing time together and enjoying the barbecue (chicken, butt pork, hamburgers and hot dogs) macaroni and cheese, baked beans and real Italian green beans.

Wow...I can't wait until then! And to end it all...my family and I were to attend watch night services (church) to bring the New Year in the name of GOD and his son JESUS. Wow! I pray that my family and I make it to see the New Year 2019 come in. I will be truly a blessing indeed.

The Heart Of Christmas Spirit

Book 105 -

Isaiah 11:2 - 2. And the spirit of the LORD shall rest upon him, the spirit of wisdom and understanding, the spirit of counsel and might, the spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the LORD.

It looks as though the Christmas  festivities are done and over with. I'm looking forward to the New Year 2019. What can I say about the memories my family and I shared over the Christmas Holiday? Tons and tons of presents to open and the enjoyment of watching all children of my family open their presents, revealing what they got for Christmas. Wow...what a moment that was.

My son got almost a thousand dollars worth of clothes, video games and shoes galore in his assortment of gifts from his father. I was totally amazed for the amount of gifts Zachary's father sent him. I don't think I ever doubt Zach's father about anything else, but...to come and see him more than twice a year. I don't think in Zachary's case, material things will ever amount up to physically seeing and spending time with him on a regular basis. That will mean more to Zach, than clothes, shoes and video games.

At least that's what Zachary told me. I'm for one acknowledge the fact that his father need to get on the ball and come and see his son more often. I know! Too much talk about my son and his father, my focus is on my family's festivities. After all the children opened all of their presents, it was time to eat. Octavia...my niece, fixed plates for everyone so that everyone would get their equal share of the vittles being distributed.

Everyone sat down and ate until their hearts content. It was good eating! Everything down to the turkey and ham was totally scrumptious. Dessert...don't even ask about that! If everyone in my family really had a sweet tooth for all the desserts we had (apple pie, sweet potato pie, peach pie, carrot cake and red velvet cake) we would all be arrested for the crime of getting sugarcoated.

Afterwords...it was time to relax and have the full extent of family time with laughter filled with memories. Who could ever in pass up on all the memories my family and I could share in a heartbeat? We talked about all the past-times each of us lived to the fullest extent. Some of the memories we're about the times when most of us were growing up and did things the were completely out of the ordinary. My times were about my FATHER and the memories I shared with him when he was alive.

Every moment shared with my immediate family and friends were the best I have had. I hope that next year (if GOD and his son JESUS) spare all of our lives, we can have memories more greater than the ones here and now. I'm very thankful to the ones here and now. It was a pure monologue of the Christmas Spirit filled with love, happiness, hope and joy.

Joy To The World For The Love Of Family

Book 104 -

John 14:27 - Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you; not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

2 Thessalonians 3:16 - Now the LORD of peace himself give you peace always by all means. The LORD be with you all.


Romans 15:33 - 33. Now the GOD of peace will be with you all. Amen.

Christmas Eve is here and I'm enjoying family time with my immediate family. What a day to treasure a great memory. Sherri and I will be cooking a little later in the day. We found a little money to work with in getting Christmas gifts for at least the children of our immediate family. I'm really thankful for that.

Sherri had a small five minute video on her tablet she shared with our mother, me and herself. We looked at the video; Sherri's grandbaby Christmas caroling during a school play. Wow! What a treat just to observe the video. Sherri's grandbaby Justin was so cute dressed as one of the wise men during the birth of JESUS.

He didn't participate in much in the play; Justin stood mostly silent during the entire play, but..it was okay. Sherri and I enjoyed the caroling from the kids performing Christmas Carol's. After it was over, Justin was to receive his ornament off of the Christmas tree in the facility. What a joy it was just to be there at Justin's Christmas play. A wonderful memory to place into my time capsule.

Sherri's other grandbaby, Christian decided he wanted to go to the store and get a donut. I observed as he kept begging for one. I laughed at the expression he had on his face. Sherri gave into her grand baby and took him to the store for that donut. The memories of that moment we're piling up with warmth and beauty.

The excited expression on Christian's face was totally phenomenal. You could help but to look at him smile. I got to admit...when time like the ones I share with my family are a total blessing. I never feel left out of anything like I feel when I was with my extended family. Total loneliness when I was with my extended family will leave you invisible.

I'm just blessed to have my immediate family circle. I feel totally close to home when I'm with my family. Wow! What a wonderful feeling to have at every direction of life and not worry about if you're there or not. Joy, peace, and happiness was what Sherri, my mother Ruth, and I made it in one outstanding moment.

A memory in itself. No one else can compete with the love we have when it comes to enjoying time with my immediate family circle.

Just Another Day In Paradise

Book 103 -

Philippians 1:3 - 5 - 3. I thank my GOD upon every remembrance of you, 4. Always in every prayer of mine for you all making request with joy, 5. For your fellowship in the gospel from the first day until now.

We're on our (Sherri and I) to pick up our mother from dialysis. It's just another day for us, we still got a lot of Christmas shopping to do and no money to do it with. I guess this is the season of the struggle we go through everyday. Most of all...I can say, "We still got our life, health and strength and the blood running warm in our veins and that's a blessing in it self.

I think about what it would of been like if I still had my FATHER here for the Holiday's on top of game, breathing the breath of life and joking around? That's a memory in itself I choose to keep closest to my heart. I miss him so much and it's hard to fathom sometimes, but I rejoice the life he lived on this Earth. I'm still moving on with life though. What else can do, or say to bring my FATHER back to family?

I know for sure that it's difficult to bring anyone back if you have that divine faith like GOD and his son JESUS has. I'm only thankful that I had my FATHER most of my natural mortal life. I had to reminisce my FATHER for just a brief moment. My sister and I are very at the dialysis center to pick up our mother. Sherri went in the facility to retrieve her while I sat in the car writing about it and accepting it as one of my memories.

Usually our mother would have us to stop at a store, or a restaurant to get her something to eat. Our mother had us to stop at Burger King to get her a order of fries. That's it! Nothing else. I guess it was one of our mother's days that she wasn't all that hungry after getting off the dialysis machine.

The wait in the line at Burger King was very demanding. Someone had to of ordered a very huge order, or the wait in the car line wouldn't of been so bad. "What the heck!" 15 - 20 minutes in line...something has got to give. "What is going on here?" I'm sold on slowness.

Maybe we'll move in the car line  someday. Only the thought of this day can be placed in my time capsule of memories. Yes indeed! What a blast that last 15 to 20 minutes in my day. We went home afterwards.

We (Sherri, mother and I) arrived home and sat out the remainder of the day watching Cold Case, laughing and talking other things that memories are made of.

The Jollies Of Christmastime With Our Families

Book 101 -

Leviticus 23:4 - 8 - 4. These are the feasts of the LORD, even holy convocations which ye shall proclaim in their seasons. 5. In the fourteenth day of the first month at even is the LORD'S Passover. 6.And on the fifteenth day of the same month is the feast of unleavened bread unto the LORDS: seven days ye must eat unleavened bread. 7. In the first day ye shall have an holy convocation: ye shall do no service work there in. 8. But ye shall offer an offering made by fire unto the LORD seven days: in the seventh day is an holy convocation: ye shall do servile work therein.

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Christmastime is coming to town. Lots of shopping to do; lots of cooking that will set off an aroma in all America's kitchens. Kids will be out of school in a matter of days. Spending time with family during the Christmas holidays brings back the American way of tradition. I'm so ready for the holidays.

I haven't started my Christmas shopping and I don't want to wait until the last minute to the point that the store are very crowded. I may get some shopping done in a few days from now. My sister and I got a lot to do when it come around to cooking our traditional Christmas dinner. I believe this year we may get a ham instead of a turkey, some candied yams, string beans, squash casserole, macaroni and cheese, cranberry sauce, deviled eggs, and to top it off my brother-in-law's famous corn bread dressing. That's what I'm talking about...the best of the best in a Christmas feast.

I think about all the presents that will be present under the tree. Wow...what a sight that would be? Then I think of my FATHER...my third Christmas without his presence. It's still hard sometimes to imagine that he's not going to ever spend a Holiday with my family and I again. But...I rejoicing that he's in a better place for Christmas that is more Heavenly than on Earth.

I'm totally thankful for that and for my family circle and for my dog Sheba. In tell my FATHER that Sheba's fine and we're (my family and I) are taking good care of her for him. I can continue to smile with joy that everything will be fine according to the fact that my FATHER is gone to Glory. Merry Christmas to everyone who will view, read, or maybe comment on this post. I'm very thankful.

The Wonders Of The Lights

Book 95 -

1 John 1:2 - 1. For the life was manifested, and we have seen it, and bear witness and she's unto you that eternal life, which was with the Father, and was manifested unto us.



There's nothing like spending time with family. We just got back from a event called the Lights of Lakeland on the highlands side of the City of Lakeland. It's was just a brief walk through, lots happening. There were different settings to visit. The most important one was a tour of Bethlehem.

What was my most favorite attraction. Everything seemed so real as my family and I walked through each and every settings at Lights of Lakeland. Even all the way up to the birth of Christ. What a sight to see as I looked at the woman who played as the Virgin Mary hold the baby known as baby Jesus in her arms. I felt the realness of the moment far as I could see as though I was back in that era in time.

Afterwords...it didn't take long at all for my family and I to walk out of the Lights of Lakeland attraction before we were on our way back to our cars. Why was our visit so short? Because...my son, niece and nephews didn't want to take any pictures with any of the super hero's at the attraction. So with that said with just a short tour, we left as fast as we breezed through. My family and I found our cars and we left the attraction for home...where the heart was.

My brother-in-law agreed to bring the smaller children back to Lights of Lakeland the next day, so that they will be able to take pictures with all the super hero's that were present there. Maybe that time around when my family and I visit, our visit would be much longer than we can possibly imagine staying to a wonderful attraction. I look forward to which was from yesterday, striving towards today when our visit would be magical. My family and I gathered for our tour at the Lights of Lakeland. It would be hours from now until we take that magical tour.

I look forward to visiting once again.

Jealousy Is Not An Option

Book 60

Ecclesiates 3:1-8 - 1. To every thing there is a season, and time to every purpose under the heaven: 2. A time to be born, and time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; 3. A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; 4. A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; 5. A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; 6. A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; 7. A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; 8. A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.

1 Samuel 26: 23-24 - 23. The LORD render to every man his righteousness and his faithfulness: for the LORD delivered thee into my hand to day, but I would not stretch forth mine hand against the LORD's anointed. 24. And behold, as thy life was much set by this day in mine eyes, so let my life be much set by in the eyes of the LORD, and let him deliver me out of all tribulation.

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Father GOD in the name of your son JESUS; I have so much I want to pray about. I know that you both are my pilots. I can come to you both anytime of day, the hour of every minute, for every second down to the micro second that I can converse with you both about. "What a farce my family and I are dealing with." Satan and his imps are trying to surround my immediate family's good will to live without haste against those who want to see us suffer life as it comes at us."

So many complaints! So many obstacles are being placed in our paths in cycles to destroy us. But almighty GOD and his son JESUS! "We know that Satan and his imps are liars." They are rebuked in the mighty names of GOD and his son JESUS.

It seems as though we got people in our lives (some ex family members on both sides) that can't stand to see us live life with love surrounded by people who really and deeply care and love us unconditionally. They can't stand that my immediate family and I hang out together all the time (travel, throw parties, socialize and have a wonderful time) together with out a hint of jealously in the mix. "I can't help if my immediate family and I have it like that!" I know that the people in our circle need to get a life and live it as abundantly and spiritually as they possibly can without worrying about what my immediate family and I are doing 24/7.  Our business is mutual and we don't have time for ignorance, spying on us, dramatic spasms, controversy, and people who don't want to be happy with themselves and live life to fullest.

"I think my mortal FATHER would've wanted his blood family to be happy while he lives in Heaven with the Angels." I can rest assure that my immediate family and I will accommodate his wishes as everyday passes in the mighty name of my pilots. Oh my GOD and your son JESUS! I pray for peace, prosperity and perseverance for my immediate family and I to live without people trying to bring haste to our lives and bring us down to their levels of ignorance, dramatic spasms, controversy and conniption fits, because they are not happy with their lives and that they don't have a life to live and enjoy with GOD and his son JESUS first in charge. No more worries about what people may think of my immediate family and I anymore.

My immediate family and I are moving on with new beginnings. GOD and his son JESUS are directing and guiding our paths of life. No more extreme blockage that clots our path of righteousness. I pray that our arteries of faith are kept clear for every step we take towards living life to the fullest, loving every moment that life brings us...laughing, smiling, praying and enjoying life continues to go on in the mighty name of GOD and his son JESUS. Move those stumbling blocks out of our paths, because I rebuke them in the mighty name of my pilots.

Jealousy in this still not an option when there is nothing to be jealous about.

Valid Victory

Book 48

1Chronicles 29:11 - 11. Thine O Lord is the greatness, and the power, and the glory, and the victory, and the majeaty: for all that is in HEAVEN and not into the earth is thine; thine is the kingdom I LORD and thou art exalted as head above all

What web are still weaving with deception? What will it take to stop doing the things that can't be hidden from GOD and his son JESUS? Isn't it known, "What you do in the dark will come to the light?" What part of that is not understood? How candid a person can be not to realize that our pilots can see everything they do no matter how much they try to hide their deceit.

It's nevertheless rewarding when deception is particularly a reality in most part. Why keep trying to do wrong when you know your going to get caught at the end of the rope? These questions keep dawning on my mind, no matter how much I try to forget the past. They tend to creep up in my imagination like a skunk to stink. What smells more like doo doo is when a person keep smiling in your face and consistently throwing daggers in all directions, never missing that point centered straight forward at my back.

"That hurt more than anything!" But...I can say, "Victory is still valid and is still valued with dignity and pride with my immediate family. It's never a dull moment when GOD and his son JESUS keeps close eyes on what's right is right and what is bought to the light for us to see what is revealed at that brief moment. "All eyes are opened to reality." Our families are no more bound, than together.

Split so far apart...there is no more to hold on to. The chain will continue to break it's strengths. I'm tired of trying to be strong with a family who keeps deceiving hope, honesty, trust and FAITH. What more can my immediate family take? How much more deception keep slithering around towards the horizon?

Nevertheless...vengeance is still GOD and his son JESUS. Victory is strong and valid where my immediate family is concerned. "All eyes will continue to open to the real truth of deception all the way around." Then all the innocent ones will see what my immediate family has been trying send over the grapevine for many months after our tragedy. Justice is not too blind to see when it come to my father's death. His will come and he will finally rest in peace.

I will make sure of that! "This is one woman who will not rest until her feelings and what was done to deceive her immediate are completely understood." Vengeance is still and always will be GOD and his son JESUS. I'm not going to get in the way of that, but I will never forget what was, still is and never going to be again. Ultimately...the damage cannot be reversed! Nothing can be said to fix what will always be broken.

Ultimately...my FATHER paid the price for infinity. My fury will always be felt within a few feet, yards and a football field. I pray every single day to help me with my heart; with my feelings of disgust. I don't want to continue to doom my thoughts and imagination with anger. I have so much going for me in life.

I forgive, but...I will never forget forget as the first anniversary of deceit approaches for as long as I live. My immediate family's battle is already won with a vengeance.

Sixty-Six For Infinity

Book 43 - Very Special Edition Post

Isaiah 25:8 - 9  8.  He will swallow up death in victory; and the LORD GOD will wipe away tears from all faces; and the rebuke of his people shall he take away from off this earth for the LORD hath spoken it. 9.  And it shall be said in that day Lo, this is our GOD; we have waited for him, and he will save us; this is the LORD; we have waited for him, we will be glad and rejoice in his salvation. 




First of all, I thank GOD and his son JESUS for life, health and strength and for bringing my family and I through one of the roughest of all rough patches. In three days, February 19th, would of been my father's sixty-seventh birthday 🎂 celebration. For the first time in my mortal life, my immediate family and I will be without the patriarch. I pray that GOD and his son JESUS will spare my life to be together with my family to celebrate my father's life living in Heaven. Sometimes it's so hard to believe my father's gone for infinity.

I'm still in shock and I'm suffering from the most severe form of depression, due to his death. All I can do is pray to GOD and his son JESUS every single day for understanding and guidance. It's not going to be easy for any member of my immediate family. This post is very short and sweet. There was so much love, joy, hope and lot to say in this post.

My family and I hope to visit my father's grave site on Sunday. Happy 🎂 Birthday in the arms of GOD and his son JESUS Popski. Rest In Heaven on your special day. 🎂❤💯

Justice Will Be Served

Book 38 - Special Edition - Justice Will Be Served

Ecclesiastes 12:14 - For GOD shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it be good, or whether it be evil.

Matthew 12:34 - 37 - JESUS - 34. O generation of vipers, how can ye, being evil, speak good things? For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaketh.  35. A good man out of the good treasure of the heart bringeth forth good things: and an evil man out of evil treasure bringeth forth evil things.  36. But I say unto you, That every idle word that men speak, shall give account thereof in the day of judgment.  37. For by thy words shalt be justified, and by thy words shalt be condemned. 

Romans 14:10 - 13 - 10. But why dost thou judge thy brother? or why dost thou set at nought thy brother? For we shall all stand before the judgment seat of Christ.  11. For it is written, as I live, saith the LORD, every knee shall bow to me, and ever tongue shall confess to GOD.  12. So then every one of us shall give account of himself to GOD.  13. Let is not therefore judge one another any more, but judge this rather that no man put a stumbling block or an occasion to fall in his brother's way. 

It may not be when I want to happen, but GOD and his son JESUS is always on time, no matter what. Judgment will be something else when the day come when everyone will give in account of their works here on earth. I'm not going to dawn on the past, it's what I need to give in trust, belief, and in faith in GOD and his son JESUS to do what I need to do so my works here on earth can be complete on the day of judgment, For that...I'm not blinded when I know what GOD and his son JESUS can do. My family and I are done with what was once was, We're willing to go forward without haste, or persecution. My family and I may have lost everything in this mortal battle fought during a time of despair, but we're really winners in the eyes of GOD and his son JESUS according the love and care we gave to my father in his time of illness.

So my family and I don't think about the material things in life, it's the blessings that we will receive according to our works and what was done out of love for my father. Moving on. My days are better. I pray and strive everyday to make everyday a better day. GOD and his son JESUS is the reason why my family and I make the best of everything in our lives, even though we lost a whole lot before and after my father's death.

When I have GOD and his son JESUS, battles are not meant to be fought against those who caused us heartbreak, grief, and sadness. Only my pilots are more experienced to fight battles.  Battles are hard to fight and very hard to win, even if my family and I had a plan to win, it's always something according the plan well thought out ...something always interfere with that plan to win that battle, no matter what the situation, the cause, or how it started.  GOD and his son JESUS has the last say, the last call, and the last word without either of us lifting a finger to point, or cast blame, or going to extremes to make a person suffer, or pay for their indiscretion.

My family and I gave all of our troubles, sadness, heartbreak and grief to our pilots. It's there to stay whenever GOD and his son JESUS make that call.  My family and I don't want to keep getting in between our pilots works. Best to leave well enough alone! My father's, my family and I...our justice will be served only in the eyes of our beholder. Patience is our virtue!

The Truth: A Thin Line Between Love And Hate

Book 36 - The Real Truth

Psalms 25:8 - 22 - 8. Good and upright is the LORD; therefore will he teach sinners in the way.  9. The meek will he guide in judgement; and the meek will he teach his way.  10. All the paths of the LORD are mercy and truth unto such as keep his covenant and his testimonies.  11. For thy name sake, O LORD, pardon mine iniquity; for it is great. 12. What is he that feareth the LORD? Him shall he teach in the way he shall choose.  13. His soul shall dwell at ease; and his seed shall inherit the earth.  14. The secret of the LORD is with them that fear him; and he will shew them his covenant. 15. Mine eyes are ever toward the LORD; for he shall pluck my feet out of the net.  16. Turn thee unto me, and have mercy upon me; for I am desolate and afflicted.  17. The troubles of my heart are enlarged: O bring thou me out of my distresses.  18.Look upon mine affliction and my pain; and forgive all my sins.  19. Consider mine enemies; for they are many; and they hate me with cruel hatred.  20. O keep my soul, and deliver me; let me not be ashamed; for I put my trust in thee. 21. Let integrity and uprightness preserve me; for I wait on thee.  22. Redeem Israel, O GOD, out of all his troubles. 

First of all...I would like to give thanks to GOD and his son JESUS for bringing me and my family and I through the roughest of rough patches. Second of all...what I'm about to post, will sum up the truth of the matter in redemption for my father's sake for what was, that should of been and what it is now and foremost at this present moment in time. At the start of the line, I call using common sense...was what should of been said in the beginning before interfering into a personal situation (dealing with the immediate family) which was clearly not valid. Stealing a "live" family's position to give unconditional love, health care and comfort for the one who said, "I really wanted to be in the presents of my immediate family."  was clearly taken out of context. 

It was said to my recollection that a question was asked of them to administer health care for them. For that stand point...what was suppose to be said...when that question was supposedly asked.  The answer, "I would love to provide health care for you, but you have your own family who would be more than happy to take care of your every need, because I don't want to interfere in between, or get ahead of you own family's responsibility to provide you the love, health care and comfort that you really need", "I'll always be there in the mist whenever you need me", "It will be no problem to remain immobile until and when I'm needed." was what should of been took into consideration; it wouldn't of never been what it is now in this present time. Stretching a already thin line with the threads starting to break, drew a lot of family separation, hard feelings, lost of confidence, havoc and chaos, security and some love lost that everyone who are affected are receiving. The fact is...there is no real hate...just sheer disappointment of actions shown aggressively is what it is now, can't never be mended again. 

A life has expired from this madness. I don't want what's already come to pass ever again. There aren't enough line to keep pressing on what should of stretched without breaking with common sense throughout its threads. That part of my life ended for infinity with the most important person in my life. That line is infinity broken. No more stretching the thinnest line between love and hate, because there is no more love far that I can see from anyone that walked that thinnest line before hate could ever show and rear its ugly face. 

That's a fact! It's now made clear to me what family can do whatever they want their way, or it's the highway no matter who they hurt in the process. My family and I was lied to about rekindling an already a broken family. "I don't care to honor that request of rekindling again!" It died when the season was suppose to be a happy and surrounded by family.

Name's are kept anonymous in my posts

Blind Fate

Book 35

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2 Corinthians 4:4 - 18 - 4. In whom the god of this world hath blinded the minds of  them which believe not, lest the light of the glorious gospel of Christ, who is the image of GOD, should shine unto them.  5. For we preach not ourselves, but Christ JESUS the LORD; and ourselves your servants for JESUS sake.  6. For GOD, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of GOD in the face of JESUS Christ.  7. But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of GOD, and not of us. 8. We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;  9. Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed.  10. Always bearing about in the dying of the LORD JESUS that the life also of JESUS might be made manifest in out body.  11. For we which live are alway delivered unto death for JESUS sake  that the life also of JESUS might be made manifest of our mortal flesh.  12. So then death worketh in us but life in you.  13. We having the same spirit of faith, according as it is written, I believe and therefore have I spoken; we also believe, and therefore we speak.  14. Knowing that he which raised up the LORD JESUS shall raised up us also by JESUS, shall present us with you.  15. For all things are for your sakes, that the abundant grace might through the thanksgiving of many redound to the glory of GOD.  16. For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day. 17. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory.  18. While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the thing which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal.







What is the meaning of blind fate? For me...in my reflection...by urban standard, is to put everything into something a person thinks they have (which is power) except knowing the fact that there is possibility that it may not exist, or come true, or if it had any real meaning to it. Here's the catch! Always finding a reason to continue with the power over everyone and everything, one never really had in the beginning was already null and voided. What's not to understand about that? Putting all the time and the focus on that acclaimed power, when it is known that they already have the source, the room for everyone and every thing in their lives (family, love, money, material things) makes it seems very unfounded to continuously interfere in the lives of people who don't want them there anymore, or to keep interfering in something that was none of their business from the beginning...never leaving well enough alone.  I find it hard to believe that this fate still presents its magnitude of deception, It was determined their fate to find more ways than one to make life miserable for those who done nothing to deserve the unknown. I find it very applauding!

Surprisingly...fate of deception was planned, delivered, and never ceased until this day.  It still amazes me! That's why ignore its challenge against my family and against me. Their fate still revolves around greed, money, theft and hurting the ones I love. Its a desolate farce to continue this drama on and on and on.

Fate is how, what and who they put into their equation with the act of deceiving ones character, when its their own dome. The outcome of it, will return with a vengeance.  Ex. Reaping and sowing. This is an example of how much time a person can have on their hands, consistently producing one deceit after another deceit to get their point across from a distance. Without preparation, experience, or knowledge to understand the consequences and the repercussions of their actions, will not be biased on reason...and then lacking to reason to continue this desolate farce, and the purpose of why it happened in the first place.

"It didn't have to be!" Ever! Sightless to fathom the outcome of ones fate, is their reality. It over whelms their mind with guilt of past indiscretions. What's to do when a mind is guilty of indiscretion?  It continues its fate to deceive...scheming and planning a scandal after scandal after scandal. I find it a terrible thing to consistently waste time, making as many lives as miserable as possible.

My family and I fate is not to have any more time for ones deceit; or ones surprises. Our fate is not blinded, or wear its Vail. Our fate is believing that everything is possible when we totally believe, have faith and trust that GOD and his son JESUS is always good all the time.  They can only bring security with comfort, understanding and knowledge. They can bring my family and I through our trials and tribulations, no matter how much ones fate of their deception keep nit picking at us.  We will continue to ignore unconditionally ignorance and move on from the tragedy and the deception that in gulped our mortal beings...heal from it...turn the other cheek and move on.

That's all there is to this. It's over! Kaput. Done with!  GOD and his son JESUS will continue to be the head of my family's life, health and the strength to keep moving on from spasms, dramatic mayhem and constant nit picking. My communication is through my words. I find wisdom in the truth being told for those who are blinded by their fate. What's presented is the reality of it.

Living To Forgive Those Who Has Done Wrong Towards You Even Though

Book 28

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Colossians 2:13 -  13.  And you, being dead in your sins and the uncircumcision of your flesh, hath he quickened together with him, having forgiven you all trespasses.

What's not to forgive if you know GOD and his son JESUS? Is in your heart to forgive those who has done evil and wrong towards you, no matter what the circumstances...even if it involves someone who helped cause a loved one's death? Why not leave old rubbish in the past.  Let it stay where it is.  GOD and his son JESUS will handle the rest for you without getting your hands and feet dirty. Forgetting the bad memories and those who cause those bad memories would be a better solution of living what has already expired. What time do you have and what sense does it make reliving what's past tense?  Let's us all keep moving on from sending our souls to damnation cause of some one's actions and their acts evil doings. From my experiences with people who can't -- let the past go.  The drama, the sarcasm, the spasms, and mayhem of ones indiscretions are directed in a sense where forgiveness is not a good thing, or if its not an option to those who don't have a clear picture of reality, nor a pure heart to forgive. Why keep dooming yourself to (hell) damnation if forgiveness is not an option to carry out? Why not pray about what can be offered by GOD and his son JESUS to those who are accused for his indiscretions and forgive those who has done the most despicable, cunning evil doings that has been done by the accused towards you and all of us move on with reality and with life to a more positive outcome without haste.  Life is much too short for ignorance and feeble-mindedness.  Forgive those who has done wrong with the intent to cause drama, mayhem, spasms, and total sarcasm with total harm and haste and move on with the abundance of life given to all of us by GOD and his son JESUS.  Prayer changes all things if you have trust, belief, faith and guidance walking that path towards glory.  GOD and his son JESUS are the true sources of comfort and calming if your trials and tribulations are presented and your calls for help in their name with all decisions made available according to the your works done on this earth.  Reaping and sowing has its time and season for your works on this earth carries consequences and repercussions.  The past never stay in the past. Let it e known otherwise! What evil works done in the dark with eventually come out into the light and everyone you hurt will know about it.  Don't think you escaped! The truth will prevail it self with a vengeance in the eyes of GOD and his son JESUS. Let you works be honorable in the name of GOD and his son JESUS.  DITTO!