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Tuesday, November 22, 2022

The Hummingbird Sounds Of A M O T H E R

 Book 202

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Proverbs 31:10 - 10. Who can find a virtuous woman? For her price is far above rubies.



There is not a day I don't think about my M O T H E R. It's so hard on me sometimes, knowing that she is gone up to glory. It's all good! My M O T H E R is in a better place in my heart. I hear her voice when speaking to me in a abundance of sweet sound of a hummingbird. 

I miss my M O T H E R so much no matter what I do, she is still gone forever. There is nothing I could do about it. I am amongst the living! I need to try and live the best way I know how. I have started my healing process with a mental health specialist. She's really good at what she does in order to help me with my grief. 

I can't forget her...ever! Even if she not living, I will always carry the memories of her in my heart. My M O T H E R  has given me those sweet melodies of a hummingbird. That in itself I will cherish the rest of my life. There is nothing else besides GOD and his son JESUS will ever take her place. 


Monday, August 22, 2022

What A Blessing To Receive In A Walker

 Book 200 - Special Edition Post - I thank you JESUS for my 200th Post





Ephesians 1:3 - 3. Blessed be the GOD and Father of our LORD Jesus Christ, who hath blessed us with all spiritual blessings in heavenly place in Christ.


Wow! I am so thankful to my LORD JESUS Christ for blessing me with a not new, but a used walker. I was just thinking about a walker on my way back home to the shelter I stay in for now until I get me and my son Zachary a place to stay. I could not believe what I saw in the door way of the shelter. There were three walkers and I have already chosen on of the walkers that would support my back most of all. It was like this particular walker was waiting on me to grab it just like the one in the picture above. I praised JESUS for the walker that was made for me, since I forgot my cane at my sister Sherri and brother in law Lorenzo's house. 

I feel my M O T H E R would of been proud to see a nice walker like the one I now own. I have been thinking of my M O T H E R a lot lately, my F A T H E R included. It's not a day I don't think about the both of them. My F A T H E R would of been proud to see the walker I have as well. I am going to practice folding it up and placing it inside my car for security. I can't wait to show my sister that fine walker with back support. 

It was just what I needed to be secure and comfortable. M O T H E R...F A T H E R, if there was anything in the world like the walker I have, I would of given it to either parent. The one that need it the most! Thank you JESUS for my fine used walker. I got it cleaned up and ready to go for it's first run.  



Wednesday, December 1, 2021

What Is To Be Lonely In The Hospital

 Book 193 




John 8:16 - 16. And yet if I judge, my judgement is true: for I am not alone, but I and the Father that sent me.


I am informing everyone about my stay in the hospital 🏨 so that I can so I can basically get some kind of rest πŸ›Œ and relaxation, besides catching bronchitis πŸ˜ͺπŸ‘ƒπŸ‘„πŸ‘… While I am recuperating from bronchitis, I am going to write about my feelings that I am experiencing 😐 I am really thinking about my M O T H E R and how she felt after her major stroke, and how she came through it was a true blessing πŸ™πŸΎ What I am trying to say is about how she felt being alone for approximately two months after she was admitted to the hospital 🏨 during the the time πŸ•› when COVID 19 was so bad during the early part of 2020 four months before her death πŸ’€  I was starting to feel just like she felt 😒 alone and abandoned 😣 Now I know the feeling when family πŸ‘¨‍πŸ‘©‍πŸ‘§‍πŸ‘¦ can't come to visit πŸ•₯  

Only one person can come to visit me, mask included 😷 No other family member can visit πŸ‘¨‍πŸ‘©‍πŸ‘§‍πŸ‘¦ This is the rules that the hospital 🏨 set to keep everyone safe, even if everyone who has gotten vassenated πŸ’‰for COVID19 Virus πŸ’€ M O T H E R was alone throughout her stay in the hospital 🏨 No one could visit her at all, because of the effectiness and the extent of the COVID19 virus during the early part of 2020 πŸ’€ So I can imagine my M O T H E R feeling alone and succluded from her family πŸ‘¨‍πŸ‘©‍πŸ‘§‍πŸ‘¦

This is the way I feel, and it doesn't feel good at all 😣 I really miss my family πŸ‘¨‍πŸ‘©‍πŸ‘§‍πŸ‘¦ even though, it's only been only three days since I have been hospitalized 🏨 I hope I never feel the fate of being alone again, because it's a bad feeling to feel when you don't have your family πŸ‘¨‍πŸ‘©‍πŸ‘§‍πŸ‘¦ near you for support πŸ‘©‍❤️‍πŸ‘¨ and during the time πŸ•₯ when you're down and out; like my M O T H E R was 😣 Only the hospital staff became her makeshift family πŸ‘¨‍πŸ‘©‍πŸ‘§‍πŸ‘¦ a little before she before she died in their presence πŸ’€ I still could not get close to my M O T H E R even though when I was finally allowed by the hospital 🏨 to see her just before the doctors and nurses removed her from life support πŸ’€ 

I am waiting to be discharged from the hospital 🏨 even though my M O T H E R didn't get that opportunity to be discharged from the hospital 🏨 I am blessed πŸ™πŸΎ to have the opportunity to go home 🏑 to recuperate there πŸ˜ƒ I feel that my M O T H E R really didn't die πŸ’€ alone, but with the presence of Christ, my LORD πŸ™πŸΎ she wasn't alone, and she was at peace ✌πŸ™Œ I feel good about that 😊

Sunday, September 12, 2021

I Am A Day Dreamer

 Book 190





I am a day dreamer; I am a dreamer of GOD and his son JESUS. I am a day dreamer when comes to my M O T H E R. I miss the ole girlfriends with all of my heart. She still fresh in my mind, in my heart, my soul, as I am part of her body she bore. My M O T H E R is in the hands of GOD and his son JESUS. She is without pain; she is not crying out of pain; no more dialysis for her to cleanse her blood. 

My M O T H E R is smiling with joy, nothing else in this this lifetime will make her sad with despair. She is living life in Heaven grand and Heaven I do worry to much about my M O T H E R, because I know that she is in perfect hands. My only problem is that I can't remove the thoughts of her presents here on earth. I would want her to return to despair, because her life is better where she is. My M O T H E R is living inside me through day dreams that keeps repeating day in and day out. 

She is hard to forget, because of the amount of love I still have for her. Memories from this "Legend of Love" will never faulter my mind, because she will always live in my heart strongly and boldly without an ounce of despair interfering with my thoughts of my M O T H E R. She is a legend of love by her own accord, because she touched so many lives every where she turned. A 360 degree circumference; she completes one full circle of her lifetime. It is now complete. 

My M O T H E R S journey is complete upon this earth. She earned her wings of faith, of love, and endurance. I can't touch that until I make it to Heaven. I am working on my life so that I see my M O T H E R again beyond this lifetime. πŸ•Š M O T H E R...rest well in the hands of GOD and his son JESUS, and of the kingdom of Heaven, where she will spend eternity. πŸ•Š


Sunday, March 7, 2021

An Author's Successful Journey

 Book 184



Joshua 1:8 - 8. This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according g to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt .and thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have success. 


What good webs I weave into existence. My son Zachary and I lives are about to change forever, certainly with GOD and his son JESUS ahead of all the things Zachary and I are about to do. It is a big deal for me, because I have never experienced anything like having a movie adapted from my first book, "The Minorities, The Pilot". The right of course; from my book will be asked in permission to script my book at its entirety. I for one will be giving that permission to the production companies that are interested in my work. 

There are two production companies: Chad Conley Productions and Kaoticklone Productions. I am beyond excited and totally blessed to have those production company's interest in my work. I know that I am patient in waiting for both production companies to ask for the rights of my book, so that " The Minorities, Pilot can be produced. I know in fact that my F A T H E R and M O T H E R would be happy if they could see my potential success, but...in memory of my parents, I know that they are proud of me. πŸ•Š My GOD and his son JESUS...may they rest in peace. πŸ•Š

GOD and his JESUS has blessed me so much in my life. I should have saw all the blessings that my pilots have dwelled throughout the extent of my life. I am no longer blind to see what GOD and his son JESUS has been giving me. The gift of writing has led me into a world I never thought existed. It's no longer a fantasy to me. 

This is for real! A movie adaptation is not just fun and game. It's coming to my presence and its journey into the future. Hallelujah... praise GOD and his son JESUS for giving me the opportunity to shine like the mirror I can look into completely without a smudge or streak. Hallelujah...praise GOD for giving me this chance for an opportunity of a lifetime. My F A T H E R and M O T H E R would have been totally proud to see me make a difference, not only for myself, but...for my son Zachary as well.


Monday, February 1, 2021

Giving Success To GOD And His Son JESUS Almighty

 Book 182 - Special Edition Video




Hebrews 10:36 - 36. For ye have need of patience, that after ye have done the will of GOD, ye might receive the promise. 

Genesis 39:2-3 - 2. And the LORD was with joseph, and he was a prosperous man; and he was in the house of his master the Egyptian. 3. And his master saw that the LORD was with him, and that the LORD made all that he did to prosper in his hand. 


I did an interview with my sister-in-law Neyome live, so that I could get people to donate to my Go Fund Me site. So far, no people donated to my Go Fund Me site! What I am going to do is put my Go Fund Me site in the hands of GOD and his son JESUS. They know all about what I have to do to get my screenplay in to production with the producers of Chad Conley Productions. This is what my post is all about, trying to get people to donate to my Go Fund Me site.

I am not going to worry no more about it! I am going to leave my fundraiser in the hands of my pilots. That is all I could do to get people in general to pay attention. GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time no matter what the cause, or situation is. I know in my heart I am going to raise the $4,000 dollars needed for one half of the screenplay and my screenwriter will take care of the rest. Brett Johnson (screenwriter) has given me two months to come up with the funds so that he could start my campaign. 

I am asking that everyone here who views my post will give towards my Go Fund Me site. I am praying for that to happen, because I am dedicating the cause to my parents: Ruth Ann Thomas Brunson (M O T H E R) and my (F A T H E R) Wesley Brunson Sr. I very much want to make them proud of my accomplishment. By GOD and his son JESUS almighty, let it be real; let me be able to raise the $4,000 dollars needed to cover half the cost of my screenplay. I am going to continue to leave my fundraiser in the hands of my pilots.



Wednesday, January 27, 2021

Riding The Successful Storm

 Book 181



Joshua 1:8 - 8. This book of law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt mediate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success. 

Matthew 6:33 - But seek ye first the kingdom of GOD, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. 

Proverbs 3:9-10 - 9. Honor the LORD with thy substance, and with the firstfruits of all thine increase. 10. So shall thy barns be filled with plenty and thy presses shall burst out with new wine. 

Philippians 4:19 - 19. But my GOD shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus. 


I just miss the ole girl so much, I can't began to fathom my life with out my M O T H E R. It's still hard for me to bare the though that I am never going to see my M O T H E R again. I am still grieving for her in my own way. It is not a day I don't think of her. All I could do is to pray for comfort to ease the pain I feel about losing my M O T H E R. 

This was why I will dedicate my road to success to my M O T H E R and to my F A T H E R. I just found out that my book, "The Minorities, The Pilot" is going to be scripted into a movie. That is the greatest accomplishment that I have ever received. Just like my M O T H E R, I am riding the storm to success. Yes, I got Hollywood producer eager and ready to turn my book into a movie. 

But, the only thing that I need to accomplish is getting the screenplay to the producers of Chad Conley Productions. Screenplays aren't cheep! I am looking to pay thousands of dollars to provide the screenplay to producers. That's money that I don't have on me; not even my account. I decided to do a fundraiser in order to raise at least $9000.00 to cover the cost of the screenplay.

I know that I can't let this opportunity get away from me, because it is a chance of a lifetime deal. I would like to provide for my son Zachary everything that I never had so that he can have a better life. That is my goal to do so, even if I need to use my car as collateral to cover the cost of the screenplay. Using my car as collateral is risky, but...when it comes to Zachary, I am willing to do what I need to see that he have a better life. I am riding the storm for Zachary. 

I can't pass up a chance of lifetime to live a better life. I guess I am like most people who have the opportunity to live a successful life, and I don't blame them not one bit. This is my goal for Zachary and I am not to pass this opportunity of being famous up. 

Friday, December 18, 2020

Christmastime Memories Of My Parents

 Book 179



Isaiah 7:14 - 14. Therefore the LORD give you a sign; Behold A virgin shall conceive, and bear A son, and shall call his name Immanuel

Luke 2:11 - 11. For unto you is born this day in the city of David, A Saviour, which is Christ the LORD. 


My twin sister Sherri and I decided to decorate two small Christmas trees for each parent so that we can take them to their grave sites. There were also two identical vases to put on the bases of their tombstones. Sherri and I both dread going out to our parents grave sites, because it was too painful for us to fathom their deaths to reality. It was especially hard us bare that reality. Time must move on with only the memories we will carry of our F A T H E R and M O T H E R.

The small Christmas was decorated and ready to be placed on each of our parents grave sites. Yet, we were still dreading that moment when we would actually have to go out to the grave sites and place both small Christmas trees and their vases. My brother-in-law Lorenzo decided to come along for the ride for support. Since we were more close to the grave site of my M O T H E R S, Lorenzo, Sherri, my son Zachary, my great nephews Christian and Justin Jr. went to my M O T H E R S grave site first. Sherri and I was totally emotional as we headed towards the graveyard to our M O T H E R S eternal resting place. 

All of a sudden, Sherri and I cried out when we came upon and looked over at our M O T H E R S grave site. With our eyes so full of tear drops, my brother-in-law Lorenzo drove up beside our M O T H E R S grave, and Sherri and I got out of the SUV on the passenger side where our M O T H E R grave site was located. Sherri and I was so shaken up with grief, we stood there crying out for our M O T H E R and calling out to her. It took us less than two minutes tops to do what we came out to our M O T H E R S grave site for. Afterwards, we began placing our M O T H E R S heart shaped solar light on the right side of her tombstone facing us, and then place the Christmas tree on top of her vault. Sherri and I had to anchor it to keep it in place in case of a windy day. 

The other flowers that were there we place on each side of our M O T H E R S vault so that the small Christmas tree would stand out. The vase of flowers we placed on top of her vase, praying that a strong wind will not blow it off. After Sherri and I were finished placing the vase and the small Christmas tree, we took so pictures of our M O T H E R S grave decorated full from our hearts and souls. We stood there starring with our eyes full of tear drops once again until we loaded up the SUV. It was on to my F A T H E R S grave site.

Another emotional vendetta Sherri and I had to deal with. Our eyes continued to be filled with our tear drops as we went...I'll say over 5 to 6 miles to my F A T H E R S grave site to place his small Christmas tree and flower vase onto his tombstone. As Lorenzo, Sherri, my son Zachary, Christian, and Justin Jr. arrived at the grave site of my F A T H E R, Sherri, the boys, and I got out on the passenger side of the SUV; walked around and proceeded to my F A T H E R S grave site. Sherri had to tear the base part of the small Christmas tree apart, because we could not place the tree on the ground due to the graveyard was  privately owned and it's grounds keepers try and keep the graveyard cleaned. So, with that said, Sherri could not place our F A T H E R S solar light in the ground in front of his tombstone. After Sherri took off the base of the Christmas tree, I put the tree into our F A T H E R S vase so tightly that the wind could not blow it out of the vase, as though we were hoping that wind would not blow the Christmas tree out of its vase. 

We then place my F A T H E R S small flower vase on the base of the tombstone, hoping that will not blow off from a strong wind. It was heavy enough to withstand a strong dose of wind. Our decoration of our parents graves were completed. Sherri and I started taking pictures of our F A T H E R S decorated tombstone. We stood for minutes looking at our work and thinking of our F A T H E R, before Sherri, the boys and I got into the SUV to depart the graveyard. 

Our duties when it came to our parent was done. Sherri and I was still full of emotions that our parents will not be with us for Christmas, but...will remain in our spirit and our hearts. We will have nothing but awesome memories of our parents. F A T H E R and M O T H E R can now rest during their Heavenly holiday. 

Thursday, December 17, 2020

Healing A Bad Patch

 Book 178






Malachi 4:2 - 2. But unto you that fear my name shall the Sun of righteousness arise with healing in his wings; and he shall go forth ANF grow up as calves of the stall.

Luke 9:11 - 11. And the people when they knew it, followed him: and he received them, and spend unto them of the Kingdom of GOD, and healed them that had need of healing.

1 Corinthians 12:9 - 9. To another faith the same Spirit; to another the gifts of healing by the same Spirit.


As usual on a Monday evening when I go out to my son Zachary football practice to watch him practice until he was finished practicing. While I sat there watching my son, my mind was in thought of my M O T H E R...only a brief moment. I remember a time when she sat in the exact spot where I was sitting, just watching her grandson practice and enjoying herself. It's hard sometimes not having my M O T H E R in my presents, or to the point where I could talk to her in person. I know GOD and his son JESUS took her home to be with them, but...sometimes I feel that I am totally alone without a care in the world for me to fathom that I exist. 

That's the way I feel sometimes, like I am not there in reality. On a Monday, I was in Wal-Mart Christmas shopping when I saw a woman on a motor car inside the store. With the strain of my eyes, I thought I saw my M O T H E R on that motor car riding towards me. For a minute my mind was out of reality of the fact that my M O T H E R was dead. I started riding towards this woman with a smile on my face, then I came to reality when I understood that the woman was not in fact my M O T H E R. My M O T H E R in reality was deceased. 

I immediately started crying out so loud until this man and woman came towards me like they wanted to console me. They asked was I alright. I told them I will be alright. I told them that,  I'll be fine. Two days later, the though of my M O T H E R that Monday evening stayed with me after seeing that woman in Wal-Mart. On Thursday I had a really bad patch about my M O T H E R. She was totally on my mind. I remember when I got into an argument with her over certain things; minor things that didn't make no sense to me.

I found that after my M O T H E R died, I never got the chance to apologize to her, or tell her that I loved her with all of my heart. That fate ate away with me, and I cry to the point that my blood pressure rises. I have been living with the guilt of that for quite sometime, until my brother Wesley and my sister-in-law Neyome invited me come and join their church. I joined and I got Baptised so that my sins can be washed away. And then...Wesley explained to me about my baptism. When you are baptized under GOD, all of your sin are washed away, including my guilt of not apologize to my M O T H E R when I had the chance. 

I now feel better about my indiscretions when it came to my apology to my M O T H E R. My LORD had already forgiven my sin. I feel that a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders. I now see that my M O T H E R can now rest in peace. I feel much better where I am. I find myself a Christian for GOD and his son JESUS. 

It feels good to be where I need to be and worship with people are warm and loving towards me, no matter what color you are. I am proud to be a part of the congregation for Christ our LORD. The memories of my M O T H E R will stay with me for the rest of my life. I can tell here, " I love her" anytime, even though she has gone home to glory where she will never suffer pain, or the pain of her dialysis; she will never cry again about anything. My M O T H E R is happy living with the LORD, and I am happy about that.

Sunday, November 1, 2020

My Real Live Presentation

 Book 175



Hebrews 11:1- 1. Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

Hebrews 11:6 - 6. But without faith it is impossible to please him for he that cometh to GOD must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.  

2 Corinthians 5:7 - 7. For we walk by faith, not by sight


I an getting ready for a presentation for my live "Reality Talk" v-log within a week. I feel that doing this live v-log presentation will help contribute and cope with the death of my M O T H E R and F A T H E R in a way I could feel better about them not being here on this earth. My Reality Talk live v-log presentation will be present on Facebook on November 8, 2020. In my live presentation, the topic: "What it is Like to be Different from the People you Love?" Since I will be asking my remaining immediate family members that question, I would like to know their input and how they feel about being different from our immediate family members and others alike. I hoping that my live presentation will inspire everyone who listens to it.

I have so much to say; so much to vent out when it comes to my F A T H E R especially, and my M O T H E R in the process. I would like to get the meat of this deal out in the open, just maybe, it would interest most of my viewer, or maybe, some of my viewers, it's depending on who will view my Reality Talk v-log. I am praying for a huge audience when that day comes. I feel very blessed to have my twin sister Sherri and my sister-in-law Neyome part of my upcoming presentation of "What it is Like to be Different from the People you Love." I am very excited about it! 

Sherri came over to her daughter's apartment in which I am resident to talk about our live v-log debut. She wanted to confirm our event and I was totally game. We talked about our "Reality Talk" v-log for just a brief moment before we went into another that was most important to us. We talked about how much my live presentation would help us cope with our M O T H E R S and F A T H E R S death and to help us to move on with our lives with only memories to back up what we had with our parents before their deaths. Sherri stayed only a hour with me, my son Zachary until my nephew Chris showed up after dropping his daughter off with her grandmother in Tampa. I enjoyed every minute of the time she spent with me and Zachary. I always do! 

Sherri left with her granddaughter Ta'Neisha. Zachary and I decided to continue to look at Cold Case. I really like that Television show. The network ROKL wants to take it out of their list of television shows and movies and I can't understand why when I love a specific television show, it is ripped from my imagination? I don't understand! But...I want go into this with a fine tooth comb. I don't want to lose all of my bristles. 

The thought of my Reality Talk live v-log was totally on my mind and I could not wait to do it on November 8. I also hope that we are all ready for it, and I hope that none of us mess during my live presentation. I want it to be perfect, but...nothing ever is. GOD and his son JESUS...pray for me, Sherri and Neyome to do a wonderful job and do our best to give a live Reality Talk v-log for our viewers on Facebook. 

Sunday, July 26, 2020

The Book Of Ruth

Book 168



Copyright © 2020 by Author Terri Celestine Brunson



*Links for COVID19


Ruth 1:21 - 21. I went out full, and the LORD hath brought me home again empty; why then call ye me Naomi, seeing the LORD hath testified against me, and the Almighty hat afflicted me?

Ruth 4:15 - 15. And he shall be unto thee a restorer of thy life, and a nourisher of thine old age: for thy daughter in law, which loveth thee, which is better to thee than seven sons, hath born him. 



I found out within a blink of an eye that my MOTHER Ruth's condition was deteriorating and that she may have to go into hospice, because...when you are in hospice, there was nothing more anyone could do but to make MOTHER comfortable. For her...I know that GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time and I know that my pilots will bring my MOTHER through her time of despair after having a stroke. I find that it looked as if my MOTHERS doctor's has already written her off just for extra beds during the COVID19. My MOTHER was deteriorating in my mind since I cannot go to the hospital and see her under the circumstances of the COVID19

I believed that my MOTHERS deterioration was due to the fact that she cannot see her family. She really needed her family for support. My family and I cannot see what is really happening with our MOTHER while she is in the hospital. I remembered something that my MOTHER said to my twin sister Sherri while on the phone with Sherri, "Are you all mad with me is the reason you are not coming to see me?" That was the last real conversation that Sherri and our MOTHER Ruth had with each other before she could not say anything else anymore.

Sherri assured our MOTHER that we (our immediate family) was not mad with her at all. We could not go to the hospital to see our MOTHER at any cost due to the COVID19 virus. That was the precautions that my family and I had to take in order to endure what our MOTHER and our immediate family are going through. It seemed as if we were in a nightmare knowing that my family and I do not have any real answers from my MOTHERS doctor's to help us understand what was really going on with my MOTHER and her prognosis since she recovered a little from her stroke. Her prognosis was the main source of information that we needed to understand my MOTHERS condition.

I felt as if the doctor's and nurses were going against protocol and holding back from my family and I the information that me and my family should know about. Sherri have been keeping me and our brother Wesley Jr. updated on our MOTHERS condition, since she is in fact the oldest. It was after 5:00 pm that day and I asked Sherri on our MOTHERS condition. Sherri have not heard from our MOTHERS doctor, but...she said that she was fine, because...she had conversed with a social worker about our MOTHERS health and condition, so, it was nothing to be worried about. It was late in the afternoon, and my MOTHERS condition seemed to have improved. 

Sherri had spoken to our MOTHER over the phone, since we cannot go and see her due to the COVID19 virus. Our MOTHER turned her head to the receiver and grunted into the phone to Sherri. Sherri and I felt that was a good sign that our MOTHER will be talking not soon, but...whenever GOD and his son JESUS see fit for our MOTHER to talk; our MOTHER will talk. We both knew that it would be a long drawn out process for our MOTHER. Sherri and I will not rush it! 

We will give our MOTHER all the time she need to recuperate from her stroke. The was the happiest moment of my life just to know that my MOTHER grunted into the phone to Sherri for the first time in a month. MOTHER is still not moving her right side (leg and arm) her left side, she is moving just fine. We feared that our MOTHER will be partially paralyzed that is for sure and that she will be in a wheelchair for quite sometime until it is time for her to receive physical therapy. GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time. 

Even though...my MOTHER is the same position she is in and that is how Sherri, Wesley Jr., and I will see her when she comes out of the hospital. My MOTHER is paralyzed on her right arm and leg...virtually her whole right side. Her left side of her body, she has motor skills. There will be no therapy required until my MOTHER comes back to herself. One week and a half later...my MOTHER seemed to have recovered more from what I thought was depression from not being able to see her family due to the COVID19.

She is moving the left side of her body; she is alert and responsive to sound and voices; she is opening her eyes and closing them; she cannot speak, nor move her right side at all, but...she is more responsive than anything we imagined. MOTHER is slowly coming back to us in a nutshell. It will be a while before my MOTHER recovers from everything that she has been through. Me and my family will be doing a lot of praying while she continues to recover from her ordeal. 

All me and my family know is that MOTHER will need total care no matter what we say or how we feel as much as we hate it, our MOTHER will have to be sent to a nursing home for her total care. With Sherri and I and my brother-in-law Lorenzo disabled, there is nothing more we could do to give my MOTHER the total care she needed to make her feel comfortable; she will have to go to a nursing home for her total care. It makes me sad of the thought of a nursing home, but...that was the only option me and my family had in reality for our MOTHER. I had wished if it was another way, or another option that we could come up with to secure our MOTHERS safety. Only GOD and his son JESUS only knew the answer to that. 

It was only obvious that the nursing home was me and my family's last option, and only GOD and his son JESUS will take care of our MOTHER throughout her care. All we could do is pray. As I update on my MOTHERS condition, "Praise GOD and his son JESUS Christ for bringing my MOTHER out of her catharsis state. She is now talking! She know who we are (Sherri, Wesley Jr. and I) and it's like we are now a whole family again. My MOTHER got a lot of rehabilitation to go threw and she will be fine in the mighty name of GOD and his son JESUS. My pilots has answered all of our prayers!

Friday, July 17, 2020

M O T H E R

Book 167 - Special Edition Post - Our Queen, The Matriarch



Copyright © 2020 by Author Terri Celestine Brunson


2 Kings 4:30 - 30. And the mother of the child said, as the LORD liveth, and as they soul liveth, I will not leave thee. And he arose, and followed her. 

Isaiah 66:13 - 13. As one whom his mother comforteth, so will I comfort you; and ye shall be comforted in Jerusalem. 



Sherri, Wesley Jr., and I longed for our MOTHER to be there for us when we needed her to be there for us. There was nothing that could pull us away from her even if she's not doing her best, we are there for her in spirit and in spirit...her every need. It is hard sometimes to know that we cannot be there at the time when things are so uncharted and so unclear to us. Sherri, Wesley Jr., and I know that GOD and his son JESUS is there on time when our MOTHER need them the most. Her time away from us is so precious, dear, and sweet. 

Sherri, Wesley Jr., and I know that our MOTHERS voice will not be silenced for long, nor her immobile status will not see to exist for as long as we know that GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time. We bring new hope to the table and we lay it down with the possibilities of what may occur when our MOTHER...the queen of the universe is not 100 times the fathom we want her to be. Those fathoms turn into security wrapped around Sherri, Wesley Jr., and I with our emotions and in our thoughts. Some codes are not made to figure out just how concerned we are when it comes to our MOTHER. She is the queen, our matriarch! 

How can we hold our composure; how can we keep our emotions intact without shedding an ounce of despair? It is quite obvious what is known to be true by faith from the ones above. GOD is good all the time! And there is nothing that could beat our pilots giving, if asked in their name and that Sherri, Wesley Jr., and I pray as hard as we could withstand the love that GOD and his son JESUS has for us and our MOTHER to come back to us a 1000 and 1 bubbly presents. We can see as far as the horizon when it comes to our MOTHER being in the center our world. 

Our queen, our matriarch...where art thou in our thoughts? We know that you will return with glory and strength. That would be a joy to see! It is a once in a lifetime gift wrapped in our prayers, our faith, our trust, our belief, and our joy. Sherri, Wesley Jr., and I will meet our MOTHER again when things are not so uncharted. 

Our MOTHERS charts will not be so uncharted for long once she began to blossom like a flower in a spring breeze. Then...we will know that our MOTHER is growing closer to us than we ever imagined her to be watered with purity. Our queen, the matriarch...GOD and his son JESUS got you when there is nothing more to worry about or to do. Your strength will be revised to you a 1000 times more than you ever imagined it would be. Patience has its abundance when it is not rushed, only if it is given with time in the name of our father GOD, and in the name your son JESUS, and in the name of the HOLY Spirit...it is done!.

Wednesday, July 15, 2020

The Wisdom of the Mitchell and Brunson Family

Book 166 - Special Edition Post - A Real Family







Ephesians 2:8 - 9 - 8. For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves it is the gift of GOD. 

Hebrews 11:6 - 6. But without faith it is impossible to please him for he that cometh to GOD must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him. 

Mark 16:16 - 16. He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned. 

Romans 10:10 - 10. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. 


There were many things that the Brunson and Mitchell family's did not take for granted, and that was love, happiness, trust, belief, faith, and glory. There was nothing we would do for family. We hang out together no matter where we were on the globe. My family and I would always be together. There was something in our lives that was too painful to take. 

It was not my FATHER this time, It was my MOTHER is the light of our lives. She got stuck down by a stroke almost a month ago without notice. I was told by my twin sister Sherri around 11:30 that night when I was getting ready for bed that our MOTHER was sick and that she had to go to the nearest hospital for care. I raced over to my brother-in-law Lorenzo's mother house to see what was going on with my MOTHER. When I arrived, my MOTHER was being placed in back of an ambulance. 

She looked like nothing was wrong with her. She was talking and looking around while the paramedics were securing her in the back of the ambulance. Sherri and I were then told by one of the paramedics that our MOTHER will be taken to the nearest hospital for treatment, because...he believed at that moment that she was having a possible stroke. Sherri and I was in shock about what the paramedic had told us. Sherri had told me that day when our MOTHER told her that she was in pain behind her left eye and that her left eye was incredibly red like a blood vessel had ruptured throughout her eye.

She also said that our MOTHER had just had dinner that night.No one thought no more about that something silently was going on with our MOTHER. While my MOTHER was eating, she had dropped her fork on the floor and began to lay back on the sofa. Sherri notice our MOTHER laid back on the sofa unresponsive. She told me that she immediately call 911 emergency at that moment to come out to the house and that our MOTHER did not feel well at all at that moment. Then...I received the call to come over to Lorenzo's mother's house to check on my MOTHER. At that moment, I did not waste anytime getting my clothes and shoes from my night attire. 

And that was the timeline of what I saw when I arrived at Lorenzo mother's house to see my MOTHER in the back of the ambulance. Sherri and I stood there in the yard as we watched our mother leave in the ambulance to South Florida Baptist Hospital. It was the nearest hospital to take my MOTHER for treatment, even though...I did not like that hospital for its history for how they treated their patient and not getting certain things done to improve the quality of the hospital. So with that said, my MOTHER had to receive immediate care. My family and I had to remain outside of the hospital, because of the COVID19 virus. 

I was very worried about my mother, because...of the COVID19 virus. I prayed as she was inside of the hospital that she would not contract the virus. Thirty minutes into my MOTHERS hospital visit, a nurse came out to meet with me and Sherri about our MOTHERS condition. She had informed us that our MOTHER had a stroke and that she had to air lifted to a hospital in Tampa, Florida. Our MOTHER was air lifted to St. Joseph's Hospital. It was one of the best hospitals for patients who experience what my MOTHER experienced during her time of despair. 

Sherri and I were totally worried about our MOTHER, because...her situation was a matter of life and death when she was flown to St. Joseph's Hospital in Tampa. We were distraught about what was going to happen with our MOTHER. Tears beaded down our faces as I tried to drive to Tampa following the helicopter. Sherri had gotten a call to turn around and go home from a nurse South Florida Baptist Hospital, because...there was no need for us to go to St. Joseph's Hospital. We were going to sit outside of the hospital anyway, because...of the COVID19 virus. No one was allowed through the hospital entrance where the patients were, or in the lobby crowding around. 

Sherri and I started back home so that we could inform our family about our MOTHER serious condition. It took less than twenty minutes for us to reach home. As soon as Sherri and I walked in the door of Lorenzo's mother's home, we started praying for our MOTHERS recovery. Continuously distraught, Sherri and I parted ways. I told Sherri and Lorenzo that I would come back over as soon as the sun came up good and when I gotten myself cleaned up. 

Our family came together to pray for our MOTHERS recovery. Wesley had came around to the house later that day, so that we could comfort each other in our time of despair. Our MOTHER was totally important to us and we did not want anything to happen to her in the midst of her stroke and the situation that she was in as she was placed in the intensive care unit at St. Joseph's Hospital. Sherri, Lorenzo, Wesley, and I could only pray for our MOTHERS recovery from her stroke and that would come out from that catharsis state that she was in. All that we knew, we knew in our hearts that our MOTHER would recover and that it was going to take some time until she was able to become mobile again with her body and that she will be able to become verbal to tell us that she will be alright. 

Tuesday, June 30, 2020

A Huge Bit Of Happiness

Book 165 - Special Edition Happiness Post







Ecclesiastes 3:12-13 - 12. I know that there is no good in them, but for a man to rejoice, and to do good in his life. 13. And also that every man should eat and drink, and enjoy the good of all his labour, it is the gift of GOD. 

Ecclesiastes 7:14 - 14. In the day of prosperity be joyful, but in the day of adversity consider; GOD also hath set the one over against the other, to the end that man should find nothing after him. 

Isaiah 26:3-4 - 3. Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee; because he trusteth in thee. 4. For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil. to give you an expected end. 

Jeremiah 29:11 - 11. For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. 



This was what I wanted in a nutshell. Who wants to be sad about everything in their lives? I know that I have been through a lot of hardships in my life. In one instance, and I feel that I'm slightly healed from it was the death of my FATHER, but...not so much to the point I can say, "I'm completely healed." I would rather be happy about life, than to wallow in my grief for my FATHER. I am happy about an opportunity that I was introduced to.

I got a chance to make my book, "The Minorities" shine like a mirror. I got an opportunity to pitch my book to Hollywood Producers and I am totally excited about it. Who will get this chance of lifetime and throw it away? People in general ask questions about how much it cost to take that journey towards success. I do not care about the costs, even though I do not have the money to pay for my journey. 

But...I know GOD and his son JESUS will walk ahead of me in my journey towards pitching my book to Hollywood Producers. This was a one and a chance of a lifetime and I do not want to pass it up, even though I do not have all the funds I need to move on. GOD got my journey; he will provide for me through my journey! I know I have not been consistent with my tithes to the church, because of my hardships, but...hope that GOD and his son JESUS will take care of me every step of the way. I am determined to be happy, be glad, and be thankful to GOD and his son JESUS for bringing me thus far in my new career. 

I am very determined to make it, and not fake it. My opportunity is too important to let go. I thank GOD and his son JESUS for it. I am so happy and totally excited about my journey in pitching my book "The Minorities." I also have another book that I am getting ready to publish. I have already started the process in doing so. My sequel to The Minorities will also make its spot to be pitched by Hollywood Producers. 

I am on a roll with getting my book noticed worldwide and there is nothing that would stop me, but...GOD and his son JESUS, and I acknowledge that very much. I will make it and be successful.I feel in my faith, my trust, and confidence. I am getting ready to introduce my third book and I hope that it get picked up by Hollywood Producers as well. I am totally happy, proud of myself as I make this  journey and I will take  GOD and his JESUS with me all the way. 



Sunday, May 17, 2020

Happiness Is Where The Heart Is

Book 164





2 Corinthians 13:11 - 11. Finally, brethren, farewell. Be perfect, be of good comfort, be of one mind, live in peace; and the GOD of love and peace shall be with you. 

Jude 1:2 - 2. Mercy unto you, and peace, and love, be multiplied. 


*Link to COVID19 is available in my post.


I'm getting ready to make my post be known by everyone who's viewing it. I find myself consistently walking on egg shells; and I'm listening to every crack those shells make as I walk into a depressive state in my life that I feel everyday. My niece gives me every reason to think this, because of the way she walks around the house, and not a word to me the whole time she's off her truck route. But...I decided to start ignoring those possibilities of being ignored by my niece, and move on with my life, until I find a place of my own with my son Zachary. I can't let my niece continue breaking my down to the point of being depressed all the time, and me, consistently walking on egg shells to her ignorance of me being the best aunt she could ever had, since I was the one who co-signed for her to go to trucking school.

I just got tired of being the cast off, and the ghost of the unknown, which would be the main reason why I'm writing this post. I want to move on from this, and not feeling sorry for myself, or someone else feeling sorry for me. I'm starting my day off with getting dressed, and ready for my day. I'm thinking about going over to my brother-in-law mother's house, because there is where I feel the happiest. No negatives allowed there!

I was glad of that! I'm a hop, skip, and a jump away of walking out the door to go and visit my brother-in-law, Lorenzo, my twin sister, Sherri, and my mother, Ruth, and the rest of the family. The journey over to my brother-in-law mother's house, took me through a time of happiness and joy for the first time in five months since my family and I moved in with my niece. About ten minutes later, I arrived at my brother-in-law's mother house with "polar pops" and snacks ready to start my day with my immediate family. Zachary and I were there not only for a family get together, we were there for a fish fry as well. I had to pitch in to by the fish for our fish fry.

My brother-in-law Lorenzo, my twin sister Sherri, my mother Ruth, my great niece Ta'Neisha, and my brother-in-law father Maxwell decided to go together to the fish market to buy fish. Our journey took at least thirty-minutes to forty minutes to reach our destination, depending on the traffic. As we arrived, we found a line outside of the fish market. With the COVID19 going on, for all of our safety, social distancing was the main priority to keep us all safely distant from one another. It was six persons at a time to enter into the fish market.

It took no more than fifteen minutes tops, for Lorenzo and I to enter into the fish market by escort. We had a very huge order; three pounds of tilapia, and five mullets pan fry and ready to go. I took about another twenty to twenty-five minutes for the prep guys inside to clean and prepare the fish. Lorenzo and I had to wait outside until the fish is cleaned and ready for me to pay and pick up the fish and four orders of imitation crab meat. After twenty-five minutes passed, Lorenzo and I entered the fish market by escort so that I can pay for and pick up our fish order. 

Afterwards...my family and I started our journey back to my brother-in-law's mother's house in time for our fish fry. It was the greatest time Zachary and I will ever have just spending time with immediate family, and having the grandest fish fry in the many months since we moved in with my niece. 
   

Sunday, April 19, 2020

Walking Towards Redemption

Book 163






Proverbs 20:5 - 5. Counsel in the heart of man is like deep water, but...a man of understanding will draw it out. 

Psalms 69:14 - 14. Deliver me out of the more, and let me not sink: let me be delivered from them that hate me, and out of the deep waters. 




Caution: The identities of my niece and nephew are protected under the love I have for them. Readers discression advised! 


More likely, the force is with me in the matter of my status as a unloved aunt with a lot of emotions that has mentally engulped life as far as I saw it. Too much time has passed, and it seemed like nothing is getting better with my relationship with...especially my niece. My nephew on the other hand...still has mixed feelings about me, and the relationship is still a bit estranged in a whole lot of ways. They hardly talk to me about anything, no matter what that may be, they just don't talk to me period. They don't talk about their problems to me, nor do they give me a hint of what's going on in their lives.

What did I do to deserve such attitude? I know I've had some faults that I attend to address on my own, and with no fault of my own, but...will make available upon request. What I can suggest in the matter of my two silent parties (niece and nephew) is that I spot the complete ingredients of  selfishness, and a ton of non compassion for me from the both of them. I'm getting so tired of the silent, but...double silent drama. It has taken toll on my life as a mature adult who has been on the peak of the mountain, and I'm starting to climb down with a lot of caution that I don't get tripped up in my emotions that I feel.

What double webs are weaved several times over the doubts I feel? I questions it with a vengeance! And yet...I find myself in tears most of the time when I'm alone with these thoughts dancing around in my head. My steps are light as I continue to walk on egg shells when it comes to my niece and nephew's corrupt attitudes towards me. I know that someday, I will get answers, and why with my conscience they seem to carry this love/hate relationship with me.

My requiring mind really want to know why is this happening to me, after all I've done for my niece and nephew. And sometimes I wish that my twin sister and her husband would open their eyes and see the emotions I've dealt with concerning their children.

Saturday, April 11, 2020

Where Is The Heart Of Home?

Book 161





Psalms 34:17 - 20 - 17. The righteous cry, and the LORD heareth, and delivereth them out of all their troubles. 18. The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite. 19. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but...the LORD delivereth him out of a them all. 20. He keepeth all his bones; not one of them is broken. 



I'm wondering where is home going to be in a few weeks. A lot of people don't know what it's like to be in a position where you're put on the spot, once again, after 2nd of December 2019, my family and I had to move out of our double wide mobile home, due to the month to month status that we were secretly placed in when our landlord did not want to renew our lease back in September of 2019. We were considered homeless (since we didn't have "our" own roof anymore) to the point we had to move in with my niece Octavia, until we found another place to stay...so I thought. We've been with my niece for four months and one week exactly. My brother-in-law Lorenzo doesn't want to rent anymore.

He want to build a magnificent home for all of us to live. But...my family and I are placed in situation once again; it's like we're put on the spot of being homeless...once again. May 2nd is arriving very fast, and my niece Octavia will not be renewing her lease where we're all in residence, and there is so much for me to do and think about. My twin sister Sherri, her husband Lorenzo, their grand children: Ta'Neisha, Laila, Christian, and our mother Ruth, have a place to go, along with my niece Octavia. They will be residing with at my brother-in- law Lorenzo mother's home. For Zachary and I...we do have a place to go with my nephew Justin, but...it seems like my nephew really don't want us there (just saying...) because of a girl he wants there with him. Justin (for the time being) has no choice but to let Zachary and I reside temporarily at his new home, until my family and I magnificent home is built.

All we (my family and I) could do is put our hardships of moving around so much within four years, in the hands of GOD and his son JESUS to prepare us for what's ahead. There will be a lot of work to do in the time we have at Octavia's home. I'm dreading the big move after four months and one week, but...we (family and I) don't have any other options. Yes...it was Octavia's decision to do what ever she want to do, and that's to end her lease with the residence we've resided for months. "Our hardships are in GOD and his son JESUS hand!"

Monday, April 6, 2020

Home Is A Luxury

Book 160



Romans 16:26 - 26. But now is made, and by the scriptures of the Prophets according to the commandment of the everlasting GOD, made known to all Nation's for the obedience of faith.



Links To Main Website For #COVID19



My blessings is full of joy as I post. Staying home is a luxury due to the #COVID19 virus that's hitting us hard worldwide. Lots of people complain about staying home and being couped up with hardly nothing to do. "Praying to GOD and his son JESUS is totally nice to do, when their giving you another life to live during this deadly #COVID19 virus." Giving your life to our pilots for sparing you from getting the #COVID19 is a all time luxury to have, and is truly a blessing to be thankful for.

I wish people in general will take that to heart, instead of thinking only about themselves, and not giving thanks for their lives, health and strength, and living beyond the #COVID19 virus without any thought of being fearful of the disease, if they trust in GOD and his son JESUS to surround themselves with their shield of protection. It's not hard to fathom why this virus spands worldwide, but...you got remember this, "When our pilots are mad of how evil this world has become to the point their vengeance is released with a vengeance to let us all know, their not kidding about the possibilities of one gaining repentance for all of our sins, and the evil we've done in and around this globe, and unto others that are totally unfounded." If we're told to stay home for many reasons, '#COVID19' is the ultimate reason why we are secluded to our homes, or we pay the ultimate price for being hard headed, and not obeying this lock down that has gone into effect worldwide. Don't complain about things we as a Nation, and worldwide cannot change, even if we all wanted to do so. We can't get another life (if we survive with a miracle) the #COVID19 once it hit our bodies.

A whole lot has to be considered in this case. Obedience is a must! If our Governor's, Senators, down to our President say, "Stay home for your protection, then do as your told without uttering a complain about your freedom to wander when you want to, because you may just end up paying that ultimate price of someone who are randomly in our midst, and out there coughing on you and everyone without covering their mouths." Think of the logics of this matter, and stay home, because it's a luxury to do so. May GOD add a blessing to our souls, for the edification of our hearts. This is what we all need to correct and change for our protection.

Friday, March 27, 2020

My Time, My Life On Standby

Book 159 - Special Edition Post -



     

Romans 8:18 - 18. For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.



I didn't know...I just found out, since I don't look at the news often, but...for the past three days, the State of Florida has been on a lock down, because of the #COVID19 virus pandemic. All of the counties have curfews to be inside their homes at a certain time; I don't know what time the curfew will go into effect, but...I know that it will be until further notice. "I knew this would happen!" Some where along the line, I knew this would happen. This will delay my trip to Jamaica for the up coming days ahead.

I know for sure, Alrick is going to be very upset. I can't help the fact that I can't make the trip to Jamaica. He told me not to delay my trip at no given time. With that said, I got to abide by what is official until the lock down is over. So again...with that said, my trip to Jamaica will have to wait until in April. I don't know where in April that I will be traveling; I know that I'm going to be on delay until then. I'm still waiting on my funding so I can travel to Jamaica, because...my heart aches and I really want to be with my future husband.

I need time with him! I can't stand to look at him through video on my phone no longer. I want to see Alrick face to face. I guess...I can say, things like this happen for a reason, and I don't know why. I know that so much has happened during the time Alrick and I were in a argument, I do know that things with us will get better as soon as I arrive in Jamaica.

I'm praying to GOD, and his son JESUS, that I will finally make my trip to Jamaica. I know that Alrick's anger will soon turn into joy when I arrive there, and we will find ourselves in the midst of our love making; and I know that nothing more will interfere with that. I know our love making will last a lifetime and that it will bring the next generation of our new family into reality. I know that I will always keep that close to my heart for as long as I live life with Alrick as his devoted wife. When this lock down is over, and I receive my money, I will find myself on a plane to Jamaica to be with my future husband, and we can start building our lives to the fullest.

So I say to Alrick, "I know that the time you've been waiting on me to come to Jamaica has been rough, prolonged, and impatient on you, but...I know in my heart when I tell you this, 'When time finally fulfill your needs as your wife, as your companion, as your lover, as your best friend, and as one." lapse, it's a reason for everything that is happening', but...when that time come for me, I will Please baby...be patient with me, because I know that you would like nothing more, than for me to be there side by side with you. GOD and his son JESUS does everything for a reason. I pray so hard that I will be there before our anniversary, which is on the 7th of April.

Your told me once to tell you everything you need to know about me, and what I'm doing and how I'm preparing myself for life with you. Please I beg you...please...please...be patient with me. "I love you more than my life right now!" I love you unconditionally.

Friday, March 6, 2020

Love Doesn't Discriminate Ones Obligations To Love Unconditionally

Book 156 - Special Edition Post







Psalm 85:10 - 10. Mercy and truth are met together; righteousness and peace have kissed each other. 




When I think of all the laughing and talking about everything we could think of off the top of our heads, I remember the good times we had as soul mates so happy and in love. "Those were the good times Alrick and I shared." And then...I think of all the times we argued off the top of our lungs about everything we could think of off the top of our heads, "Those were our trials and tribulations that consumed us at the time of despair." But...we can still love unconditionally with all the strength we have in our bodies to survive it's raft, not only once, or twice, but...a dozen times to the point of losing count of all the times we laughed, talked and argued. This is all in a relationship!

Alrick and I have been through so much in our lives in such a brief time, it's hard to cross all the "T's" and dot all the "I's" through those rocky paths we struggled to walk through without cutting into our conscience. We both pray, we continue in communication about our rights and wrongs, only to see which one weight the most in our vocabulary. We live for our lives, we live for the future; we will still live for all the good times we will have, and all the bad times we must go through just to see how much we can still survive without wallowing in our grief. Alrick and I know there will be times that we will shed tears of sorrow after we've been through an argument, and we know there will be tears of joy when we live, laugh, and love every minute of every second we have a pleasant conversation. That's life above and beyond everything a couple "soul mates" must go through without being reluctant to the consequences and the repercussions it has on the relationship itself. 

Alrick and I are going to live a lifetime of those repercussions it will have on our relationship. We must continue to survive it's raft, and continue to move on towards the future. Alrick and I will love a lifetime, even though our child we will conceive through the unconditional love that we have for one another. Nothing could come in between that, but the LORD our GOD, if they chose to separate us in death. Only prayer and patience will keep us in a abundance of faith, trust, belief, grace, glory, blessings and love with the strength of our pilots above.

We cannot ask for more than that!