The Humble One In The Family

Book 52 - Special Edition Post

Colossians 3:16 - 16. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom; teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your heart to the LORD. 

1 Timothy 4:12 - 12. Let no man despise thy youth; but be thou an example of the believers, in word, in conversation, in charity, in spirit, in faith, in purity.

Proverbs 22:6 - 6. Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.

Sherese. This one is for you! Thanks for acknowledging that it is foolish to continue innuendos, ignorance and deception. This is why you "stand out" from the ones who hurt my FATHER, my family and myself. But...I will say this sweetie, "Please open your eyes Sherese and see where deception is coming from. I don't have to hand it to you on a silver platter when you know its already tarnished forever. You know where wrong was done and originated from the beginning, until you see it...and acknowledge it, then you will know where your blessings are coming from, until then...your blessings will be waiting for you. Don't miss out Sherese!"

You seem to be the "only one" with the humble heart and for that you really do have my respect and gratitude. Continue to carry that with you all the days of your life. Keep GOD and his son JESUS first and good things will always happen for you and Mystery. My family and I have come to a conclusion to steer ourselves from family members who has hurt us with their ignorance during our time of despair. "The truth is...we just want to be to ourselves."

My FATHER isn't here anymore and it hurts like heck! Your sister thinks it's funny all way around to joke on our family's hurt and about what we haven't done for and with our FATHER when he was the one who left his family for three decades plus and about not having our FATHER for Father's Day. We still loved and accepted him. "Of course...that was and still is my FATHER, it's obvious when that man gave myself and siblings life!" My family and I still love him even in the grave.

That why this post was so important for me to write to you. You needed to see this coming from me! Please Sherese...stay humble! Don't loose it girl. Keep living for our pilots and don't be a human heart donor.

It makes you ugly on the inside...and you're so very beautiful and velvety on the outside. Keep what's beautiful on the outside beautiful on the inside always. That's why I repeated it! Please Sherese...don't ever live in deception. It's a dangerous way to live if you're not truthful with yourself and how life is and who to treat in the way that you want to be treated and with life as it comes at you. ---Then you will never suffer the consequences and the repercussions your beautiful velvety sister will face as her life and as time progresses if she keep on.

Keep your beautiful smile and your humble heart. I hope you will always mean what you say to my family and I, because we are at a very fragile state. My FATHER's death did a extreme number on me and my family. Enjoy your FATHER and stay close to him and love him. When he's gone, it hurts like heck!

Trust me! Living life without the appearance of tears is hard to wipe away especially when its been almost six months. LOVE YOU GIRL! I do mean that with respect and gratitude to you for your actions and that you acknowledged foolishness. Closing of this post...now my family and I will continue to move on our own.

If I see you in a store, or a park, or where ever the day take me, I will speak and hug you...that's my heart for you. I do miss those one hour long conversations in the store we use to have too.

Ignorance On Display

Book 51

*Just to let everyone know, this post was "provoked" intentionally by my cousin who just don't understand what was really done, or said to my family and I under the microscope. Sugarcoating was a huge part of deceit blinded by guilt. "The main source of this matter (not anonymous) is far from the truth and she needs to look no farther than her own home where the magnitude of deception rears it's deceitful head."


*My FATHER'S words: Bold and Italic 



Deuteronomy 28:7 - 7.  The LORD shall cause thine enemies that rise up against thee to be smitten before thy face: they shall come out against thee one way, and flee before thee seven ways. 

Psalms 37: 1 - 40 at its "Entire" Chapter



My immediate family and I had left well enough alone when I posted "Vengeance Is GOD, It's In His Hands" back on the 31st of January of this year. I remember it was Book 37. We left all of our frustrations, despair and grief from my father's demise in the hands of GOD and his son JESUS. Then all of a sudden...14 books later, Lucifer's imp (Angel) starts up again with a tweet from Twitter that provoked this post to come as I see fitting the character of ones ignorance without an ounce of sugarcoating my raft. This is the tweet in question:

When they never brought their daddy a present for father's day, but now that he's in Heaven they want to buy something. Watch my smile pic.twitter.com/qumsHT471z

— Lousondra Wright (@LousondraWright) April 20, 2017

 A woman so beautiful and velvety looks absolutely beautiful on the outside, but what's on the inside? I see a display of ignorance and a human heart donor without an ounce of remorse for my family, or for myself. "Losing a parent is no joke!" She thinks my family and I didn't love my FATHER and that we never gave him a present for Father's Day. "Who told her that we didn't give my Father a present for Father's Day?

"Remember what was said at the beginning of my post posted in RED." Why was it so hard for her to understand the possible outcome of being on the outside looking in when the real truth was sugarcoated by deception from the guilt of ones loins? What the heck did she know if she wasn't there to see my family and I give my Father gifts, cards and dinner invites.

Father's Day is coming up in June. She has the luxury of a FATHER on Father's Day. She get to see her father everyday of her life. My family and I don't have that luxury. My family and I will be spending our first Father's Day without my FATHER in our mist. One day she will 'clearly' understand how it feel not to have one, or both of her parents. It's been hard brick road every single day to try and put all the pieces of the puzzle back together again.

It's not easy holding back tears every single day. Yes...we might of not been there all the time for my FATHER, but...we loved him then and we still love him now...even in the grave. I need to display the real truth of the matter when it comes to my FATHER. GOD and his son JESUS bless his soul and may he rest in peace. But this must be said so that I can be completely understood when it comes to my family and I when we lived without my FATHER in our home for over 30+ years.

My mother Ruth, my twin sister Sherri, and my brother Wesley Jr. before he met his beautiful wife Neyome and married her back on August 29th 2015 in a half American and Sri Lankan wedding.  We went through a lot of Hades knowing that my father was out traveling with other women and families around the globe...never giving my MOTHER the time of day to enjoy life after their children were grown and out of the nest. It was suppose to be their time to stretch their wings together and fly around the world. So...my mother, my twin sister and brother let him go...so that he can do what he wanted with those other women and their families.
 "It was like...giving my father the opportunity to go and do as he please...like getting all what was in his system out when he was out in the world of despair."

My family and I did not interfere anymore after that. The only thing that didn't stop was our love for him unconditionally. We let my father go until he couldn't go anymore. Then the women left him after he was all dried out physically, emotionally and financially before becoming disabled and wasn't of any use to the women and their families anymore, before buying himself a campaign...which was his dog Sheba. After my father was down and out, we came; we saw; we washed and fed; I held father in my arms like a baby and gave him back rubs and we gave our lives to take care of him, love him unconditionally when he was ill until his death.

Yes...we did know about 'some' of his fiances when receipts and word of mouth were displayed to his immediate family unconditionally. I felt he was going into his retirement to fund his luxurious lifestyle with those women and their families and the Mercedes he bought back in the 90's. Believe me...my research and homework was done years ago. What I knew then and back when and now was reality. I would like for my beautiful and velvety cousin to understand stand me fully when I say this, "Know what really happen before you display your opinion on social media."

Believe me...I knew about my father's way of life when he was out in the world for 30+ years before he got his soul saved again by GOD and his son JESUS. Sweetie...you don't know what happened and you never will know baby if you're on the outside looking in and don't know the flavor of our kool-aid.
You had your father around everyday of your life. Please my love...enjoy him while he still living! There is a lot I regret and admit...so I don't sugarcoat my feelings, or hide behind a mask.

I display and quietly shout out my feelings in my writing, so I could completely be understood without throwing a punch with my fists. "I'm a lady first!" So as I said in Book 37 of my blogs posts, "Vengeance is GOD's, It's In His Hands", so I'm done! My family is done! We want no more part of ones indiscretions, or a family who don't realize that their reaping day is coming and it's coming with a vengeance for every single thing that happened almost a year ago this coming June.

We got to live with it! Now let us live in peace, because we want no part of the innuendos, indiscretions, the tearing each other down, or faces of deceit. My family and I are completely done emotionally, mentally, and physically! Before I close this post...let me give you a little bonus. My father's last words 2 days before he died with witnesses in the room (better known as his immediate family) to me as I stood over him. He looked me directly in the eyes when he said with his shallow voice, "Get Minnie away from me; I didn't want to come home from the hospital!" And before I knew it, he went on to say to me as he stared me with a straight face with his eyes partially closed, "She's killing me!"  Now everyone know my raft and why everything is what it is when it comes to my FATHER and my family and through my posts.

My dear cousin...know the facts before you display on social media. I research before I display on social media. I just want you know this, "I will never forget what my FATHER said that (I never told anyone until this day) out of my head for as long as I live." That word of mouth coming from my FATHER from his own mouth and with enough oxygen going through his nose into his body will be instilled in my head for all infinity. What my family and I did for and with my father when he was alive was always under the microscope to everyone.

"You wasn't there to know what was done, said, or planned with my father!" So understand me fully when I say this my beautiful velvety China doll, "The damage is done and it can't be corrected." The Patriarch of both families (the remaining siblings and my immediate family) is gone for infinity. All my family and I want do is move on with our lives. We've had enough! Enough!

Leave it alone, because I did with your family. So please my beautiful velvety cousin, "Enjoy your "living" father for Father's Day and everyday after that for as long as he live and leave my deceased father (who my immediate and family and I will never see again) who is in his grave that my family and I will never touch again, laugh with again, or joke around with him again when he was living when he was still communicating with his immediate family until almost the end of his life and missing the awesome taste and smell of his barbecue again alone." Let us all move on with life! My family and I don't have strength for any of this nonsense ever again. DITTO!

So...Lousondra (Angel) Wright...you keep laughing at me and my family on our grief and about Father's Day without my deceased FATHER. With this post, 'You're feeling my raft with a vengeance!" You will definitely feel the raft, the grief, the hurt and the lies that were over shadowed by the source that started it all with my family almost a year ago one day in your life. I would of never did you, or to your family in that way, ever!  Please...my dear, read Psalms 37: 1 - 40 at it entirety. -- Know my dear...where your boasting, smiling and maybe laughing on my family's grief and what was done, or should of been done, has been done, your reaping for your 'big beautiful smile' is "noted"in GOD's and his son JESUS eyes for what you and yours did to my FATHER ultimately, to my family and to myself on our hurt; this is my teaching to you..older woman to young woman.

So...keep smiling dear, "Smile big!", because it will be wipe off your face when life challenges you and is done with you in the long run when its not funny any more. Never boast, or smile wide on someone's hurt, or what should of been done, or grief. "It's a dangerous thing to do!" Welcome to the consequences and the repercussions of your actions that you will be experiencing when vengeance is GOD's.

Playing With Fire

Book 50

Galatians 6:7 - 7. Be not deceived; GOD is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.

Jeremiah 49:16 - 16. Thy terribleness hath deceived thee, and the pride of thine heart, O thou that dwellest in the clefts of the rock, that holdest the height of the hill: though thou shouldest make thy nest as high as the eagle, I will bring thee down from thence, saith the LORD.

There are some things "creatures" don't mess with when they are playing with fire and they don't even know it. So much has happened within five months since my father's death. So much despair, deceit and pure lying for the sake of lying has taken place since then. How much more can my family take after going through pure Hades and total grief in just a short period of time? Deception has no limit of evil of the magnitude that a few creatures can do with it.

Just under a month ago my immediate family found out some information we thought no one would believe and then some through a lawyer that represented my mother back in 2016. Here's a question for everyone who are interested and knowing the facts of this particular matter. I have this one aunt who is now my ex aunt (whose name I chose to not enclose) because of my great respect for her lying behind. "Would it be totally irrational to be totally disappointed and disgusted at my ex aunt for telling my immediate family and I that she love us every chance we meet with her for a brief moment, or where ever our day took us...politely getting into conversation with her about life and about other ex family members in general?" -- And then she instantaneously, with her imagination, place a huge machete deep in all of our backs without the use of her hands and she thinks nothing of the huge lie for the sake of a lie she told us with a straight look on her face every time we thought she really supported us through out my father's illness, bereavement and us trying to move on with our lives from the complete Hades my family and I were put through for the past six months during my father illness?"

It was a very long question to ask, but...I think its totally pathetic to lie to my family and I with a straight face...smiling and thinking nothing of the big lie that was uncovered by other lawyers that handled my mothers divorce case back in 2016 (which never went through) with mother still married to my father while he's in the grave. I hope when then this post get out in the media, maybe...just maybe my actions are understood and why I wrote this post. I'm very tired of the mess, the chaos and the lies told to my family and myself. I want nothing else to do with the "majority" of my father's family. I'm done! My family is done!

The patriarch is gone and it's the end of an era I choose to forget accept for my father. I'm at peace with myself and with my family. Now I can smile too.

Stepping Into The Hornets Nest With Deception

Book 49

Galatians 6:7 - Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.


*Out of respect...those whom I'm referring will be kept anonymous until further notice. Only GOD and his son JESUS fights battles, because vengeance is theirs until the season the culprit(s) will be revealed. 


I never thought that anyone with no conscience to what they did to my immediate family in the past would show up at our house with a smile on their face and a huge dagger in their other hand to accommodate their deceitful deception. "Back don't fail me now!" Wow! What a bold person to do that. They don't care about their dirty deeds that soiled my immediate family's imagination.

Did they not know the hornets nest they walked into? I guess not! Tis the season for not letting onto what was needed to be said at that particular moment. I for one was very eager to let my tongue race twenty miles per hour to reveal my true feelings about how I felt about their presents there at my immediate family's house, but GOD and his son JESUS wouldn't let me take that route. So...I shut my mouth and carried on my time else where with strength and a ton of patience.

Tis the season for everything to come out in the open. What blind eye couldn't see what was beyond the horizon? A swarm of hornets nearly covered them at the entrance of my home, because greed got the best of them days beforehand. They never saw the nest in their path before entering our territory. Not one bite at the entrance stung their deceitful stoned hearts.

My family and I wanted to sting them hard, but GOD and son JESUS kept us from swarming onto them with a vengeance. That's our pilots vengeance to fight our battles from the lies and deception that still hang over my immediate family like a black cloud on a rainy day during a hurricane. Tis the season hurricanes and tornadoes came early before the actual season started months before. I'm aiming for the day GOD and his son JESUS show me the way to set it straight, so my immediate family can have some peace. But...its not place to step in the way of my pilots works when they can do it so perfectly.

Valid Victory

Book 48

1Chronicles 29:11 - 11. Thine O Lord is the greatness, and the power, and the glory, and the victory, and the majeaty: for all that is in HEAVEN and not into the earth is thine; thine is the kingdom I LORD and thou art exalted as head above all

What web are still weaving with deception? What will it take to stop doing the things that can't be hidden from GOD and his son JESUS? Isn't it known, "What you do in the dark will come to the light?" What part of that is not understood? How candid a person can be not to realize that our pilots can see everything they do no matter how much they try to hide their deceit.

It's nevertheless rewarding when deception is particularly a reality in most part. Why keep trying to do wrong when you know your going to get caught at the end of the rope? These questions keep dawning on my mind, no matter how much I try to forget the past. They tend to creep up in my imagination like a skunk to stink. What smells more like doo doo is when a person keep smiling in your face and consistently throwing daggers in all directions, never missing that point centered straight forward at my back.

"That hurt more than anything!" But...I can say, "Victory is still valid and is still valued with dignity and pride with my immediate family. It's never a dull moment when GOD and his son JESUS keeps close eyes on what's right is right and what is bought to the light for us to see what is revealed at that brief moment. "All eyes are opened to reality." Our families are no more bound, than together.

Split so far apart...there is no more to hold on to. The chain will continue to break it's strengths. I'm tired of trying to be strong with a family who keeps deceiving hope, honesty, trust and FAITH. What more can my immediate family take? How much more deception keep slithering around towards the horizon?

Nevertheless...vengeance is still GOD and his son JESUS. Victory is strong and valid where my immediate family is concerned. "All eyes will continue to open to the real truth of deception all the way around." Then all the innocent ones will see what my immediate family has been trying send over the grapevine for many months after our tragedy. Justice is not too blind to see when it come to my father's death. His will come and he will finally rest in peace.

I will make sure of that! "This is one woman who will not rest until her feelings and what was done to deceive her immediate are completely understood." Vengeance is still and always will be GOD and his son JESUS. I'm not going to get in the way of that, but I will never forget what was, still is and never going to be again. Ultimately...the damage cannot be reversed! Nothing can be said to fix what will always be broken.

Ultimately...my FATHER paid the price for infinity. My fury will always be felt within a few feet, yards and a football field. I pray every single day to help me with my heart; with my feelings of disgust. I don't want to continue to doom my thoughts and imagination with anger. I have so much going for me in life.

I forgive, but...I will never forget forget as the first anniversary of deceit approaches for as long as I live. My immediate family's battle is already won with a vengeance.

Smiles Can Be Deceiving

Book 47

Galatians 6:7  7. Be not deceived; GOD is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that he shall also reap. 

It's very sad when you think that people in general say they care for you. They say they love you. They say they are there to support you in very way. Then...when that particular moment rears its ugly head, they just doo doo all over you like fertilizer over wilting plant. Why lie for the sake of lying about about your feelings if you really don't mean them. 

Why continue making a fool of yourself when you still have KARMA out there waiting to meet your acquaintance? What is common sense for if you don't use it wisely? Understand what you do before you do it. KARMA wouldn't be sitting briefly over the horizon just waiting to help you remember your past mischievous indiscretions. Some people in this world just don't think about those boomerangs until it's too late. 

That's what's so sad! Eyes blinded by deception. No conscience about what will happen in return. This is where the human heart donor is more giving and more dispiteful with their misdeeds. Then evil rears its totally ugly head. 

Smiles from ear to ear continues to bring happiness to those deep dark webs that are consistently being weaved with all the festivities of deception from one instant to another day by day, minutes to seconds and the smallest of seconds is the micro second. That's a lot of deception in a short period of time. It was done more than a couple of fathoms ago. There was no point in hanging onto something when vengeance is GOD and his son JESUS. They are the ones who will continue to fight battle after battle for us. When those rumors of wars keeps acknowledging their facts to the ones who are being effected by those battles as time progresses. 

The battle is already won and the war is declared ceased. 

Twice The Feelings Are Mutual

Book 46 - Releasing The Past

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Romans 15:1 - 7 -  1. We then are strong ought to hear the infidelities of the weak, and not to please ourselves. 2. Let every one of us please his neighbour for his good to edification. 3. For even Christ pleased pleaded not himself; but as it written, The reproaches of them there fell on me. 4. For whatsoever things were written aforetime were written for our learning, that we through patience and comfort of the scriptures might have hope. 5. Now the GOD of patience and consolation grant you to be likeminded one toward another according to Christ JESUS. 6. That he with one mind and one mouth  glorify GOD, even the Father of our LORD JESUS Christ. 7. Wherefore receive ye one another as Christ also received us to the glory of GOD. 


2 Corinthians 1:4 - 7 -  4. Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in trouble, by the comfort where with we ourselves are comforted of GOD. 5. For as the sufferings of Christ abound us, so our consolation also aboundeth by Christ. 6. And whether we be afflicted, it is for you consolation and salvation, which is effectual in enduring of the same sufferings we also suffer, or whether we be comforted, it is for your consolation and salvation. 7. And our hope of you is steadfast, knowing that as he are partners of the sufferings, so shall ye be also of the consolation.




It's been so much for too long. We're so tired of being sick and tired of being doo dooed on, lied to, and made to believe we're loved for who we are and what we been through. My sister and I have grown so much during our family tragedy with the loss of our father. We now look over our break down we've had together that consumed us with extreme grief since his death almost four months ago April 4th...the four month anniversary of our father's death. We're moving on with what little of our extended family we have left in this entire world.

I can't count on twelve hands (not fingers) how many times my immediate family has been hurt through the times that most of our extended family had forgotten our existence, experiencing a lot of trials and tribulations, turmoil, tragedy, sorrow and the lies that has been afflicted upon us. How much more hurt can we take? It's been too much for too long as I expressed earlier in my post. No more! No more! No more can we (immediate family and I) bare the deception.

For me...I don't want the Brunson name labeled on my existence anymore. I don't care who knows, or how it's taken into consideration. These are my true feelings now! I just can't take the pressure of having that name glued to me anymore. I would like everyone who don't know and steady on the outside looking in and they don't know how it feels to walk in my immediate family's shoes.

Try it for one day; a person or persons would not last a micro second without thinking, "What did I walk into?", "Please...help me take off these shoes, I don't want to be in these shoes, or wear them anymore." Don't get me wrong! The bloodline is there, but...the name I don't want labeled on me anymore, or my existence.

"It hurt way too much to fathom the deception!" My sister is very happy she's not labeled as a 'Brunson' because her married name of Mitchell carries a different meaning of exsisting and it has earned her a super awesome family. For her...it brings her bushel baskets full of joy. I would love to feel like that someday! GOD is good all the time.

Patience is my virtue! I'm willing to wait on that blessing to be entered in my equation as powerful. "I want have that name of Brunson labeled, or marked on me anymore." Happiness for us and our families are what my sister and I are striving for. More happiness than ourselves!

We're getting stronger every single day. We thank GOD and his son JESUS for that! My sister and I...we'll continue to pray everyday to help mend our deep gashes that continues to effect our hearts, minds, bodies and soul. "I promise...its easier on us now to deal with things, people and our father's death." We will forgive, but...we will surely never forget the extreme pure Hades we've been through for infinity.

Still...for those who have done wrong against my immediate family during our of time while my father was ill, after his death with our extreme grief and tragedy. Here's a reminder so that I will be completely understood. I will not hold back my feelings either, "Reaping the consequences and those repercussions will continue to meet your conscience." No doubt about that! My immediate family and I will always sleep good at night knowing that we forgave the ones whose misdeeds were filled with thorns and daggers.

Sherri and I and the rest of our family will pray to GOD and his son JESUS for comfort, guidance and understanding everyday. We will continue to do so as our will be done accordingly.

Burnt Offering: Sacrificing A Family For A Real Family

Book 45 - Family Sacrificed As A Burnt Offering

Hosea 6:6 - 6. For I desired mercy, and not sacrifice; and the knowledge of GOD more than burnt offerings.

Romans 12:1 -  2 - 1. I Beseech you therefore, brethren by the mercies of GOD, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto GOD, which is your reasonable service. 2 And be not conform ed t this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind that ye may prove what is that good and acceptable, and perfect will of GOD.

Hebrews 10:5 - 18 - 5. Wherefore when he cometh into the world , he saith, Sacrifice and offering thou wouldeth not, but a body hast thou prepared me.  6. In Burnt Offerings and Sacrifices for sin thou hast had no pleasure.  7. Then said I Lo I come (in the volume of the book it is written of me) to do thy will, O GOD.  8. Above when he said, sacrifice and offering and burnt offering and offering for sin thou wouldest not, neither hadst pleasure therein; which are offered by the law.  9. Then said he, Lo, I come to do thy will, O GOD He taketh away the first that he may establish the second.  10. By the which will we are sanctified through the offering of the body of JESUS Christ once and for all. 11. And every priest standeth daily ministering and offering oftentimes the same sacrifices, which can never take away sins.  12. But this man, after he had offered one sacrifice for sins for ever, sat down on the right hand of GOD.  13. From henceforth expecting till his enemies be made his footstool. 14. For by one offering he hath perfected for ever them that are sanctified.  15. Whereof the Holy Ghost also is a witness to us; for after that he had said before.  16. This is the covenant that I will make with them after those days saith the LORD I will put my laws into their hearts, and in their minds will I write them.  17. And their sins and iniquities will I remember no more. 18.Now where remission of these is there is no more offering for sin.




I keep seeing her (my ex. aunt) as a reminder of what happened almost a year ago this coming June. I will never forget what she did to my family when my father was alive. So many thoughts entered my mind, I got crazy just thinking about my state of mind, because my father's death is still fresh in my mind and he's never coming back again; so are my feelings of unstableness. I pray everyday for comfort, hope, strength and deliverance from my rage. I remember in a post I wrote about vengeance.

"Vengeance is GOD! That was not my fight continue my vengeance against my ex. aunt. I pray I don't see in the street, or in a store somewhere, or just out in the open somewhere. I'm afraid of myself sometimes. Afraid of what might happen, or what I might do if I saw her. GOD and his son JESUS and prayer is the answer to my indiscretions.

I think it's going to take a whole lot of time to deal with my feelings about my ex. aunt. I'm not the only one who have those feelings of rage. My twin sister, Sherri and I still carry the feeling of emptiness, that void of missing our father inside of us. For us...it's very personal! We recently found out where all the pieces of the puzzle of deception fit when Sherri and I started reliving the past from a few event that happened almost ten years ago when my father started his business.

We remembered a time when my father first started his business in a restaurant. He was partnered with his brother, Alfonzo. I remeber a time when business wasn't all cracked up to be when you weren't getting as much business throughout the week. Business boomed only on the weekends. Never Monday through Friday when Sherri, her daughter Octavia and I worked at the restaurant throughout the week.

We would at least get three, or four people to come into the restaurant throughout the week during the eight hours we were open; only to find out that the restaurant stayed packed with people on Saturdays and Sundays. That was the time my uncle Alfonzo and a woman named Barbara Dixon worked in the restaurant. I found out that my ex. aunt had everyone from her church to come and eat at the restaurant only on the days my uncle and Barbara was working the restaurant. Not during the week. From that point we determined where deception really started for us was when my father first started his business into his own restaurant.

My ex. aunt made sure no one came during the week Sherri and I ran the restaurant. And then...we remembered a time when we found out that my ex. aunt planned my father's retirement party. "Sherri, our brother Wesley, my mother Ruth and I weren't told about my father's retirement party at all until the day and until the hour of my father's party." One of my other aunts had to inform my immediate family of the event that was already in progress during that particular moment. Mother didn't want to attend, because of her and my father's separation.

She did wanted Sherri, Wesley and I to attend our father's retirement party that my ex. aunt planned without my siblings and I knowing it was a party for our own father.  We arrived not knowing what to expect. Although my mind was weary of what I may find out at my own father's retirement party planned by my ex. aunt; Sherri, Wesley and I saw all of my cousins wearing t-shirts with our father's face embed on their chests. They were all hosting and serving food, while we were wondering why they had a shirt with my father's face embed on their chests and we didn't. Everything that was ever done, were underhandedly done by my ex. aunt as we know it.

"Now...all the pieces to the puzzle of deception fit snug and nicely." Sherri and I now know where the first signs of our ex. aunts deception started. Our father's business, his restaurant. The more I think about everything that has happened from the time my father had his restaurant back in June 2008, to his retirement party back in February 2012, unto the time of his sickness which started back as early as January until June 2016, then unto his death December 4, 2016, I get extremely upset knowing that my ex. aunt had this kind of grudge against my immediate family every since I could remember. "Vengeance is GOD and his son JESUS!" No matter how much hurt and rage I have, I give it all to my pilots.

The fight is in their hands now. Sherri and I know where our strength is once again and we're a living witness to our testimony when it comes to our strength in stepping back and letting GOD and his son JESUS fight this bitter battle we're still inlisted not to participate, only my GOD and his son JESUS. If it takes sacrificing a burnt offering such as certain family members for my twin sister Sherri and I to stay sane from our continued grief for our father in order to forget what happened. I usually wouldn't take a sacrifice such as a burnt offering, because I need mercy and to be fulfilled. Not to be angry all the time, or always in complete rage for everything that has happened since my father's death. My father was and still is the bloodline of Brunson who meant everything to my immediate family and I...I want no part of my bloodline since my father closed his eyes for good. That's the sacrifice I'm willing to take.

If it will make Sherri and I happy and smile again without crying and going back in the past, we will sacrifice "some" family members (not killing them physically, but mentally and emotionally) for a real one (our Sri-Lankan side), because our immediate family were never happy with some of our blood extended family who never gave us the time of day anyway. Well...I can say that only a few made the cut for remaining to be my extended family, because of their love and support during my immediate family time of despair and tragedy. I'm very thankful for that. I pray that GOD and his son JESUS will continue to give my immediate family comfort, strength, faith and hope that our healing process from father's death will continue.