Twice The Feelings Are Mutual

Book 46 - Releasing The Past

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Romans 15:1 - 7 -  1. We then are strong ought to hear the infidelities of the weak, and not to please ourselves. 2. Let every one of us please his neighbour for his good to edification. 3. For even Christ pleased pleaded not himself; but as it written, The reproaches of them there fell on me. 4. For whatsoever things were written aforetime were written for our learning, that we through patience and comfort of the scriptures might have hope. 5. Now the GOD of patience and consolation grant you to be likeminded one toward another according to Christ JESUS. 6. That he with one mind and one mouth  glorify GOD, even the Father of our LORD JESUS Christ. 7. Wherefore receive ye one another as Christ also received us to the glory of GOD. 


2 Corinthians 1:4 - 7 -  4. Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in trouble, by the comfort where with we ourselves are comforted of GOD. 5. For as the sufferings of Christ abound us, so our consolation also aboundeth by Christ. 6. And whether we be afflicted, it is for you consolation and salvation, which is effectual in enduring of the same sufferings we also suffer, or whether we be comforted, it is for your consolation and salvation. 7. And our hope of you is steadfast, knowing that as he are partners of the sufferings, so shall ye be also of the consolation.




It's been so much for too long. We're so tired of being sick and tired of being doo dooed on, lied to, and made to believe we're loved for who we are and what we been through. My sister and I have grown so much during our family tragedy with the loss of our father. We now look over our break down we've had together that consumed us with extreme grief since his death almost four months ago April 4th...the four month anniversary of our father's death. We're moving on with what little of our extended family we have left in this entire world.

I can't count on twelve hands (not fingers) how many times my immediate family has been hurt through the times that most of our extended family had forgotten our existence, experiencing a lot of trials and tribulations, turmoil, tragedy, sorrow and the lies that has been afflicted upon us. How much more hurt can we take? It's been too much for too long as I expressed earlier in my post. No more! No more! No more can we (immediate family and I) bare the deception.

For me...I don't want the Brunson name labeled on my existence anymore. I don't care who knows, or how it's taken into consideration. These are my true feelings now! I just can't take the pressure of having that name glued to me anymore. I would like everyone who don't know and steady on the outside looking in and they don't know how it feels to walk in my immediate family's shoes.

Try it for one day; a person or persons would not last a micro second without thinking, "What did I walk into?", "Please...help me take off these shoes, I don't want to be in these shoes, or wear them anymore." Don't get me wrong! The bloodline is there, but...the name I don't want labeled on me anymore, or my existence.

"It hurt way too much to fathom the deception!" My sister is very happy she's not labeled as a 'Brunson' because her married name of Mitchell carries a different meaning of exsisting and it has earned her a super awesome family. For her...it brings her bushel baskets full of joy. I would love to feel like that someday! GOD is good all the time.

Patience is my virtue! I'm willing to wait on that blessing to be entered in my equation as powerful. "I want have that name of Brunson labeled, or marked on me anymore." Happiness for us and our families are what my sister and I are striving for. More happiness than ourselves!

We're getting stronger every single day. We thank GOD and his son JESUS for that! My sister and I...we'll continue to pray everyday to help mend our deep gashes that continues to effect our hearts, minds, bodies and soul. "I promise...its easier on us now to deal with things, people and our father's death." We will forgive, but...we will surely never forget the extreme pure Hades we've been through for infinity.

Still...for those who have done wrong against my immediate family during our of time while my father was ill, after his death with our extreme grief and tragedy. Here's a reminder so that I will be completely understood. I will not hold back my feelings either, "Reaping the consequences and those repercussions will continue to meet your conscience." No doubt about that! My immediate family and I will always sleep good at night knowing that we forgave the ones whose misdeeds were filled with thorns and daggers.

Sherri and I and the rest of our family will pray to GOD and his son JESUS for comfort, guidance and understanding everyday. We will continue to do so as our will be done accordingly.