The Nucleus

Book 57

Synopsis: My post is about revealing the "center" of destruction that revolved around my immediate family and its bad memory that continues to haunt us. When I think about how my immediate family was treated by this nucleus, "I think of the book of Proverbs, the entire chapter one", I choose to continue to write about my feelings so I could be completely understood when I think about my ex. aunt and what she did to my immediate family over a year ago. I choose to not disclose her name because I don't want nothing more to do with her ever, or to know her. I'd rather not have her part of my life, because its the only way I could heal completely from my father's death. It is also the way my immediate family feel too! All though...everything was forgiven in order for my family and I to move on with life without my father in the mist of our mortal lives.  

Proverbs 1:33 - 1. The Proverbs of Solomon the son of David, King of Israel  2. To know wisdom and instruction; to perceive the words of understanding 3. To receive the instruction of wisdom, justice, and judgment, and equity 4. To give subtilty to the simple, to the young man knowledge and discretion. 5. A wise man will hear,m and will increase learning; and a man of understanding shall attain unto wise counsels. 6. To understand a proverb, and the interpretation; the words of the wise, and their dark sayings. 7. To fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction. 8. My son, hear the instruction of they father, and forsake not the law of thy mother. 9. For they shall be an ornament of grace unto thy head and chains about thy neck. 10. My son, if sinners entice thee, consent thou not. 11. If they say, Come with us, let us lay wait for blood, let us lurk privily for the innocent without cause. 12. Let us swallow them up alive as the grave; and whole, as those that go down into the pit. 13. We shall find all the precious substance, we shall fill our houses with spoil. 14. Cast in they lot among us; let us all have one purse. 15. My son, walk not thou in the way with them. refrain thy foot from their path. 16. For their feet run to evil, and make haste to shed blood. 17. Surely in vain the net is spread in the sight of any bird. 18. And they lay wait for their own blood; they lurk privily for their own lives. 19. So are the ways of every one that is greedy of gain; which taketh away the life of the owners thereof. 20. Wisdom crieth without; she uttereth her voice in the streets. 21. She crieth in the chief place of concourse, in the openings of the gate: in the city she uttereth her words saying. 22. How long, ye simple ones, will ye love simplicity? And the scorners delight in their scorning, and fools hate knowledge? 23. Turn you at my reproof; Behold, I will pour out my spirit unto you, I will make known my words unto you. 24. Because I have called, and ye refused; I have stretched out my hand, and no man regarded. 25. But ye have set at nought all my counsel, and would none of my reproof. 26. I also will laugh at your calamity; I will mock when you fear cometh. 27. When you fear cometh as desolation, and your destruction cometh as a whirlwind; when distress and anguish cometh upon you. 28.Then shall they call upon me, but I will not answer; they shall seek me early, but they shall not find me. 29. For that they hated knowledge, and did not choose the fear of the LORD. 30. They would none of my counsel: they despised all my reproof. 31. There fore shall they eat of the fruit of their own way, and be filled with their own devices. 32. For the turning away of the simple shall slay them, and the prosperity of fools shall destroy them. 33. For whoso hearkeneth unto me shall dwell, and shall safety, and shall be quiet from fear of evil. 

When I think about the nucleus, I think about a compact bundle of subatomic particles of protons electrically charged and neutrons (the neutral) that surrounds it. My immediate family are the neutrons and protons. Everyone else are the electrons electrically charged quantized in a destructive atomic atom, the 'center' point of that destruction caused by her evil presents that haunts my immediate family and I until thus day. Nothing more I could do about it now. I can't help but write about my feelings at my darkest hour. 

Its the only way I could heal old gashes. My FATHER remains constantly on my mind every single day of my life for almost seven months after his death. My twin sister and I are totally the electrically charged protons still grieving from our father death and the bad memories that comes along with it. But...vengeance is GOD and his son JESUS. I will not continue to interfere with my pilots works. Karma will continue to meet my ex aunts fate provided by GOD and his son JESUS if she continues to be the center of attention. 

As living witnesses to her fortress, I can't forget how my ex aunt put my immediate family and I and unfortunately, my father through complete Hades to prove her point. She took control of a situation that wasn't hers, or her place to control my immediate family responsibility to be the caretakers of my father's health, finance and well being. She used that "power" to her advantage to do her evil works. She did what she wanted to make my immediate family suffer during the time of my father's illness, until his death, and during his bereavement no matter what the cost of her ignorance. "It definitely cost my father his life in the process". 

It will always be personal for me and my immediate family! There is nothing; I mean nothing my ex aunt could do to fix, or change what she has done to make everything right. The damage is done forever! My immediate family and I has closed a chapter of our lives in a burnt offering of dismissal (my ex aunt) and I know one day, my old gash will heal and all is forgotten. I want to be a neutron once again...neutral as heck! 

I know I have a long way to go with the help of GOD and his son JESUS to continue to provide me and my immediate family the comfort we need to continue to heal from bad memories and to move on with life.

"Anniversary"

Book 56

1 Corinthians 5:13 - 13. But them that are without GOD judgeth. Therefore put away from among yourselves that wicked person. 

Psalms 101:4 - 4. A froward heart shall depart from me: I will not know a wicked person

Proverbs 24:8 - 8. He that deviseth to do evil shall be called mischievous person

When I sit here everyday for 365 days, dreading the very day this awful fate my immediate family and I were faced with over "one year ago" to thus day, I find myself very angry...unbalanced...plagued with fury. The only thing I could do is to start praying for comfort, guidance and strength from GOD and his son JESUS for my hurt, my fury and my grief, and to pray for the desolate one who started all of my immediate family's grief in the first place. All has been forgiven in my heart! I couldn't go on with life if I didn't, but...I will never forget as long as I live after finding out that my father Wesley Brunson Sr. was admitted into the hospital on June 22, 2016 without his immediate family's knowledge. What makes me more angry about that day was when my immediate family and I weren't told about my father being admitted into the hospital until a week later on the 29th of June 2016.

My father could of had his family close to him during his time of need. It would of made a difference in my father life to have his immediate family there near and close to him when he was admitted to the hospital. But...Lucifer had to get in the way of everything according to my father. From that point, all Hades broke loose. Then power reigned her fury against my immediate family because there was something to gain from taking control where it didn't belong in the first place...especially since we were a "live" family present in my father's life. I choose to continue to leave this fate towards the "desolate" one who started this whole business with gaining power over a live family's patriarch to GOD and his son JESUS.

Karma is something else when there are reaping that still needs to be sown. Vengeance is still GOD and his son JESUS to fight battles that are hard to win. I know my family and I can sleep well at night knowing that we didn't do anything wrong to deserve what has happen to us over a year ago thus day. I've seen what GOD and his son JESUS can do since my father's passing six months ago. I'm not going to boast or laugh about what fate has awaited the desolate one thus far. I'm going to continue to pray for comfort, guidance, strength and to add...patience that the gash in my heart will finally heal its fresh wound.

My immediate family will some day try to get over (which I doubt) the devastation of what happened when I first found out about the "Power of Attorney my ex aunt took over my fathers life before we could get a meeting with hospital administrators, mangers and supervisors about my fathers health. In other words...my immediate family and I would still have a close family without no problems whatsoever had my ex aunt wouldn't of interfered in the first place with my fathers health and his life.

Happy Father's Day Our Mortal FATHER In Heaven

Book 55

Wesley Brunson Sr.
Sunrise: February 19, 1950  -  Sunset: December 4, 2016

Genesis 47:12 - 12. And Joseph nourished his FATHER, and his brethren, and all of his household with bread, according to their families. 

First of all...I would like to say to my FATHER who is in the hands of our GOD and his son JESUS, "Happy Father's Day in Heaven". God and his son JESUS knows that I miss my FATHER from the moon and back. GOD and his son JESUS knows that I can't thank them and my FATHER enough for giving my twin sister Sherri, my brother Wesley Jr. and myself for our mortal life. What I'd give if I could say, "Hello...how are you Popski, glad to see you". To hear voice, listen to him tell his extremely funny jokes and the looks he gave when told those funny jokes. His extremely crazy laugh that would keep everyone rolling on the ground and their stomach hurting with tears of joy, because his laugh was totally unique and it was so crazy. 

What I would give just to see him smile again.  Sit with him and chat with him about anything. Eating his awesome barbecue, savoring every tasteful drop. My immediate family and I will always cherish each and every memory my FATHER left us to carry in our hearts for infinity. For many who still have your FATHER, please...by all means, cherish him, care for him, spend as much time with him as possible, don't wait...just do everything with him. Most of all...love him unconditionally with every ounce you have in your mind, body and soul, because once he's gone, the luxury of his presents is gone; you will experience what my immediate family and I experience the extreme heartache, the extreme pain, and the extreme grief living life without him upon this earth when all you see is an empty chair and no mortal presents of him whatsoever. 

It's too late for my immediate family and I to have and continue to experience life with FATHER mortally. He's in our hearts, minds and souls in spirit. But...it's never too late in the name of our GOD and his son JESUS for the world who still have their FATHER. Put your arms around him, hold him tight. Give him a kiss on the cheek, or shake his hand. Most of all...tell him you love him unconditionally with all of your might. He's just as important as the MOTHER when she bore and carry a child, consistently caring for us 24/7, working his hands to the bone with the sweat of his brow and tired after a long day when he come home to his family.

Tell your FATHER, happy Father's Day and really mean it from the bottom of your heart. My immediate family and I don't have that luxury 'anymore' to kiss and hug my FATHER, laugh with him, have fun with him, but...we can tell him, "Happy Father's Day in Heaven and that we love him unconditionally with all of our might infinity. 

Longsuffering - Virtue Of Patience

Book 54 - Special Edition Post

Longsuffering - Often misunderstood. It means we have patience; we can endure in trying circumstance, it is actually a very important and powerful aspect. We can continue with a quiet and steady perseverance (stay happy even when you're under trial) with diligence. It doesn't mean we should suffer! But...my family and I did for six months prior to my FATHER Wesley Brunson Sr. death. 


Galatians 5:22 - 23 - Be the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, 23. Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. 



We (immediate family) were tempted to lose patience with this someone; then we thought how patient GOD and his son JESUS was with us all the time. What my immediate family endured throughout the six month period of my FATHER Wesley Brunson Sr, life, his illness until his death; others would have given up and let Satan use them to an extent of no return. My family and I didn't succumb with Satan's force of gravity. We stepped back and gave our problems with this ex family member to GOD and his son JESUS so that they can continue with their vengeance towards 'her' and those who partake and participated with her in vengeance against my immediate family with my FATHER'S life attached to the issue. Thus day...our tempers are more controlled bearing the provocation from the loss of my FATHER on December 4, 2016 and his last words to us without continued complaints, loss of temper and irritation.

My immediate family forgave, but...we will never ever in our lifetime forget what happened almost one year ago when my FATHER was admitted into the hospital on June 22, 2016, one week after my immediate family and I were finally told my FATHER was admitted into the hospital. So I repeat, "When a person, or a family members like my immediate family has been through a lot of Hades, extensive turmoil, deception, mortal trials and tribulations, the most 'common sense' thing to do is to 'forgive' the one who started and caused the internal damage for infinity with her Power of Attorney on my FATHER'S life (I don't care if it was for health, financial, or just a general Power of Attorney nonetheless...it was underhandedly done on my FATHER'S life) so that my immediate 'live' family and I can continue to move on with virtue and with patience." And at the end of that deception brought against my FATHER unfortunately, my immediate family and I will be met with hope followed by happiness at the end when it's all said and done. "It's all in the hands of GOD and his son JESUS!" It's over with now.

My FATHER is the hands of GOD and his son JESUS in Heaven without pain, without tears, without deception and without the grasp from those who deceived and stole from him (my father admitted to) while he was alive and breathing on this earth. I've admitted to some things in my recent posts that I had regrets to, but I can say...there was nothing that my immediate family and I did, or have done reared no fault of ours when wrong was done to us during a thirty plus year stretch and the remaining six months of my FATHER'S life. My family and I stood back and let what happen...happen until there were no more my FATHER could do and where his happiness were when he was on the outside from his immediate family's mist. We loved him more than infinity to let him go and run himself out what he wanted to do with his life while in the world and what he went through to obtain his happiness until he became disabled, burned out, alone before he became ill and got his soul saved again. We prayed for my FATHER while he was out and about doing what he wanted while we (his immediate family) continued our unconditional love for him.

My immediate family waited a very long time on my FATHER to return fully so that we could give our lives to take care of him when he became ill and until his death. Furthermore...there is nothing more to say, or to envy, or to beat up anyone when vengeance is GOD and his son JESUS. My immediate family and I got tired! We went through a very long period of long suffering. Patience is our virtue to live quietly and steadily with perseverance diligently.

My immediate family and I will continue to pray for this ex family member and her family and those who partakes and participated which is known as deception and indiscretion against my family. "This is all anyone can do!" GOD and his son JESUS, prayer, faith, trust, hope, strength and understanding is the answer towards all healing of mortal deep gashes, mild cuts, scrapes, mental damage and the emotional stress that my immediate family and I went through almost a year ago. We don't want no more interference from what once was, and is now, and what to avoid to keep our lives blessed, guided, comforted by GOD and his son JESUS and happy throughout the course of our days for infinity. My immediate family and I chose to stay away from people and things that will bring harm to our mortal beings.

Leaving No Stones Unturned Or Thrown

Book 53

Acts 3:16 - 16. And his name through faith in his name hath made this man strong, whom ye see and know: yea, the faith which is by him hath given him this perfect soundness in the presence of you all. 

Romans 1:17 - 17.  For therein is the righteousness of GOD revealed from faith to faith: as it is written, the just shall live by faith.

2 Corinthians 1:24 - 24. Not for that we have dominion over your faith, but are helpers of your joy: for by faith ye stand.

Galatians 2:16 - 16. Knowing that a man is not justified by the works of the law, but by the faith of JESUS Christ, even we have believed in JESUS Christ, that we might be justified by the faith of Christ, and not by the works of the law: for by the works of the law shall no flesh be justified. 

Galatians 3:23 - 23. But before faith came, we were kept under the law, shut up unto the faith which should afterwards be revealed. 

Hebrews 11:1 - 40 at it's entire chapter.





I look towards the future as time progresses with my immediate family as we move on with life. Yes...we have our ups and downs every single day since the death of my father Wesley Brunson Sr. almost six months ago thus coming June 4th. During the past couple of weeks my family and I experienced something so ignorant; we never gave it another thought or a second look, or even an answer to the culprits indiscretions. Foolish minds are a terrible thing to keep wasting time trying to hurt one another. So my family and I decided to ignore ignorance and keep moving on with life.

"We have not the time or anymore strength for ignorance, or ones absent mind. Someone once told me just to let it go! Finally...I let well enough alone and let GOD and his son JESUS fight what battle was to fought without lifting a finger to help. GOD and his son JESUS got it and they know what they're doing and they knew what was going to happen before it happened, So...why I'm I continuing to worry about something that has come to past. It's not my war, or neither are my family's war to fight when we know we would loose the battle every time without GOD and his son JESUS unchanging hands.

This was where faith, trust and belief in GOD's and his son JESUS works to fight what was once was and now into the present time, so my family and I wouldn't worry about our battles going into the future in their mighty name. The stones I had in my hand, I decided not to leave them unturned, but not to cast them at my enemies of whom are culprits of deception for all the reason I had to let go what was foolish to keep interfering. GOD and his son JESUS got it! My family and I don't need to worry about anything anymore. Our grief will continue to be there for my father.

It will become easier as time progresses. I dropped the stones and I walked away with my family and started living again. My family and I are much happier than we've every been since our moments of despair last year around this time. I've decided to leave all those stones on the ground for vengeance is GOD's and his son JESUS virtue. What more I need to say but to leave well enough alone for myself and for my family to keep moving on without ignorance following suite.

I pray that my family and I are always safe everywhere we go and turn. We are planning a cruise for this coming October. I pray that everything goes well for us in the months to come in the mighty name of our pilots.

The Humble One In The Family

Book 52 - Special Edition Post

Colossians 3:16 - 16. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom; teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your heart to the LORD. 

1 Timothy 4:12 - 12. Let no man despise thy youth; but be thou an example of the believers, in word, in conversation, in charity, in spirit, in faith, in purity.

Proverbs 22:6 - 6. Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.

Sherese. This one is for you! Thanks for acknowledging that it is foolish to continue innuendos, ignorance and deception. This is why you "stand out" from the ones who hurt my FATHER, my family and myself. But...I will say this sweetie, "Please open your eyes Sherese and see where deception is coming from. I don't have to hand it to you on a silver platter when you know its already tarnished forever. You know where wrong was done and originated from the beginning, until you see it...and acknowledge it, then you will know where your blessings are coming from, until then...your blessings will be waiting for you. Don't miss out Sherese!"

You seem to be the "only one" with the humble heart and for that you really do have my respect and gratitude. Continue to carry that with you all the days of your life. Keep GOD and his son JESUS first and good things will always happen for you and Mystery. My family and I have come to a conclusion to steer ourselves from family members who has hurt us with their ignorance during our time of despair. "The truth is...we just want to be to ourselves."

My FATHER isn't here anymore and it hurts like heck! Your sister thinks it's funny all way around to joke on our family's hurt and about what we haven't done for and with our FATHER when he was the one who left his family for three decades plus and about not having our FATHER for Father's Day. We still loved and accepted him. "Of course...that was and still is my FATHER, it's obvious when that man gave myself and siblings life!" My family and I still love him even in the grave.

That why this post was so important for me to write to you. You needed to see this coming from me! Please Sherese...stay humble! Don't loose it girl. Keep living for our pilots and don't be a human heart donor.

It makes you ugly on the inside...and you're so very beautiful and velvety on the outside. Keep what's beautiful on the outside beautiful on the inside always. That's why I repeated it! Please Sherese...don't ever live in deception. It's a dangerous way to live if you're not truthful with yourself and how life is and who to treat in the way that you want to be treated and with life as it comes at you. ---Then you will never suffer the consequences and the repercussions your beautiful velvety sister will face as her life and as time progresses if she keep on.

Keep your beautiful smile and your humble heart. I hope you will always mean what you say to my family and I, because we are at a very fragile state. My FATHER's death did a extreme number on me and my family. Enjoy your FATHER and stay close to him and love him. When he's gone, it hurts like heck!

Trust me! Living life without the appearance of tears is hard to wipe away especially when its been almost six months. LOVE YOU GIRL! I do mean that with respect and gratitude to you for your actions and that you acknowledged foolishness. Closing of this post...now my family and I will continue to move on our own.

If I see you in a store, or a park, or where ever the day take me, I will speak and hug you...that's my heart for you. I do miss those one hour long conversations in the store we use to have too.

Ignorance On Display

Book 51

*Just to let everyone know, this post was "provoked" intentionally by my cousin who just don't understand what was really done, or said to my family and I under the microscope. Sugarcoating was a huge part of deceit blinded by guilt. "The main source of this matter (not anonymous) is far from the truth and she needs to look no farther than her own home where the magnitude of deception rears it's deceitful head."


*My FATHER'S words: Bold and Italic 



Deuteronomy 28:7 - 7.  The LORD shall cause thine enemies that rise up against thee to be smitten before thy face: they shall come out against thee one way, and flee before thee seven ways. 

Psalms 37: 1 - 40 at its "Entire" Chapter



My immediate family and I had left well enough alone when I posted "Vengeance Is GOD, It's In His Hands" back on the 31st of January of this year. I remember it was Book 37. We left all of our frustrations, despair and grief from my father's demise in the hands of GOD and his son JESUS. Then all of a sudden...14 books later, Lucifer's imp (Angel) starts up again with a tweet from Twitter that provoked this post to come as I see fitting the character of ones ignorance without an ounce of sugarcoating my raft. This is the tweet in question:

When they never brought their daddy a present for father's day, but now that he's in Heaven they want to buy something. Watch my smile pic.twitter.com/qumsHT471z

— Lousondra Wright (@LousondraWright) April 20, 2017

 A woman so beautiful and velvety looks absolutely beautiful on the outside, but what's on the inside? I see a display of ignorance and a human heart donor without an ounce of remorse for my family, or for myself. "Losing a parent is no joke!" She thinks my family and I didn't love my FATHER and that we never gave him a present for Father's Day. "Who told her that we didn't give my Father a present for Father's Day?

"Remember what was said at the beginning of my post posted in RED." Why was it so hard for her to understand the possible outcome of being on the outside looking in when the real truth was sugarcoated by deception from the guilt of ones loins? What the heck did she know if she wasn't there to see my family and I give my Father gifts, cards and dinner invites.

Father's Day is coming up in June. She has the luxury of a FATHER on Father's Day. She get to see her father everyday of her life. My family and I don't have that luxury. My family and I will be spending our first Father's Day without my FATHER in our mist. One day she will 'clearly' understand how it feel not to have one, or both of her parents. It's been hard brick road every single day to try and put all the pieces of the puzzle back together again.

It's not easy holding back tears every single day. Yes...we might of not been there all the time for my FATHER, but...we loved him then and we still love him now...even in the grave. I need to display the real truth of the matter when it comes to my FATHER. GOD and his son JESUS bless his soul and may he rest in peace. But this must be said so that I can be completely understood when it comes to my family and I when we lived without my FATHER in our home for over 30+ years.

My mother Ruth, my twin sister Sherri, and my brother Wesley Jr. before he met his beautiful wife Neyome and married her back on August 29th 2015 in a half American and Sri Lankan wedding.  We went through a lot of Hades knowing that my father was out traveling with other women and families around the globe...never giving my MOTHER the time of day to enjoy life after their children were grown and out of the nest. It was suppose to be their time to stretch their wings together and fly around the world. So...my mother, my twin sister and brother let him go...so that he can do what he wanted with those other women and their families.
 "It was like...giving my father the opportunity to go and do as he please...like getting all what was in his system out when he was out in the world of despair."

My family and I did not interfere anymore after that. The only thing that didn't stop was our love for him unconditionally. We let my father go until he couldn't go anymore. Then the women left him after he was all dried out physically, emotionally and financially before becoming disabled and wasn't of any use to the women and their families anymore, before buying himself a campaign...which was his dog Sheba. After my father was down and out, we came; we saw; we washed and fed; I held father in my arms like a baby and gave him back rubs and we gave our lives to take care of him, love him unconditionally when he was ill until his death.

Yes...we did know about 'some' of his fiances when receipts and word of mouth were displayed to his immediate family unconditionally. I felt he was going into his retirement to fund his luxurious lifestyle with those women and their families and the Mercedes he bought back in the 90's. Believe me...my research and homework was done years ago. What I knew then and back when and now was reality. I would like for my beautiful and velvety cousin to understand stand me fully when I say this, "Know what really happen before you display your opinion on social media."

Believe me...I knew about my father's way of life when he was out in the world for 30+ years before he got his soul saved again by GOD and his son JESUS. Sweetie...you don't know what happened and you never will know baby if you're on the outside looking in and don't know the flavor of our kool-aid.
You had your father around everyday of your life. Please my love...enjoy him while he still living! There is a lot I regret and admit...so I don't sugarcoat my feelings, or hide behind a mask.

I display and quietly shout out my feelings in my writing, so I could completely be understood without throwing a punch with my fists. "I'm a lady first!" So as I said in Book 37 of my blogs posts, "Vengeance is GOD's, It's In His Hands", so I'm done! My family is done! We want no more part of ones indiscretions, or a family who don't realize that their reaping day is coming and it's coming with a vengeance for every single thing that happened almost a year ago this coming June.

We got to live with it! Now let us live in peace, because we want no part of the innuendos, indiscretions, the tearing each other down, or faces of deceit. My family and I are completely done emotionally, mentally, and physically! Before I close this post...let me give you a little bonus. My father's last words 2 days before he died with witnesses in the room (better known as his immediate family) to me as I stood over him. He looked me directly in the eyes when he said with his shallow voice, "Get Minnie away from me; I didn't want to come home from the hospital!" And before I knew it, he went on to say to me as he stared me with a straight face with his eyes partially closed, "She's killing me!"  Now everyone know my raft and why everything is what it is when it comes to my FATHER and my family and through my posts.

My dear cousin...know the facts before you display on social media. I research before I display on social media. I just want you know this, "I will never forget what my FATHER said that (I never told anyone until this day) out of my head for as long as I live." That word of mouth coming from my FATHER from his own mouth and with enough oxygen going through his nose into his body will be instilled in my head for all infinity. What my family and I did for and with my father when he was alive was always under the microscope to everyone.

"You wasn't there to know what was done, said, or planned with my father!" So understand me fully when I say this my beautiful velvety China doll, "The damage is done and it can't be corrected." The Patriarch of both families (the remaining siblings and my immediate family) is gone for infinity. All my family and I want do is move on with our lives. We've had enough! Enough!

Leave it alone, because I did with your family. So please my beautiful velvety cousin, "Enjoy your "living" father for Father's Day and everyday after that for as long as he live and leave my deceased father (who my immediate and family and I will never see again) who is in his grave that my family and I will never touch again, laugh with again, or joke around with him again when he was living when he was still communicating with his immediate family until almost the end of his life and missing the awesome taste and smell of his barbecue again alone." Let us all move on with life! My family and I don't have strength for any of this nonsense ever again. DITTO!

So...Lousondra (Angel) Wright...you keep laughing at me and my family on our grief and about Father's Day without my deceased FATHER. With this post, 'You're feeling my raft with a vengeance!" You will definitely feel the raft, the grief, the hurt and the lies that were over shadowed by the source that started it all with my family almost a year ago one day in your life. I would of never did you, or to your family in that way, ever!  Please...my dear, read Psalms 37: 1 - 40 at it entirety. -- Know my dear...where your boasting, smiling and maybe laughing on my family's grief and what was done, or should of been done, has been done, your reaping for your 'big beautiful smile' is "noted"in GOD's and his son JESUS eyes for what you and yours did to my FATHER ultimately, to my family and to myself on our hurt; this is my teaching to you..older woman to young woman.

So...keep smiling dear, "Smile big!", because it will be wipe off your face when life challenges you and is done with you in the long run when its not funny any more. Never boast, or smile wide on someone's hurt, or what should of been done, or grief. "It's a dangerous thing to do!" Welcome to the consequences and the repercussions of your actions that you will be experiencing when vengeance is GOD's.

Playing With Fire

Book 50

Galatians 6:7 - 7. Be not deceived; GOD is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.

Jeremiah 49:16 - 16. Thy terribleness hath deceived thee, and the pride of thine heart, O thou that dwellest in the clefts of the rock, that holdest the height of the hill: though thou shouldest make thy nest as high as the eagle, I will bring thee down from thence, saith the LORD.

There are some things "creatures" don't mess with when they are playing with fire and they don't even know it. So much has happened within five months since my father's death. So much despair, deceit and pure lying for the sake of lying has taken place since then. How much more can my family take after going through pure Hades and total grief in just a short period of time? Deception has no limit of evil of the magnitude that a few creatures can do with it.

Just under a month ago my immediate family found out some information we thought no one would believe and then some through a lawyer that represented my mother back in 2016. Here's a question for everyone who are interested and knowing the facts of this particular matter. I have this one aunt who is now my ex aunt (whose name I chose to not enclose) because of my great respect for her lying behind. "Would it be totally irrational to be totally disappointed and disgusted at my ex aunt for telling my immediate family and I that she love us every chance we meet with her for a brief moment, or where ever our day took us...politely getting into conversation with her about life and about other ex family members in general?" -- And then she instantaneously, with her imagination, place a huge machete deep in all of our backs without the use of her hands and she thinks nothing of the huge lie for the sake of a lie she told us with a straight look on her face every time we thought she really supported us through out my father's illness, bereavement and us trying to move on with our lives from the complete Hades my family and I were put through for the past six months during my father illness?"

It was a very long question to ask, but...I think its totally pathetic to lie to my family and I with a straight face...smiling and thinking nothing of the big lie that was uncovered by other lawyers that handled my mothers divorce case back in 2016 (which never went through) with mother still married to my father while he's in the grave. I hope when then this post get out in the media, maybe...just maybe my actions are understood and why I wrote this post. I'm very tired of the mess, the chaos and the lies told to my family and myself. I want nothing else to do with the "majority" of my father's family. I'm done! My family is done!

The patriarch is gone and it's the end of an era I choose to forget accept for my father. I'm at peace with myself and with my family. Now I can smile too.