The Nucleus

Book 57

Synopsis: My post is about revealing the "center" of destruction that revolved around my immediate family and its bad memory that continues to haunt us. When I think about how my immediate family was treated by this nucleus, "I think of the book of Proverbs, the entire chapter one", I choose to continue to write about my feelings so I could be completely understood when I think about my ex. aunt and what she did to my immediate family over a year ago. I choose to not disclose her name because I don't want nothing more to do with her ever, or to know her. I'd rather not have her part of my life, because its the only way I could heal completely from my father's death. It is also the way my immediate family feel too! All though...everything was forgiven in order for my family and I to move on with life without my father in the mist of our mortal lives.  

Proverbs 1:33 - 1. The Proverbs of Solomon the son of David, King of Israel  2. To know wisdom and instruction; to perceive the words of understanding 3. To receive the instruction of wisdom, justice, and judgment, and equity 4. To give subtilty to the simple, to the young man knowledge and discretion. 5. A wise man will hear,m and will increase learning; and a man of understanding shall attain unto wise counsels. 6. To understand a proverb, and the interpretation; the words of the wise, and their dark sayings. 7. To fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction. 8. My son, hear the instruction of they father, and forsake not the law of thy mother. 9. For they shall be an ornament of grace unto thy head and chains about thy neck. 10. My son, if sinners entice thee, consent thou not. 11. If they say, Come with us, let us lay wait for blood, let us lurk privily for the innocent without cause. 12. Let us swallow them up alive as the grave; and whole, as those that go down into the pit. 13. We shall find all the precious substance, we shall fill our houses with spoil. 14. Cast in they lot among us; let us all have one purse. 15. My son, walk not thou in the way with them. refrain thy foot from their path. 16. For their feet run to evil, and make haste to shed blood. 17. Surely in vain the net is spread in the sight of any bird. 18. And they lay wait for their own blood; they lurk privily for their own lives. 19. So are the ways of every one that is greedy of gain; which taketh away the life of the owners thereof. 20. Wisdom crieth without; she uttereth her voice in the streets. 21. She crieth in the chief place of concourse, in the openings of the gate: in the city she uttereth her words saying. 22. How long, ye simple ones, will ye love simplicity? And the scorners delight in their scorning, and fools hate knowledge? 23. Turn you at my reproof; Behold, I will pour out my spirit unto you, I will make known my words unto you. 24. Because I have called, and ye refused; I have stretched out my hand, and no man regarded. 25. But ye have set at nought all my counsel, and would none of my reproof. 26. I also will laugh at your calamity; I will mock when you fear cometh. 27. When you fear cometh as desolation, and your destruction cometh as a whirlwind; when distress and anguish cometh upon you. 28.Then shall they call upon me, but I will not answer; they shall seek me early, but they shall not find me. 29. For that they hated knowledge, and did not choose the fear of the LORD. 30. They would none of my counsel: they despised all my reproof. 31. There fore shall they eat of the fruit of their own way, and be filled with their own devices. 32. For the turning away of the simple shall slay them, and the prosperity of fools shall destroy them. 33. For whoso hearkeneth unto me shall dwell, and shall safety, and shall be quiet from fear of evil. 

When I think about the nucleus, I think about a compact bundle of subatomic particles of protons electrically charged and neutrons (the neutral) that surrounds it. My immediate family are the neutrons and protons. Everyone else are the electrons electrically charged quantized in a destructive atomic atom, the 'center' point of that destruction caused by her evil presents that haunts my immediate family and I until thus day. Nothing more I could do about it now. I can't help but write about my feelings at my darkest hour. 

Its the only way I could heal old gashes. My FATHER remains constantly on my mind every single day of my life for almost seven months after his death. My twin sister and I are totally the electrically charged protons still grieving from our father death and the bad memories that comes along with it. But...vengeance is GOD and his son JESUS. I will not continue to interfere with my pilots works. Karma will continue to meet my ex aunts fate provided by GOD and his son JESUS if she continues to be the center of attention. 

As living witnesses to her fortress, I can't forget how my ex aunt put my immediate family and I and unfortunately, my father through complete Hades to prove her point. She took control of a situation that wasn't hers, or her place to control my immediate family responsibility to be the caretakers of my father's health, finance and well being. She used that "power" to her advantage to do her evil works. She did what she wanted to make my immediate family suffer during the time of my father's illness, until his death, and during his bereavement no matter what the cost of her ignorance. "It definitely cost my father his life in the process". 

It will always be personal for me and my immediate family! There is nothing; I mean nothing my ex aunt could do to fix, or change what she has done to make everything right. The damage is done forever! My immediate family and I has closed a chapter of our lives in a burnt offering of dismissal (my ex aunt) and I know one day, my old gash will heal and all is forgotten. I want to be a neutron once again...neutral as heck! 

I know I have a long way to go with the help of GOD and his son JESUS to continue to provide me and my immediate family the comfort we need to continue to heal from bad memories and to move on with life.

"Anniversary"

Book 56

1 Corinthians 5:13 - 13. But them that are without GOD judgeth. Therefore put away from among yourselves that wicked person. 

Psalms 101:4 - 4. A froward heart shall depart from me: I will not know a wicked person

Proverbs 24:8 - 8. He that deviseth to do evil shall be called mischievous person

When I sit here everyday for 365 days, dreading the very day this awful fate my immediate family and I were faced with over "one year ago" to thus day, I find myself very angry...unbalanced...plagued with fury. The only thing I could do is to start praying for comfort, guidance and strength from GOD and his son JESUS for my hurt, my fury and my grief, and to pray for the desolate one who started all of my immediate family's grief in the first place. All has been forgiven in my heart! I couldn't go on with life if I didn't, but...I will never forget as long as I live after finding out that my father Wesley Brunson Sr. was admitted into the hospital on June 22, 2016 without his immediate family's knowledge. What makes me more angry about that day was when my immediate family and I weren't told about my father being admitted into the hospital until a week later on the 29th of June 2016.

My father could of had his family close to him during his time of need. It would of made a difference in my father life to have his immediate family there near and close to him when he was admitted to the hospital. But...Lucifer had to get in the way of everything according to my father. From that point, all Hades broke loose. Then power reigned her fury against my immediate family because there was something to gain from taking control where it didn't belong in the first place...especially since we were a "live" family present in my father's life. I choose to continue to leave this fate towards the "desolate" one who started this whole business with gaining power over a live family's patriarch to GOD and his son JESUS.

Karma is something else when there are reaping that still needs to be sown. Vengeance is still GOD and his son JESUS to fight battles that are hard to win. I know my family and I can sleep well at night knowing that we didn't do anything wrong to deserve what has happen to us over a year ago thus day. I've seen what GOD and his son JESUS can do since my father's passing six months ago. I'm not going to boast or laugh about what fate has awaited the desolate one thus far. I'm going to continue to pray for comfort, guidance, strength and to add...patience that the gash in my heart will finally heal its fresh wound.

My immediate family will some day try to get over (which I doubt) the devastation of what happened when I first found out about the "Power of Attorney my ex aunt took over my fathers life before we could get a meeting with hospital administrators, mangers and supervisors about my fathers health. In other words...my immediate family and I would still have a close family without no problems whatsoever had my ex aunt wouldn't of interfered in the first place with my fathers health and his life.

Happy Father's Day Our Mortal FATHER In Heaven

Book 55

Wesley Brunson Sr.
Sunrise: February 19, 1950  -  Sunset: December 4, 2016

Genesis 47:12 - 12. And Joseph nourished his FATHER, and his brethren, and all of his household with bread, according to their families. 

First of all...I would like to say to my FATHER who is in the hands of our GOD and his son JESUS, "Happy Father's Day in Heaven". God and his son JESUS knows that I miss my FATHER from the moon and back. GOD and his son JESUS knows that I can't thank them and my FATHER enough for giving my twin sister Sherri, my brother Wesley Jr. and myself for our mortal life. What I'd give if I could say, "Hello...how are you Popski, glad to see you". To hear voice, listen to him tell his extremely funny jokes and the looks he gave when told those funny jokes. His extremely crazy laugh that would keep everyone rolling on the ground and their stomach hurting with tears of joy, because his laugh was totally unique and it was so crazy. 

What I would give just to see him smile again.  Sit with him and chat with him about anything. Eating his awesome barbecue, savoring every tasteful drop. My immediate family and I will always cherish each and every memory my FATHER left us to carry in our hearts for infinity. For many who still have your FATHER, please...by all means, cherish him, care for him, spend as much time with him as possible, don't wait...just do everything with him. Most of all...love him unconditionally with every ounce you have in your mind, body and soul, because once he's gone, the luxury of his presents is gone; you will experience what my immediate family and I experience the extreme heartache, the extreme pain, and the extreme grief living life without him upon this earth when all you see is an empty chair and no mortal presents of him whatsoever. 

It's too late for my immediate family and I to have and continue to experience life with FATHER mortally. He's in our hearts, minds and souls in spirit. But...it's never too late in the name of our GOD and his son JESUS for the world who still have their FATHER. Put your arms around him, hold him tight. Give him a kiss on the cheek, or shake his hand. Most of all...tell him you love him unconditionally with all of your might. He's just as important as the MOTHER when she bore and carry a child, consistently caring for us 24/7, working his hands to the bone with the sweat of his brow and tired after a long day when he come home to his family.

Tell your FATHER, happy Father's Day and really mean it from the bottom of your heart. My immediate family and I don't have that luxury 'anymore' to kiss and hug my FATHER, laugh with him, have fun with him, but...we can tell him, "Happy Father's Day in Heaven and that we love him unconditionally with all of our might infinity. 

Longsuffering - Virtue Of Patience

Book 54 - Special Edition Post

Longsuffering - Often misunderstood. It means we have patience; we can endure in trying circumstance, it is actually a very important and powerful aspect. We can continue with a quiet and steady perseverance (stay happy even when you're under trial) with diligence. It doesn't mean we should suffer! But...my family and I did for six months prior to my FATHER Wesley Brunson Sr. death. 


Galatians 5:22 - 23 - Be the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, 23. Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. 



We (immediate family) were tempted to lose patience with this someone; then we thought how patient GOD and his son JESUS was with us all the time. What my immediate family endured throughout the six month period of my FATHER Wesley Brunson Sr, life, his illness until his death; others would have given up and let Satan use them to an extent of no return. My family and I didn't succumb with Satan's force of gravity. We stepped back and gave our problems with this ex family member to GOD and his son JESUS so that they can continue with their vengeance towards 'her' and those who partake and participated with her in vengeance against my immediate family with my FATHER'S life attached to the issue. Thus day...our tempers are more controlled bearing the provocation from the loss of my FATHER on December 4, 2016 and his last words to us without continued complaints, loss of temper and irritation.

My immediate family forgave, but...we will never ever in our lifetime forget what happened almost one year ago when my FATHER was admitted into the hospital on June 22, 2016, one week after my immediate family and I were finally told my FATHER was admitted into the hospital. So I repeat, "When a person, or a family members like my immediate family has been through a lot of Hades, extensive turmoil, deception, mortal trials and tribulations, the most 'common sense' thing to do is to 'forgive' the one who started and caused the internal damage for infinity with her Power of Attorney on my FATHER'S life (I don't care if it was for health, financial, or just a general Power of Attorney nonetheless...it was underhandedly done on my FATHER'S life) so that my immediate 'live' family and I can continue to move on with virtue and with patience." And at the end of that deception brought against my FATHER unfortunately, my immediate family and I will be met with hope followed by happiness at the end when it's all said and done. "It's all in the hands of GOD and his son JESUS!" It's over with now.

My FATHER is the hands of GOD and his son JESUS in Heaven without pain, without tears, without deception and without the grasp from those who deceived and stole from him (my father admitted to) while he was alive and breathing on this earth. I've admitted to some things in my recent posts that I had regrets to, but I can say...there was nothing that my immediate family and I did, or have done reared no fault of ours when wrong was done to us during a thirty plus year stretch and the remaining six months of my FATHER'S life. My family and I stood back and let what happen...happen until there were no more my FATHER could do and where his happiness were when he was on the outside from his immediate family's mist. We loved him more than infinity to let him go and run himself out what he wanted to do with his life while in the world and what he went through to obtain his happiness until he became disabled, burned out, alone before he became ill and got his soul saved again. We prayed for my FATHER while he was out and about doing what he wanted while we (his immediate family) continued our unconditional love for him.

My immediate family waited a very long time on my FATHER to return fully so that we could give our lives to take care of him when he became ill and until his death. Furthermore...there is nothing more to say, or to envy, or to beat up anyone when vengeance is GOD and his son JESUS. My immediate family and I got tired! We went through a very long period of long suffering. Patience is our virtue to live quietly and steadily with perseverance diligently.

My immediate family and I will continue to pray for this ex family member and her family and those who partakes and participated which is known as deception and indiscretion against my family. "This is all anyone can do!" GOD and his son JESUS, prayer, faith, trust, hope, strength and understanding is the answer towards all healing of mortal deep gashes, mild cuts, scrapes, mental damage and the emotional stress that my immediate family and I went through almost a year ago. We don't want no more interference from what once was, and is now, and what to avoid to keep our lives blessed, guided, comforted by GOD and his son JESUS and happy throughout the course of our days for infinity. My immediate family and I chose to stay away from people and things that will bring harm to our mortal beings.

Leaving No Stones Unturned Or Thrown

Book 53

Acts 3:16 - 16. And his name through faith in his name hath made this man strong, whom ye see and know: yea, the faith which is by him hath given him this perfect soundness in the presence of you all. 

Romans 1:17 - 17.  For therein is the righteousness of GOD revealed from faith to faith: as it is written, the just shall live by faith.

2 Corinthians 1:24 - 24. Not for that we have dominion over your faith, but are helpers of your joy: for by faith ye stand.

Galatians 2:16 - 16. Knowing that a man is not justified by the works of the law, but by the faith of JESUS Christ, even we have believed in JESUS Christ, that we might be justified by the faith of Christ, and not by the works of the law: for by the works of the law shall no flesh be justified. 

Galatians 3:23 - 23. But before faith came, we were kept under the law, shut up unto the faith which should afterwards be revealed. 

Hebrews 11:1 - 40 at it's entire chapter.





I look towards the future as time progresses with my immediate family as we move on with life. Yes...we have our ups and downs every single day since the death of my father Wesley Brunson Sr. almost six months ago thus coming June 4th. During the past couple of weeks my family and I experienced something so ignorant; we never gave it another thought or a second look, or even an answer to the culprits indiscretions. Foolish minds are a terrible thing to keep wasting time trying to hurt one another. So my family and I decided to ignore ignorance and keep moving on with life.

"We have not the time or anymore strength for ignorance, or ones absent mind. Someone once told me just to let it go! Finally...I let well enough alone and let GOD and his son JESUS fight what battle was to fought without lifting a finger to help. GOD and his son JESUS got it and they know what they're doing and they knew what was going to happen before it happened, So...why I'm I continuing to worry about something that has come to past. It's not my war, or neither are my family's war to fight when we know we would loose the battle every time without GOD and his son JESUS unchanging hands.

This was where faith, trust and belief in GOD's and his son JESUS works to fight what was once was and now into the present time, so my family and I wouldn't worry about our battles going into the future in their mighty name. The stones I had in my hand, I decided not to leave them unturned, but not to cast them at my enemies of whom are culprits of deception for all the reason I had to let go what was foolish to keep interfering. GOD and his son JESUS got it! My family and I don't need to worry about anything anymore. Our grief will continue to be there for my father.

It will become easier as time progresses. I dropped the stones and I walked away with my family and started living again. My family and I are much happier than we've every been since our moments of despair last year around this time. I've decided to leave all those stones on the ground for vengeance is GOD's and his son JESUS virtue. What more I need to say but to leave well enough alone for myself and for my family to keep moving on without ignorance following suite.

I pray that my family and I are always safe everywhere we go and turn. We are planning a cruise for this coming October. I pray that everything goes well for us in the months to come in the mighty name of our pilots.