The Nucleus

Book 57

Synopsis: My post is about revealing the "center" of destruction that revolved around my immediate family and its bad memory that continues to haunt us. When I think about how my immediate family was treated by this nucleus, "I think of the book of Proverbs, the entire chapter one", I choose to continue to write about my feelings so I could be completely understood when I think about my ex. aunt and what she did to my immediate family over a year ago. I choose to not disclose her name because I don't want nothing more to do with her ever, or to know her. I'd rather not have her part of my life, because its the only way I could heal completely from my father's death. It is also the way my immediate family feel too! All though...everything was forgiven in order for my family and I to move on with life without my father in the mist of our mortal lives.  

Proverbs 1:33 - 1. The Proverbs of Solomon the son of David, King of Israel  2. To know wisdom and instruction; to perceive the words of understanding 3. To receive the instruction of wisdom, justice, and judgment, and equity 4. To give subtilty to the simple, to the young man knowledge and discretion. 5. A wise man will hear,m and will increase learning; and a man of understanding shall attain unto wise counsels. 6. To understand a proverb, and the interpretation; the words of the wise, and their dark sayings. 7. To fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction. 8. My son, hear the instruction of they father, and forsake not the law of thy mother. 9. For they shall be an ornament of grace unto thy head and chains about thy neck. 10. My son, if sinners entice thee, consent thou not. 11. If they say, Come with us, let us lay wait for blood, let us lurk privily for the innocent without cause. 12. Let us swallow them up alive as the grave; and whole, as those that go down into the pit. 13. We shall find all the precious substance, we shall fill our houses with spoil. 14. Cast in they lot among us; let us all have one purse. 15. My son, walk not thou in the way with them. refrain thy foot from their path. 16. For their feet run to evil, and make haste to shed blood. 17. Surely in vain the net is spread in the sight of any bird. 18. And they lay wait for their own blood; they lurk privily for their own lives. 19. So are the ways of every one that is greedy of gain; which taketh away the life of the owners thereof. 20. Wisdom crieth without; she uttereth her voice in the streets. 21. She crieth in the chief place of concourse, in the openings of the gate: in the city she uttereth her words saying. 22. How long, ye simple ones, will ye love simplicity? And the scorners delight in their scorning, and fools hate knowledge? 23. Turn you at my reproof; Behold, I will pour out my spirit unto you, I will make known my words unto you. 24. Because I have called, and ye refused; I have stretched out my hand, and no man regarded. 25. But ye have set at nought all my counsel, and would none of my reproof. 26. I also will laugh at your calamity; I will mock when you fear cometh. 27. When you fear cometh as desolation, and your destruction cometh as a whirlwind; when distress and anguish cometh upon you. 28.Then shall they call upon me, but I will not answer; they shall seek me early, but they shall not find me. 29. For that they hated knowledge, and did not choose the fear of the LORD. 30. They would none of my counsel: they despised all my reproof. 31. There fore shall they eat of the fruit of their own way, and be filled with their own devices. 32. For the turning away of the simple shall slay them, and the prosperity of fools shall destroy them. 33. For whoso hearkeneth unto me shall dwell, and shall safety, and shall be quiet from fear of evil. 

When I think about the nucleus, I think about a compact bundle of subatomic particles of protons electrically charged and neutrons (the neutral) that surrounds it. My immediate family are the neutrons and protons. Everyone else are the electrons electrically charged quantized in a destructive atomic atom, the 'center' point of that destruction caused by her evil presents that haunts my immediate family and I until thus day. Nothing more I could do about it now. I can't help but write about my feelings at my darkest hour. 

Its the only way I could heal old gashes. My FATHER remains constantly on my mind every single day of my life for almost seven months after his death. My twin sister and I are totally the electrically charged protons still grieving from our father death and the bad memories that comes along with it. But...vengeance is GOD and his son JESUS. I will not continue to interfere with my pilots works. Karma will continue to meet my ex aunts fate provided by GOD and his son JESUS if she continues to be the center of attention. 

As living witnesses to her fortress, I can't forget how my ex aunt put my immediate family and I and unfortunately, my father through complete Hades to prove her point. She took control of a situation that wasn't hers, or her place to control my immediate family responsibility to be the caretakers of my father's health, finance and well being. She used that "power" to her advantage to do her evil works. She did what she wanted to make my immediate family suffer during the time of my father's illness, until his death, and during his bereavement no matter what the cost of her ignorance. "It definitely cost my father his life in the process". 

It will always be personal for me and my immediate family! There is nothing; I mean nothing my ex aunt could do to fix, or change what she has done to make everything right. The damage is done forever! My immediate family and I has closed a chapter of our lives in a burnt offering of dismissal (my ex aunt) and I know one day, my old gash will heal and all is forgotten. I want to be a neutron once again...neutral as heck! 

I know I have a long way to go with the help of GOD and his son JESUS to continue to provide me and my immediate family the comfort we need to continue to heal from bad memories and to move on with life.