We Will Never Forget The One We Love This Holiday Season

Book 152

Numbers 35:31 - 31. Moreover ye shall take no satisfaction for the life of a murderer, which is guilty of death: but he shall be surely put to death

I miss my popski so much...I can't began to fathom what it's been like for us. We think of him everyday, especially around this time of the year, from the day of my FATHER'S death on the 4th of December 2016, three years ago. It's hard not to think of him when it comes to missing his barbecue. We (Sherri,Wesley Jr. and I) haven't been the best of children towards him, I admit that, but...we saw him when we needed to see him) and we continued to come, and we came, and we saw him before we knew fully that our FATHER was really sick.

"That part was kept from us!"  But...I don't want to rehash the past, because it's a bum rush; we (the family) would like to keep old relic in it's place. It's time to think ahead into the future, because...I finally after all this time...let my FATHER go, because I can't bring him back to us ever, but...I would let GOD'S vengeance take over what was done to my MOTHER and his children. We forgive and love everyone involved, but...we will never forget it for infinity. It's not easy to forget what was once a beautiful family...to no family connection at all, because of what was done to my family. No more grudges held against those culprits, because they will meet their day of judgement. I'm only saying what I must say; I'm only expressing how I really feel, and it's only natural to do so when the man we (the family) love has been taken from us for infinity. But...like I said, "We (the family) must let old relic go...and for it to our past tense.

GOD and his sons vengeance is their virtue to fight our battles, but...karma will soon meet up with those who meant my family sorrow. I can say, "I'm comfortable with the way I feel about most things...one...is the death of my FATHER and loving him enough to let him go." Like I said...I can't bring him back to life, but I must go on with living life to the fullest in the name of my pilots. Nothing in my life without my FATHER will never be the same, but...I must go on, no matter how much it hurt. All I have is memories of a lifetime.

I'll settle for those fine memories, because...it's all I have to hold onto.

When GOD And Is Son JESUS Fulfill Their Glory And Their Blessings

Book 151

Matthew 18:26 - 26. The servant therefore fell down, and worshipped him, saying, LORD, have patience with me, and I will pay thee all. 


I sit everyday, and wonder about what our lives (the family) would be like on a manfold. It's difficult to say where our future lies when your basically homeless, and no where to go at that particular moment. But...you know what I thought? I thought about how good GOD and his son JESUS is when we knew, as a family that they have forseen our home, before we did. For me my self...I found it amazing what my pilots have done to forsee our future in an image (created by their own) eyes; they see our home, and where it is, and how it's going to be. Blessings fulfilled with greatness and glory.

Our faith is truly strong as Platinum is precious. We (the family) is holding on to faith, trust, belief, hope and grace. That's all that matter in a heartbeat. The people who were responsible for the demise of our lease, and for putting my family out of our home, because of us being on a month to month (without us knowing it) they will see it again when karma fulfill their consciousness, and their eyes will be opened as wide as the latitude would fulfill it width. We already know  our blessings will already be done in a manfold we (the family) will be happy.

GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time as we continue to live one day at a time with my niece, while she's out trucking her big ole 18 wheeler truck. We are very thankful for her giving us (our family) a place of residence for now. Nothing more could of made us more happier. As for Sheba Gold, our family dog, has a place of her own temporarily until we're able to receiver and give her awesome home setting with love. I know that we would be once again be together again (the family and Sheba Gold) whenever GOD and son JESUS say, "We can move now where they will provide us to be as our permanent residence...in the name of the Father (GOD) and in the name of the son (JESUS) and in the name of the Holy Ghost (in Spirit) that's all that matter to us."

There's No Mountain High Enough

Book 150 - Special Edition Post - Happy 50th Birthday Sherri and Terri

Psalms 100:1 - 1. A Psalm of praise. Make a joyful noise unto the LORD, all ye lands. 2. Serve the LORD with gladness; come before his presence with singing. 3. Know ye that the LORD he is GOD; it is he that hath made us, and not we ourselves we are his people, and the sheep of his pasture. 4. Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise; be thankful unto him, and bless his name. 5. For the LORD is good; his mercy is everlasting; and his truth endureth to all generations

Psalms 118:24 - 24. This is the day which the LORD hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it. 




Praised the GOD and his son JESUS for a blessed "milestone" birthday. What can we (Sherri and I) ask for? We're so thankful for another life, our health, and strength upon this earth. We are far more blessed to see another year in advance, and we're loving the atmosphere that surrounds us with happiness. What more can Sherri and I ask for! "Ain't no mountain high enough", as we stand together on the peak; closer than we ever imagined towards GOD and his son JESUS; surrounded by the deep blue skies so crisp and clean.

LORD we (Sherri and I) thank you! As we start our day; an extra day that GOD and his son JESUS has given to us. We start life with a positive feeling of love, peace and happiness. I find myself on the eve of my birthday writing this post in the wee hours of this morning. Sherri and I are totally excited. We don't know what the day may bring us later on today.

"There is no mountain high enough" for Sherri and I to climb all the way to the peak I say. We share that adventure as we reach a half of century old (Sherri 12:12 pm and I...12:13 pm) was the time we landed on this earth, with just a minute apart from one another. It's truly a blessing indeed. Sherri and I both started the day like any other day. Boring, dull, but...blessed! We were hoping that we had a party, because of our milestone birthday. but...we didn't...for now.

Maybe someone will plan a party for the both of us. My family always had something up their sleeves when it came to doing something out of the ordinary. Sherri and I will see what's in store for us with a little peaky poo here and there.

When We Lease Expect It

Book 149

Job 36:17 - 17. But thou hast fulfilled the judgment of the wicked; judgement and justice take hold on thee. 

I never thought that this could happen to us in a man fold, but...our family can't do nothing about it now. Our situation can't even be won in court, even if we took a fine tooth comb through the facts of the matter when our lease was terminated. If we were not on a lease (when it was time for it to be renewed) and we are living month to month, then at any time the landlord had can relinquish their home and property back from us. That's what the judge would say! Yes...our family has a little under three weeks to vacate the premises.

What a bad situation to be in! But...with GOD almighty and his son JESUS in charge of our situation; what turns out to be a no win situation, can be a wonderful situation turned around by GOD almighty and his son JESUS to provide for his children at no cost. My family and I have already started packing some of our stuff, but...a little at a time until we're finished packing up the house. In a way...I'm kind of glad that we're moving (I suggested this months prior to our eviction notice, that we needed to go ahead and give up the two acres and the home, because of what ever issues the landlord had with the land the home is sitting on) but its specifically wrong time of the year to be moving out of a home with no money to spare after we (the family) had already paid the rent. Thanksgiving haven't reached our equation as of yet as I speak.

I know that my family and I will be fine once we find another home to live in, even if we don't have the money to move. This is where faith come in for all of us! This we can fathom its mystery, but...with belief unconditionally. So with this said, none of us are worried about the money, or where we're going to live, because we all know that GOD and his son JESUS are in charge of our situation. GOD'S vengeance will play a role in the landlord's decision to not require a lease for my family and I to sign off on, instead of living from month to month (in which the landlord set it up for our lease to be terminated) but...with this said, my family and I will relinquish their home and land back to them without a fight. Our move could be where the grass is greener, if GOD and his son JESUS will have every thing to do with this situation. Trusting and giving our situation to our pilots is the key to good living...when we get there.

When Demands Are Overrated

Book 148

Proverbs 3:6 - 6. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. 

                16:1 - 1. The preparations of the heart in man, and the answer of the tongue, is from the      LORD.

                16:9 - 9. A man's heart deciseth his way: but the LORD directeth his steps. 

*I will keep this "girl" anonymous throughout my post



I'm starting to think that I had this girl wrong from the get go. I thought that she would change her tune about a whole lot of stuff, but...I was totally wrong when I comes her way of thinking about the consequences and the repercussions of her actions. Here's what happened! She tried to plan a birthday party for her son, which is common for someone who loves her son very much. But...here's the problem! She planned her son's birthday party without telling my twin sister Sherri and her husband about it.

So what is the verdict of the situation of this girl's son's birthday party? Well...here is the answer! I don't think Sherri was going to let this girl have the birthday party at our family home. Or at least...for now, being so that this girl's son's birthday party is tomorrow. Here's what I know. If you'r e going to plan something as important as birthday party, tell the person, or person's in charge, and are the heads of the home, and not plan anything ahead of self, if it can be helped.

I guess this girl thought she had more leverage than my twin sister and her husband to request her demands anytime she felt like dropping them like a dime on a catch. Common sense will tell her otherwise not to do what she did instantaneously without thinking ahead of herself, and making strong demands without telling my twin sister and her husband about her plan to have her son's  birthday party at our home. It's only logical to assume right and let my twin sister and her husband know extremely ahead of time, and not ahead of self, just like this girl has done. With this said, it would give awesome quality on our way of thinking that making demands is a way of life without suffering it consequences and the repercussions that comes along with those demands. Think twice and ask first before you place a demand cause you think you can anytime.

DITTO!!!!!

Uncommon Valor Towards Its Common Virtue

Book 147

Deuteronomy 31:6 - 6. Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the LORD thy GOD, He it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee. 

1 Chronicles 28:20 - 20. And David said to Solomon his son, Be strong and of good courage, and do it; fear not, nor be dismayed; for the LORD GOD even my GOD will be with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee, until thou hast finished all the work for  the service of the house of the LORD

*I choose to keep the "girl" and the "woman" anonymous throughout my post

What do I mean when I say, "Uncommon Valor Towards Its Common Virtue?" It means exceptional bravery...a common denominator and courage was found in the hearts of those who fought for what they believe in. This is what I saw in this "girl" who fought totally hard to make ends meet. Her suffering, and her exceptional bravery was rewarded with a job, and a potential status for child support from the father of one of her babies, so that she want have to worry about her sons (who are practically babies), or whether they are going to eat, or to be clothe from one day to the next. But...GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time.

I find that the "girl" in this post was telling the truth all the time about what was really going on in her life, when we (my family) known her to be a compulsive liar. We were all wrong about this girl! She was really struggling with her self esteem. She was crying all the time, because...she was trying all she could as a single mother with two babies. Sometimes I had to ask myself, "Why did I doubt this girl, when all she tried to do is tell us about how hard her life was?"

It's obvious to know when this woman this "girl" lived with had thrown her out of her house, because of her crying babies. I had to ask myself, "What is the real reason this woman throw this "girl" out of her home?" Just like I said, "The girl's crying babies!" This woman couldn't stand for the babies to cry all day, everyday when she have a two year old walking around the house crying too. I feel it was totally wrong what this woman did to this girl.

How would she feel if someone threw her out of the house with her baby? He reaping day is coming for her in full force. But...I'm proud to say that this 'girl" is being totally brave with self confidence and her self esteem. There will be days that she will be overwhelmed with taking care of two babies, and she will cry of many days, because of being overwhelmed, but...she chose to stick it out; take care of her babies and move on to big and better things. This "girl" is getting ready to finish school and receive her GED. I couldn't be more prouder of her.

When Your Burden Down With Fear

Book 147

Isaiah 41:10 - 10. Fear thou not; for i am with thee. Be not dismayed; for I am thy GOD. I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.




*The two young women in this post, will remain anonymous


I found myself in the midst of being burden down with a situation completely out of my control. I believe my family feel the same vibes as well. There is this young woman naive to the fact. She has two children she has no idea how to take care of. Babies to be exact! Soon after she had one baby, she had another already developing in the process.

What do you say to a woman who couldn't resist the fact that she laid down and got another baby before her first could turn a year old that she couldn't take care of without assistance? Here's how the story goes. She was living with her what was suppose to be her sister-in-law. She had asked if she and her crying babies stay with my family until her suppose to be sister-in-law get her lights on again, due to non payment on time. My brother-in-law (of whom I will keep anonymous) had a heart for this girl; he let her stay until her suppose to be sister-in-law get her lights turned back on.

One week and a day pass, and still no word from her suppose to be sister-in-law confirming if she got the lights back on. And from my point of view, I didn't see this girl, whose staying with us, confirming to us that her suppose to be sister-in-law confirming to her that she got the lights turned on. So what's the verdict here? I feel the girl was trying to find her way in a already crowded home with consistently crying babies. Don't get me wrong...I do have a heart for this girl, but...with a girl who has no job, no kind of future to look forward to without an ambition to consume her independence, whose dependence on all of us who already live in the home; who pay all the bills together, has to pull her weight too.

I have a problem with that, because she is totally needy, I mean really needy! Still...don't get me wrong for a person in a dire situation, but...I feel she's not trying hard enough to find her way in the world for her two babies, and it bothers me. She has become a burden on my family, I hate to say. I don't know if she's afraid to go out on her own with her babies! She states she has put in sixteen applications, and no one is calling her for an interview. I'm wondering if she's checking on each application to speed up the process.

Aggravate the people behind the applications. Do what you have too to speed up that process of getting a job at least. She doesn't do that! So what to think when everyone in my house thinks she's a burden? Because...none of us believe she's trying to find a job if she doesn't aggravate the employers, or try picking up the phone and making a phone call to check on her applications.

So what to think when someone like her is a burden on you and the family? We are all thinking of the children in the situation, and she's given so many chances to better herself. But...in so many cases pending against her, we feel she's not trying to give us that notion that she wants a job for one...and to better herself for her children and herself. She is totally a burden with fear in her heart to fail otherwise, depending on others every single day without a notion to pick up the phone and check on her applications to really get a job. Once a freeloader, always a freeloader is the vibes I'm receiving from this girl.

What's the verdict again? I feel she should return back to the woman she was living with, because I truly believe she has had the lights back on for at least almost a week ago. "At least that's what I think, I don't want to judge it.

Those Who Are Acknowledged Of Their Great Works

Book 145

Philippians 4:13 - 13. I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. 

Hebrews 10:35 - 36 - 35. Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompence of reward. 36. For ye have need of patience, that after ye have done the will of GOD, ye might receive the promise.

                 13:6 - 6. So that we may boldly say, the LORD is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me. 

Psalms 27:3 - 3. Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident. 

For the ones who are acknowledged, I pray for each and everyday. I also pray that their lives are as bountiful and more prominent as they continue to strive with their achievements. My son Zachary doesn't get that kind of luxury in acknowledgement from either of his coaches on his football team the Lakeland Eagles. I'm trying not to envy those who are more popular within a twinkle of  the eyes of each coach. Sometimes I think that maybe my son isn't equip as much for his team to make a difference in what he know and don't know, or maybe he does know a little all in the same, but...my son's calling hasn't made his big debut as of yet.

I'm not going to say his Autism is the cause, because its like a joke to me. But...what I'm going to say is that Zachary need to have the determination to know what he's doing at all times; then I say...just maybe he doesn't know what he's doing half of the time. That bother's me to a point that I'm wondering if he's going to make it in his life without me pushing him to succeed in what his goals may be to him. But...with prayer to GOD almighty, Zachary will succeed in anything he sets his mind to. I just know he will!

As Zachary's mother...I understand the kind of obstacles he is faced with each and everyday. I just want my son to succeed in where his potential goals made lead him. And then...just maybe, he'll get the acknowledgement he very well deserve as a teen with Autism. Zachary need to be given that chance to prove to himself and to his coaches of the Lakeland Eagles that he can be as one of the boys on his team that can tackle, guard, be a running back, and make a touchdown to the point that he can stand out more and be noticed as a key player on his team. I for one long until I see the day Zachary make an important play just enough that his coaches can say, "You did awesome out there on the field, keep it up!" That would certainly make my day like he did thus past Saturday on September 21, 2019.

Running thirty-one yards down the field with nineteen yards to go for a touchdown did make my day. I'm very proud of Zachary for having that small chance...at least to make a difference. He needs more!

Our Lives In Purgatory

Book 144

2 Corinthians 5:10 - 10. For we must all appear before the judement seat of Christ; that everyone may receive the things done in his body, according to that he hath done, whether it be good or bad.

Matthew 5:26 - 26. Verily I say unto thee, thous shalt by no means come out thence, till thou hast paid the uttermost farthing.

Revelation 20:12 - 12. And I saw the dead, samll and great, stand before GOD; and the books were opened: and another book was opened, which is the book of life; and the dead was judged out of those things which were written in the books, according to their works. 

When it's prudent to handle all of our troubles with such good judgment of those who have hurt us the most in our lives; I put so much wisdom in my heart to leave my troubles where they may lie and plan for the future to come...if so...in the name of JESUS to spare all of our lives. It's totally common sense to lay aside what was once was in our past, and let GOD and his son JESUS to fight "all" our battles with a vengeance. I had that chance to let go of my past, and live for what GOD and his son JESUS has in store for me. In order to get it right with my pilots, I have to have a certain purpose in my life in order for me to walk that narrow path towards righteousness. That's my resolution, to find that purpose in which it gives me divine glory to live each day without any flaws, even though...that would also be a challenge to work towards making things right in my life...with my pilots help.

A hard and demanding life to look forward to; and there is so much temptation out there just waiting to curve me back into damnation. I don't want to ever go that route again, and that's if I can help it! With this said, I had to give an example of an experience I had on the morning of September 11...the day....eighteen years later, after the towers of the World Trade Center, the Pentagon, and Shanksville, Pennsylvania fell to a terrorist attack. I was to be at a doctors appointment at 9:45 am, and I decided to go and get some breakfast from a fast food restaurant known as Krystal's. There...I was faced with a situation I was not expecting from a employee of this fast food chain.

I went in and ordered my usual breakfast: A sausage, egg, and cheese scrambler, orange juice and coffee. I proceeded to present my order to this employee....a woman with sort of a husky type build, tall, with short blue bobbed hair. At that particular moment...I was blinded by knowledge of this woman's actions, as she ignored my order as I gave it to her. I looked at her with a surprised look for the way she treated me and I said, "What did I do to deserve this...like I wasn't there, as she proceeded to the next register, and to converse with her friends briefly like I was totally invisible, like I didn't give her my order." She didn't even key in my order. It took a young woman (in the drive-thru) with respect for the customer to take my full order.

After my order was taken, I waited a little under five minutes for receive my order from this woman. She then...proceeded to fill my order. I decided to stay inside the restaurant to have my breakfast...until I found a problem with my scrambler. My breakfast bowl was half full; my scrambler only had the sausage and grits, but no eggs. So I carried my it back up to complain!

And in a sarcastic way, this woman asked me, "What's wrong?" I told her, "My scrambler looked half full, and I didn't have any eggs." She told me,"There is eggs in your scrambler." I went back to my table to check to see if I had any eggs in my scrambler, since she told me the eggs was in the bottom of the bowl, instead of the grits being at the bottom...the correct way.

I checked my scrambler with my spoon. I saw that there were no eggs present! I took my scrambler back to the counter to complain again. This woman asked, "What's wrong now in a sarcastic way?" I told her in a respectful way, "There were no eggs in my scrambler!" 

She looked at me in a way that will kill over if I were a opossum fiercely runned over with a car in the road. It took another respectful woman to accommodate me by filling my order completely. She gave me a side of eggs in my scrambler. I thanked her kindly for filling my order. My point was this, "When a person like myself experience ignorance at its entirety, I took it upon myself to turn the other cheek and look the other way as making a mends to not disrespect and act ignorant like this woman did, who seemed to me like she had a chip on her shoulder, just because I came into the restaurant (Krystal's) to order breakfast.

If my experience as a customer "hindered" her in a way when certain people (like myself) come into a restaurant (Krystal's) to order fast food...to this woman...customers like myself shouldn't be "beautiful on the inside and out" or "have a respectful mind to respect others as I would like to be respected for myself" than to have a "ghetto fascious mind with no common sense whatsoever" to give her attention (without judgment) to people like herself. I didn't deserve how I was treated just because I went into Krystal's to order breakfast was (to her) my indiscretion. I needed to present myself without being mad, or acting without haste. It in return...it gives me more leverage to do a good will in the name of GOD and his son JESUS. I that brief instance, I came out looking like a beautiful white rose, than the despair of a thorny bush in the brush on a warm sunny day.

It takes everything in ones power to get things right before the day of judgment day. I don't want to find myself left back in a time of despair with a blank look on my face, or finding out where I am and how I'm going find myself through that narrow path towards the passion of glory. I choose to look the other way without hesitation or haste, and from mistreating a person who has done nothing to me in anguish towards my better judgment. With that said, it brings me to a comment one of my ex. aunts said and how we really feel about her, when she thinks we (my brother, my sister and I) hate her. because of what she and everyone put us through during the time my FATHER was sick, and until he died. I nor my siblings, or my mother don't hold any grudges towards her, or either one of my ex. aunts and my ex. uncle and other people in my ex. family who acted with their indiscretions.

I choose not to talk to them, or have anything to do with them in order to keep down confusion, or any haste towards my extended family, I really hate it has to be this way, when a Power of Attorney with everyone's signature attached to it was the key to destruction of my extended family. At least two of them backed out of the Power of Attorney, because they said, "This is wrong! What you're doing is wrong to my brother's family." All this didn't have to be that way, if money was the resort of it taken to be their root of evil. I for one can't deal with the fact that it happened; GOD help me and continue to help me with my heart.

When You Love, You Love With Everlasting Love

Book 143

Jeremiah 31:3 - 3. The LORD hath appeared f old unto me, saying, Yea...I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with loving kindness have I drawn thee. 




First of all...I would like to give thanks to GOD and his son JESUS for life, health and strength. It's going to take everything in my power to write this post on such short notice. I've been thinking about my significant other a whole lot lately. Wow...there is so much I want to say about my feelings for him. I've never had anyone...besides my sons father...to love me like he does.

I can understand the over protection of me, but...it's like a lonely cloud in the sky with a whole lot of space within the atmosphere in which he travels within his heart for me. I sort of imagine a strong phenomenal Ora that surrounds his whole body with thoughts within that cloud that he has placed me in, and most of the time it creeps me out. "I know in my heart...for me, it's a honor to be thought of in such a romantic way!" But as usual...I still have some concern of his jealousy...even though, he has lighten up on that without so much control over my being. I love my significant other with all of my heart.

I even find myself slightly jealous of him, but without so much control over his life. We're "even" without so much of control over one another in our lives, and that's the way I like to keep it for as long as we live. Now I find myself living and longing for him each and every day of my life. We talk though an application within cyber space and thousands of miles between us. I know that one day we will meet face to face with the love that we share for one another in a heartbeat.

I no longer feel deprived of love everlasting. I truly believe I have my soul mate, my significant other, my love everlasting. I'm praying every day for this strong hold we have for one another, and that GOD and his son JESUS keep us together all the days of our live, and to continue to have the love that we will always share for one another...forever.

Love, Honor And To Be Trustworthy

Book 142

1 Corinthians 4:2 - 2. Moreover it is required in stewards, that a man be found.



* Using the word "him" keep his identify partially anonymous


I don't know what he want sometimes. I'm trying to accept the fact that he has a strong jealousy streak that's really beginning to push me away. I don't know what else to do to make him believe whatever I tell him. The majority of the time, I feel this since of him twisting everything around about what I tell him about my activities and he make it seem like I'm cheating, or doing things that I haven't gotten any business doing. It's like...I don't know what to do, or what to tell him that would make him understand me and what I do with my time, whether it's spending time with my family, or putting my thinking cap into my writing.

I'm doing everything in my power to not mess up (in other terms...f***) up what we have together...as though his thoughts became judgmental when it came to my three Facebook profiles that I have. One is a public profile...which I'm never posting, or sharing anything on, and the other two are profiles I have, they are private profiles. The first of my private profiles, I rarely never post onto it, but...only to share my blog posts to my Facebook Page: Author Terri Celestine Brunson.  That profile also has people on it (my ex. extended family) that I'm not associated with anymore, because of what happened to my FATHER, but...my Facebook pages: Author Terri Celestine Brunson and The Minorities are part of this first private profile and can never erase it. So with that said, I've decided to make another Facebook profile...keeping my ex extended family members away from it.

This profile...I do not use my last name, because of my ex. extended family history and bloodline. I don't want nothing to do with my last name, even though it is my bloodline. There...I have other pages that I share posts from my other blogs: Celestine's Coffee Cup,and The Chocolate Chronicles and Socialites Social Club, but...no writing on it's profile. My significant other thinks I'm hiding something from him by writing on all three of my profiles, or good as to say that I may have other people that I'm writing to and that's not at all the case. What I'm doing is sharing my work to my pages, because that's what I do.

Writing is what I do! I don't have time for Facebook, or its shenanigans in general. My love also states that I have accepted a man on my recent profile...the second private profile, that I didn't know was his friend, but...I don't associate with him at anytime, even though I accepted his friendship. I'm only human here and I'm getting my head bitten off by him, because I accepted a man of whom I don't associate with. With this said...I can't erase this profile, because my Facebook pages are on this recent profile...my second profile.

So what to do about how I feel about things when it comes to the man I love? Why do he find things to argue about? I'm doing everything in my power to support him; give him what he want and to love him unconditionally. It's like when he goes out to find things in and about my life that I had before we met, he doesn't approve of, he brings it to my attention, and then he argue with me about it. How do I cope with the fact I have a man with this jealous streak that I'm still afraid of?

I trying so hard not to break like glass, or fall to pieces like the leaves during the fall season. I love this man, but...he makes me feel like I got to be careful of everything I do. Just a brief second of my happiness and listening to my music, he told me not to screw up on him; or break his heart. Why would I want to screw anything up with us, or break his heart? What trust does he have in me to say what he said to me?

I'm truly hurting from the outburst he consumed on my conscience. So what I did...was to let him know to calm his demeanor and call it a early morning so I can do some thinking and write this post. Anytime I write a post it's about what I'm thinking and the state of mind I'm in. Even with my thoughts during the time I wrote about my FATHER on this blog site for years in order to cope with my heart of losing him, I'm writing about the man I love and where his mind is sometimes. Like I said, "I'm only human sometimes with what I do and did before I met him."

What I did in my life before I met him wasn't unfaithfulness, and I didn't have any other relationship other than my son's father. I didn't know I was going to experience being careful about everything I do. But...what I'm doing is only part of my honesty to him with out deception, or not to encounter any indiscretions of any sort. All I can do is to do my best and not keep anything a secret, or it will be an indiscretion I can't put myself out of. So with this said, "All I can do is talk to him and make him understand me for a change and what I'm about, so he doesn't think I'm cheating on him, or got secrets that I'm keeping from him. I also don't want be stuck in a situation to the point that he doesn't believe, or trust me, because I don't know what I do if he think that I can't be trusted, or if it's the other way around for me to think of him in the same manner otherwise.

"I'm only human, but...I'm sharing my honesty in return for his trust in me and my trust in him." Communication is the key to an understanding and why things happen, and how to mend what could be broken in the matter of our relationship!

Understanding Zachary's World

Book 141

Job 4:6 - 6. Is not this thy fear, thy confidence, thy hope, and the uprightness of thy ways. 

        31:24 - 24. If I have made gold my hope, or have said to the fine gold, thou art my confidence.

Psalms 118:8 - 8. It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man. 

Isaiah 30:15 - 15. For thus saith the LORD GOD, the Holy One of Israel; in returning and rest shall ye be saved; in quietness and in confidence shall be your strength; and ye would not. 

Acts 28:31 - 31. Preaching the kingdom of GOD, and teaching those things which concern the LORD JESUS Christ, with all confidence, no man forbidding him.

2 Corinthians 7:16 - 16. I rejoice therefore that I have confidence in you in all things. 

Galatians 5:10 - 10. I have confidence in you through the LORD, that ye will be none otherwise minded: but he that troubleth you shall bear his judgment, whosoever he be. 

I have a hard time putting the pieces of Zachary's puzzle together sometimes. It's hard to imagine the magnitude of which piece goes with which! What I'm trying to say is, when it comes to finding those different pieces of Zachary's puzzle, because it has to be put together by its color code, And from those pieces of Zachary's puzzle, I began to think about the various stages of his internal emotions that he's been dealing with for a brief period of time. For Zachary...it's being accepted where ever he goes, and what ever he does to be acknowledged for who he is. I figure that one piece of Zachary's puzzle will always make a difference in finding the cause  that triggered his internal emotions about being accepted on his football team.

And when that cause, it has  become a factor of what I'm trying to seek about my son's internal emotions, and I pray to GOD...whatever it may be, the answer will become my mission to figure out its mystery that has been plaguing my son for quite sometime, and for him being accepted as a young man with Autism on his football team; and  then I will see all the pieces of Zachary's puzzle come together correctly by its color code. I've watched some of the head coaches (one in particular) on (JV) Zachary's Junior Varsity team, place his favorite team players in positions they want to be in. I find that every time Zachary wants a certain position (Defense End... which is his strength and more action) he doesn't receive where his strength makes a difference and  it will become a factor of Zachary's goals that will lead him towards winning championships for his team. But...he is consistently placed on the offensive side of the field, where he doesn't want to be, because of the limited action the offensive side of the field gives with the option to block in order to protect the quarterback. The coaches lack of concern for Zachary, it has caused quite a bit of concern for me and for Zachary to accept the fact that this one head coach will put him where he's doesn't want to be to keep him out of the way of his favorite team players.

I'm not going to tolerate Zachary being ignored of the benefits of being where he want to be to accomplish his goal and determination of taking down the quarterback. This was why I felt that there will be many games lost because of crooked coaches who only want to keep their favorites team players in the midst of the field to win games, instead of placing good players (like my son) who I feel will take his football team to championships. Zachary is that player with determination and strength to do what he need to do to bring his football team towards championships, if he's given a chance to prove himself worthy of the position he could have as defensive end. It seems that I'm taken back to the last team Zachary hardly played on where he no real chances to play in any of the games, because he was always on the sideline...even at his practice too.

I always felt his Autism had everything to do with why Zachary was extremely limited to the amount of games he could play in. That's why I changed team organization with the feeling that the grass was greener on the other side of the goal line. I'm not going through another organization (and it's an excellent organization with the Lakeland Eagles) of crooked coaches. I would love to see one coach in the midst of other coaches that will give a darn about every last one of his team players and not just a few that are their personal favorites. I'm not tolerating it! Not another year.

I'm going acknowledge my feelings to the coach who is in fact, part of my problem when it comes to Zachary. Now I'm starting to see all the pieces of Zachary's puzzle coming together by color code. All I got to do is acknowledge my feelings to the coach that was giving me a lot of problems when it came to the position Zachary wanted to play. That last piece of the puzzle...the only piece...would fit nicely with all the other surrounding color coded pieces of Zachary's puzzle. His puzzle will be officially complete, and his internal emotions will be reduced with confidence in himself to strive for the goal he wants to achieve, and that's going after the quarterback.

Feelings Of An Epiphany

Book 140

2 Timothy 3:16 - 16. All scripture is given by inspiration of GOD, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness. 



I find myself in a breakthrough of my mind, body and soul. Things as though I've seen only through philosophical discoveries. What are those discoveries? It has been discovered that I am more at peace in my life. I feel like I've been more enlightened in my mind than anything I've ever experienced during my time of despair. I now do this without anger or haste in my heart. I do it very calmly. 

I know how to handle things better as time progresses and I move on with my life. I will not fail with this instance that has brought me to experience wonderful beginnings that has lead me to prosperity. There were so many disappointments in my life, it was hard to fathom.  Here is one instance I had to bring forth that kept me in total despair: 1. Letting go what was once was in my life that kept me angry...the indiscretions of my ex aunts. 2. What was understood in the mind not will be devoured by my self pity. 3. Living in peace without haste for anyone. I find myself without these instances in my life. I find myself living better than I have ever lived.  

All and all...it's a good feeling to have and I thank GOD and his son JESUS for it. I found my "Epiphany" a realization for a breakthrough, and I don't resist myself in turning back to it's madness. I'm too happy to go backwards, obtaining a unclear past! I want to keep moving on to bigger and better things. I found my breakthrough in real life that I don't mind sharing. 

I found happiness in one that brings me joy. I can only pray that "he" will continue to bring me joy in life. I can't take another misconception of a relationship; another failure to understand what happened, and why it happened. I'm mended with confidence, love, joy, and happiness. I would love fate to keep me hanging towards the horizon, and keep me afloat without the harshness of despair. 

Only my significant one and I can travel that fate...with my son in tow, and another one on the way soon! I'm at a breakthrough in my life that keeps me in peace. I'm enjoying ounce of gratitude of it. 

Forgiveness With A Clean Slate

Book 139

Romans 5:3 - 8 - 3. And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also; knowing that tribulation worketh patience. 4. And patience, experience, and experience hope: 5. And hope maketh not ashamed, because the love of GOD is she'd abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given to us. 6. For when we were yet without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. 7. For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet peradventure for a good man some would even dare to die. 8. But GOD commendeth his love towards us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. 

Galatians 6:1 - 1. "Brethren, if a man be overtaken in a fault he which are Spiritual, restore such an one in the spirit of meekness; considering thyself lest thou also be tempted."


What is to forgive? The benefits are phenomenal when your forgive someone who meant you harm, and has done you wrong in so many ways. It''s only right to forgive in order to clean your slate of despair. Don't build up in your heart of the many things that you consistently consume against a person, or persons, because your thoughts alone will send you to Hades. It's better to forgive than to be bitter with that person, or persons who meant you harm.

When GOD forgives your sin, he doesn't put a mark on who he forgives. Committing sins and living in sin will make you dirty like a filthy rag on a pedestal. Seek in your heart the burden that kept you from seeking forgiveness for all of your sins, and find peace for the way you feel after forgiving that person you had indiscretions with. Forgiveness is the key to abundance...a true gain that will make you free from despair. Live life in a way that brings in a blank slate for success, without a mark of discrepancy.

Always forgive those who have sinned against you. You'll find yourself free of the guilt that kept you holding onto a very heavy weight. Free yourself of that weight, because you will feel lighter than you've ever felt and imagined. Clear your mind, your hear, and most definitely rebuild your soul abundantly from Hades.

The choice is yours to deal with if you want to live free of hate, grief and despair.

Preserve What Is Instantaneous

Book 138

Ephesians 5:25 - 33 - 25. Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it. 26. That he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word. 27. That he might present it to himself a glorious church , not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish. 28. So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He that loveth his wife loveth himself. 29. For no man ever yet hated his own flesh; but nourisheth and cherisheth it, even as the LORD the church. 30. For we are members of his body, of his flesh, and of his bones. 31. For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother, and shall be joined unto his wife, and they two shall be one flesh. 32. This is a great mystery: but I speak concerning Christ and the church. 33. Nevertheless let every one of you in particular so love his wife even as himself; and the wife see that she reverence her husband. 

What is so instantaneous is the love we have in each other. I love the way it sounds, even when I say it, or pronounce it in one single syllable. I feel most trusting with the way he makes me feel. I'm not afraid anymore when it comes to his now...slightly jealous streak. He told me that his jealousy was for me, because of the way that he loved me unconditionally.

That's pretty much understandable! What is to be allowed is to only do what I want to do without him always knowing what I'm going to do, so as long as I tell him, or inform him of my daily routine, or activities. That's all he wants...to know that I'm going to be alright throughout the day. I can always live with that, because of my unconditional love for him. That's all that matters to me, and to him knowing that I'm always going to be okay whatever I do, or where ever I go. I understand now what he meant by just informing him so that he doesn't worry about me so much.

The hardest thing for me is being distance apart. We can feel each other like we're in the same room. It's a feeling that can't be explained...only that we know we're in each other's imagination, if only for a brief moment until we meet someday. Our timeline seems to grow longer and longer...putting months and months between my travel towards him miles and miles away. I'm so longing to be with him, so that we can share the unconditional love we have for one another. That's a dream I know will come very true to me.

We are truly meant for one another! Truly.

My Disclosed Revelation

Book 137

Isaiah 26:3 - 3. Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee because he trusteth in thee. 

John 14:27 - 27. Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. 

John 16:33 - 33. These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world. 

I find myself in an imaginable state. I start to wonder about my life sometimes; where it's going to lead, or how it's going to turn out for me in order to take it into the future. Not everyday is promised, but...I'm going to live one day at a time, as to where GOD sees fit for me to continue on. Somewhere in my mind, thoughts of my FATHER seem to occur to me almost instantly. No matter where I am, or what I do, thoughts of him seem to over take my entire imagination.

It will never be the same without my FATHER'S presents. I've learned to deal with what is hard for me to forget. I've totally settled that in my mind, just before I started to go crazy about the things I can't change. I don't want to consistently wallow in what was once was. I needed to carry on with my life as I see it.

When I look in a mirror, sometimes I see myself slightly unhappy, even if it's for a brief moment. My image faltered. It appeared to me as disfigured and unbalanced. If only I can find that smile somewhere within my disfigured and unbalanced face, I know I would feel better about moving on from my past and grief. And I have!

The image I see in the mirror has completely sharpened its contrast. I now see myself smiling more than I have ever smile. It's not so hard to do when a person like myself turn a frown into a vibrant smiley face. I don't want to keep wallowing in grief, nor my past. I want to keep on moving with all of the good memories disclosed I have of my FATHER. They are all I have to hold onto.

GOD'S Grace is free

Book 136

John 3:16 - 16. For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

Romans 6:1 - 2 - 1. What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound. 2. GOD forbid, how shall we that are dead to sin, live any longer therein? 

Acts 20:28 - 28. Take heed therefore unto yourselves, and to all the flock, over the which the Holy Ghost hath made you overseers, to feed the church of GOD , which he hath purchased with his own blood

Romans 5:8 - 8. But GOD commendeth his love towards us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.


"GOD grace is free!" There is no charge when it comes to praising him. It's totally priceless. Contrary to what some believe, grace does not make sinful acts not sinful. Grace is not a license to sin.

Grace justifies sinners...not their sons! Grace does not make lying, adultery, fornication, greediness any less sinful. Grace brings potential for forgiveness to those under this sentence of death. I find myself more forgiving that anything in this whole world. I see now that I forgave my ex aunt for what she did to my FATHER, I can continue to move on with my life without any regrets.

Grace brings me hope and prosperity, and more love than I ever imagine, without haste, nor hate for my ex aunt. I now feel at peace with myself, my mind, body and soul. I can go on as far as the horizon and never look back on the past. I'd rather look towards the future as far as I can withstand the distance it brings. I know I'll survive the long journey with love and happiness.

What's Love Got To Do With It When It Comes To Control

Book 135

Psalms 37:4 - 4. Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

1 Corinthians 10:13 - 13. There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but GOD is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

John 14:27 - 27. Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. 

Proverbs 5:18 - 19 - 18. Let thy fountain be blessed: and rejoice with the wife of thy youth. 19. Let her be as the loving hind and pleasant roe; let her breasts satisfy thee at all times; and be thou ravished always with her love

Proverbs 18:22 - 22. Whoso findeth a wife, findeth a good thing, and obtaineth favour of the LORD.

 Matthew 19:5 - 5. And said, for this cause shall a man leave father and mother, and shall cleave to his wife: and they twain shall be one flesh




I found myself in love once again, but...in a different angle I see fit to present to the public. I feel this man is different from my past relationship from my son's father. He wants a forever relationship,  marriage, and a baby to fit the bill. How can I compete with that...when I'm part of the plan? It's no game when I have a man that seem to love me only for myself and to love me totally unconditionally. But the problem is that I found that he's a bit jealous!

That in itself kind of bother me. I really have an issue when it comes to a man being a bit jealous, because anything and everything can lead to something I'm not willing to go through in my lifetime. I find myself in communication with him on the subject. The results are continuous. I keep asking my him why is he so jealous of me to a point that he watches me in what I do, what I say, or how I say it. He's says to me, its because...I love you so much.

I find it obvious that I'm a bit scared of him because of his jealous streak, but not totally confused about what I'm getting myself into with him. Then he says, "I promise I want hurt you in anyway, shape, or form. I promise to GOD...I want hurt you, hinder you, abuse you physically, mentally, emotionally, or verbally; and I promise I will not lift a finger to hit you." And then I thought...okay...I hear him, but...proving what he said to me must have all the benefits of a sincere and a "total" promise to me that he wouldn't do any of the things that he said he wouldn't do to me. I'm totally holding him completely responsible to his word when it comes to lifting a finger at me! 

When I think again...I don't want to be a prisoner in my relationship with this man, no matter what he said to me. All I know...he better mean what he say, and he better mean what he do to accommodate his promise to me as a whole. I know my options...and I'm going to way them with my best judgment that I can give myself. I'm going to say this though, "He's not at all a bad person, but...we're just starting out our relationship on a positive note. All I can do is pray for the best and I'll keep everyone updated.

I'm going to watch all the signs! That's what I'm going to do, and be cautious. Don't get me wrong, because...I really do love this man unconditionally.

What Is Righteous Is Walking By Faith

Book 134

Hebrews 11:1 - 3 - 1. Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. 2. For by it the elders obtained a good report. 3. Though faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of GOD, so that things which are seen we're not made of things which do appear. 



First and far most...things that are unseen to man are hard for some to trust and believe. If you can walk down the path of righteousness, you'll find yourself with doubts on either side of that path...only if you walk by faith. There is so much to acknowledge when it comes to having faith beyond anything in this world. I know all too well when it comes dealing with certain situations that kept me within damnation of hell fire.  I had to consistently pray about my indiscretions that could of lead me down that widened path of damnation.

When all seemed lost in the deep wilderness, I found my way clear cut towards the horizon. Then there's that path; the walk of faith. It's where I found peace within myself, and I was never alone, not for a single solitary minute, or micro second. Who's to say that my trust and belief have no boundaries? Walking by my faith gave me the trust and belief that anything GOD and his son JESUS gives you is totally phenomenal and supernatural.

Faith is seen only by trust and belief in GOD and his son JESUS.  What appears to be unseen by some, requires complete measurements to acknowledge how you walk that path. Those doubts are still stumbling blocks along the way. I found myself kicking each and every stumbling block, because...I want to walk that clear path without anything tripping me, or knocking me down and returning me to damnation. What I'm referring to is those who carried my family and I through complete Hades during the time of my FATHER'S illness and demise, I can now hold my head up, smile, and walk away without any haste, dislike, or despair.

I've set all that relex aside, and I'm walking without regrets, but by faith to continue on my journey towards Heaven.

To Give Wisdom For Things That Are Past

Book 133

Proverbs 4:7 - 7. Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom and with all thy getting get understanding. 

Ecclesiastes 7:12 - 12. For wisdom is a defence, and money is a defence, but the excellency of knowledge is wisdom giveth life to them that have it. 

1 Corinthians 2:7 - 7. But we speak wisdom of GOD in mysteries, even the hidden wisdom which GOD ordained before the world unto glory. 

1 Corinthians 2:13 - 13. Which things also we speak not the words which means wisdom teacheth, but...which the Holy Ghost teacheth comparing spiritual things with spiritual. 



I didn't follow suite posting on FATHER'S Day, because I didn't want to give some son story about how I felt about my FATHER being gone. I guess I wanted to provide my readers with a cheerful and positive post; to bring just a little bit of happiness. I find myself more happier than I've ever been these past few months. No negative emotions, or negative words to say about anyone, not even about my ex aunt's. I find myself proud to the fact that I can finally put old rellex behind me and move on with my life.

I'm getting ready to start my own social club called Socialites. It's bringing together people who I feel will be an awesome match for what I'm looking for. Prominent...well known to society in order to bring more stamina, and financial means to promote greater things to happen in a social club. I hope my idea for this social club works out to be more conglomerate, than myself put together. I find myself more excited than I could ever imagine about my new social club.

There is work to be done and I must get started on my new fliers and a little word of mouth to acknowledge my social club existence. I think I would give it eight months, or more to get everything in order according to officers I need to bring into action: Secretary, Financial Advisor, Manager, Chaplain, and a Events Coordinator. My twin sister is already Vice President, and I am Founder and President. Success is the key and I'm determined to make my social club a very successful one. A positive attitude and a positive atmosphere is what I need to get over the loss of my FATHER.

I know I'll be okay. It comes to show that anything can be possible in order to come to terms with your past. I think I'm doing awesome with that, I'm happy to say. But...one thing I know that I'll always have good memories of my FATHER, no matter what.

Thank You For Your Support In The Three Year Anniversary Of Author Terri Celestine Brunson

Book 132 - Special Edition Post - It's Been Three Years -

Romans 12:18 - If it be possible, as much a lieth in you, live peaceable with all men. 

I would like to thank everyone for their support in bringing my blog site Author Terri Celestine Brunson to it's conglomerate and blossoming success. It's been quite a pleasure to be loved for what I do in bringing to everyone worldwide heart felt and heart breaking stories that would capture those he read and take my stories to heart. It's been three years since I started this blog site in memory of my FATHER, Wesley Brunson Sr.  Author Terri Celestine Brunson also covers the extreme extent of what my family and I went through with the main source of our hell and the havoc and chaos, my ex aunt, Minnie Lou Wright. She...who virtually claimed Power of Attorney over my FATHER'S health and his life against my immediate family in her quest to rack devious power over my immediate family and I in order to gain control of his life, his possessions and most definitely, his finances.

Another party who were specifically involved in this hell and the havoc and chaos, I choose not to mention her in order to keep her totally anonymous for particular reasons I don't really care to discuss.  But...all that is over now! I don't care to discuss it anymore. It brings me to this point of letting what happen to my immediate family and I go, and I'm striving to let it go, and forgive those who caused us so much hell and total havoc and chaos. What I want is to finally receive my blessings from GOD and his son JESUS for forgiving those who deceived my family and I in the worst possible way to the point of our total silence.

I feel it's better that way to keep the peace! A nod here and there when I see my ex aunt Minnie Lou and the other one who cause my family and I despair, and is only right to "Kill their kindness with their weakness" and display it with smiles of joy, happiness and glory. What I'm saying to everyone who supported me throughout the success of my blog site Author Terri Celestine Brunson is...thank you very much for making three years of my blog site what it is today. I really appreciate it!

Nonanonymous

Book 131

Genesis 26:29 - 26. That thou wilt do us no hurt, as we have not touched the, and as we have done unto the nothing but good, and have sent the away in peace; thou art now the blessed of the LORD.

Sometimes I find myself anonymous to a point; I just want to be officially noticed by someone who will more than likely give a hang about what I think or feel. It's been hard on me most of the time getting myself out there to be promoted...well known...more than likely, prominent. Where I'm I going with this? We'll...let me elaborate!  I'm not all a people person, but...I'm trying to start a social club, which will be potentially prominent to most.

Only the best will be a part of my social club; if only they know GOD and his son JESUS with all of their heart, mind, body and soul. That's a must! There will be times when social gatherings, events or just hanging out with one another; going out for brunch will be part of the main source of conversation. I just got to find a way to persuade the people in  becoming a part of something I truly and officially believe in. It's just my people skills are totally an anonymous problem that I must see my way out of being unnoticed.

Who's to say that I should stay anonymous, or if I may decide to come out of shell as I see fit? I must take those baby steps into reality and crack my shell at it's full extent of nonanonymous. My social club most definitely need to see the light of day, and I must find it in my power to gain the right to promote and build it up the best of my knowledge. Why am I trying to build my social club? Here's why.

I'm trying to build my social club, "Socialites" in memory of my FATHER. No more old rubbish, old relex, or old garbage will be allowed, and is stricken to be prohibited in becoming a part of what will be part of my healing process. I founded Socialites so that I can invite those who know GOD and his son JESUS and that  they will be well known to my situation and all that I've been through since my FATHER'S death. It's a healing process I acknowledged earlier in my post. I don't want to be 'nonanonymous' in my endeavors to bring the people into my social club, but...with the will to crack my shell to the fullest to bring them in with respect, honesty, faith, belief and trust.

That's all what matters to me!

What To Do With Time On Our Hands

Book 130

Colossians 4:5 - 5. Walk in wisdom toward them that are without, redeeming the time




Well...I'm getting ready to post the most important post of them all. FATHER'S Day is coming up and I really need to find the words I'm going to write about. I don't think it would be that difficult to find those particular words to write when it comes to FATHER'S Day and the memories I shared with my FATHER, but...I'll figure out what I'm going to come up with once I start writing. Today was one of those days. I'm sitting around doing absolutely nothing, but enjoying my time off to spend it with my family.

We just looked at an episode of "In The Heat of the Night." It just another rerun, but...it's worth a look in order take in all the rest of the episode. Sherri, mother Ruth and I love those reruns of "In The Heart of the Night." We never miss an episode, even if we look at it over and over and over again. I wonder...what else should we do to kill time? It's obvious to know what to do, until Sherri and I go and pick up my son Zachary. We'll figure it all out until then.

Then I came up with an solution! Writing on a clean slate made all the difference in the world with our blank minds and a pencil to write with what ever comes to our minds. Sherri and I made pact in writing down our agenda. And here is what we came up with on what to do with our time. We can thank GOD and his son JESUS for just giving us the breath of life when we need it to breathe, that's number one on our agenda; number two, we thank GOD and his son JESUS for the strength to have when we need it to be strong, and last, but not least, our health when we need it to have energy at its fullest.

We can do all that with our time, and have as much to accomplish with our time. Negativity is a 'zero' tolerance, in which we don't have time to give. Positivity is a must that we should make time for all day and every day. "I think I'd rather have that with my sister Sherri, my mother Ruth and myself just for that quality time we all can share together."

Love Your Enemies

Book 129

Matthew 5:43 - 44 - 43. Yes have heard that it hath been said, thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy. But I say unto you, love your enemies, bless them that curse you. Do good to them that hurt you, pray to them that despitefully use you, and persecute you.


1 Corinthians 13:13 - 13. And now abideth faith, hope, charity these three, but the greatest of these is charity.




Most Heavenly Father...I thank GOD for life, health, and strength. I thank you for allowing me the write this post with heart, mind, and soul. GOD gives me the words to say when, I have nothing to say at all. Here's what I'm going to write about in a positive manner. Its about loving your enemies unconditionally to the extent of joy, even if they don't love you back. Loving your enemies makes you more than a winner; obedient to GOD and his son JESUS, as they love us unconditionally. That is more than a living testimony of when it comes to the love of our pilots.

I experience this with my ex aunt Minnie Lou Wright. She is now my enemy, and I don't want anything else to do with her ever again, because of how she did my immediate family and myself  with my FATHER. But you know...I love my ex aunt Minnie Lou Wright with all of my heart, no matter what the ultimate damage she sustained against my family. I will always show her my love, because it beats the purpose of how I really feel about her. I know where my blessings are in my heart, mind, body and soul. I don't want to ever be deprived of my blessings from GOD and his son JESUS, because it will drain me of strength.

My feelings right now is to suck it up, love my enemy with all of my heart, and move on with life. I don't hate my ex aunt, not by a long shot. It took me almost three years to accept the death of my FATHER, and the fact that Minnie Lou murdered him. When I see her in the street, or in her car, or if she's wandering in the midst of my presents, I will nod my head with the biggest smile on my face. Nothing fake about it. I'm going to be real about expressing my feelings in a positive way. I got too...if I want to receive my blessings from GOD and his son JESUS.

What makes an enemy? A enemy does things without any apologies necessary, no matter the damage caused by affection. I've made peace with myself, and with my heart, mind, body and soul. Only I can fix myself and what's going on with me. It's up to me to come to terms of what happened to my immediate family and myself. I just got tired of being drained of my strength.