Burnt Offering: Sacrificing A Family For A Real Family

Book 45 - Family Sacrificed As A Burnt Offering

Hosea 6:6 - 6. For I desired mercy, and not sacrifice; and the knowledge of GOD more than burnt offerings.

Romans 12:1 -  2 - 1. I Beseech you therefore, brethren by the mercies of GOD, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto GOD, which is your reasonable service. 2 And be not conform ed t this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind that ye may prove what is that good and acceptable, and perfect will of GOD.

Hebrews 10:5 - 18 - 5. Wherefore when he cometh into the world , he saith, Sacrifice and offering thou wouldeth not, but a body hast thou prepared me.  6. In Burnt Offerings and Sacrifices for sin thou hast had no pleasure.  7. Then said I Lo I come (in the volume of the book it is written of me) to do thy will, O GOD.  8. Above when he said, sacrifice and offering and burnt offering and offering for sin thou wouldest not, neither hadst pleasure therein; which are offered by the law.  9. Then said he, Lo, I come to do thy will, O GOD He taketh away the first that he may establish the second.  10. By the which will we are sanctified through the offering of the body of JESUS Christ once and for all. 11. And every priest standeth daily ministering and offering oftentimes the same sacrifices, which can never take away sins.  12. But this man, after he had offered one sacrifice for sins for ever, sat down on the right hand of GOD.  13. From henceforth expecting till his enemies be made his footstool. 14. For by one offering he hath perfected for ever them that are sanctified.  15. Whereof the Holy Ghost also is a witness to us; for after that he had said before.  16. This is the covenant that I will make with them after those days saith the LORD I will put my laws into their hearts, and in their minds will I write them.  17. And their sins and iniquities will I remember no more. 18.Now where remission of these is there is no more offering for sin.




I keep seeing her (my ex. aunt) as a reminder of what happened almost a year ago this coming June. I will never forget what she did to my family when my father was alive. So many thoughts entered my mind, I got crazy just thinking about my state of mind, because my father's death is still fresh in my mind and he's never coming back again; so are my feelings of unstableness. I pray everyday for comfort, hope, strength and deliverance from my rage. I remember in a post I wrote about vengeance.

"Vengeance is GOD! That was not my fight continue my vengeance against my ex. aunt. I pray I don't see in the street, or in a store somewhere, or just out in the open somewhere. I'm afraid of myself sometimes. Afraid of what might happen, or what I might do if I saw her. GOD and his son JESUS and prayer is the answer to my indiscretions.

I think it's going to take a whole lot of time to deal with my feelings about my ex. aunt. I'm not the only one who have those feelings of rage. My twin sister, Sherri and I still carry the feeling of emptiness, that void of missing our father inside of us. For us...it's very personal! We recently found out where all the pieces of the puzzle of deception fit when Sherri and I started reliving the past from a few event that happened almost ten years ago when my father started his business.

We remembered a time when my father first started his business in a restaurant. He was partnered with his brother, Alfonzo. I remeber a time when business wasn't all cracked up to be when you weren't getting as much business throughout the week. Business boomed only on the weekends. Never Monday through Friday when Sherri, her daughter Octavia and I worked at the restaurant throughout the week.

We would at least get three, or four people to come into the restaurant throughout the week during the eight hours we were open; only to find out that the restaurant stayed packed with people on Saturdays and Sundays. That was the time my uncle Alfonzo and a woman named Barbara Dixon worked in the restaurant. I found out that my ex. aunt had everyone from her church to come and eat at the restaurant only on the days my uncle and Barbara was working the restaurant. Not during the week. From that point we determined where deception really started for us was when my father first started his business into his own restaurant.

My ex. aunt made sure no one came during the week Sherri and I ran the restaurant. And then...we remembered a time when we found out that my ex. aunt planned my father's retirement party. "Sherri, our brother Wesley, my mother Ruth and I weren't told about my father's retirement party at all until the day and until the hour of my father's party." One of my other aunts had to inform my immediate family of the event that was already in progress during that particular moment. Mother didn't want to attend, because of her and my father's separation.

She did wanted Sherri, Wesley and I to attend our father's retirement party that my ex. aunt planned without my siblings and I knowing it was a party for our own father.  We arrived not knowing what to expect. Although my mind was weary of what I may find out at my own father's retirement party planned by my ex. aunt; Sherri, Wesley and I saw all of my cousins wearing t-shirts with our father's face embed on their chests. They were all hosting and serving food, while we were wondering why they had a shirt with my father's face embed on their chests and we didn't. Everything that was ever done, were underhandedly done by my ex. aunt as we know it.

"Now...all the pieces to the puzzle of deception fit snug and nicely." Sherri and I now know where the first signs of our ex. aunts deception started. Our father's business, his restaurant. The more I think about everything that has happened from the time my father had his restaurant back in June 2008, to his retirement party back in February 2012, unto the time of his sickness which started back as early as January until June 2016, then unto his death December 4, 2016, I get extremely upset knowing that my ex. aunt had this kind of grudge against my immediate family every since I could remember. "Vengeance is GOD and his son JESUS!" No matter how much hurt and rage I have, I give it all to my pilots.

The fight is in their hands now. Sherri and I know where our strength is once again and we're a living witness to our testimony when it comes to our strength in stepping back and letting GOD and his son JESUS fight this bitter battle we're still inlisted not to participate, only my GOD and his son JESUS. If it takes sacrificing a burnt offering such as certain family members for my twin sister Sherri and I to stay sane from our continued grief for our father in order to forget what happened. I usually wouldn't take a sacrifice such as a burnt offering, because I need mercy and to be fulfilled. Not to be angry all the time, or always in complete rage for everything that has happened since my father's death. My father was and still is the bloodline of Brunson who meant everything to my immediate family and I...I want no part of my bloodline since my father closed his eyes for good. That's the sacrifice I'm willing to take.

If it will make Sherri and I happy and smile again without crying and going back in the past, we will sacrifice "some" family members (not killing them physically, but mentally and emotionally) for a real one (our Sri-Lankan side), because our immediate family were never happy with some of our blood extended family who never gave us the time of day anyway. Well...I can say that only a few made the cut for remaining to be my extended family, because of their love and support during my immediate family time of despair and tragedy. I'm very thankful for that. I pray that GOD and his son JESUS will continue to give my immediate family comfort, strength, faith and hope that our healing process from father's death will continue.

Happy Birthday In Heaven Daddy

Book 44 - Special Edition - Happy Birthday Celebration In Heaven

Wesley Brunson Sr.

February 19, 1950 - December 4, 2016

John 3:16 - 16. For GOD so love the world, he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

Isaiah 26:3 - 4 - 3. Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee, because he trusteth in thee.  4. Trust ye in the LORD for ever: for in LORD Jehovah is everlasting strength.

Today was a very rough day for my twin sister Sherri and I acknowledging what would of been our father's sixty seventh birthday celebration today. I decided on staying home today to cry my eyes out for my father for his birthday, instead I went to church, because I wanted to hear the word of GOD and his son JESUS and to get some . I arrived to church, I was met by some people who drove up in vans visiting. They unloaded the vans and followed me into through the church annex. I went into Sunday School class to inform the pastors wife about the visitors. I found that they were the Light House Ministries.  

They were a awesome group of people with awesome testimonies from their life and how they lived lives. I knew in my heart I was going to get a wake up call from all the testimonies the Light House Ministries group were going to give. "I knew it would be something I needed to hear to up lift my spirits from someone else life  to help me to continue to cope with my father's death and his special day mortally celebrated without on earth." I sat and listened to testimonies from each of the Light House Ministries members and the preacher's word from GOD and his son JESUS. 

I asked myself, "Why I'm I still whining about my feelings when my father has gone to glory?" I was making myself sick. Now I look to the reality of my father's death and knowingly he's celebrating his birthday and life in Heaven without tears, pain, despair, and being disgusted with those who done him wrong by disrespecting him and his immediate family here on earth. "My father is happy where he is!" So nonetheless...it was time to let go and be happy about my father's life in Heaven and move on with my life and prosper, redeem myself to make my life better so I can live in Heaven too. 

I can  say, "It's a huge weight off of my shoulders." I will not stop grieving for my father, that will be hard to do, but I will rejoice my father's blessed life in Heaven

Sixty-Six For Infinity

Book 43 - Very Special Edition Post

Isaiah 25:8 - 9  8.  He will swallow up death in victory; and the LORD GOD will wipe away tears from all faces; and the rebuke of his people shall he take away from off this earth for the LORD hath spoken it. 9.  And it shall be said in that day Lo, this is our GOD; we have waited for him, and he will save us; this is the LORD; we have waited for him, we will be glad and rejoice in his salvation. 




First of all, I thank GOD and his son JESUS for life, health and strength and for bringing my family and I through one of the roughest of all rough patches. In three days, February 19th, would of been my father's sixty-seventh birthday 🎂 celebration. For the first time in my mortal life, my immediate family and I will be without the patriarch. I pray that GOD and his son JESUS will spare my life to be together with my family to celebrate my father's life living in Heaven. Sometimes it's so hard to believe my father's gone for infinity.

I'm still in shock and I'm suffering from the most severe form of depression, due to his death. All I can do is pray to GOD and his son JESUS every single day for understanding and guidance. It's not going to be easy for any member of my immediate family. This post is very short and sweet. There was so much love, joy, hope and lot to say in this post.

My family and I hope to visit my father's grave site on Sunday. Happy 🎂 Birthday in the arms of GOD and his son JESUS Popski. Rest In Heaven on your special day. 🎂❤💯

A Peaceful Day For Valentine's Day

Book 42

John 15:12-13 - JESUS - Love and Joy perfected - 12. This is my commandment, that ye love one another, as I have loved you. 13. Greater love hath man than this that a man lay down his life for his friends.





First of all...I would like to thank GOD and his son JESUS for life health and strength and for delivering my family and I out of the indiscretions of our enemies and into life livable to the fullest without any worries what so ever. Everyday is getting easier as time goes on without my father here on earth. I thank most of all for my father's dog Sheba. She's been an abundance of life and plenty of therapy for my twin sister Sherri and myself to handle. I guess what I'm trying to say, "Sheba lives through my dad everyday...well...the furry kind of life worth living."

I'm so happy we've adopted her into our hearts, minds and our souls so that she'll always have a happy home and life among a very loving family. My Valentine's Day was a very blessed one. I spent my day single and freely cosing up to a very good movie with lots of peace and quiet around the house while my family was out running errands and doing their business...what ever that is they do on day's like Valentine's Day. I guess I see Valentines Day like any other day. There's no difference!

It hurt sometimes to be alone day after day after day. I know that life brings many obstacles. Mine are, the loneliness, the wanting to be wanted. I know GOD and his son JESUS is the answer when it comes to patience. It's my virtue.

It's awesome to have someone for Valentine's Day don't get me wrong. It's rule understand and remember to take to heart that being alone on Valentine's Day is no different than any other day in your life. I learn to live it to the fullest, even if it's not with someone on Valentine's Day.

Moving On

Book 41

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Ephesians 4:1-7 - Unity - 1. I therefore, the prisoner of the LORD, beseech you that walk worthy of the vocation where with ye are called.  2. With all lowliness and meekness with long suffering, forbearing one another in love.  3. Endeavoring to keep the unity of the spirit in the bond of peace.  4. There is one body, and one Spirit even as he are called in one hope of your calling.  5. One LORD, one Faith, one Baptism.  6. One GOD and Father of all, and in you all.  7. But into everyone of us is given grave according to the measure of the gift of Christ.

First of all, I would like to thank GOD for life, health and strength. There's nothing better than give all of your worries, battles and wars to the creators of this earth. I'm moving on to very big and better things in my life. My first published book, "The Minorities" has mad it's first debut. Sales are racing, not as good as I prefer, but GOD and his son JESUS has something more awesome for The Minorities. So no more worries about my book sales.

My trust, faith and hope are in the hands of my pilots for success. My family and I are recovering from the post traumatic stress syndrome of my father's death, that's for sure. So no more worries about the things that are past tense. I do thanks GOD and his son JESUS for my father's dog Sheba.  She's been a true blessing to my twin sister and I when it comes to walking her every single day.

Sheba is awesome therapy for the both of us with all the medical problems Sherri and I carry from day end and day out. Sheba is an inspiration to my sister and I even if she's a furry part of our immediate family. Moving on from what was is now a part of my family and I future to live the rest our lives to the fullest in the name of GOD and his son JESUS. No more dawning on the realization of the what has happened. GOD and his son JESUS will always be the main character of our immediate family lives and our future and generations in their name I pray. Amen!

Feeling Lonely: Looking On The Positive Side Of The Horizon

Book 40 - Life In Reality For My Twin Sister And Myself

Galatians 2:20 - 20. I am crucified with Christ; nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me; and the life which I live in the flesh I live by faith of the son of GOD, who loved me and gave himself for me. 

First of all, I would like to thank GOD and his son JESUS for another day here on earth. I would like to thank my pilots for life health and strength and bringing my family and I through one of the roughest patches during the past eight months since my father's illness until the time of his death. Wow! As I said time and time again; what it feels like for me living life without my mortal rock here on earth. It's hard to say good bye to what once was and what it is now.

I think of my dad every single day. It's hard not to. But...I know life must go on regardless.  I can live in the world of the deceased. I must start living again; as so my twin sister, Sherri. To know that our father is in a better place, living, rejoicing, smiling without any pains in his body, and not in the grasp of his sister who took power of attorney over his life. That makes me feel awesomely good!  Still...not being able to be within my father's presence will always be with me and my sister for infinity.

I guess that why this emptiness my sister and I feel and carry within our hearts, minds, and souls.  A lonely feeling our mother doesn't recognize, or see any of the signs we show her that we rely and long for her attention, even at our age as her grown children. "It's not easy for either of us to live still in grief for our father after two months four days to this date to be ignored by our own mother when we need her the most." At least that's the way we feel at this present moment. The silence is killing us!

All my sister and I can do is pray every single day without cease. There is something I need to say before I close this post. My sister-in-law Neyome; we love her with all of our hearts, but she may be taking what we've been longing for from our mother. That's okay! My sister and I are not going to narcissistic imbalance, or fret about what our sister-in-law need because her mother is ten thousand miles away in Sri-Lanka.

So it's understandable about all the attention she's getting from our mother. "She needs to feel wanted and loved, because she's lonely and longing for mother too." So I will keep praying for my sister and I to continue to cope with our father's death. Talk with our mother about our real feelings, hoping she'll recognize and see the signs of wanting and needing some sort of comfort and the attention from a mother who really loves her children; her twin daughters. Maybe I want take that ride after all on the edge of the horizon.

My sister and I just want to feel wanted and loved, that's all. Our father's death was extremely hard on us. May GOD and his son JESUS give my sister and I all the strength and the comfort we need to live without tears everyday.  It will get easier, in the name of our pilots.

Family Silenced

Book 39

Genesis 28:14 - 14. And thy seed shall be as the dust of the earth, and thou shalt spread abroad to the west, and to the east, and to the north, and to the south; and in thee and in thy seed shall all the families of the earth be blessed.



It's been one of those day's. For me...it's consistently going through one of my rough patches. Not a day go by I don't think of my father and everything that has happened from the time during his illness and the time of his death and afterward. My father's death was extremely rough on my twin sister and myself especially, so we continue to pray to GOD and his son JESUS for a good day for the both of us. Still...everything as not as seen! I'm beginning to feel some seclusion from a couple of my immediate family members as well. I asked my self several times, "What is going in with this?

I don't want to experience anything negative from my own immediate family members. I got that in a man-fold with a few of my ex. extended family members. I don't think family from that past time can be mended. Too much damage was done that resulted in my father's death. Something has got to give with this thing that is called, "Family Separation", because it makes no since to me to continue to be separated as a family who suppose to love one another.

Through out my life and the lives of my twin sister and brother, we've experienced so much of separation between extended family and our immediate family, I can't begin to put into words, or even find all the words to place into a perfect sentence. Where is the love, the closeness...the understanding? Another question keeps burning like coals on a fire. I can't help but to keep bringing up day after day since my father's death. What's happening with my immediate family?

What's the silence all about? Sometimes I want to get in my car...my son and I...I just want to ride on the edge of the horizon and into the sunset without looking back. I loved my life better that way without interference from anyone that made me unhappy. I don't consider myself running from a cause, it's just I feel so alone without the one person who made a difference in my life (my father) and now he's in the grave silenced forever. I don't think I'll fully get over that!

Everyday will be a better day I hope and I'm praying for that.

Justice Will Be Served

Book 38 - Special Edition - Justice Will Be Served

Ecclesiastes 12:14 - For GOD shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it be good, or whether it be evil.

Matthew 12:34 - 37 - JESUS - 34. O generation of vipers, how can ye, being evil, speak good things? For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaketh.  35. A good man out of the good treasure of the heart bringeth forth good things: and an evil man out of evil treasure bringeth forth evil things.  36. But I say unto you, That every idle word that men speak, shall give account thereof in the day of judgment.  37. For by thy words shalt be justified, and by thy words shalt be condemned. 

Romans 14:10 - 13 - 10. But why dost thou judge thy brother? or why dost thou set at nought thy brother? For we shall all stand before the judgment seat of Christ.  11. For it is written, as I live, saith the LORD, every knee shall bow to me, and ever tongue shall confess to GOD.  12. So then every one of us shall give account of himself to GOD.  13. Let is not therefore judge one another any more, but judge this rather that no man put a stumbling block or an occasion to fall in his brother's way. 

It may not be when I want to happen, but GOD and his son JESUS is always on time, no matter what. Judgment will be something else when the day come when everyone will give in account of their works here on earth. I'm not going to dawn on the past, it's what I need to give in trust, belief, and in faith in GOD and his son JESUS to do what I need to do so my works here on earth can be complete on the day of judgment, For that...I'm not blinded when I know what GOD and his son JESUS can do. My family and I are done with what was once was, We're willing to go forward without haste, or persecution. My family and I may have lost everything in this mortal battle fought during a time of despair, but we're really winners in the eyes of GOD and his son JESUS according the love and care we gave to my father in his time of illness.

So my family and I don't think about the material things in life, it's the blessings that we will receive according to our works and what was done out of love for my father. Moving on. My days are better. I pray and strive everyday to make everyday a better day. GOD and his son JESUS is the reason why my family and I make the best of everything in our lives, even though we lost a whole lot before and after my father's death.

When I have GOD and his son JESUS, battles are not meant to be fought against those who caused us heartbreak, grief, and sadness. Only my pilots are more experienced to fight battles.  Battles are hard to fight and very hard to win, even if my family and I had a plan to win, it's always something according the plan well thought out ...something always interfere with that plan to win that battle, no matter what the situation, the cause, or how it started.  GOD and his son JESUS has the last say, the last call, and the last word without either of us lifting a finger to point, or cast blame, or going to extremes to make a person suffer, or pay for their indiscretion.

My family and I gave all of our troubles, sadness, heartbreak and grief to our pilots. It's there to stay whenever GOD and his son JESUS make that call.  My family and I don't want to keep getting in between our pilots works. Best to leave well enough alone! My father's, my family and I...our justice will be served only in the eyes of our beholder. Patience is our virtue!