Our Lives In Purgatory

Book 144

2 Corinthians 5:10 - 10. For we must all appear before the judement seat of Christ; that everyone may receive the things done in his body, according to that he hath done, whether it be good or bad.

Matthew 5:26 - 26. Verily I say unto thee, thous shalt by no means come out thence, till thou hast paid the uttermost farthing.

Revelation 20:12 - 12. And I saw the dead, samll and great, stand before GOD; and the books were opened: and another book was opened, which is the book of life; and the dead was judged out of those things which were written in the books, according to their works. 

When it's prudent to handle all of our troubles with such good judgment of those who have hurt us the most in our lives; I put so much wisdom in my heart to leave my troubles where they may lie and plan for the future to come...if so...in the name of JESUS to spare all of our lives. It's totally common sense to lay aside what was once was in our past, and let GOD and his son JESUS to fight "all" our battles with a vengeance. I had that chance to let go of my past, and live for what GOD and his son JESUS has in store for me. In order to get it right with my pilots, I have to have a certain purpose in my life in order for me to walk that narrow path towards righteousness. That's my resolution, to find that purpose in which it gives me divine glory to live each day without any flaws, even though...that would also be a challenge to work towards making things right in my life...with my pilots help.

A hard and demanding life to look forward to; and there is so much temptation out there just waiting to curve me back into damnation. I don't want to ever go that route again, and that's if I can help it! With this said, I had to give an example of an experience I had on the morning of September 11...the day....eighteen years later, after the towers of the World Trade Center, the Pentagon, and Shanksville, Pennsylvania fell to a terrorist attack. I was to be at a doctors appointment at 9:45 am, and I decided to go and get some breakfast from a fast food restaurant known as Krystal's. There...I was faced with a situation I was not expecting from a employee of this fast food chain.

I went in and ordered my usual breakfast: A sausage, egg, and cheese scrambler, orange juice and coffee. I proceeded to present my order to this employee....a woman with sort of a husky type build, tall, with short blue bobbed hair. At that particular moment...I was blinded by knowledge of this woman's actions, as she ignored my order as I gave it to her. I looked at her with a surprised look for the way she treated me and I said, "What did I do to deserve this...like I wasn't there, as she proceeded to the next register, and to converse with her friends briefly like I was totally invisible, like I didn't give her my order." She didn't even key in my order. It took a young woman (in the drive-thru) with respect for the customer to take my full order.

After my order was taken, I waited a little under five minutes for receive my order from this woman. She then...proceeded to fill my order. I decided to stay inside the restaurant to have my breakfast...until I found a problem with my scrambler. My breakfast bowl was half full; my scrambler only had the sausage and grits, but no eggs. So I carried my it back up to complain!

And in a sarcastic way, this woman asked me, "What's wrong?" I told her, "My scrambler looked half full, and I didn't have any eggs." She told me,"There is eggs in your scrambler." I went back to my table to check to see if I had any eggs in my scrambler, since she told me the eggs was in the bottom of the bowl, instead of the grits being at the bottom...the correct way.

I checked my scrambler with my spoon. I saw that there were no eggs present! I took my scrambler back to the counter to complain again. This woman asked, "What's wrong now in a sarcastic way?" I told her in a respectful way, "There were no eggs in my scrambler!" 

She looked at me in a way that will kill over if I were a opossum fiercely runned over with a car in the road. It took another respectful woman to accommodate me by filling my order completely. She gave me a side of eggs in my scrambler. I thanked her kindly for filling my order. My point was this, "When a person like myself experience ignorance at its entirety, I took it upon myself to turn the other cheek and look the other way as making a mends to not disrespect and act ignorant like this woman did, who seemed to me like she had a chip on her shoulder, just because I came into the restaurant (Krystal's) to order breakfast.

If my experience as a customer "hindered" her in a way when certain people (like myself) come into a restaurant (Krystal's) to order fast food...to this woman...customers like myself shouldn't be "beautiful on the inside and out" or "have a respectful mind to respect others as I would like to be respected for myself" than to have a "ghetto fascious mind with no common sense whatsoever" to give her attention (without judgment) to people like herself. I didn't deserve how I was treated just because I went into Krystal's to order breakfast was (to her) my indiscretion. I needed to present myself without being mad, or acting without haste. It in return...it gives me more leverage to do a good will in the name of GOD and his son JESUS. I that brief instance, I came out looking like a beautiful white rose, than the despair of a thorny bush in the brush on a warm sunny day.

It takes everything in ones power to get things right before the day of judgment day. I don't want to find myself left back in a time of despair with a blank look on my face, or finding out where I am and how I'm going find myself through that narrow path towards the passion of glory. I choose to look the other way without hesitation or haste, and from mistreating a person who has done nothing to me in anguish towards my better judgment. With that said, it brings me to a comment one of my ex. aunts said and how we really feel about her, when she thinks we (my brother, my sister and I) hate her. because of what she and everyone put us through during the time my FATHER was sick, and until he died. I nor my siblings, or my mother don't hold any grudges towards her, or either one of my ex. aunts and my ex. uncle and other people in my ex. family who acted with their indiscretions.

I choose not to talk to them, or have anything to do with them in order to keep down confusion, or any haste towards my extended family, I really hate it has to be this way, when a Power of Attorney with everyone's signature attached to it was the key to destruction of my extended family. At least two of them backed out of the Power of Attorney, because they said, "This is wrong! What you're doing is wrong to my brother's family." All this didn't have to be that way, if money was the resort of it taken to be their root of evil. I for one can't deal with the fact that it happened; GOD help me and continue to help me with my heart.