GOD'S Vengeance, Justice, Wisdom And My Comfort Will Prevail

Book 125

Job 38:17 - 17. But thou hast fulfilled the judgment of the wicked: judgment and justice take hold on thee.

Psalms 89:14 - 14. Justice and judgment are the habitation of thy throne: mercy and truth shall go before thy face. 

Psalms 119:121 - 121. AIN. I have done judgment and justice: leave me not to mine oppressors. 

Isaiah 56:1 - 1. Thus saith the LORD, Keep ye judgment, and do justice: for my salvation is near to come, and my righteousness to be revealed. 

Isaiah 59:14 - 14. And judgment is turned away backward, and justice standeth afar off: for truth is fallen in the street, and equity cannot enter. 

Everyday it seems to get easier, but...sometimes it get harder to fathom the heartbreak I feel. I'm not going to mention too much what is most important to me, because...I know everyone get tired of me going on and on about my FATHER, but...he was everything to me and more. He is the reason why I write so many posts dedicated to him, so that I can cope, find some comfort, and remember the good times I had with him. But...I don't know how to get rid of the fact that he was murdered. How do I get rid of that thought...that bad memory I ingested into my heart?

Who's to say, or judge the fact that my FATHER was murdered by an extreme overdose of morphine? Because he was! GOD and his son JESUS is the only supernatural awesomeness that can fight my battles, and my trials and tribulations I got through everyday to try and cope with the death of my FATHER. For those who participated in his death, will suffer their fate. And...they know who they are in a man-fold.

I must try to get over him, but...its still hard for me to fathom his murder. I know I must! I know I must give this hurt, this void I feel to GOD and his son JESUS to deal with for my name sake. I know I must leave what was once was alone and let my pilots handle the pain I endured, the emotional havoc and chaos, the deception and indiscretions of those who brought shame to my immediate family and I. It's the only way I'm going to finally heal...just a little...from my heartbreak, the torment my immediate family and I went through, and with the Post Traumatic Stress I was diagnosed with.

Only GOD and his son JESUS will prevail with their vengeance. Stepping back is my only option towards comfort and healing. My pilots is the answer for my world today and then some. I know that one day, I will finally find the comfort from my traumatic situation. One day I will!

The Penetrating Scar That Will Last For All Eternity

Book 124

Psalms 16:3 - 3. But to the saints that are in the earth, and to the excellent, in whom is all my delight.
             27:7 - 7. Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice; have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
             39:12 - 12. Hear my prayer, O LORD, and give ear unto my cry; hold not they peace at my tears; for I am a stranger with thee, and a sojourner, as all my fathers were.
             56:9 - 9. When I cry unto thee, then shall mine enemies turn back: this I know; for GOD is for me. 
             57:2 - 2. I will cry unto GOD most high; unto GOD that perfrometh all things for me. 
Isaiah 58:9 - 9. Then shalt thou call, and the LORD shall answer; thou shalt cry, and he shall say, Here I am. If thou take away from the midst of thee the yoke, the putting forth of the finger, and speaking vanity.
John 12:46 - 46. I am come a light into the world, that whosoever believeth on me should not abide in darkness.
Hebrews 13:5 - 5. Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. 




Who knows why things happen when you're living with a deep gash of a scar that effects my life each and every day, no matter the time, or minute, or micro second? I don't think I'll ever heal from that deep gash! What happen to my FATHER effects me when I least expect it to dawn on me like a bad memory. I know that everyone who reads this, get tired of me talking about my FATHER, but...he's the reason why I write about him consistently, so that I can gain some sort of comfort for what happened to him and my immediate family and I when life as I expected had gone totally bad. When you got Satan (Minnie Lou) on the other side of the horizon effecting everything that meant something to us, then I have a reason to talk about it and then some, so that the whole world will know her and what she did.

My FATHER is the reason why I express every trial and tribulation and the hell of what my immediate family and I went through with my ex aunt Minnie Lou and her blanket Power of Attorney over my FATHER'S life. I was in church today fellow-shipping with the body ("bride" in the book of Revelation) of the church. My cousin Amanda came up to my mother and I and gave us a sweet hug...acknowledging our presents. All of a sudden...my mother spoke about my FATHER and how Minnie Lou deceived our immediate family through her blanket Power of Attorney over my FATHER'S life. I gave Amanda the complete truth about what happened to my FATHER.

It was something she couldn't possibly know about when it came to the magnitude of what effects me to thus day. So...I had to give Amanda a brief refresher course of what happen during the last fateful six months of my FATHER'S life. First thing's first...I had to tell her about the last thing my FATHER said to me at close range, before he closed his eyes for all eternity. He said, "Keep Minnie away from me, I didn't want to come from the hospital, because...she's killing me!"  How do I cope with that on my own?

I can only ask GOD and his son JESUS for comfort, because I'm never going to forget what was like a thorny bush within reach for me to get poked. Who could forget what was once was after it happened? I know within a ounce of emotion, I will never forget those words my FATHER said towards the end of his life. My tears are real and plain as day as they continue to thus day when they roll down my face. My FATHER didn't deserve to be overdosed with morphine as instructed by Minnie Lou to the hospice nurse secretly behind closed doors.

I don't care what kind of comfortable she tried to administer like that morphine, my FATHER didn't deserve for his life to be cut short like it did. I will never forget it the day Minnie Lou helped my FATHER into a casket. Never! "Woe beyond the day Minnie Lou made sure the amount of morphine administered to my FATHER was fatal." Only jumping through hoops will fathom her fall, but...it will not clear her from the actual cost of reaping and sowing the possible consequences and the repercussions and everything she put my immediate family and I through with that blanket Power of Attorney and her extremely nasty disposition...she will ultimately suffer within that fate...only in the eyes of the GOD and his son JESUS she will suffer.

Bringing Down The Barbecue

Book 123

Matthew 18:20 - 20. For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.

John 13:34 - 34. A new commandment I give unto you, that ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.




I find myself sitting alone in the living room writing this post to my advantage. I'm sitting here thinking about where my next great idea is going to come from, and when it will take place. I decided to give it a name that is unique to my knowledge. It's, "Bringing Down The Barbecue" it's a name that brings new meaning to a great time that my family and I had in celebration of my nephew Lorenzo, and my niece Octavia's 🎂 Birthday Celebration. My brother-in-law Lorenzo Sr. cooked the barbecue (chicken, hot dogs, hamburger and steaks) the rest of us, just partied hearty.

My twin sister Sherri and I did the rest of the cooking as usual. Homemade barbecue baked beans and macaroni and cheese was the main part of our barbecue menu. It gave more texture and more love when it came to bringing down the barbecue. My family and I enjoyed every single minute together eating...most of us drinking virgin drinks and the rest, well...you know! We would always talk about old times, good times and conversations that were new and present at that particularly brief moment that would bring out a laugh, or a frown of sadness.

But...our family's conversations were very polite and totally tasteful. That's how we liked communicating with one another. Most of the time I found myself dazing out of commission from my family's conversations in thought of my FATHER when I looked at his picture in the middle of all the excitement. I remembered how it was when he barbecued. Boy...I miss his awesome barbecue.

I guess when my family and I have these get togetherness, I think of my FATHER and what it could of been if he was here enjoying these timeless moments with us as family. Wow! It's just I miss my FATHER so much when my family and I barbecue. Given in the memories we continue to share with him is only a brief moment my family and I will continue to carry in time.

Afterwords...I bring myself back from my daze to the barbecue and family. I continued to have a wonderful time with my FATHER in thought. It's much easier on me now I can say, because it's a awesome memory I will continue share with my family and those who were guests there at the barbecue. We continued to party hearty into the late night. Enjoying time with family and having barbecues like the one we had does bring back awesome memories of a lifetime.

We never take anything for granted when it comes to honoring the memory of my FATHER.

Deception Is Without A Doubt

Book 122

Mark 7:20 - 22 - 20. And he said, that which cometh out of the man, that defileth the man. 21. For from within, out of the heart of men, proceed evil thoughts, adulteries, fornication's, murders. 22. Thefts, covetousness, wickedness, deceit, lasciviousness, an evil eye, blasphemy, pride, foolishness: 

Romans 12:2 - 2. And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of GOD. 

Ephesians 4:31 - 32 - 31. Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice: 32. And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another even as GOD for Christ's sake hath forgiven you.

Synopsis: I would like to wish my FATHER a Happy Birthday in Heaven. This post reflects what's happening to us (immediate family) during our days of continuous mourning for my FATHER. Without a doubt, we believe that someone is messing with my FATHER'S grave, and in this post (without judgment) vengeance will prevail in the name of GOD for the culprit...if that's the case in the matter of Minnie Lou Wright. 

I don't understand for the life of me for someone (of whom I think) would go out and disturb a grave is beyond me. It seems as though my twin sister Sherri and I can't seem to keep flowers on our FATHER'S grave. "I mean, What the heck!" I'm not trying to judge anyone out of haste, or spite, but...it seems like a coincidence that every time my sister and I go out to visit our FATHER'S grave, at least a few weeks later, the flowers disappear. Then we look over at the other graves surrounding our FATHER'S grave...they are covered in flowers.

I have an idea about this one person who is evil beyond repair; that she would do just what I think she would do. Satan herself...Minnie Lou Wright! I got a strong feeling...and I don't want to judge her until I'm really certain that she's doing what I think she doing, by removing flowers from our FATHER'S grave. My sister and I truly think that she thinks we aren't showing our FATHER love by putting flowers on his grave, or visiting him occasionally. But...if this is happening (what we think is happening) then "woe" beyond to her and her wicked and evil ways.

We had solar lights placed on each side of our FATHER'S tombstone. Within weeks...they were gone. Then we happen to look over, and we saw the same set up with solar lights on our grandfather's and grandmother's grave. Solar lights on each side of their tombstone. So...with this said, I have a distinct feeling that Minnie Lou is the culprit of moving the flowers off of my FATHER'S grave. Maybe...it could be her daughter (the one that look like her) Lousondra.

I wondered within my heart...if this is the case, "Why...if so...are they doing this to us?" We (my immediate family and I) haven't done anything else to anyone in my FATHER'S family. We want nothing to do with either one of his family members, after what they did to my immediate family when my FATHER was alive, until his death. It's obvious in a whole lot of ways to think that Minnie Lou had something to do with what's happening at my FATHER'S grave site. If so...she will pay, and she will pay royally for it, I promise, thus saith GOD and his son JESUS vengeance!

The Lighthouse Of Abundance And Praise

Book 121

1 Kings 2:3 - 3. And keep the change of the LORD thy GOD, to walk in his ways, to keep his statutes, and his commandments, and his judgements, and his testimonies, as it is written in the law of Moses, that thou mayeat prosper in all that thou doesn't, and whithersoever thou turnest thyself:

Jude 1:3 - 4 - 3. Beloved, when I gave all diligence to write until you of the common salvation, it was needful for me to write until you, and exhort you that ye should earnestly contend for the faith which was once delivered until the saints. 4. For there are certain men crept in unwares, who were before of old ordained to this condemnation, ungodly men, turning the grace of our GOD into lasciviousness, and denying the only LORD GOD, and our LORD JESUS Christ.

Jeremiah 29:8 - 9 - 8. For thus saith the LORD of hosts, the GOD of Israel; Let not your prophets and diviners, that be in the midst of you deceive you, neither hearken to your dreams which ye cause to be dreamed. 9. For they prophesy falsely until you in my name: I have not sent them, saith the LORD.

I find myself in a world where living testimonies. They are the basis of life experience happening all over the world. And when I see the people of Lighthouse Ministries come out to the church to give living testimonies of their life experiences, It gives me a warm sinsation within my heart. I take that very seriously indeed. The glory have come to meet St Mary Missionary Baptist Church and it's warm welcome to The Lighthouse Ministries.

I listen to angels singing their praises during devotional service. This little boy singing his heart out to GOD and his son JESUS. I watched as the people of The Lighthouse Ministries stood up and took in the praises of my pilots and that little boy throughout the devotional service. It brought me so much joy! I couldn't get over the love, warmth, gentleness, and praises that took over the devotional service.

GOD and his son JESUS was worthy to be praised, not only by the bride of my pilots (the church) but...by The Lighthouse Ministries presence there beyond our mist. After devotion ceased, our church went into another selection in the services, where there will be songs, and extreme heart warming testimonies, and the word of our GOD and his son JESUS Christ. This speaker got up and mentioned about "Getting to the root of a problem so many of the people of Lighthouse Ministries experience." Not only on the outside of their problems they had, before the people of The Lighthouse Ministries had given their hearts and souls to GOD and his son JESUS, but the joy of letting those problems, and those trials and tribulations become a thing of the past, was what got my heart singing praises. Wow! I sat and watched the people of The Lighthouse Ministries sing more praises to my pilots; I was mesmerized totally.

Then more testimonies came to it's serious consequences. There was this one testimony; this young woman expressed when she was on drugs at the age of 13. It became an everyday thing for her (you name it, heroin, marijuana, xanax, meth, and all sorts of other drugsdknown to man) until she said that her mother committed suicide. She found her hanging in a closet, two days after it happened, which in fact sent the young woman into a strong haze of drugs after the death of her mother. She came to The Lighthouse Ministries, which in fact...saved her life from the direction she was heading in, which was death to her indefinitely. Her testimony did a number on me and it got me to thinking about how blessed I was to have a wonderful family and support.

Then onto the word of GOD and his son JESUS. This woman by the name Joelle, got up and preached a good sermon that made you think twice about how precious life is for me in general. We're talking about the term oil this woman went through in her life. I'm talking about the lifetime of drugs, being totally bullied, torchered by different men. She didn't know where she was most of the time she was so high on drugs, and she was extremely sexually active and motivated. This was Joelle's life!

I couldn't began to imagine this of me, as I listened to her sermon. It was powerful! It was food that I needed to eat and take it my heart. Her sermons was from the book of Jude 1:1 and Jeremiah 29. Wow! What sermon.

Receiving GOD'S Unconditional Love

Book 120

1 John 1:4 - 4. And these things write we unto you that your joy may be full.

Ecclesiastes 3:8 - 8. A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace

Ecclesiastes 1:13 - 13. And I gave my heart to seek and search out wisdom concerning all things that are done under Heaven: this sore travail hath GOD given to the son's of man to be exercised there with

Romans 8:28 - 28. And we know that all things work together for good to them that love GOD, to them who are the called according to his purpose.





I'm sitting in church right now, and I'm feeling the spirit of GOD and his son JESUS. The joyful noise of music (Psalms 150) bring a strong pitch for fellowship, and honoring GOD and his son JESUS. I'm really enjoying it. We (the church family) had Evangelist Linda Pope take the podium to take up offering, while the choir sung sweet melodies that drives my spirit. I enjoy that very much.

Pastor Shafter Scott got up to share a slight sermon about him giving a blessing to someone else, who were in extreme need, and he ended up with a blessing given to him twice as much. Now that's a blessing that was a deserving testimony. Then he went on about helping the young people in the church, so that they can be living testimonies. Wow! What a blessing that will be for all the young people in the church to give their lives to GOD and his son JESUS, so that they will live a awesome lives under the Holy Spirit.

GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time! I would like to share that with everyone who want to receive them in their hearts, minds, bodies and souls. It's a good feeling to have every day you live on this Earth. And to hear the choir singing sweet melodies in the name of JESUS continues to bring me joy. I'm starting to shed tears of joy as I post.

Hallelujah...praise GOD and his JESUS for waking me up to see another day, and to go to church to receive my blessings in a manifold. I fellowship with the best as the Harold Reporter came up to give the announcements. I don't quite know him by name, but he gave an awesome report about Black History. He spoke about this man who had a rough life. But...with GOD and his son JESUS in life, this man went on with his studies in history inventing things most people wouldn't think of, he ended up earning a Master's degree, but...I forget what it was he earned his Master's.

What I know is that this man who came from nothing, ended up with a blessing that he will always cherish as he move on to bigger and better things to do with his life, as he live it peacefully in GOD and his son JESUS name. I love it when I hear awesome testimonies like that. To top it off, there was more sweet melodies sung by the choir before Pastor Scott get up to preach the gospel of GOD and his son JESUS. I couldn't wait to hear what my pilots got in store for me to hear. I'm so thankful for the spirit I have in GOD and his son JESUS.

"It all gives me chills of course!" Wow! Hallelujah...praise GOD and his son JESUS for being in my life. I want give up on them...ever! A sweet prayer in GOD and his son JESUS name came from Pastor Scott, as he stood at the podium getting ready to preach the gospel.

The sermon was about GOD'S Love. What a great perfection we (church family) have in GOD and his son JESUS as the Pastor preached from 1 John 1:4. Now that's love when JESUS died for all of us, and all of our sins, so that we all can live for him, while we (everyone) live on this Earth. Expression of our (for everyone who has love) express it with perfection. No one can take that from us...ever!

"Infinity"

Book 119

Ruth 2:13 - 13. Then she said, Let me find favour in they sight, my LORD; for that thou hast comforted me, and for that thou hast spoken friendly unto thine handmaid thought I be not like unto one of thine handmaidens.

Job 6:10 - 10. Then should I yet have comfort; yea, I would harden myself in sorrow; let him not spare; for I have not concealed the words of the Holy One. 

       9:27 - 27. If I say, I will forget my complaint, I will leave off my heaviness, and comfort myself

       42: 11 - 11. Then came there unto him all is brethren, and all his sisters, and all they that had been of his acquaintance before, and did eat bread with him in his house; and they bemoaned him; every man also gave him a piece of money, and every one an earring of gold

Synopsis: I designed this post as personal, and there is no amount of sorry said that will bring my FATHER back to (family) us. The ultimate has happened, and in my post I take it as personal. 

He would of been 69 years old on February 19th and I've been thinking of him so much. I don't know what else to say right now, or how to totally deal with it! Maybe a whole lot of people really don't understand how much I really loved my FATHER, no matter what he did to me, or my family thought out the thirty plus years of our lives. I forgave my FATHER for his indiscretions. Maybe...if everyone put themselves in my shoes and realize how close I was to my FATHER; maybe even closer to sum it up.

I wish everyone will realize that there is not a day I don't think of him. "I was basically a daddy's girl." It's hard to fathom sometimes, when I thought  I could finally put my FATHER to rest and out of my mind. But...there came a time when there is a good memory within my heart that keeps me smiling consistently; and then...there are bad memories that still make me weak and totally angry. I try to erase those bad memories out of my mind, but there is no use for that, no matter how much I try.

When my FATHER said to my face on his death bed, "She's killing me!" That thought will never go away for infinity. Its embedded in my mind and in my heart and soul for infinity. My Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome I suffered and diagnosed with keeps coming back when I think of doing something crazy to make my ex aunt Minnie Lou pay for what she did to my FATHER...and then I start to think of GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time.

I really need my pilots to help me seriously with my heart; help me with my mind, my body and especially my soul. I need GOD and his son JESUS to bring me comfort and understanding of why my FATHER'S death took a toll on my life and my heart. I also need my pilots to help not to think evil thoughts of Minnie Lou. I try to live for the present (today) because tomorrow isn't promised to me, or anyone on this earth. All I could do and say is that I'm trying so hard to deal with my FATHER'S death the best way I can.

But...I know that the hurt will never go away, no matter how much I want it to go away. All I can do is to try and deal with my FATHER'S death the best way I can. That's all I can do! I miss my POPSKI very much. "My GOD and his son JESUS, I miss him so much. There will be a time in my life, I will have some good days, and there are times I will have some bad days. Nonetheless...I will try to focus on the good days to bring me through the tragedy I suffer, and still suffer to this day, for nearly three years. GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time.

Our Family Time At Old Town

Book 118

Psalms 133:1 - 1. (A Song of degrees of David) Behold, how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity.

1 John 4:7 - 7. Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of GOD; and every one that loveth is born of GOD, and knoweth GOD.





My family and I went to ole town today. We traveled throughout the town, the same route as usual, observing the old classic cars and stopping between the shops and old cars to grab a bit to eat. As a family, we enjoy that very much. I guess ole town will be one of our attraction every other week in each month. We make it our business to enjoy every moment of every event that we share together as family.

Our family traveled from one store to another; observing the merchandise; wondering how much things cost; buying the merchandise; and moving from one store to the next store; and to the next store; until we were all out of options when it came to stores and shops. When push came to shove, our family made it our business to go into the fun center where all of the arcades, large rides, and funnel cakes were a reality. There were all kinds of fun and activities that everyone can get use to when it comes to having a great time in the fun center and then some. My mother Ruth, my twin sister Sherri and I shared a funnel cake with powered sprinkle that covered every inch of our funnel cake, because we all had the same thing in common....we all had diabetes. Afterwords...my family and I retired to the other side of the fun center, close to the arcade where my mother's scooter needed a charge for at least an hour before we decided to leave.

While my mother Ruth's scooter was charging, we watched as everyone else unknown to us having a great time riding on the scariest rides in the world...rides we wouldn't think of riding, if our lives depended on it. That's all we did (my mother Ruth, Sherri and I) was watched everyone else ride and have a good time. We thrived on it! One hour and a half later, my family and I decided it was time to leave Old Town. We started on our way towards the exit that lead us to our vehicles.

My family and I were all tired from all the activities we've achieved in Old Town. We didn't waste time getting into our vehicles and calling it a day. Our family found that it was a super great day at Old Town and we looked forward to the next time we visit, which will be the following week from next week. We all look forward to it!