Those Who Are Acknowledged Of Their Great Works

Book 145

Philippians 4:13 - 13. I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. 

Hebrews 10:35 - 36 - 35. Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompence of reward. 36. For ye have need of patience, that after ye have done the will of GOD, ye might receive the promise.

                 13:6 - 6. So that we may boldly say, the LORD is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me. 

Psalms 27:3 - 3. Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident. 

For the ones who are acknowledged, I pray for each and everyday. I also pray that their lives are as bountiful and more prominent as they continue to strive with their achievements. My son Zachary doesn't get that kind of luxury in acknowledgement from either of his coaches on his football team the Lakeland Eagles. I'm trying not to envy those who are more popular within a twinkle of  the eyes of each coach. Sometimes I think that maybe my son isn't equip as much for his team to make a difference in what he know and don't know, or maybe he does know a little all in the same, but...my son's calling hasn't made his big debut as of yet.

I'm not going to say his Autism is the cause, because its like a joke to me. But...what I'm going to say is that Zachary need to have the determination to know what he's doing at all times; then I say...just maybe he doesn't know what he's doing half of the time. That bother's me to a point that I'm wondering if he's going to make it in his life without me pushing him to succeed in what his goals may be to him. But...with prayer to GOD almighty, Zachary will succeed in anything he sets his mind to. I just know he will!

As Zachary's mother...I understand the kind of obstacles he is faced with each and everyday. I just want my son to succeed in where his potential goals made lead him. And then...just maybe, he'll get the acknowledgement he very well deserve as a teen with Autism. Zachary need to be given that chance to prove to himself and to his coaches of the Lakeland Eagles that he can be as one of the boys on his team that can tackle, guard, be a running back, and make a touchdown to the point that he can stand out more and be noticed as a key player on his team. I for one long until I see the day Zachary make an important play just enough that his coaches can say, "You did awesome out there on the field, keep it up!" That would certainly make my day like he did thus past Saturday on September 21, 2019.

Running thirty-one yards down the field with nineteen yards to go for a touchdown did make my day. I'm very proud of Zachary for having that small chance...at least to make a difference. He needs more!

Our Lives In Purgatory

Book 144

2 Corinthians 5:10 - 10. For we must all appear before the judement seat of Christ; that everyone may receive the things done in his body, according to that he hath done, whether it be good or bad.

Matthew 5:26 - 26. Verily I say unto thee, thous shalt by no means come out thence, till thou hast paid the uttermost farthing.

Revelation 20:12 - 12. And I saw the dead, samll and great, stand before GOD; and the books were opened: and another book was opened, which is the book of life; and the dead was judged out of those things which were written in the books, according to their works. 

When it's prudent to handle all of our troubles with such good judgment of those who have hurt us the most in our lives; I put so much wisdom in my heart to leave my troubles where they may lie and plan for the future to come...if so...in the name of JESUS to spare all of our lives. It's totally common sense to lay aside what was once was in our past, and let GOD and his son JESUS to fight "all" our battles with a vengeance. I had that chance to let go of my past, and live for what GOD and his son JESUS has in store for me. In order to get it right with my pilots, I have to have a certain purpose in my life in order for me to walk that narrow path towards righteousness. That's my resolution, to find that purpose in which it gives me divine glory to live each day without any flaws, even though...that would also be a challenge to work towards making things right in my life...with my pilots help.

A hard and demanding life to look forward to; and there is so much temptation out there just waiting to curve me back into damnation. I don't want to ever go that route again, and that's if I can help it! With this said, I had to give an example of an experience I had on the morning of September 11...the day....eighteen years later, after the towers of the World Trade Center, the Pentagon, and Shanksville, Pennsylvania fell to a terrorist attack. I was to be at a doctors appointment at 9:45 am, and I decided to go and get some breakfast from a fast food restaurant known as Krystal's. There...I was faced with a situation I was not expecting from a employee of this fast food chain.

I went in and ordered my usual breakfast: A sausage, egg, and cheese scrambler, orange juice and coffee. I proceeded to present my order to this employee....a woman with sort of a husky type build, tall, with short blue bobbed hair. At that particular moment...I was blinded by knowledge of this woman's actions, as she ignored my order as I gave it to her. I looked at her with a surprised look for the way she treated me and I said, "What did I do to deserve this...like I wasn't there, as she proceeded to the next register, and to converse with her friends briefly like I was totally invisible, like I didn't give her my order." She didn't even key in my order. It took a young woman (in the drive-thru) with respect for the customer to take my full order.

After my order was taken, I waited a little under five minutes for receive my order from this woman. She then...proceeded to fill my order. I decided to stay inside the restaurant to have my breakfast...until I found a problem with my scrambler. My breakfast bowl was half full; my scrambler only had the sausage and grits, but no eggs. So I carried my it back up to complain!

And in a sarcastic way, this woman asked me, "What's wrong?" I told her, "My scrambler looked half full, and I didn't have any eggs." She told me,"There is eggs in your scrambler." I went back to my table to check to see if I had any eggs in my scrambler, since she told me the eggs was in the bottom of the bowl, instead of the grits being at the bottom...the correct way.

I checked my scrambler with my spoon. I saw that there were no eggs present! I took my scrambler back to the counter to complain again. This woman asked, "What's wrong now in a sarcastic way?" I told her in a respectful way, "There were no eggs in my scrambler!" 

She looked at me in a way that will kill over if I were a opossum fiercely runned over with a car in the road. It took another respectful woman to accommodate me by filling my order completely. She gave me a side of eggs in my scrambler. I thanked her kindly for filling my order. My point was this, "When a person like myself experience ignorance at its entirety, I took it upon myself to turn the other cheek and look the other way as making a mends to not disrespect and act ignorant like this woman did, who seemed to me like she had a chip on her shoulder, just because I came into the restaurant (Krystal's) to order breakfast.

If my experience as a customer "hindered" her in a way when certain people (like myself) come into a restaurant (Krystal's) to order fast food...to this woman...customers like myself shouldn't be "beautiful on the inside and out" or "have a respectful mind to respect others as I would like to be respected for myself" than to have a "ghetto fascious mind with no common sense whatsoever" to give her attention (without judgment) to people like herself. I didn't deserve how I was treated just because I went into Krystal's to order breakfast was (to her) my indiscretion. I needed to present myself without being mad, or acting without haste. It in return...it gives me more leverage to do a good will in the name of GOD and his son JESUS. I that brief instance, I came out looking like a beautiful white rose, than the despair of a thorny bush in the brush on a warm sunny day.

It takes everything in ones power to get things right before the day of judgment day. I don't want to find myself left back in a time of despair with a blank look on my face, or finding out where I am and how I'm going find myself through that narrow path towards the passion of glory. I choose to look the other way without hesitation or haste, and from mistreating a person who has done nothing to me in anguish towards my better judgment. With that said, it brings me to a comment one of my ex. aunts said and how we really feel about her, when she thinks we (my brother, my sister and I) hate her. because of what she and everyone put us through during the time my FATHER was sick, and until he died. I nor my siblings, or my mother don't hold any grudges towards her, or either one of my ex. aunts and my ex. uncle and other people in my ex. family who acted with their indiscretions.

I choose not to talk to them, or have anything to do with them in order to keep down confusion, or any haste towards my extended family, I really hate it has to be this way, when a Power of Attorney with everyone's signature attached to it was the key to destruction of my extended family. At least two of them backed out of the Power of Attorney, because they said, "This is wrong! What you're doing is wrong to my brother's family." All this didn't have to be that way, if money was the resort of it taken to be their root of evil. I for one can't deal with the fact that it happened; GOD help me and continue to help me with my heart.

When You Love, You Love With Everlasting Love

Book 143

Jeremiah 31:3 - 3. The LORD hath appeared f old unto me, saying, Yea...I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with loving kindness have I drawn thee. 




First of all...I would like to give thanks to GOD and his son JESUS for life, health and strength. It's going to take everything in my power to write this post on such short notice. I've been thinking about my significant other a whole lot lately. Wow...there is so much I want to say about my feelings for him. I've never had anyone...besides my sons father...to love me like he does.

I can understand the over protection of me, but...it's like a lonely cloud in the sky with a whole lot of space within the atmosphere in which he travels within his heart for me. I sort of imagine a strong phenomenal Ora that surrounds his whole body with thoughts within that cloud that he has placed me in, and most of the time it creeps me out. "I know in my heart...for me, it's a honor to be thought of in such a romantic way!" But as usual...I still have some concern of his jealousy...even though, he has lighten up on that without so much control over my being. I love my significant other with all of my heart.

I even find myself slightly jealous of him, but without so much control over his life. We're "even" without so much of control over one another in our lives, and that's the way I like to keep it for as long as we live. Now I find myself living and longing for him each and every day of my life. We talk though an application within cyber space and thousands of miles between us. I know that one day we will meet face to face with the love that we share for one another in a heartbeat.

I no longer feel deprived of love everlasting. I truly believe I have my soul mate, my significant other, my love everlasting. I'm praying every day for this strong hold we have for one another, and that GOD and his son JESUS keep us together all the days of our live, and to continue to have the love that we will always share for one another...forever.

Love, Honor And To Be Trustworthy

Book 142

1 Corinthians 4:2 - 2. Moreover it is required in stewards, that a man be found.



* Using the word "him" keep his identify partially anonymous


I don't know what he want sometimes. I'm trying to accept the fact that he has a strong jealousy streak that's really beginning to push me away. I don't know what else to do to make him believe whatever I tell him. The majority of the time, I feel this since of him twisting everything around about what I tell him about my activities and he make it seem like I'm cheating, or doing things that I haven't gotten any business doing. It's like...I don't know what to do, or what to tell him that would make him understand me and what I do with my time, whether it's spending time with my family, or putting my thinking cap into my writing.

I'm doing everything in my power to not mess up (in other terms...f***) up what we have together...as though his thoughts became judgmental when it came to my three Facebook profiles that I have. One is a public profile...which I'm never posting, or sharing anything on, and the other two are profiles I have, they are private profiles. The first of my private profiles, I rarely never post onto it, but...only to share my blog posts to my Facebook Page: Author Terri Celestine Brunson.  That profile also has people on it (my ex. extended family) that I'm not associated with anymore, because of what happened to my FATHER, but...my Facebook pages: Author Terri Celestine Brunson and The Minorities are part of this first private profile and can never erase it. So with that said, I've decided to make another Facebook profile...keeping my ex extended family members away from it.

This profile...I do not use my last name, because of my ex. extended family history and bloodline. I don't want nothing to do with my last name, even though it is my bloodline. There...I have other pages that I share posts from my other blogs: Celestine's Coffee Cup,and The Chocolate Chronicles and Socialites Social Club, but...no writing on it's profile. My significant other thinks I'm hiding something from him by writing on all three of my profiles, or good as to say that I may have other people that I'm writing to and that's not at all the case. What I'm doing is sharing my work to my pages, because that's what I do.

Writing is what I do! I don't have time for Facebook, or its shenanigans in general. My love also states that I have accepted a man on my recent profile...the second private profile, that I didn't know was his friend, but...I don't associate with him at anytime, even though I accepted his friendship. I'm only human here and I'm getting my head bitten off by him, because I accepted a man of whom I don't associate with. With this said...I can't erase this profile, because my Facebook pages are on this recent profile...my second profile.

So what to do about how I feel about things when it comes to the man I love? Why do he find things to argue about? I'm doing everything in my power to support him; give him what he want and to love him unconditionally. It's like when he goes out to find things in and about my life that I had before we met, he doesn't approve of, he brings it to my attention, and then he argue with me about it. How do I cope with the fact I have a man with this jealous streak that I'm still afraid of?

I trying so hard not to break like glass, or fall to pieces like the leaves during the fall season. I love this man, but...he makes me feel like I got to be careful of everything I do. Just a brief second of my happiness and listening to my music, he told me not to screw up on him; or break his heart. Why would I want to screw anything up with us, or break his heart? What trust does he have in me to say what he said to me?

I'm truly hurting from the outburst he consumed on my conscience. So what I did...was to let him know to calm his demeanor and call it a early morning so I can do some thinking and write this post. Anytime I write a post it's about what I'm thinking and the state of mind I'm in. Even with my thoughts during the time I wrote about my FATHER on this blog site for years in order to cope with my heart of losing him, I'm writing about the man I love and where his mind is sometimes. Like I said, "I'm only human sometimes with what I do and did before I met him."

What I did in my life before I met him wasn't unfaithfulness, and I didn't have any other relationship other than my son's father. I didn't know I was going to experience being careful about everything I do. But...what I'm doing is only part of my honesty to him with out deception, or not to encounter any indiscretions of any sort. All I can do is to do my best and not keep anything a secret, or it will be an indiscretion I can't put myself out of. So with this said, "All I can do is talk to him and make him understand me for a change and what I'm about, so he doesn't think I'm cheating on him, or got secrets that I'm keeping from him. I also don't want be stuck in a situation to the point that he doesn't believe, or trust me, because I don't know what I do if he think that I can't be trusted, or if it's the other way around for me to think of him in the same manner otherwise.

"I'm only human, but...I'm sharing my honesty in return for his trust in me and my trust in him." Communication is the key to an understanding and why things happen, and how to mend what could be broken in the matter of our relationship!

Understanding Zachary's World

Book 141

Job 4:6 - 6. Is not this thy fear, thy confidence, thy hope, and the uprightness of thy ways. 

        31:24 - 24. If I have made gold my hope, or have said to the fine gold, thou art my confidence.

Psalms 118:8 - 8. It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man. 

Isaiah 30:15 - 15. For thus saith the LORD GOD, the Holy One of Israel; in returning and rest shall ye be saved; in quietness and in confidence shall be your strength; and ye would not. 

Acts 28:31 - 31. Preaching the kingdom of GOD, and teaching those things which concern the LORD JESUS Christ, with all confidence, no man forbidding him.

2 Corinthians 7:16 - 16. I rejoice therefore that I have confidence in you in all things. 

Galatians 5:10 - 10. I have confidence in you through the LORD, that ye will be none otherwise minded: but he that troubleth you shall bear his judgment, whosoever he be. 

I have a hard time putting the pieces of Zachary's puzzle together sometimes. It's hard to imagine the magnitude of which piece goes with which! What I'm trying to say is, when it comes to finding those different pieces of Zachary's puzzle, because it has to be put together by its color code, And from those pieces of Zachary's puzzle, I began to think about the various stages of his internal emotions that he's been dealing with for a brief period of time. For Zachary...it's being accepted where ever he goes, and what ever he does to be acknowledged for who he is. I figure that one piece of Zachary's puzzle will always make a difference in finding the cause  that triggered his internal emotions about being accepted on his football team.

And when that cause, it has  become a factor of what I'm trying to seek about my son's internal emotions, and I pray to GOD...whatever it may be, the answer will become my mission to figure out its mystery that has been plaguing my son for quite sometime, and for him being accepted as a young man with Autism on his football team; and  then I will see all the pieces of Zachary's puzzle come together correctly by its color code. I've watched some of the head coaches (one in particular) on (JV) Zachary's Junior Varsity team, place his favorite team players in positions they want to be in. I find that every time Zachary wants a certain position (Defense End... which is his strength and more action) he doesn't receive where his strength makes a difference and  it will become a factor of Zachary's goals that will lead him towards winning championships for his team. But...he is consistently placed on the offensive side of the field, where he doesn't want to be, because of the limited action the offensive side of the field gives with the option to block in order to protect the quarterback. The coaches lack of concern for Zachary, it has caused quite a bit of concern for me and for Zachary to accept the fact that this one head coach will put him where he's doesn't want to be to keep him out of the way of his favorite team players.

I'm not going to tolerate Zachary being ignored of the benefits of being where he want to be to accomplish his goal and determination of taking down the quarterback. This was why I felt that there will be many games lost because of crooked coaches who only want to keep their favorites team players in the midst of the field to win games, instead of placing good players (like my son) who I feel will take his football team to championships. Zachary is that player with determination and strength to do what he need to do to bring his football team towards championships, if he's given a chance to prove himself worthy of the position he could have as defensive end. It seems that I'm taken back to the last team Zachary hardly played on where he no real chances to play in any of the games, because he was always on the sideline...even at his practice too.

I always felt his Autism had everything to do with why Zachary was extremely limited to the amount of games he could play in. That's why I changed team organization with the feeling that the grass was greener on the other side of the goal line. I'm not going through another organization (and it's an excellent organization with the Lakeland Eagles) of crooked coaches. I would love to see one coach in the midst of other coaches that will give a darn about every last one of his team players and not just a few that are their personal favorites. I'm not tolerating it! Not another year.

I'm going acknowledge my feelings to the coach who is in fact, part of my problem when it comes to Zachary. Now I'm starting to see all the pieces of Zachary's puzzle coming together by color code. All I got to do is acknowledge my feelings to the coach that was giving me a lot of problems when it came to the position Zachary wanted to play. That last piece of the puzzle...the only piece...would fit nicely with all the other surrounding color coded pieces of Zachary's puzzle. His puzzle will be officially complete, and his internal emotions will be reduced with confidence in himself to strive for the goal he wants to achieve, and that's going after the quarterback.

Feelings Of An Epiphany

Book 140

2 Timothy 3:16 - 16. All scripture is given by inspiration of GOD, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness. 



I find myself in a breakthrough of my mind, body and soul. Things as though I've seen only through philosophical discoveries. What are those discoveries? It has been discovered that I am more at peace in my life. I feel like I've been more enlightened in my mind than anything I've ever experienced during my time of despair. I now do this without anger or haste in my heart. I do it very calmly. 

I know how to handle things better as time progresses and I move on with my life. I will not fail with this instance that has brought me to experience wonderful beginnings that has lead me to prosperity. There were so many disappointments in my life, it was hard to fathom.  Here is one instance I had to bring forth that kept me in total despair: 1. Letting go what was once was in my life that kept me angry...the indiscretions of my ex aunts. 2. What was understood in the mind not will be devoured by my self pity. 3. Living in peace without haste for anyone. I find myself without these instances in my life. I find myself living better than I have ever lived.  

All and all...it's a good feeling to have and I thank GOD and his son JESUS for it. I found my "Epiphany" a realization for a breakthrough, and I don't resist myself in turning back to it's madness. I'm too happy to go backwards, obtaining a unclear past! I want to keep moving on to bigger and better things. I found my breakthrough in real life that I don't mind sharing. 

I found happiness in one that brings me joy. I can only pray that "he" will continue to bring me joy in life. I can't take another misconception of a relationship; another failure to understand what happened, and why it happened. I'm mended with confidence, love, joy, and happiness. I would love fate to keep me hanging towards the horizon, and keep me afloat without the harshness of despair. 

Only my significant one and I can travel that fate...with my son in tow, and another one on the way soon! I'm at a breakthrough in my life that keeps me in peace. I'm enjoying ounce of gratitude of it. 

Forgiveness With A Clean Slate

Book 139

Romans 5:3 - 8 - 3. And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also; knowing that tribulation worketh patience. 4. And patience, experience, and experience hope: 5. And hope maketh not ashamed, because the love of GOD is she'd abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given to us. 6. For when we were yet without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. 7. For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet peradventure for a good man some would even dare to die. 8. But GOD commendeth his love towards us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. 

Galatians 6:1 - 1. "Brethren, if a man be overtaken in a fault he which are Spiritual, restore such an one in the spirit of meekness; considering thyself lest thou also be tempted."


What is to forgive? The benefits are phenomenal when your forgive someone who meant you harm, and has done you wrong in so many ways. It''s only right to forgive in order to clean your slate of despair. Don't build up in your heart of the many things that you consistently consume against a person, or persons, because your thoughts alone will send you to Hades. It's better to forgive than to be bitter with that person, or persons who meant you harm.

When GOD forgives your sin, he doesn't put a mark on who he forgives. Committing sins and living in sin will make you dirty like a filthy rag on a pedestal. Seek in your heart the burden that kept you from seeking forgiveness for all of your sins, and find peace for the way you feel after forgiving that person you had indiscretions with. Forgiveness is the key to abundance...a true gain that will make you free from despair. Live life in a way that brings in a blank slate for success, without a mark of discrepancy.

Always forgive those who have sinned against you. You'll find yourself free of the guilt that kept you holding onto a very heavy weight. Free yourself of that weight, because you will feel lighter than you've ever felt and imagined. Clear your mind, your hear, and most definitely rebuild your soul abundantly from Hades.

The choice is yours to deal with if you want to live free of hate, grief and despair.

Preserve What Is Instantaneous

Book 138

Ephesians 5:25 - 33 - 25. Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it. 26. That he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word. 27. That he might present it to himself a glorious church , not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish. 28. So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He that loveth his wife loveth himself. 29. For no man ever yet hated his own flesh; but nourisheth and cherisheth it, even as the LORD the church. 30. For we are members of his body, of his flesh, and of his bones. 31. For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother, and shall be joined unto his wife, and they two shall be one flesh. 32. This is a great mystery: but I speak concerning Christ and the church. 33. Nevertheless let every one of you in particular so love his wife even as himself; and the wife see that she reverence her husband. 

What is so instantaneous is the love we have in each other. I love the way it sounds, even when I say it, or pronounce it in one single syllable. I feel most trusting with the way he makes me feel. I'm not afraid anymore when it comes to his now...slightly jealous streak. He told me that his jealousy was for me, because of the way that he loved me unconditionally.

That's pretty much understandable! What is to be allowed is to only do what I want to do without him always knowing what I'm going to do, so as long as I tell him, or inform him of my daily routine, or activities. That's all he wants...to know that I'm going to be alright throughout the day. I can always live with that, because of my unconditional love for him. That's all that matters to me, and to him knowing that I'm always going to be okay whatever I do, or where ever I go. I understand now what he meant by just informing him so that he doesn't worry about me so much.

The hardest thing for me is being distance apart. We can feel each other like we're in the same room. It's a feeling that can't be explained...only that we know we're in each other's imagination, if only for a brief moment until we meet someday. Our timeline seems to grow longer and longer...putting months and months between my travel towards him miles and miles away. I'm so longing to be with him, so that we can share the unconditional love we have for one another. That's a dream I know will come very true to me.

We are truly meant for one another! Truly.