What's Love Got To Do With It When It Comes To Control

Book 135

Psalms 37:4 - 4. Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

1 Corinthians 10:13 - 13. There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but GOD is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

John 14:27 - 27. Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. 

Proverbs 5:18 - 19 - 18. Let thy fountain be blessed: and rejoice with the wife of thy youth. 19. Let her be as the loving hind and pleasant roe; let her breasts satisfy thee at all times; and be thou ravished always with her love

Proverbs 18:22 - 22. Whoso findeth a wife, findeth a good thing, and obtaineth favour of the LORD.

 Matthew 19:5 - 5. And said, for this cause shall a man leave father and mother, and shall cleave to his wife: and they twain shall be one flesh




I found myself in love once again, but...in a different angle I see fit to present to the public. I feel this man is different from my past relationship from my son's father. He wants a forever relationship,  marriage, and a baby to fit the bill. How can I compete with that...when I'm part of the plan? It's no game when I have a man that seem to love me only for myself and to love me totally unconditionally. But the problem is that I found that he's a bit jealous!

That in itself kind of bother me. I really have an issue when it comes to a man being a bit jealous, because anything and everything can lead to something I'm not willing to go through in my lifetime. I find myself in communication with him on the subject. The results are continuous. I keep asking my him why is he so jealous of me to a point that he watches me in what I do, what I say, or how I say it. He's says to me, its because...I love you so much.

I find it obvious that I'm a bit scared of him because of his jealous streak, but not totally confused about what I'm getting myself into with him. Then he says, "I promise I want hurt you in anyway, shape, or form. I promise to GOD...I want hurt you, hinder you, abuse you physically, mentally, emotionally, or verbally; and I promise I will not lift a finger to hit you." And then I thought...okay...I hear him, but...proving what he said to me must have all the benefits of a sincere and a "total" promise to me that he wouldn't do any of the things that he said he wouldn't do to me. I'm totally holding him completely responsible to his word when it comes to lifting a finger at me! 

When I think again...I don't want to be a prisoner in my relationship with this man, no matter what he said to me. All I know...he better mean what he say, and he better mean what he do to accommodate his promise to me as a whole. I know my options...and I'm going to way them with my best judgment that I can give myself. I'm going to say this though, "He's not at all a bad person, but...we're just starting out our relationship on a positive note. All I can do is pray for the best and I'll keep everyone updated.

I'm going to watch all the signs! That's what I'm going to do, and be cautious. Don't get me wrong, because...I really do love this man unconditionally.

What Is Righteous Is Walking By Faith

Book 134

Hebrews 11:1 - 3 - 1. Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. 2. For by it the elders obtained a good report. 3. Though faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of GOD, so that things which are seen we're not made of things which do appear. 



First and far most...things that are unseen to man are hard for some to trust and believe. If you can walk down the path of righteousness, you'll find yourself with doubts on either side of that path...only if you walk by faith. There is so much to acknowledge when it comes to having faith beyond anything in this world. I know all too well when it comes dealing with certain situations that kept me within damnation of hell fire.  I had to consistently pray about my indiscretions that could of lead me down that widened path of damnation.

When all seemed lost in the deep wilderness, I found my way clear cut towards the horizon. Then there's that path; the walk of faith. It's where I found peace within myself, and I was never alone, not for a single solitary minute, or micro second. Who's to say that my trust and belief have no boundaries? Walking by my faith gave me the trust and belief that anything GOD and his son JESUS gives you is totally phenomenal and supernatural.

Faith is seen only by trust and belief in GOD and his son JESUS.  What appears to be unseen by some, requires complete measurements to acknowledge how you walk that path. Those doubts are still stumbling blocks along the way. I found myself kicking each and every stumbling block, because...I want to walk that clear path without anything tripping me, or knocking me down and returning me to damnation. What I'm referring to is those who carried my family and I through complete Hades during the time of my FATHER'S illness and demise, I can now hold my head up, smile, and walk away without any haste, dislike, or despair.

I've set all that relex aside, and I'm walking without regrets, but by faith to continue on my journey towards Heaven.

To Give Wisdom For Things That Are Past

Book 133

Proverbs 4:7 - 7. Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom and with all thy getting get understanding. 

Ecclesiastes 7:12 - 12. For wisdom is a defence, and money is a defence, but the excellency of knowledge is wisdom giveth life to them that have it. 

1 Corinthians 2:7 - 7. But we speak wisdom of GOD in mysteries, even the hidden wisdom which GOD ordained before the world unto glory. 

1 Corinthians 2:13 - 13. Which things also we speak not the words which means wisdom teacheth, but...which the Holy Ghost teacheth comparing spiritual things with spiritual. 



I didn't follow suite posting on FATHER'S Day, because I didn't want to give some son story about how I felt about my FATHER being gone. I guess I wanted to provide my readers with a cheerful and positive post; to bring just a little bit of happiness. I find myself more happier than I've ever been these past few months. No negative emotions, or negative words to say about anyone, not even about my ex aunt's. I find myself proud to the fact that I can finally put old rellex behind me and move on with my life.

I'm getting ready to start my own social club called Socialites. It's bringing together people who I feel will be an awesome match for what I'm looking for. Prominent...well known to society in order to bring more stamina, and financial means to promote greater things to happen in a social club. I hope my idea for this social club works out to be more conglomerate, than myself put together. I find myself more excited than I could ever imagine about my new social club.

There is work to be done and I must get started on my new fliers and a little word of mouth to acknowledge my social club existence. I think I would give it eight months, or more to get everything in order according to officers I need to bring into action: Secretary, Financial Advisor, Manager, Chaplain, and a Events Coordinator. My twin sister is already Vice President, and I am Founder and President. Success is the key and I'm determined to make my social club a very successful one. A positive attitude and a positive atmosphere is what I need to get over the loss of my FATHER.

I know I'll be okay. It comes to show that anything can be possible in order to come to terms with your past. I think I'm doing awesome with that, I'm happy to say. But...one thing I know that I'll always have good memories of my FATHER, no matter what.