Fight My Battles For My F A T H E R Like A Toy Soldier

 Book 186 - Special Edition Post

1 Samuel 8:20 - 20. That we may be like all nations; and that our king may judge us, and go out before us, and fight our battles. 

2 Chronicles 32:8 - 8. With him is an arm of flesh, but with us is LORD our GOD to help us, and to fight our battles. And the people rested themselves upon the words of Hezekiah king of Judah.

Isaiah 30:32 - 32. And in every place where the grounded staff shall pass, which the Lord shall lay upon him, it shall be with targets and harps: and in battles of shaking will he fight with it. 

Step by Step, Heart to Heart...left right left, we all fall down, like Toy Soldiers. Whenever I hear that song, I think of my F A T H E R mostly, because...the woman who sung that song, lost her F A T H E R. It's very hard to fathom sometimes, because he is no longer here in my life, but...he will always be a part of the memories I have of him. "I will always treasure that unconditionally." I am hanging in there with every ounce of strength I have with every breath I take step by step, heart to heart for my F A T H E R. 

Left right left, I will not fall down in despair, grieve, and unhappiness like a Toy Soldier in this battle fought so hard through the last six months of my F A T H E R. "Who else can endure the kind of pain my family and I went through in one battle fought?" GOD and his son JESUS strengthen me and brighten me in my mind with all the tools I needed to win that battle for my F A T H E R in my pilots name sake. GOD and his son JESUS gave me the courage, the wisdom, and the talent to document without saying a word. The Toy Solider was left standing throughout everything it been through and won with an ounce of victory. With 427 battles fought, I was determined I give those battles to GOD and his son JESUS for my F A T H E R. 

Rest assure...my F A T H E R S story will continue to be true and told. There is justice for that solider known as my F A T H E R who has fallen, not by the wayside, but...in spirit so that he can rest in peace. I also think about my M O T H E R in the same way, and she could also rest assure that her story will also be told and is told in the present and in past tense in documentation without saying a word. I have a long way to go with fighting my battle 427 times for her. Rest assure...her story will be told in one heartbeat. 

There is no holding back in winning the battle 427 times 2 when it comes to loving the two people who are three years, four months apart from each other that I lost in my lifetime. I will not give into the battle I fought, because...GOD and his son JESUS are my captain from my latitude to my longitude, my battle will soon be a victory. 

Giving Success To GOD And His Son JESUS Almighty

 Book 182 - Special Edition Video

Hebrews 10:36 - 36. For ye have need of patience, that after ye have done the will of GOD, ye might receive the promise. 

Genesis 39:2-3 - 2. And the LORD was with joseph, and he was a prosperous man; and he was in the house of his master the Egyptian. 3. And his master saw that the LORD was with him, and that the LORD made all that he did to prosper in his hand. 

I did an interview with my sister-in-law Neyome live, so that I could get people to donate to my Go Fund Me site. So far, no people donated to my Go Fund Me site! What I am going to do is put my Go Fund Me site in the hands of GOD and his son JESUS. They know all about what I have to do to get my screenplay in to production with the producers of Chad Conley Productions. This is what my post is all about, trying to get people to donate to my Go Fund Me site.

I am not going to worry no more about it! I am going to leave my fundraiser in the hands of my pilots. That is all I could do to get people in general to pay attention. GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time no matter what the cause, or situation is. I know in my heart I am going to raise the $4,000 dollars needed for one half of the screenplay and my screenwriter will take care of the rest. Brett Johnson (screenwriter) has given me two months to come up with the funds so that he could start my campaign. 

I am asking that everyone here who views my post will give towards my Go Fund Me site. I am praying for that to happen, because I am dedicating the cause to my parents: Ruth Ann Thomas Brunson (M O T H E R) and my (F A T H E R) Wesley Brunson Sr. I very much want to make them proud of my accomplishment. By GOD and his son JESUS almighty, let it be real; let me be able to raise the $4,000 dollars needed to cover half the cost of my screenplay. I am going to continue to leave my fundraiser in the hands of my pilots.

GOD'S Grace is free

Book 136

John 3:16 - 16. For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

Romans 6:1 - 2 - 1. What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound. 2. GOD forbid, how shall we that are dead to sin, live any longer therein? 

Acts 20:28 - 28. Take heed therefore unto yourselves, and to all the flock, over the which the Holy Ghost hath made you overseers, to feed the church of GOD , which he hath purchased with his own blood

Romans 5:8 - 8. But GOD commendeth his love towards us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.


"GOD grace is free!" There is no charge when it comes to praising him. It's totally priceless. Contrary to what some believe, grace does not make sinful acts not sinful. Grace is not a license to sin.

Grace justifies sinners...not their sons! Grace does not make lying, adultery, fornication, greediness any less sinful. Grace brings potential for forgiveness to those under this sentence of death. I find myself more forgiving that anything in this whole world. I see now that I forgave my ex aunt for what she did to my FATHER, I can continue to move on with my life without any regrets.

Grace brings me hope and prosperity, and more love than I ever imagine, without haste, nor hate for my ex aunt. I now feel at peace with myself, my mind, body and soul. I can go on as far as the horizon and never look back on the past. I'd rather look towards the future as far as I can withstand the distance it brings. I know I'll survive the long journey with love and happiness.

The Lighthouse Of Abundance And Praise

Book 121

1 Kings 2:3 - 3. And keep the change of the LORD thy GOD, to walk in his ways, to keep his statutes, and his commandments, and his judgements, and his testimonies, as it is written in the law of Moses, that thou mayeat prosper in all that thou doesn't, and whithersoever thou turnest thyself:

Jude 1:3 - 4 - 3. Beloved, when I gave all diligence to write until you of the common salvation, it was needful for me to write until you, and exhort you that ye should earnestly contend for the faith which was once delivered until the saints. 4. For there are certain men crept in unwares, who were before of old ordained to this condemnation, ungodly men, turning the grace of our GOD into lasciviousness, and denying the only LORD GOD, and our LORD JESUS Christ.

Jeremiah 29:8 - 9 - 8. For thus saith the LORD of hosts, the GOD of Israel; Let not your prophets and diviners, that be in the midst of you deceive you, neither hearken to your dreams which ye cause to be dreamed. 9. For they prophesy falsely until you in my name: I have not sent them, saith the LORD.

I find myself in a world where living testimonies. They are the basis of life experience happening all over the world. And when I see the people of Lighthouse Ministries come out to the church to give living testimonies of their life experiences, It gives me a warm sinsation within my heart. I take that very seriously indeed. The glory have come to meet St Mary Missionary Baptist Church and it's warm welcome to The Lighthouse Ministries.

I listen to angels singing their praises during devotional service. This little boy singing his heart out to GOD and his son JESUS. I watched as the people of The Lighthouse Ministries stood up and took in the praises of my pilots and that little boy throughout the devotional service. It brought me so much joy! I couldn't get over the love, warmth, gentleness, and praises that took over the devotional service.

GOD and his son JESUS was worthy to be praised, not only by the bride of my pilots (the church) but...by The Lighthouse Ministries presence there beyond our mist. After devotion ceased, our church went into another selection in the services, where there will be songs, and extreme heart warming testimonies, and the word of our GOD and his son JESUS Christ. This speaker got up and mentioned about "Getting to the root of a problem so many of the people of Lighthouse Ministries experience." Not only on the outside of their problems they had, before the people of The Lighthouse Ministries had given their hearts and souls to GOD and his son JESUS, but the joy of letting those problems, and those trials and tribulations become a thing of the past, was what got my heart singing praises. Wow! I sat and watched the people of The Lighthouse Ministries sing more praises to my pilots; I was mesmerized totally.

Then more testimonies came to it's serious consequences. There was this one testimony; this young woman expressed when she was on drugs at the age of 13. It became an everyday thing for her (you name it, heroin, marijuana, xanax, meth, and all sorts of other drugsdknown to man) until she said that her mother committed suicide. She found her hanging in a closet, two days after it happened, which in fact sent the young woman into a strong haze of drugs after the death of her mother. She came to The Lighthouse Ministries, which in fact...saved her life from the direction she was heading in, which was death to her indefinitely. Her testimony did a number on me and it got me to thinking about how blessed I was to have a wonderful family and support.

Then onto the word of GOD and his son JESUS. This woman by the name Joelle, got up and preached a good sermon that made you think twice about how precious life is for me in general. We're talking about the term oil this woman went through in her life. I'm talking about the lifetime of drugs, being totally bullied, torchered by different men. She didn't know where she was most of the time she was so high on drugs, and she was extremely sexually active and motivated. This was Joelle's life!

I couldn't began to imagine this of me, as I listened to her sermon. It was powerful! It was food that I needed to eat and take it my heart. Her sermons was from the book of Jude 1:1 and Jeremiah 29. Wow! What sermon.

The Fortress Of Mortal Damnation

Book 116

1 Corinthians 15:53 - 53. For this corruptible must put on in corruption, and mortal must put o immortality. 

Mark 3:29 - 29. But he that shall blaspheme against the Holy Ghost hath never forgiveness but i danger of eternal damnation. 

Luke 20:47 - 47. Which devour widows houses and for a shew make long prayers; the same shall receive greater damnation. 

Matthew 23:14 - 14. Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites, for ye devour widows houses, and for a pretense make long prayer; therefore ye shall receive the greater damnation. 

Romans 13:2 - 2. Whosoever therefore resisteth the power, resisteth the ordinance of GOD; and they that resist shall receive to themselves damnation. 

I couldn't believe it! I saw what use to be my ex aunt, Minnie Lou (the one who murdered my father) at a wake I went to pay my respects to an old friend who died just recently. I didn't want to believe it, but...with all of the friends and family my old friend had, I was bound see my ex aunt in attendance after almost three years of not wanting anything to do with her at all. And as Minnie Lou was passing through the crowds of people that were exiting the church, she happen to reach over, and touch my mother and told her she looked great. My mother looked over at her, and she didn't utter a word to her, not one syllable,; she just stared at her. 

My status...I wouldn't give her a second look; not even the first look to sum it up to what the second look...look like. I'm still quite bitter with her, because of what she did my FATHER during the last days of his life. I hate to be that way, but...it can't be helped, not even a little bit. I guess people in general need to step in my shoes in order to get a touch of the pure 'hell' Minnie Lou put my immediate family and I through. Knowing and understanding how we feel when someone like her file Power of Attorney over a "live family" on my FATHER'S life and it's hard to forget.

I for one...will never forget the magnitude of it for as long as I live. Minnie Lou had the nerve to even utter one word (I'll pray for you, when she desperately need the prayer herself) to my mother, after lying about everything, including my FATHER'S finances and the whereabouts of my FATHER'S clothes and personal accessories. I'm telling everyone who finds this post truly alarming; she really did a number on all of us for those last six months of my FATHER'S life. But it's time to move on from old relex like Minnie Lou. Her reaping day is coming for her with a vengeance. That heart attack, or whatever she had when she had surgery on her heart (I felt for her, don't get me wrong) but... it not nearly enough for my immediate family and I to receive justice for my FATHER.

GOD and his son JESUS only kept my Minnie Lou alive for a good reason, so that one day, she will see the full magnitude of her reaping time in a manfold. I have to admit...seeing her at my old friend's funeral after almost three years since my FATHER, was very hard to bare sure enough, and I'm not kidding about that. Although...I still found it safe in my heart to move on with my life and let GOD and his son JESUS continue to work on Minnie Lou, because...my pilots above isn't done with her yet. She has a whole lot of "riff raft" to pay off for and I wouldn't want to be in her shoes when that day of strong reaping comes for her. Then my FATHER will have his justice, as well as my immediate family and myself.

When Family Is A Logical Force Of Love And Happiness

Book 114

John 13:34 - 34. A new commandment I give unto you, that ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.



It's just another day in time I look forward to. I never go ahead of myself for the future. Everyday isn't promised to anyone on this Earth. I accept here and now as I go along my day that the LORD, my GOD has given to me. I wouldn't trade just one day at a time for anything or anyone.

I'm totally and truly thankful for that as I go along with my day for today. I'm spending time with my immediate family once again without anything else to do, but to look at each other and wonder what's going through our minds with such logic. It's just another dull Saturday, but we make the best of what GOD and his son JESUS has given us. My mother Ruth, my sister Sherri, my son Zachary and I decided to watch moves on the television. Pretty Woman was our choice of movie to watch.

I love fairy tales when it comes to watching Pretty Woman. I'm 'game' to dreams that come true for most people, but...I satisfied with myself, if only my dreams of a fairy tale romance will come true. Someday! That's only in due time says the LORD JESUS Christ.

While we watched Pretty Woman, we talked about the actions of the people who started in the movie. We're dreamers of our own conscience. And that movie captured our hearts and souls, if only for a brief moment. I guess I can say, "This is how my immediate family and I share our time. "That closeness and togetherness is always held in the highest regards."

We enjoy every moment of our time together as a close nit family, whether if it's watching television, having big fun together, or having great laugh about things that happened in the past. It's part of our circle of hope, trust, faith, belief and comfort. What more that can be offered to my family if we don't have "love" that would last a lifetime, according to the GOD and his son JESUS.

Claiming Victory On The Battlefield

Book 99

Ephesians 6:18 - 18. Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints.




When GOD and his son JESUS had everything in their unchanging hands, you seem to have the whole world lifted off your shoulders. I know in my heart that they have fought battle after battle for me so that I can live in peace. I don't think I could of gotten it better than that. When I think of the times I've been hurting and grieving because of the death of my FATHER, I find myself praising GOD and his son JESUS for deliverance, and for grace to move on without hesitation. No more feeling sorry for myself because my FATHER is in a better place.

It's hard to imagine sometimes that he's not here, it's hard not to smell his barbecue, or to hear him mortally to talk, laugh and joke around. But...by GOD and his son JESUS, I can now rejoice unto my heart's content and I can continue to be happy. I can continue to live with that fact that I don't have any indiscretions of any sort what so ever. But my GOD and his son JESUS will bring vengeance to those (my two ex aunts) who mentally, financially, and emotionally hurt me and my immediate family with their evil ways they "dumped" upon us when we were at our weakest times of despair. Woe beyond to them! I give all my hurt, pain, and disgust to GOD and his son JESUS that I can finally feel and be comforted with their grasps with security upon my body.

I know now I will feel good, great and awesome after I struggled for two whole years with total grief for my FATHER. I can now manage my anger towards my ex aunt's who brought me and my immediate family circle pain and despair. What more can I say about the way I feel about things, but to pray and forgive those who brought pain and despair to my life and the lives of my immediate family. Prayer changed a whole lot in my life and I will continue to pray with guidance and understanding. I can imagine a DITTO for my standards for being grateful to my pilots in Heaven.

"Two Years"

Book 94 - Special Edition Post

Exodus 14:14 - 14. The LORD shall fight for you, and ye shall hold your peace.

There is not a day...not a day I don't think about him. It's hard sometimes when you deal with a death. It's hard knowing that my FATHER is no longer here to joke around, laugh that funny laugh, give you that blank look when he's serious about being funny about something, no matter what. Let me not forget. His world famous barbecue.

Wow! How can I forget my FATHER'S barbecue? That falling off the bone taste. Wow! I still can't believe it's been two years since his death.

I can kind of deal with things now. I don't cry as much as I use to. I've learned to live and move on from grief. But still...I catch myself looking at his picture from time to time, capturing some wonderful memories of my FATHER. LORD only knows there were a lot more of those wonderful memories where that came from.

Without a doubt, and with the help of GOD and his son JESUS. My heart may heal one day of the gash it sustain from the horrible and evil ways of my ex aunts and what they did to my FATHER. I just don't want to continue to wollow in self pity, grief and anger. GOD and his son JESUS is now in control of the madness that dewell within me and in my family. But...there is one thing to be true, "I miss my FATHER soooooo much." 

There nothing or no one in the world take his place. Ever! If there is anything that I can only think of, is that...I believe he did in fact make it into Heaven. Only GOD and his son JESUS only knows that. I love my FATHER with all my heart, body, and soul and no one can take that from me ever.

It's been two years, and it's going to continue to be hard for my family and myself. How can I ever get over the fact that my FATHER is no longer here? I don't think anyone in this whole world can really get over someones death. You got to be cast iron to do that. The outspokenness of my character will never get over what has made me weak in the heart.

"I was in fact a daddy's girl indeed." 

When All You Have To Be Thankful For Is Family

Book 92 - Special Edition Post

Psalms 107:22 - 22. And let them sacrifice the sacrifice of Thanksgiving, and declare his works with rejoicing.




Its Thanksgiving today. So many people celebrate this day like no other celebration in the world. Lots of food and family gather around different tables, observing the food that was given unto there from GOD and his son JESUS. We all give thanks for the abundance of each morsel cooked and thank GOD and his son JESUS for our lives, health and strength. We all sit down and eat.

For me...thanks not the real meaning of Thanksgiving. For me... Thanksgiving is about my immediate family circle. I give thanks that I have my immediate circle today. No one in my extended family, or in the equation of extended family members celebrate with my immediate family circle...ever. But you know what, "My immediate family members always have each other."

I find that a true blessing, no matter how I present it here today as I write this post. GOD and his son JESUS has bought my immediate family and I a very...very long way from desperate measures of being completely ignored in every event we have (or just family time) and the narcissistic hearts of my extended family. Even when I thought we were coming together as one 'family unit' I still have doubts if we'll ever come together again. My immediate family and I still live with the fact that we still don't get invited anywhere for family get together, or just have family time by our extended family members.

But you know what, "I've been dealing with a lot of things since my FATHER'S death and I'm totally thankful that I have my small immediate family circle for Thanksgiving." That's truly a blessing to have people who always do things together and have fun at the same time doing the things my immediate family and I love to do. Simply...that's all I need for Thanksgiving to celebrate. I wouldn't take it back for nothing in the whole world. Who's the say if having a group of people you love the most (immediate family) is enough to celebrate to celebrate the Thanksgiving holiday?

I say that my immediate family circle is more than enough to celebrate Thanksgiving in it's abundance and then some. I'm very proud of that and I'm truly thankful to have my immediate family circle to gather around one huge table and celebrate what many families around the world celebrate each year, for hundreds of years. Now that...I would give up for nothing in the whole world. Love around table, we take into our hearts forever and ever. I thank GOD and his son JESUS for my immediate family circle and the food we are about to eat around and about our beautiful table this year.

When Words Of Wisdom Means Everything

Book 91 - Special Edition Post

Proverbs 1:2 - 3 2. To know wisdom and instruction; to perceive the words of understanding. 3. To receive the instruction of wisdom, justice and judgement, and equity

It's coming up on the day that my FATHER told me he couldn't breathe. How can I come to terms with that? How can I come terms with the fact that my FATHER (not knowing at the time...in three days) that he was going to die? Who could of prodicted that my FATHER'S dying would happen? There were many question I had to ask to make since of what was about to happen.

It's been hard this past year and eleven months and two weeks exactly. But...I thank GOD and his son JESUS for bringing me through my trials and tribulations that I've endured.  There was not one day I don't think about him. But there are days I must come to terms with my FATHER'S death. It's time to do so and move on with life.

I know I must come to terms and move on. My sister-in-law told me something that made me think about the time my FATHER showed more love to my extended family instead of his immediate family, even in sickness and on his death bed. Don't get me wrong, I did love my FATHER, still do. I finally figured out some things that made me think about what's totally important, thanks to my sister-in-law Neyome. She is truly a GOD send. Thanks to her inspirational words of encouragement.

I see things now in a better light than I did when I was still weeping for my FATHER. I can now let go of my FATHER and really move on with life. It doesn't feel right some times when I come to think about my FATHER and what he really wanted was his siblings and my cousins more than he wanted his immediate family. That's okay with me now. Blood is more thicker than water.

Water was what me and my imediate family were, and that's what we will always be to his extended family. I could live with the fact that we were never wanted by my FATHER'S extended family and by my FATHER in a whole lot of ways. I can now live with that. I have no regrets about anything anymore. I've learned from from and given words of wisdom, and from my wonderful sister-in-law Neyome.

She sees things that no one else could see in an instant. The goodness in people and the faults in people that I wasn't aware of. Neyome saw that. I'm pretty much thankful for that. I see myself as a whole and no one could ever take that from me now.

The tears has stopped completely. I can now let go of my FATHER...move on. Let him rest in peace. I'm happy about that if only a brief moment. Im fine with it now.

A Long Awaited Extended Family Member

Book 87 - Special Edition Post

Psalms 118:24 -  24. This is the day which the LORD hat made; we will rejoice and be glad in it. 





It was one of my days that I didn't feel all that well with my health. I didn't let it get me down from writing this post. I was determined to get what I needed to say off of my chest. Nothing negative, or dramatic, because that don't work here on Author Terri Celestine Brunson. Only the truth will prevail it's wonderful face according to my post.

I took Zachary to his first football practice for this season 2018. I had decided to take Zachary on what was our usual Subway day for a late lunch. I ordered our usual subs for dining in, since Zachary and I had enough time to sit and eat our subs. Then all of a sudden, my uncle Carl come into the Subway to buy a lunch. I didn't know he worked at an major insurance company as an executive just around the corner from the Circle K convenient store.

As ordered his lunch, I got up to greet him and have a conversation with him, since he is my uncle. Our conversations were very pleasant. I didn't have time for animosity, nothing of the sort, because he did nothing wrong towards my immediate family and myself. As a matter of fact, my uncle and his wife, my aunt Tammy was totally supportive of my immediate family since day one during my father's illness back in 2016 until he died on December 4.  Uncle Carl then asked if my immediate family and I were okay.

I was very happy he asked about us and was very concerned about how my immediate family and I were.  I was very happy to update my uncle with a positive outcome about my immediate family's well being and health. I assured my uncle Carl that everything was quite well. I also assured my uncle that everything was quite okay with me after dealing with the death of my father. I told him that I had came to terms with my father's death and that I let old rubbish and my bad patches go (giving all of my trials and tribulations to GOD and his son JESUS) in their vengeance against those who did wrong towards my immediate family and to my father in his last days.

I didn't want to dawn on anything from the past, because my father is gone and I can't bring him back to life. So...I told my uncle that my immediate family and I had moved on with life and living it to the fullest. It wasn't long before my uncle Carl had to be back to work. So we departed our ways to our destinations. I told uncle Carl to relay a message to my aunt Tammy, my cousin Tammika, and Caturah that I loved them.

We both went our separate ways from there. I can say that my visit with my uncle Carl was a pleasant one. It was totally a breath of fresh air I wanted to breathe, and I thank GOD and his son JESUS for that. I don't want to go back in time when I could have those precious moments as I did with my uncle Carl, because it meant a great deal to me. Amen!

What's Life Without Your True Friends?: GOD And His Son JESUS

Book 86

Ephesians 4:31 - 32 - 31. Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice: 32. And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as GOD for Christ's sake hath forgiven you. 





First of all...I thank GOD and his son JESUS for life, health and strength.  I thank GOD for what he has done for me in every since possible.  I sit here thinking about everything in my life I've been through and I've learn to let go the things that has always brought me down; like what happened around the time my father died.  I was so tired of bringing things out of the past.  I couldn't stand those weights weighting me down anymore and making people pay for their sins.

I had to ask GOD and his son JESUS for forgiveness, because only my pilots vengeance mean everything in all situations according to life and what it had to offer me.  I've been giving GOD and his son JESUS more of my time than ever.  I can't began to tell you that my life has been more calming than ever.  I'm very thankful for my pilots giving me the comfort I've been looking for...for a very long time. Who wouldn't want this kind of peace?

I find it totally awesome to be able to talk to GOD and his son JESUS about everything.  Friends in general are really your associates.  Friends and I might as well say...family will deceive you in every since.  I consider my pilots above my friends always.  They will never deceive you.

I can say that I live with happiness in my life.  Nonetheless...you can't get no better than that.  When you read this post, go out to the ones you love and say I love you and give them a hug, because you never know if their is another day promised to them, or to you.  I'm thankful that I'm spared each and every day.

Removing The Weights Of The Past

Book 69

Proverbs 20:8 - 11 - 8. A king that sitteth in the throne of judgement scattereth away all evil with his eyes. 9. Who can say, I have made my heart clean, I am pure from my sin? 10. Divers weights, and divers measures, both of them are alike abomination to the LORD. 11. Even a child is known by his doings, whether his work be pure, and whether it be right. 

Micah 6:10 - 11 - 10. Are there yet the treasures of wickedness in the house of the wicked, and the scant measure that is abominable? 11. Shall I count them pure with the wicked balances, and with the bag of deceitful weight?








I pray every single day to GOD and his son JESUS  to mend my scarred heart. It's hard sometimes when I have this extremely heavy weight on my shoulders. It feels like my chest caving in and I'm  paying the price for that extremely heavy weight that I've carrying since my father's death. All I ever wanted was answers to questions that's been lingering in my thoughts, in my heart, and in my soul. I want to finally put the magnitude of the Hades my immediate family and I was put through from Minnie Lou to rest.

It wearing on my patience. GOD and his son JESUS...please give me the strength and the patience to let go this miserable farce I can't change even if I wanted to! "December 4 will be one of my roughest days in my life to come."  I want to finally be alright and finally come to reality of my father's death and from all the Hades Minnie Lou put my immediate family, my father and I through behind closed doors that no one...not even her daughter's, or my uncle Sam (her husband) never knew about. Some day...they will too know what really happened behind closed doors was a tragedy.

When a person like myself consistently vent her feelings in public, it's a reason for everything to be expressed from experience. I'm not justifying anything in this post,not my style. I'm stating the real facts of what Hades my family and I been through. My immediate family and I lived through a tragedy no one would of ever believed would of happened, if it were them and they've lived through it. I pray GOD and his son JESUS that no one else will fall victim to anything justifiable for someone assuming Power of Attorney over some one's life without the knowledge, especially over a live family who are more blood biologically to that person than they are.

Only GOD and his son JESUS can give me the strength to move on with life and let the past take it's place to be filed away.  Nothing stays in the past! Minnie Lou's indiscretions will continue to come to past until she confess and apologize for the pure Hades she put my immediate family, my father and I through. And from that point...I will not stop venting until I'm officially understood about my venting in public. Truth is the truth...the facts are the facts...to forgive and not to forget. My reality holds water and I will not waste no time sharing it and venting it.

GOD and his son JESUS vengeance is at the peak. There is nothing wrong with venting, only if the truth prevails and the facts are obvious. My uncle Ron and my twin sister Sherri thought me somethings and there were so much I needed to hear from the both of them so much. I thank GOD and his son JESUS for my uncle Ron and my twin sister Sherri for the uplifting reality check I so desperately needed. I will keep praying to my pilots for strength, understanding, faith, patience, deliverance, trust, belief and hope that my immediate family and I...especially myself will be alright and that I will start living life again...without my father.

When The Consequences And The Repercussions Catches Up With You

Book 62

Galatians 6:7 - 8:  7. Be not deceived; GOD is not mocked; for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.  8. For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the spirit reap life everlasting. 

Anonymous: My ex aunt...I choose to have nothing to do with ever again. There is not one ounce of hate for her, because I have a conscience. The truth is, "She mean nothing to me now and that she can't tell me nothing about nothing!" It's the only way I can try to cope with what happened ultimately to my father and to my immediate family.

"What she sow...sow shall she continue to reap hard with GOD and his son JESUS vengeance have the greatest effect on her life and who she choose to hurt ultimately." I'm never going to forget my father Wesley Brunson Sr. exact words to me one day and half before he died on December 4, 2016. It's been nine months and I'm still grieving hard. I miss my father so much! There was not one single solitary day I didn't think about him...ever!

I visited my father's grave just days ago. I sat for just a brief moment and stared at his grave from my car. I couldn't get out of my car, because I was so weak with tears and grief. I was also very angry because my ex aunt helped put him in his grave. I'm never going to forget that for as long as I live. 

Still...I'm not going to touch what GOD and his son JESUS can do better than myself. "Vengeance is totally in their hands to continue to fight my battles." I pray for guidance and understanding without questioning GOD and his son JESUS. I pray everyday for GOD and his JESUS to continue to help me with my broken heart and my extreme grief. I don't think people understand why my grief is so severe and great. I hope everyone can understand the magnitude of the pure Hades my ex aunt put my family and I through during my father's illness...before and after his death.

To my ex aunt, "GOD isn't done with her yet!" She will pay for drugging my father; she will pay for talking against my family to my father...telling us that my father didn't like us; she will pay for being in the way of my family when my father needed us the most. She still has to pay for my father being in a casket and what she did to my father ultimately and my immediate family throughout the last six months of his life. 

My ex aunt still has many consequences and repercussions she still has to face in vengeance and in the eyes of GOD and his son JESUS. I still want get in the way of that! Her eyes will be finally opened to the extreme damage she caused and breaking up the extended and my immediate family severely and what I've been finding out (resource wise) for the past nine months to be true. I hate to be my ex aunt right now when GOD and his son JESUS vengeance continue to reign on her conscience and her body. She will continue to receive what is "just" in the eyes of GOD and his son JESUS and my father will receive his justice. 

Live Laugh Love Life

Book 61

John 3:16 - 16.  For GOD so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. 

Psalms 37:4 - 4. Delight theyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. 

John 10:10 - 10. The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.

Living for the future is a spiritual blessing my family and I will choose to live our lives to the fullest. We're getting ready for a cruise to the Key West, Florida, the Grand Caymans, and Cozumel, Mexico this fall coming on October 23, my mother Ruth's birthday. "What a cool birthday present for my mother! My immediate family are totally excited. I know my son Zachary and I can't wait until that blessed day to arrive.

My sister-in-law Neyome is back home in Hatton, Sri Lanka tending to business and having evening attire made for (the women in our immediate family) to wear on our fall cruise when we go out for dinner that evening on the first day of our cruise. I know my immediate family and I can't wait until she come back home to America.  I know my brother Wesley Jr. especially misses his wife Neyome and can't wait until she's home again here in America. My GOD and his son JESUS...I'm so happy about life and I can't begin to thank you enough for allowing my family and I to live just one day at a time that you've given to all of us each day we live life to the fullest. Continued...ignoring those who chooses to keep making our lives their own, because we have no time for ignorance, dramatic spasms, and controversy that will continue to bring us down.

Living for every moment that GOD and his son JESUS gives us was everyday that wasn't promised to us by their awesome will. My family and I are thankful that we can Laugh about the things in life that keeps us smiling everyday without any haste from those who choose to try and make us as miserable as they are with their life without smiles and joy. Loving life is beyond all means of living for the future. My family and I will enjoy planning our cruises in many years to come, if its the will of GOD and his son JESUS.  Who wouldn't want to be happy with that?

GOD and his son JESUS has been very good to my immediate family and I...I would like to treasure that as spiritual blessing for infinity.  I will continue to get down on these hurt, aching, neuropathy filled bending knees to thank my pilots for everything they've done for me especially.  I finally can have peace in my life after the death of my father, Wesley Brunson Sr. and move on with living, laughing and loving life. I pray for guidance and comfort knowing that my father is in the hands of my pilots. He's happy living laughing and loving life in Heaven.

No more worries here! I can continue to say, "Thank You GOD and your son JESUS for allowing my immediate family to live without haste and without unhappiness from our past almost eight months before war almost claimed it's victory over the horizon. Victory was GOD and his son JESUS! Vengeance was theirs to begin with. No holds barred with unhappiness any more.

Living, Laughing and Loving is part of my family's vocabulary now! My family and I are going to keep planning for the future, our cruises and any other trips we may be taking if its the will of GOD and his son JESUS. No more extended family woes who choose to keep giving us grief with their indiscretions and fake love. They all know who they are. My immediate family and I still have .5% of our extended who still gives us their love in many ways.

Happy Father's Day Our Mortal FATHER In Heaven

Book 55

Wesley Brunson Sr.
Sunrise: February 19, 1950  -  Sunset: December 4, 2016

Genesis 47:12 - 12. And Joseph nourished his FATHER, and his brethren, and all of his household with bread, according to their families. 

First of all...I would like to say to my FATHER who is in the hands of our GOD and his son JESUS, "Happy Father's Day in Heaven". God and his son JESUS knows that I miss my FATHER from the moon and back. GOD and his son JESUS knows that I can't thank them and my FATHER enough for giving my twin sister Sherri, my brother Wesley Jr. and myself for our mortal life. What I'd give if I could say, "Hello...how are you Popski, glad to see you". To hear voice, listen to him tell his extremely funny jokes and the looks he gave when told those funny jokes. His extremely crazy laugh that would keep everyone rolling on the ground and their stomach hurting with tears of joy, because his laugh was totally unique and it was so crazy. 

What I would give just to see him smile again.  Sit with him and chat with him about anything. Eating his awesome barbecue, savoring every tasteful drop. My immediate family and I will always cherish each and every memory my FATHER left us to carry in our hearts for infinity. For many who still have your FATHER, please...by all means, cherish him, care for him, spend as much time with him as possible, don't wait...just do everything with him. Most of all...love him unconditionally with every ounce you have in your mind, body and soul, because once he's gone, the luxury of his presents is gone; you will experience what my immediate family and I experience the extreme heartache, the extreme pain, and the extreme grief living life without him upon this earth when all you see is an empty chair and no mortal presents of him whatsoever. 

It's too late for my immediate family and I to have and continue to experience life with FATHER mortally. He's in our hearts, minds and souls in spirit. But...it's never too late in the name of our GOD and his son JESUS for the world who still have their FATHER. Put your arms around him, hold him tight. Give him a kiss on the cheek, or shake his hand. Most of all...tell him you love him unconditionally with all of your might. He's just as important as the MOTHER when she bore and carry a child, consistently caring for us 24/7, working his hands to the bone with the sweat of his brow and tired after a long day when he come home to his family.

Tell your FATHER, happy Father's Day and really mean it from the bottom of your heart. My immediate family and I don't have that luxury 'anymore' to kiss and hug my FATHER, laugh with him, have fun with him, but...we can tell him, "Happy Father's Day in Heaven and that we love him unconditionally with all of our might infinity. 

Leaving No Stones Unturned Or Thrown

Book 53

Acts 3:16 - 16. And his name through faith in his name hath made this man strong, whom ye see and know: yea, the faith which is by him hath given him this perfect soundness in the presence of you all. 

Romans 1:17 - 17.  For therein is the righteousness of GOD revealed from faith to faith: as it is written, the just shall live by faith.

2 Corinthians 1:24 - 24. Not for that we have dominion over your faith, but are helpers of your joy: for by faith ye stand.

Galatians 2:16 - 16. Knowing that a man is not justified by the works of the law, but by the faith of JESUS Christ, even we have believed in JESUS Christ, that we might be justified by the faith of Christ, and not by the works of the law: for by the works of the law shall no flesh be justified. 

Galatians 3:23 - 23. But before faith came, we were kept under the law, shut up unto the faith which should afterwards be revealed. 

Hebrews 11:1 - 40 at it's entire chapter.





I look towards the future as time progresses with my immediate family as we move on with life. Yes...we have our ups and downs every single day since the death of my father Wesley Brunson Sr. almost six months ago thus coming June 4th. During the past couple of weeks my family and I experienced something so ignorant; we never gave it another thought or a second look, or even an answer to the culprits indiscretions. Foolish minds are a terrible thing to keep wasting time trying to hurt one another. So my family and I decided to ignore ignorance and keep moving on with life.

"We have not the time or anymore strength for ignorance, or ones absent mind. Someone once told me just to let it go! Finally...I let well enough alone and let GOD and his son JESUS fight what battle was to fought without lifting a finger to help. GOD and his son JESUS got it and they know what they're doing and they knew what was going to happen before it happened, So...why I'm I continuing to worry about something that has come to past. It's not my war, or neither are my family's war to fight when we know we would loose the battle every time without GOD and his son JESUS unchanging hands.

This was where faith, trust and belief in GOD's and his son JESUS works to fight what was once was and now into the present time, so my family and I wouldn't worry about our battles going into the future in their mighty name. The stones I had in my hand, I decided not to leave them unturned, but not to cast them at my enemies of whom are culprits of deception for all the reason I had to let go what was foolish to keep interfering. GOD and his son JESUS got it! My family and I don't need to worry about anything anymore. Our grief will continue to be there for my father.

It will become easier as time progresses. I dropped the stones and I walked away with my family and started living again. My family and I are much happier than we've every been since our moments of despair last year around this time. I've decided to leave all those stones on the ground for vengeance is GOD's and his son JESUS virtue. What more I need to say but to leave well enough alone for myself and for my family to keep moving on without ignorance following suite.

I pray that my family and I are always safe everywhere we go and turn. We are planning a cruise for this coming October. I pray that everything goes well for us in the months to come in the mighty name of our pilots.

Ignorance On Display

Book 51

*Just to let everyone know, this post was "provoked" intentionally by my cousin who just don't understand what was really done, or said to my family and I under the microscope. Sugarcoating was a huge part of deceit blinded by guilt. "The main source of this matter (not anonymous) is far from the truth and she needs to look no farther than her own home where the magnitude of deception rears it's deceitful head."


*My FATHER'S words: Bold and Italic 



Deuteronomy 28:7 - 7.  The LORD shall cause thine enemies that rise up against thee to be smitten before thy face: they shall come out against thee one way, and flee before thee seven ways. 

Psalms 37: 1 - 40 at its "Entire" Chapter



My immediate family and I had left well enough alone when I posted "Vengeance Is GOD, It's In His Hands" back on the 31st of January of this year. I remember it was Book 37. We left all of our frustrations, despair and grief from my father's demise in the hands of GOD and his son JESUS. Then all of a sudden...14 books later, Lucifer's imp (Angel) starts up again with a tweet from Twitter that provoked this post to come as I see fitting the character of ones ignorance without an ounce of sugarcoating my raft. This is the tweet in question:

When they never brought their daddy a present for father's day, but now that he's in Heaven they want to buy something. Watch my smile pic.twitter.com/qumsHT471z

— Lousondra Wright (@LousondraWright) April 20, 2017

 A woman so beautiful and velvety looks absolutely beautiful on the outside, but what's on the inside? I see a display of ignorance and a human heart donor without an ounce of remorse for my family, or for myself. "Losing a parent is no joke!" She thinks my family and I didn't love my FATHER and that we never gave him a present for Father's Day. "Who told her that we didn't give my Father a present for Father's Day?

"Remember what was said at the beginning of my post posted in RED." Why was it so hard for her to understand the possible outcome of being on the outside looking in when the real truth was sugarcoated by deception from the guilt of ones loins? What the heck did she know if she wasn't there to see my family and I give my Father gifts, cards and dinner invites.

Father's Day is coming up in June. She has the luxury of a FATHER on Father's Day. She get to see her father everyday of her life. My family and I don't have that luxury. My family and I will be spending our first Father's Day without my FATHER in our mist. One day she will 'clearly' understand how it feel not to have one, or both of her parents. It's been hard brick road every single day to try and put all the pieces of the puzzle back together again.

It's not easy holding back tears every single day. Yes...we might of not been there all the time for my FATHER, but...we loved him then and we still love him now...even in the grave. I need to display the real truth of the matter when it comes to my FATHER. GOD and his son JESUS bless his soul and may he rest in peace. But this must be said so that I can be completely understood when it comes to my family and I when we lived without my FATHER in our home for over 30+ years.

My mother Ruth, my twin sister Sherri, and my brother Wesley Jr. before he met his beautiful wife Neyome and married her back on August 29th 2015 in a half American and Sri Lankan wedding.  We went through a lot of Hades knowing that my father was out traveling with other women and families around the globe...never giving my MOTHER the time of day to enjoy life after their children were grown and out of the nest. It was suppose to be their time to stretch their wings together and fly around the world. So...my mother, my twin sister and brother let him go...so that he can do what he wanted with those other women and their families.
 "It was like...giving my father the opportunity to go and do as he please...like getting all what was in his system out when he was out in the world of despair."

My family and I did not interfere anymore after that. The only thing that didn't stop was our love for him unconditionally. We let my father go until he couldn't go anymore. Then the women left him after he was all dried out physically, emotionally and financially before becoming disabled and wasn't of any use to the women and their families anymore, before buying himself a campaign...which was his dog Sheba. After my father was down and out, we came; we saw; we washed and fed; I held father in my arms like a baby and gave him back rubs and we gave our lives to take care of him, love him unconditionally when he was ill until his death.

Yes...we did know about 'some' of his fiances when receipts and word of mouth were displayed to his immediate family unconditionally. I felt he was going into his retirement to fund his luxurious lifestyle with those women and their families and the Mercedes he bought back in the 90's. Believe me...my research and homework was done years ago. What I knew then and back when and now was reality. I would like for my beautiful and velvety cousin to understand stand me fully when I say this, "Know what really happen before you display your opinion on social media."

Believe me...I knew about my father's way of life when he was out in the world for 30+ years before he got his soul saved again by GOD and his son JESUS. Sweetie...you don't know what happened and you never will know baby if you're on the outside looking in and don't know the flavor of our kool-aid.
You had your father around everyday of your life. Please my love...enjoy him while he still living! There is a lot I regret and admit...so I don't sugarcoat my feelings, or hide behind a mask.

I display and quietly shout out my feelings in my writing, so I could completely be understood without throwing a punch with my fists. "I'm a lady first!" So as I said in Book 37 of my blogs posts, "Vengeance is GOD's, It's In His Hands", so I'm done! My family is done! We want no more part of ones indiscretions, or a family who don't realize that their reaping day is coming and it's coming with a vengeance for every single thing that happened almost a year ago this coming June.

We got to live with it! Now let us live in peace, because we want no part of the innuendos, indiscretions, the tearing each other down, or faces of deceit. My family and I are completely done emotionally, mentally, and physically! Before I close this post...let me give you a little bonus. My father's last words 2 days before he died with witnesses in the room (better known as his immediate family) to me as I stood over him. He looked me directly in the eyes when he said with his shallow voice, "Get Minnie away from me; I didn't want to come home from the hospital!" And before I knew it, he went on to say to me as he stared me with a straight face with his eyes partially closed, "She's killing me!"  Now everyone know my raft and why everything is what it is when it comes to my FATHER and my family and through my posts.

My dear cousin...know the facts before you display on social media. I research before I display on social media. I just want you know this, "I will never forget what my FATHER said that (I never told anyone until this day) out of my head for as long as I live." That word of mouth coming from my FATHER from his own mouth and with enough oxygen going through his nose into his body will be instilled in my head for all infinity. What my family and I did for and with my father when he was alive was always under the microscope to everyone.

"You wasn't there to know what was done, said, or planned with my father!" So understand me fully when I say this my beautiful velvety China doll, "The damage is done and it can't be corrected." The Patriarch of both families (the remaining siblings and my immediate family) is gone for infinity. All my family and I want do is move on with our lives. We've had enough! Enough!

Leave it alone, because I did with your family. So please my beautiful velvety cousin, "Enjoy your "living" father for Father's Day and everyday after that for as long as he live and leave my deceased father (who my immediate and family and I will never see again) who is in his grave that my family and I will never touch again, laugh with again, or joke around with him again when he was living when he was still communicating with his immediate family until almost the end of his life and missing the awesome taste and smell of his barbecue again alone." Let us all move on with life! My family and I don't have strength for any of this nonsense ever again. DITTO!

So...Lousondra (Angel) Wright...you keep laughing at me and my family on our grief and about Father's Day without my deceased FATHER. With this post, 'You're feeling my raft with a vengeance!" You will definitely feel the raft, the grief, the hurt and the lies that were over shadowed by the source that started it all with my family almost a year ago one day in your life. I would of never did you, or to your family in that way, ever!  Please...my dear, read Psalms 37: 1 - 40 at it entirety. -- Know my dear...where your boasting, smiling and maybe laughing on my family's grief and what was done, or should of been done, has been done, your reaping for your 'big beautiful smile' is "noted"in GOD's and his son JESUS eyes for what you and yours did to my FATHER ultimately, to my family and to myself on our hurt; this is my teaching to you..older woman to young woman.

So...keep smiling dear, "Smile big!", because it will be wipe off your face when life challenges you and is done with you in the long run when its not funny any more. Never boast, or smile wide on someone's hurt, or what should of been done, or grief. "It's a dangerous thing to do!" Welcome to the consequences and the repercussions of your actions that you will be experiencing when vengeance is GOD's.

Valid Victory

Book 48

1Chronicles 29:11 - 11. Thine O Lord is the greatness, and the power, and the glory, and the victory, and the majeaty: for all that is in HEAVEN and not into the earth is thine; thine is the kingdom I LORD and thou art exalted as head above all

What web are still weaving with deception? What will it take to stop doing the things that can't be hidden from GOD and his son JESUS? Isn't it known, "What you do in the dark will come to the light?" What part of that is not understood? How candid a person can be not to realize that our pilots can see everything they do no matter how much they try to hide their deceit.

It's nevertheless rewarding when deception is particularly a reality in most part. Why keep trying to do wrong when you know your going to get caught at the end of the rope? These questions keep dawning on my mind, no matter how much I try to forget the past. They tend to creep up in my imagination like a skunk to stink. What smells more like doo doo is when a person keep smiling in your face and consistently throwing daggers in all directions, never missing that point centered straight forward at my back.

"That hurt more than anything!" But...I can say, "Victory is still valid and is still valued with dignity and pride with my immediate family. It's never a dull moment when GOD and his son JESUS keeps close eyes on what's right is right and what is bought to the light for us to see what is revealed at that brief moment. "All eyes are opened to reality." Our families are no more bound, than together.

Split so far apart...there is no more to hold on to. The chain will continue to break it's strengths. I'm tired of trying to be strong with a family who keeps deceiving hope, honesty, trust and FAITH. What more can my immediate family take? How much more deception keep slithering around towards the horizon?

Nevertheless...vengeance is still GOD and his son JESUS. Victory is strong and valid where my immediate family is concerned. "All eyes will continue to open to the real truth of deception all the way around." Then all the innocent ones will see what my immediate family has been trying send over the grapevine for many months after our tragedy. Justice is not too blind to see when it come to my father's death. His will come and he will finally rest in peace.

I will make sure of that! "This is one woman who will not rest until her feelings and what was done to deceive her immediate are completely understood." Vengeance is still and always will be GOD and his son JESUS. I'm not going to get in the way of that, but I will never forget what was, still is and never going to be again. Ultimately...the damage cannot be reversed! Nothing can be said to fix what will always be broken.

Ultimately...my FATHER paid the price for infinity. My fury will always be felt within a few feet, yards and a football field. I pray every single day to help me with my heart; with my feelings of disgust. I don't want to continue to doom my thoughts and imagination with anger. I have so much going for me in life.

I forgive, but...I will never forget forget as the first anniversary of deceit approaches for as long as I live. My immediate family's battle is already won with a vengeance.

Vengeance Is GOD, It's In His Hands

Book 37 - Very Special Edition Post -

Synopsis - The Focus - Everything was not about material things in our eye sight. My family and I focus was what was done in vengeance, in spite and for greed and money against and on the head of my deceased father and my family and I to gain power and control. You think you won; you haven't won a thing!  Just you know that!  Keep that in mind! Keep what you have taken from family and I, because the battle has just begun in the eyes of the LORD. Remember that!  Vengeance is GOD! It's all in his hands now.


Isaiah 61:2 - 2. To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our GOD; to comfort all that mourn.

Jeremiah 50:15 - LIFE - 15. Shout against her round about; she hath given her hand: her foundations are fallen, her walls are thrown down: for it is vengeance of the LORD: take vengeance upon her; as she hath done, do unto her. 

Revelation 18:4 - 4. And I heard another voice from Heaven saying, Come out of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins and that ye receive not of her plagues.


Remember what you did to him; to his immediate family, because we will never forget.  Ever!

I'm fine with everything now!  No more worries for my family and I to endure. Keep laughing...I want you to continue! The disrespect you've shown my father with the way you all treated his immediate family, will be returned with a vengeance.  What has happened during the seven months my family and I have been put through Hades and back again and Hades again, has come to past.

Our tears, our broken hearts, our grief and still grieving are accounted for with comfort from GOD and his son JESUS.  It won't bring my father back to his family and I who loved him unconditionally.  If you're on the outside looking in and didn't know our relationship with the man I still know as FATHER; you know from the memories and the "true and real" love given from his life, until his death and after his death.  He wanted and needed his immediate family; you helped take that away infinity.  Nothing will stop me from expressing all the memories my family and I shared with the man I've known all my life as FATHER that kind of love that was and still is "unconditional" love.

As so noted! Enjoy you reign of laughter, boasting, spite, victory with no sympathy, no compassion for the family you took through with the misuse of power and torment.  You're going to need relief when it's said and done.  It's out of the family's hands and in the hands of GOD and his son JESUS.  That's our relief!