What's Love Got To Do With It When It Comes To Control

Book 135

Psalms 37:4 - 4. Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

1 Corinthians 10:13 - 13. There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but GOD is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

John 14:27 - 27. Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. 

Proverbs 5:18 - 19 - 18. Let thy fountain be blessed: and rejoice with the wife of thy youth. 19. Let her be as the loving hind and pleasant roe; let her breasts satisfy thee at all times; and be thou ravished always with her love

Proverbs 18:22 - 22. Whoso findeth a wife, findeth a good thing, and obtaineth favour of the LORD.

 Matthew 19:5 - 5. And said, for this cause shall a man leave father and mother, and shall cleave to his wife: and they twain shall be one flesh




I found myself in love once again, but...in a different angle I see fit to present to the public. I feel this man is different from my past relationship from my son's father. He wants a forever relationship,  marriage, and a baby to fit the bill. How can I compete with that...when I'm part of the plan? It's no game when I have a man that seem to love me only for myself and to love me totally unconditionally. But the problem is that I found that he's a bit jealous!

That in itself kind of bother me. I really have an issue when it comes to a man being a bit jealous, because anything and everything can lead to something I'm not willing to go through in my lifetime. I find myself in communication with him on the subject. The results are continuous. I keep asking my him why is he so jealous of me to a point that he watches me in what I do, what I say, or how I say it. He's says to me, its because...I love you so much.

I find it obvious that I'm a bit scared of him because of his jealous streak, but not totally confused about what I'm getting myself into with him. Then he says, "I promise I want hurt you in anyway, shape, or form. I promise to GOD...I want hurt you, hinder you, abuse you physically, mentally, emotionally, or verbally; and I promise I will not lift a finger to hit you." And then I thought...okay...I hear him, but...proving what he said to me must have all the benefits of a sincere and a "total" promise to me that he wouldn't do any of the things that he said he wouldn't do to me. I'm totally holding him completely responsible to his word when it comes to lifting a finger at me! 

When I think again...I don't want to be a prisoner in my relationship with this man, no matter what he said to me. All I know...he better mean what he say, and he better mean what he do to accommodate his promise to me as a whole. I know my options...and I'm going to way them with my best judgment that I can give myself. I'm going to say this though, "He's not at all a bad person, but...we're just starting out our relationship on a positive note. All I can do is pray for the best and I'll keep everyone updated.

I'm going to watch all the signs! That's what I'm going to do, and be cautious. Don't get me wrong, because...I really do love this man unconditionally.

What Is Righteous Is Walking By Faith

Book 134

Hebrews 11:1 - 3 - 1. Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. 2. For by it the elders obtained a good report. 3. Though faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of GOD, so that things which are seen we're not made of things which do appear. 



First and far most...things that are unseen to man are hard for some to trust and believe. If you can walk down the path of righteousness, you'll find yourself with doubts on either side of that path...only if you walk by faith. There is so much to acknowledge when it comes to having faith beyond anything in this world. I know all too well when it comes dealing with certain situations that kept me within damnation of hell fire.  I had to consistently pray about my indiscretions that could of lead me down that widened path of damnation.

When all seemed lost in the deep wilderness, I found my way clear cut towards the horizon. Then there's that path; the walk of faith. It's where I found peace within myself, and I was never alone, not for a single solitary minute, or micro second. Who's to say that my trust and belief have no boundaries? Walking by my faith gave me the trust and belief that anything GOD and his son JESUS gives you is totally phenomenal and supernatural.

Faith is seen only by trust and belief in GOD and his son JESUS.  What appears to be unseen by some, requires complete measurements to acknowledge how you walk that path. Those doubts are still stumbling blocks along the way. I found myself kicking each and every stumbling block, because...I want to walk that clear path without anything tripping me, or knocking me down and returning me to damnation. What I'm referring to is those who carried my family and I through complete Hades during the time of my FATHER'S illness and demise, I can now hold my head up, smile, and walk away without any haste, dislike, or despair.

I've set all that relex aside, and I'm walking without regrets, but by faith to continue on my journey towards Heaven.

To Give Wisdom For Things That Are Past

Book 133

Proverbs 4:7 - 7. Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom and with all thy getting get understanding. 

Ecclesiastes 7:12 - 12. For wisdom is a defence, and money is a defence, but the excellency of knowledge is wisdom giveth life to them that have it. 

1 Corinthians 2:7 - 7. But we speak wisdom of GOD in mysteries, even the hidden wisdom which GOD ordained before the world unto glory. 

1 Corinthians 2:13 - 13. Which things also we speak not the words which means wisdom teacheth, but...which the Holy Ghost teacheth comparing spiritual things with spiritual. 



I didn't follow suite posting on FATHER'S Day, because I didn't want to give some son story about how I felt about my FATHER being gone. I guess I wanted to provide my readers with a cheerful and positive post; to bring just a little bit of happiness. I find myself more happier than I've ever been these past few months. No negative emotions, or negative words to say about anyone, not even about my ex aunt's. I find myself proud to the fact that I can finally put old rellex behind me and move on with my life.

I'm getting ready to start my own social club called Socialites. It's bringing together people who I feel will be an awesome match for what I'm looking for. Prominent...well known to society in order to bring more stamina, and financial means to promote greater things to happen in a social club. I hope my idea for this social club works out to be more conglomerate, than myself put together. I find myself more excited than I could ever imagine about my new social club.

There is work to be done and I must get started on my new fliers and a little word of mouth to acknowledge my social club existence. I think I would give it eight months, or more to get everything in order according to officers I need to bring into action: Secretary, Financial Advisor, Manager, Chaplain, and a Events Coordinator. My twin sister is already Vice President, and I am Founder and President. Success is the key and I'm determined to make my social club a very successful one. A positive attitude and a positive atmosphere is what I need to get over the loss of my FATHER.

I know I'll be okay. It comes to show that anything can be possible in order to come to terms with your past. I think I'm doing awesome with that, I'm happy to say. But...one thing I know that I'll always have good memories of my FATHER, no matter what.

Thank You For Your Support In The Three Year Anniversary Of Author Terri Celestine Brunson

Book 132 - Special Edition Post - It's Been Three Years -

Romans 12:18 - If it be possible, as much a lieth in you, live peaceable with all men. 

I would like to thank everyone for their support in bringing my blog site Author Terri Celestine Brunson to it's conglomerate and blossoming success. It's been quite a pleasure to be loved for what I do in bringing to everyone worldwide heart felt and heart breaking stories that would capture those he read and take my stories to heart. It's been three years since I started this blog site in memory of my FATHER, Wesley Brunson Sr.  Author Terri Celestine Brunson also covers the extreme extent of what my family and I went through with the main source of our hell and the havoc and chaos, my ex aunt, Minnie Lou Wright. She...who virtually claimed Power of Attorney over my FATHER'S health and his life against my immediate family in her quest to rack devious power over my immediate family and I in order to gain control of his life, his possessions and most definitely, his finances.

Another party who were specifically involved in this hell and the havoc and chaos, I choose not to mention her in order to keep her totally anonymous for particular reasons I don't really care to discuss.  But...all that is over now! I don't care to discuss it anymore. It brings me to this point of letting what happen to my immediate family and I go, and I'm striving to let it go, and forgive those who caused us so much hell and total havoc and chaos. What I want is to finally receive my blessings from GOD and his son JESUS for forgiving those who deceived my family and I in the worst possible way to the point of our total silence.

I feel it's better that way to keep the peace! A nod here and there when I see my ex aunt Minnie Lou and the other one who cause my family and I despair, and is only right to "Kill their kindness with their weakness" and display it with smiles of joy, happiness and glory. What I'm saying to everyone who supported me throughout the success of my blog site Author Terri Celestine Brunson is...thank you very much for making three years of my blog site what it is today. I really appreciate it!

Nonanonymous

Book 131

Genesis 26:29 - 26. That thou wilt do us no hurt, as we have not touched the, and as we have done unto the nothing but good, and have sent the away in peace; thou art now the blessed of the LORD.

Sometimes I find myself anonymous to a point; I just want to be officially noticed by someone who will more than likely give a hang about what I think or feel. It's been hard on me most of the time getting myself out there to be promoted...well known...more than likely, prominent. Where I'm I going with this? We'll...let me elaborate!  I'm not all a people person, but...I'm trying to start a social club, which will be potentially prominent to most.

Only the best will be a part of my social club; if only they know GOD and his son JESUS with all of their heart, mind, body and soul. That's a must! There will be times when social gatherings, events or just hanging out with one another; going out for brunch will be part of the main source of conversation. I just got to find a way to persuade the people in  becoming a part of something I truly and officially believe in. It's just my people skills are totally an anonymous problem that I must see my way out of being unnoticed.

Who's to say that I should stay anonymous, or if I may decide to come out of shell as I see fit? I must take those baby steps into reality and crack my shell at it's full extent of nonanonymous. My social club most definitely need to see the light of day, and I must find it in my power to gain the right to promote and build it up the best of my knowledge. Why am I trying to build my social club? Here's why.

I'm trying to build my social club, "Socialites" in memory of my FATHER. No more old rubbish, old relex, or old garbage will be allowed, and is stricken to be prohibited in becoming a part of what will be part of my healing process. I founded Socialites so that I can invite those who know GOD and his son JESUS and that  they will be well known to my situation and all that I've been through since my FATHER'S death. It's a healing process I acknowledged earlier in my post. I don't want to be 'nonanonymous' in my endeavors to bring the people into my social club, but...with the will to crack my shell to the fullest to bring them in with respect, honesty, faith, belief and trust.

That's all what matters to me!

What To Do With Time On Our Hands

Book 130

Colossians 4:5 - 5. Walk in wisdom toward them that are without, redeeming the time




Well...I'm getting ready to post the most important post of them all. FATHER'S Day is coming up and I really need to find the words I'm going to write about. I don't think it would be that difficult to find those particular words to write when it comes to FATHER'S Day and the memories I shared with my FATHER, but...I'll figure out what I'm going to come up with once I start writing. Today was one of those days. I'm sitting around doing absolutely nothing, but enjoying my time off to spend it with my family.

We just looked at an episode of "In The Heat of the Night." It just another rerun, but...it's worth a look in order take in all the rest of the episode. Sherri, mother Ruth and I love those reruns of "In The Heart of the Night." We never miss an episode, even if we look at it over and over and over again. I wonder...what else should we do to kill time? It's obvious to know what to do, until Sherri and I go and pick up my son Zachary. We'll figure it all out until then.

Then I came up with an solution! Writing on a clean slate made all the difference in the world with our blank minds and a pencil to write with what ever comes to our minds. Sherri and I made pact in writing down our agenda. And here is what we came up with on what to do with our time. We can thank GOD and his son JESUS for just giving us the breath of life when we need it to breathe, that's number one on our agenda; number two, we thank GOD and his son JESUS for the strength to have when we need it to be strong, and last, but not least, our health when we need it to have energy at its fullest.

We can do all that with our time, and have as much to accomplish with our time. Negativity is a 'zero' tolerance, in which we don't have time to give. Positivity is a must that we should make time for all day and every day. "I think I'd rather have that with my sister Sherri, my mother Ruth and myself just for that quality time we all can share together."

Love Your Enemies

Book 129

Matthew 5:43 - 44 - 43. Yes have heard that it hath been said, thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy. But I say unto you, love your enemies, bless them that curse you. Do good to them that hurt you, pray to them that despitefully use you, and persecute you.


1 Corinthians 13:13 - 13. And now abideth faith, hope, charity these three, but the greatest of these is charity.




Most Heavenly Father...I thank GOD for life, health, and strength. I thank you for allowing me the write this post with heart, mind, and soul. GOD gives me the words to say when, I have nothing to say at all. Here's what I'm going to write about in a positive manner. Its about loving your enemies unconditionally to the extent of joy, even if they don't love you back. Loving your enemies makes you more than a winner; obedient to GOD and his son JESUS, as they love us unconditionally. That is more than a living testimony of when it comes to the love of our pilots.

I experience this with my ex aunt Minnie Lou Wright. She is now my enemy, and I don't want anything else to do with her ever again, because of how she did my immediate family and myself  with my FATHER. But you know...I love my ex aunt Minnie Lou Wright with all of my heart, no matter what the ultimate damage she sustained against my family. I will always show her my love, because it beats the purpose of how I really feel about her. I know where my blessings are in my heart, mind, body and soul. I don't want to ever be deprived of my blessings from GOD and his son JESUS, because it will drain me of strength.

My feelings right now is to suck it up, love my enemy with all of my heart, and move on with life. I don't hate my ex aunt, not by a long shot. It took me almost three years to accept the death of my FATHER, and the fact that Minnie Lou murdered him. When I see her in the street, or in her car, or if she's wandering in the midst of my presents, I will nod my head with the biggest smile on my face. Nothing fake about it. I'm going to be real about expressing my feelings in a positive way. I got too...if I want to receive my blessings from GOD and his son JESUS.

What makes an enemy? A enemy does things without any apologies necessary, no matter the damage caused by affection. I've made peace with myself, and with my heart, mind, body and soul. Only I can fix myself and what's going on with me. It's up to me to come to terms of what happened to my immediate family and myself. I just got tired of being drained of my strength.

Confession Made Into Salvation

Book 128

Romans 10:8 - 15 - 8. But what saith it? The word is nigh thee, even in the mouth, and in that heart that is the word of faith, which we preach. 9. That if thou shalt confess with the mouth the Lord Jesus and shalt believe in thine heart GOD hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. 10. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made into salvation. 11. For the scripture saith, whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed. 




It is time for me to confess what I've been keeping in my heart for almost three years. I just want to  let go of this ton of old rubbish. And now...it is time to give it up and let it go forever. Thanks to GOD and his son JESUS and a woman of integrity to help me see the way to the light and stop grieving all the time and move on with my life. It all started with a question I asked her about our boarder crisis that's going on south of our boarder.

Then all of a sudden, our conversations were about my FATHER and everything my ex aunt(s) put my immediate family and myself through in a nutshell. This woman listened to every single thing I told her. She was in shocked to know of the torment, the lies, and the Power of Attorney my ex aunts had over my FATHER'S life and everything that they put my family and I for the last six months of my FATHER'S life. She told me, "To let GOD and his son JESUS have it; let them handle all of the pressures, the torment, your trials and tribulations, and the battles of wars, and rumors of wars that only they can fight for my immediate family and myself", "There is nothing else you could do, or try to do to bring your FATHER back", "He's gone and there's no reversing his life." Let it go, she said.

This woman also told me, "Don't wallow in something you can never change, because...your only going to be in tears for the rest of your life, and the death of you FATHER is always going to weigh heavy on your emotions, if you let it happen everyday of your life." That brought me to thinking about how much the death of my FATHER has worn down on me like a huge weight. Yes...I can't bring him back to life. The woman was right, "I can't let what happen to my FATHER weigh on me like a weight everyday I think about him. I must let him go and move on with my life." I got to finally let him go and move on, because I was making myself so sick until I almost went crazy again to the point of flaring my Post Traumatic Stress that I was diagnosed with after the death of my FATHER.

After that woman spoke with me...all of a sudden, I felt this huge weight lifted off of my shoulders that weighing me down for almost three years. Yes...here and there, I'm going to think of my FATHER, and I'm going to shed a tear or two, but...I'm starting to feel more relieved to know that I can deal with my FATHER'S death to the point that I'm not crying all the time, every time he comes to thought. I think about what that woman said to me, and how she expressed it in a way that I can clear understand the magnitude of what it was doing to my mind and health. For that...I'm totally grateful to her for talking to me and making realize the reality of my FATHER. I confessed with my grief to her, so that she can give me a solution to my problem, and she gave it. I think I've come to terms with the reality of my FATHER'S death, but it will never get any better knowing that he will never live on the face of the earth anymore.