Book 202
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Tuesday, November 22, 2022
The Hummingbird Sounds Of A M O T H E R
Monday, August 22, 2022
What A Blessing To Receive In A Walker
Book 200 - Special Edition Post - I thank you JESUS for my 200th Post
Wednesday, December 1, 2021
What Is To Be Lonely In The Hospital
Book 193
John 8:16 - 16. And yet if I judge, my judgement is true: for I am not alone, but I and the Father that sent me.
I am informing everyone about my stay in the hospital π¨ so that I can so I can basically get some kind of rest π and relaxation, besides catching bronchitis πͺπππ While I am recuperating from bronchitis, I am going to write about my feelings that I am experiencing π I am really thinking about my M O T H E R and how she felt after her major stroke, and how she came through it was a true blessing ππΎ What I am trying to say is about how she felt being alone for approximately two months after she was admitted to the hospital π¨ during the the time π when COVID 19 was so bad during the early part of 2020 four months before her death π I was starting to feel just like she felt π’ alone and abandoned π£ Now I know the feeling when family π¨π©π§π¦ can't come to visit π₯
Only one person can come to visit me, mask included π· No other family member can visit π¨π©π§π¦ This is the rules that the hospital π¨ set to keep everyone safe, even if everyone who has gotten vassenated πfor COVID19 Virus π M O T H E R was alone throughout her stay in the hospital π¨ No one could visit her at all, because of the effectiness and the extent of the COVID19 virus during the early part of 2020 π So I can imagine my M O T H E R feeling alone and succluded from her family π¨π©π§π¦
This is the way I feel, and it doesn't feel good at all π£ I really miss my family π¨π©π§π¦ even though, it's only been only three days since I have been hospitalized π¨ I hope I never feel the fate of being alone again, because it's a bad feeling to feel when you don't have your family π¨π©π§π¦ near you for support π©❤️π¨ and during the time π₯ when you're down and out; like my M O T H E R was π£ Only the hospital staff became her makeshift family π¨π©π§π¦ a little before she before she died in their presence π I still could not get close to my M O T H E R even though when I was finally allowed by the hospital π¨ to see her just before the doctors and nurses removed her from life support π
I am waiting to be discharged from the hospital π¨ even though my M O T H E R didn't get that opportunity to be discharged from the hospital π¨ I am blessed ππΎ to have the opportunity to go home π‘ to recuperate there π I feel that my M O T H E R really didn't die π alone, but with the presence of Christ, my LORD ππΎ she wasn't alone, and she was at peace ✌π I feel good about that π
Sunday, September 12, 2021
I Am A Day Dreamer
Book 190
Sunday, March 7, 2021
An Author's Successful Journey
Book 184
Joshua 1:8 - 8. This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according g to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt .and thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have success.
What good webs I weave into
existence. My son Zachary and I lives are about to change forever, certainly
with GOD and his son JESUS ahead of all the things Zachary and I are about to
do. It is a big deal for me, because I have never experienced anything like
having a movie adapted from my first book, "The Minorities, The
Pilot". The right of course; from my book will be asked in permission to
script my book at its entirety. I for one will be giving that permission to the
production companies that are interested in my work.
There are two production companies:
Chad Conley Productions and Kaoticklone Productions. I am beyond excited and
totally blessed to have those production company's interest in my work. I know
that I am patient in waiting for both production companies to ask for the
rights of my book, so that " The Minorities, Pilot can be produced. I know
in fact that my F A T H E R and M O T H E R would be happy if they could see my
potential success, but...in memory of my parents, I know that they are proud of
me. π My GOD and his son JESUS...may they rest
in peace. π
GOD and his JESUS has blessed
me so much in my life. I should have saw all the blessings that my pilots have
dwelled throughout the extent of my life. I am no longer blind to see what GOD
and his son JESUS has been giving me. The gift of writing has led me into a
world I never thought existed. It's no longer a fantasy to me.
This is for real! A movie
adaptation is not just fun and game. It's coming to my presence and its journey
into the future. Hallelujah... praise GOD and his son JESUS for giving me the
opportunity to shine like the mirror I can look into completely without a
smudge or streak. Hallelujah...praise GOD for giving me this chance for an
opportunity of a lifetime. My F A T H E R and M O T H E R would have been
totally proud to see me make a difference, not only for myself, but...for my
son Zachary as well.
Monday, February 1, 2021
Giving Success To GOD And His Son JESUS Almighty
Book 182 - Special Edition Video
Wednesday, January 27, 2021
Riding The Successful Storm
Book 181
Joshua 1:8 - 8. This book of law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt mediate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success.
Matthew 6:33 - But seek ye first the kingdom of GOD, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
Proverbs 3:9-10 - 9. Honor the LORD with thy substance, and with the firstfruits of all thine increase. 10. So shall thy barns be filled with plenty and thy presses shall burst out with new wine.
Philippians 4:19 - 19. But my GOD shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
I just miss the ole girl so much, I can't began to fathom my life with out my M O T H E R. It's still hard for me to bare the though that I am never going to see my M O T H E R again. I am still grieving for her in my own way. It is not a day I don't think of her. All I could do is to pray for comfort to ease the pain I feel about losing my M O T H E R.
This was why I will dedicate my road to success to my M O T H E R and to my F A T H E R. I just found out that my book, "The Minorities, The Pilot" is going to be scripted into a movie. That is the greatest accomplishment that I have ever received. Just like my M O T H E R, I am riding the storm to success. Yes, I got Hollywood producer eager and ready to turn my book into a movie.
But, the only thing that I need to accomplish is getting the screenplay to the producers of Chad Conley Productions. Screenplays aren't cheep! I am looking to pay thousands of dollars to provide the screenplay to producers. That's money that I don't have on me; not even my account. I decided to do a fundraiser in order to raise at least $9000.00 to cover the cost of the screenplay.
I know that I can't let this opportunity get away from me, because it is a chance of a lifetime deal. I would like to provide for my son Zachary everything that I never had so that he can have a better life. That is my goal to do so, even if I need to use my car as collateral to cover the cost of the screenplay. Using my car as collateral is risky, but...when it comes to Zachary, I am willing to do what I need to see that he have a better life. I am riding the storm for Zachary.
I can't pass up a chance of lifetime to live a better life. I guess I am like most people who have the opportunity to live a successful life, and I don't blame them not one bit. This is my goal for Zachary and I am not to pass this opportunity of being famous up.
Friday, December 18, 2020
Christmastime Memories Of My Parents
Book 179
Isaiah 7:14 - 14. Therefore the LORD give you a sign; Behold A virgin shall conceive, and bear A son, and shall call his name Immanuel
Luke 2:11 - 11. For unto you is born this day in the city of David, A Saviour, which is Christ the LORD.
My twin sister Sherri and I decided to decorate two small Christmas trees for each parent so that we can take them to their grave sites. There were also two identical vases to put on the bases of their tombstones. Sherri and I both dread going out to our parents grave sites, because it was too painful for us to fathom their deaths to reality. It was especially hard us bare that reality. Time must move on with only the memories we will carry of our F A T H E R and M O T H E R.
The small Christmas was decorated and ready to be placed on each of our parents grave sites. Yet, we were still dreading that moment when we would actually have to go out to the grave sites and place both small Christmas trees and their vases. My brother-in-law Lorenzo decided to come along for the ride for support. Since we were more close to the grave site of my M O T H E R S, Lorenzo, Sherri, my son Zachary, my great nephews Christian and Justin Jr. went to my M O T H E R S grave site first. Sherri and I was totally emotional as we headed towards the graveyard to our M O T H E R S eternal resting place.
All of a sudden, Sherri and I cried out when we came upon and looked over at our M O T H E R S grave site. With our eyes so full of tear drops, my brother-in-law Lorenzo drove up beside our M O T H E R S grave, and Sherri and I got out of the SUV on the passenger side where our M O T H E R grave site was located. Sherri and I was so shaken up with grief, we stood there crying out for our M O T H E R and calling out to her. It took us less than two minutes tops to do what we came out to our M O T H E R S grave site for. Afterwards, we began placing our M O T H E R S heart shaped solar light on the right side of her tombstone facing us, and then place the Christmas tree on top of her vault. Sherri and I had to anchor it to keep it in place in case of a windy day.
The other flowers that were there we place on each side of our M O T H E R S vault so that the small Christmas tree would stand out. The vase of flowers we placed on top of her vase, praying that a strong wind will not blow it off. After Sherri and I were finished placing the vase and the small Christmas tree, we took so pictures of our M O T H E R S grave decorated full from our hearts and souls. We stood there starring with our eyes full of tear drops once again until we loaded up the SUV. It was on to my F A T H E R S grave site.
Another emotional vendetta Sherri and I had to deal with. Our eyes continued to be filled with our tear drops as we went...I'll say over 5 to 6 miles to my F A T H E R S grave site to place his small Christmas tree and flower vase onto his tombstone. As Lorenzo, Sherri, my son Zachary, Christian, and Justin Jr. arrived at the grave site of my F A T H E R, Sherri, the boys, and I got out on the passenger side of the SUV; walked around and proceeded to my F A T H E R S grave site. Sherri had to tear the base part of the small Christmas tree apart, because we could not place the tree on the ground due to the graveyard was privately owned and it's grounds keepers try and keep the graveyard cleaned. So, with that said, Sherri could not place our F A T H E R S solar light in the ground in front of his tombstone. After Sherri took off the base of the Christmas tree, I put the tree into our F A T H E R S vase so tightly that the wind could not blow it out of the vase, as though we were hoping that wind would not blow the Christmas tree out of its vase.
We then place my F A T H E R S small flower vase on the base of the tombstone, hoping that will not blow off from a strong wind. It was heavy enough to withstand a strong dose of wind. Our decoration of our parents graves were completed. Sherri and I started taking pictures of our F A T H E R S decorated tombstone. We stood for minutes looking at our work and thinking of our F A T H E R, before Sherri, the boys and I got into the SUV to depart the graveyard.
Our duties when it came to our parent was done. Sherri and I was still full of emotions that our parents will not be with us for Christmas, but...will remain in our spirit and our hearts. We will have nothing but awesome memories of our parents. F A T H E R and M O T H E R can now rest during their Heavenly holiday.
Thursday, December 17, 2020
Healing A Bad Patch
Book 178
As usual on a Monday evening when I go out to my son Zachary football practice to watch him practice until he was finished practicing. While I sat there watching my son, my mind was in thought of my M O T H E R...only a brief moment. I remember a time when she sat in the exact spot where I was sitting, just watching her grandson practice and enjoying herself. It's hard sometimes not having my M O T H E R in my presents, or to the point where I could talk to her in person. I know GOD and his son JESUS took her home to be with them, but...sometimes I feel that I am totally alone without a care in the world for me to fathom that I exist.
That's the way I feel sometimes, like I am not there in reality. On a Monday, I was in Wal-Mart Christmas shopping when I saw a woman on a motor car inside the store. With the strain of my eyes, I thought I saw my M O T H E R on that motor car riding towards me. For a minute my mind was out of reality of the fact that my M O T H E R was dead. I started riding towards this woman with a smile on my face, then I came to reality when I understood that the woman was not in fact my M O T H E R. My M O T H E R in reality was deceased.
I immediately started crying out so loud until this man and woman came towards me like they wanted to console me. They asked was I alright. I told them I will be alright. I told them that, I'll be fine. Two days later, the though of my M O T H E R that Monday evening stayed with me after seeing that woman in Wal-Mart. On Thursday I had a really bad patch about my M O T H E R. She was totally on my mind. I remember when I got into an argument with her over certain things; minor things that didn't make no sense to me.
I found that after my M O T H E R died, I never got the chance to apologize to her, or tell her that I loved her with all of my heart. That fate ate away with me, and I cry to the point that my blood pressure rises. I have been living with the guilt of that for quite sometime, until my brother Wesley and my sister-in-law Neyome invited me come and join their church. I joined and I got Baptised so that my sins can be washed away. And then...Wesley explained to me about my baptism. When you are baptized under GOD, all of your sin are washed away, including my guilt of not apologize to my M O T H E R when I had the chance.
I now feel better about my indiscretions when it came to my apology to my M O T H E R. My LORD had already forgiven my sin. I feel that a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders. I now see that my M O T H E R can now rest in peace. I feel much better where I am. I find myself a Christian for GOD and his son JESUS.
It feels good to be where I need to be and worship with people are warm and loving towards me, no matter what color you are. I am proud to be a part of the congregation for Christ our LORD. The memories of my M O T H E R will stay with me for the rest of my life. I can tell here, " I love her" anytime, even though she has gone home to glory where she will never suffer pain, or the pain of her dialysis; she will never cry again about anything. My M O T H E R is happy living with the LORD, and I am happy about that.
Sunday, November 1, 2020
My Real Live Presentation
Book 175
Hebrews 11:1- 1. Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
Hebrews 11:6 - 6. But without faith it is impossible to please him for he that cometh to GOD must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.
2 Corinthians 5:7 - 7. For we walk by faith, not by sight
I an getting ready for a presentation for my live "Reality Talk" v-log within a week. I feel that doing this live v-log presentation will help contribute and cope with the death of my M O T H E R and F A T H E R in a way I could feel better about them not being here on this earth. My Reality Talk live v-log presentation will be present on Facebook on November 8, 2020. In my live presentation, the topic: "What it is Like to be Different from the People you Love?" Since I will be asking my remaining immediate family members that question, I would like to know their input and how they feel about being different from our immediate family members and others alike. I hoping that my live presentation will inspire everyone who listens to it.
I have so much to say; so much to vent out when it comes to my F A T H E R especially, and my M O T H E R in the process. I would like to get the meat of this deal out in the open, just maybe, it would interest most of my viewer, or maybe, some of my viewers, it's depending on who will view my Reality Talk v-log. I am praying for a huge audience when that day comes. I feel very blessed to have my twin sister Sherri and my sister-in-law Neyome part of my upcoming presentation of "What it is Like to be Different from the People you Love." I am very excited about it!
Sherri came over to her daughter's apartment in which I am resident to talk about our live v-log debut. She wanted to confirm our event and I was totally game. We talked about our "Reality Talk" v-log for just a brief moment before we went into another that was most important to us. We talked about how much my live presentation would help us cope with our M O T H E R S and F A T H E R S death and to help us to move on with our lives with only memories to back up what we had with our parents before their deaths. Sherri stayed only a hour with me, my son Zachary until my nephew Chris showed up after dropping his daughter off with her grandmother in Tampa. I enjoyed every minute of the time she spent with me and Zachary. I always do!
Sherri left with her granddaughter Ta'Neisha. Zachary and I decided to continue to look at Cold Case. I really like that Television show. The network ROKL wants to take it out of their list of television shows and movies and I can't understand why when I love a specific television show, it is ripped from my imagination? I don't understand! But...I want go into this with a fine tooth comb. I don't want to lose all of my bristles.
The thought of my Reality Talk live v-log was totally on my mind and I could not wait to do it on November 8. I also hope that we are all ready for it, and I hope that none of us mess during my live presentation. I want it to be perfect, but...nothing ever is. GOD and his son JESUS...pray for me, Sherri and Neyome to do a wonderful job and do our best to give a live Reality Talk v-log for our viewers on Facebook.
Sunday, July 26, 2020
The Book Of Ruth
Friday, July 17, 2020
M O T H E R
Wednesday, July 15, 2020
The Wisdom of the Mitchell and Brunson Family
Tuesday, June 30, 2020
A Huge Bit Of Happiness
Sunday, May 17, 2020
Happiness Is Where The Heart Is
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2 Corinthians 13:11 - 11. Finally, brethren, farewell. Be perfect, be of good comfort, be of one mind, live in peace; and the GOD of love and peace shall be with you.
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Sunday, April 19, 2020
Walking Towards Redemption
Caution: The identities of my niece and nephew are protected under the love I have for them. Readers discression advised!
More likely, the force is with me in the matter of my status as a unloved aunt with a lot of emotions that has mentally engulped life as far as I saw it. Too much time has passed, and it seemed like nothing is getting better with my relationship with...especially my niece. My nephew on the other hand...still has mixed feelings about me, and the relationship is still a bit estranged in a whole lot of ways. They hardly talk to me about anything, no matter what that may be, they just don't talk to me period. They don't talk about their problems to me, nor do they give me a hint of what's going on in their lives.
What did I do to deserve such attitude? I know I've had some faults that I attend to address on my own, and with no fault of my own, but...will make available upon request. What I can suggest in the matter of my two silent parties (niece and nephew) is that I spot the complete ingredients of selfishness, and a ton of non compassion for me from the both of them. I'm getting so tired of the silent, but...double silent drama. It has taken toll on my life as a mature adult who has been on the peak of the mountain, and I'm starting to climb down with a lot of caution that I don't get tripped up in my emotions that I feel.
What double webs are weaved several times over the doubts I feel? I questions it with a vengeance! And yet...I find myself in tears most of the time when I'm alone with these thoughts dancing around in my head. My steps are light as I continue to walk on egg shells when it comes to my niece and nephew's corrupt attitudes towards me. I know that someday, I will get answers, and why with my conscience they seem to carry this love/hate relationship with me.
My requiring mind really want to know why is this happening to me, after all I've done for my niece and nephew. And sometimes I wish that my twin sister and her husband would open their eyes and see the emotions I've dealt with concerning their children.
Saturday, April 11, 2020
Where Is The Heart Of Home?
He want to build a magnificent home for all of us to live. But...my family and I are placed in situation once again; it's like we're put on the spot of being homeless...once again. May 2nd is arriving very fast, and my niece Octavia will not be renewing her lease where we're all in residence, and there is so much for me to do and think about. My twin sister Sherri, her husband Lorenzo, their grand children: Ta'Neisha, Laila, Christian, and our mother Ruth, have a place to go, along with my niece Octavia. They will be residing with at my brother-in- law Lorenzo mother's home. For Zachary and I...we do have a place to go with my nephew Justin, but...it seems like my nephew really don't want us there (just saying...) because of a girl he wants there with him. Justin (for the time being) has no choice but to let Zachary and I reside temporarily at his new home, until my family and I magnificent home is built.
All we (my family and I) could do is put our hardships of moving around so much within four years, in the hands of GOD and his son JESUS to prepare us for what's ahead. There will be a lot of work to do in the time we have at Octavia's home. I'm dreading the big move after four months and one week, but...we (family and I) don't have any other options. Yes...it was Octavia's decision to do what ever she want to do, and that's to end her lease with the residence we've resided for months. "Our hardships are in GOD and his son JESUS hand!"
Monday, April 6, 2020
Home Is A Luxury
Romans 16:26 - 26. But now is made, and by the scriptures of the Prophets according to the commandment of the everlasting GOD, made known to all Nation's for the obedience of faith.
Links To Main Website For #COVID19
My blessings is full of joy as I post. Staying home is a luxury due to the #COVID19 virus that's hitting us hard worldwide. Lots of people complain about staying home and being couped up with hardly nothing to do. "Praying to GOD and his son JESUS is totally nice to do, when their giving you another life to live during this deadly #COVID19 virus." Giving your life to our pilots for sparing you from getting the #COVID19 is a all time luxury to have, and is truly a blessing to be thankful for.
I wish people in general will take that to heart, instead of thinking only about themselves, and not giving thanks for their lives, health and strength, and living beyond the #COVID19 virus without any thought of being fearful of the disease, if they trust in GOD and his son JESUS to surround themselves with their shield of protection. It's not hard to fathom why this virus spands worldwide, but...you got remember this, "When our pilots are mad of how evil this world has become to the point their vengeance is released with a vengeance to let us all know, their not kidding about the possibilities of one gaining repentance for all of our sins, and the evil we've done in and around this globe, and unto others that are totally unfounded." If we're told to stay home for many reasons, '#COVID19' is the ultimate reason why we are secluded to our homes, or we pay the ultimate price for being hard headed, and not obeying this lock down that has gone into effect worldwide. Don't complain about things we as a Nation, and worldwide cannot change, even if we all wanted to do so. We can't get another life (if we survive with a miracle) the #COVID19 once it hit our bodies.
A whole lot has to be considered in this case. Obedience is a must! If our Governor's, Senators, down to our President say, "Stay home for your protection, then do as your told without uttering a complain about your freedom to wander when you want to, because you may just end up paying that ultimate price of someone who are randomly in our midst, and out there coughing on you and everyone without covering their mouths." Think of the logics of this matter, and stay home, because it's a luxury to do so. May GOD add a blessing to our souls, for the edification of our hearts. This is what we all need to correct and change for our protection.
Friday, March 27, 2020
My Time, My Life On Standby
I didn't know...I just found out, since I don't look at the news often, but...for the past three days, the State of Florida has been on a lock down, because of the #COVID19 virus pandemic. All of the counties have curfews to be inside their homes at a certain time; I don't know what time the curfew will go into effect, but...I know that it will be until further notice. "I knew this would happen!" Some where along the line, I knew this would happen. This will delay my trip to Jamaica for the up coming days ahead.
I know for sure, Alrick is going to be very upset. I can't help the fact that I can't make the trip to Jamaica. He told me not to delay my trip at no given time. With that said, I got to abide by what is official until the lock down is over. So again...with that said, my trip to Jamaica will have to wait until in April. I don't know where in April that I will be traveling; I know that I'm going to be on delay until then. I'm still waiting on my funding so I can travel to Jamaica, because...my heart aches and I really want to be with my future husband.
I need time with him! I can't stand to look at him through video on my phone no longer. I want to see Alrick face to face. I guess...I can say, things like this happen for a reason, and I don't know why. I know that so much has happened during the time Alrick and I were in a argument, I do know that things with us will get better as soon as I arrive in Jamaica.
I'm praying to GOD, and his son JESUS, that I will finally make my trip to Jamaica. I know that Alrick's anger will soon turn into joy when I arrive there, and we will find ourselves in the midst of our love making; and I know that nothing more will interfere with that. I know our love making will last a lifetime and that it will bring the next generation of our new family into reality. I know that I will always keep that close to my heart for as long as I live life with Alrick as his devoted wife. When this lock down is over, and I receive my money, I will find myself on a plane to Jamaica to be with my future husband, and we can start building our lives to the fullest.
So I say to Alrick, "I know that the time you've been waiting on me to come to Jamaica has been rough, prolonged, and impatient on you, but...I know in my heart when I tell you this, 'When time finally fulfill your needs as your wife, as your companion, as your lover, as your best friend, and as one." lapse, it's a reason for everything that is happening', but...when that time come for me, I will Please baby...be patient with me, because I know that you would like nothing more, than for me to be there side by side with you. GOD and his son JESUS does everything for a reason. I pray so hard that I will be there before our anniversary, which is on the 7th of April.
Your told me once to tell you everything you need to know about me, and what I'm doing and how I'm preparing myself for life with you. Please I beg you...please...please...be patient with me. "I love you more than my life right now!" I love you unconditionally.