Dealing With Consequences And Repercussions

 Book 173

Galatians 6:7 - 8 - 7. Be not deceived; GOD is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap. 8. For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the spirit shall of the spirit reap life everlasting. 

Romans 6:23 - 23. For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of GOD is eternal life through JESUS Christ our LORD. 

1 John 1:9 - 9. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 

I find myself in deep thought about my M O T H E R and all the things I did to her when she was living. I know I'm reaping the consequences of my actions, and the repercussions on how I really treated her when things were so bad during a brief period of time in my life. M O T H E R tried to tell me some things to abide by and to take heed to, but...I would not listen to some of the things she warned me about according to what effect it will have on my life. I know that I'm paying for it and then some. My M O T H E R thought I hated her because of her outbursts towards me, being that she was just a old woman set in her way.  

I should of taken the fact to heart that my M O T H E R was just an old woman set in her way of things and I never should have been so hard on her. I had a attitude problem, I admit that! I needed to straighten that in order to be humble towards my M O T H E R when she had one of her outbursts. When I think of her, sometimes I just want her to argue with me about anything. That's how much I miss her knowing that I would never have the luxury of a M O T H E R in her mortal body again. I can only have her in spirit and in my memory. 

I can wish that everyone who still have their M O T H E R will treat her like a Q U E E N. I challenge that with everyone who still have their M O T H E R. It is a hard thing to go through life without my M O T H E R, because...she was the root of all things that mattered to me. I just miss her so much and I can't seem to come to reality of her death. That is a hard thing to do when it comes to having a M O T H E R who really have been there for me and my siblings through thick and thin and still...she landed on her feet when she got tripped up by anyone who would always keep her unbalanced. This is why the death of my M O T H E R is eating me up. With all the things I did in my past, it has come back to haunt me in a way it keeps me in tears. 

This is my season for reaping and sowing for my actions. I am suffering the consequences and the repercussions of my actions. This is by the rules and regulations of GOD when he wrote the Ten Commandments; the fifth commandment: Exodus 20:12 - Honor thy Father and thy Mother that thy days will be longer upon the earth in which the LORD thy GOD giveth thee. I now think about that commandment knowing that my M O T H E R and F A T H E R is not here anymore, it is instilled in my heart forever. It is a commandment that I would always abide by and learn from.

An Unfounded Dose Of Betrayal

 Book 172

Mark 11:25 - 25. And when ye stand praying, forgive, if ye have ought against any; that your Father also which is in Heaven may forgive you your trespasses

One day niece, you will know what it feel like to be betrayed by the one that suppose to love you unconditionally. One day niece, you will know what it feel like to be ignored when you call out to that person by their name and that person keeps walking away from you without listening to what you had to say to them and them without uttering a sound. One day niece, you will know what it feel like for you to want a hug and that person tells you that "they don't want that hug, or they don't want to talk to you, or they don't want you to touch them and they just walk out to door so full of resentment against you because...they found a indiscretion that you did that they didn't like." Understand niece, how it feels to be betrayed by the person you thought suppose to love you no matter what circumstances hit over the horizon. After all said and done, your eyes are so full of tears, because...you can't fathom the thought of what you did that was so wrong that person seem to carry so much hate. 

Yes...the facts are mutual that it is a love/hate relationship this person carries for you that you can't understand why they are doing this you when all you did was to love them with all of your might. One day niece, you are going to ask yourself, "Why did I do this to the one that loves me unconditionally without thinking twice." One day niece, you are going to imagine the thought of what you done to bring unhappiness, tears, and depression to the one who only want to reason with you when you said, "I didn't utter a greeting to you that morning, when it was obvious that you get the same greeting every morning you enter the front room. Now, it is time that I give you niece an ultimatum! How you carried yourself that morning was totally unfounded and it was betrayal to you've endured on me when all you would of received is love unconditionally. 

All this boils down to niece was all you had to do was to tell me my indiscretion straight forward and that indiscretion would of made a 360 to your satisfaction. All that could of been worked out accordingly if only you didn't have that kind of demeanor you had that morning. I didn't know how to come at you, because of this demeanor you carried so graciously. "It was scary to fathom how you were feeling that morning niece!" I will say this, "How you treated me as a elder...you had no right to treat me like that otherwise, because...I am a elder...and you treat your elders with respect." 

R-E-S-P-E-C-T, you did not administer that thought. You just walked out the door in haste, and with that haste, you will reap the consequences and the repercussions of your actions. One day niece, you will know what that feel like to want love and you can't receive it. There was one thing I was told niece, and here is what I was told by someone that was also suppose to close to me when I had no one else to turn to but my self. "My daughter loves you very much!" 

Well here is my saying to the one that suppose to be close to me when I didn't have no one to turn to or to back me up when it comes to being decieved and betrayed. "If I was truly loved, everything I said in this post, would of never came to past." That's not love if a person ignores you when all you wanted to do was to talk to them and they keep walking away from you without listening to that word you had to say them; and what was so hurting, was that they tell you that say they didn't want a hug from you and that they didn't want to talk to you; and most of all...acted like they didn't want you to touch them and they walk straight out the door with that kind of haste is not love. That in itself is hate and it is total betrayal!  

The Pain Seems To Never Go Away

 Book 171

Revelation 21:4 - 4. And GOD shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.

I don't think I will never get over the death of my M O T H E R as well as my F A T H E R. It is too hard to bare to even think about giving them up. I know in my heart that my pain will get better as the years go by without an ounce of forgetting that they were my parents. It is so hard on me when I heard that my M O T H E R had passed away for 45 minutes on that day of August 8. She was revived, because...the doctors and nursed did not have our permission not to revive her. I had wished that the doctor's and nurse's at that particular moment would of let my M O T H E R go so that she would not have any pain from her body hurting, or going through dialysis, no more sorrow, or crying again.

My sister Sherri, brother Wesley, and I needed to give that permission not to resuscitate our M O T H E R. That was the hardest thing that we ever had to do is to give that order. Sherri, Wesley, and I did not want our M O T H E R to suffer anymore than she had to. The order was given by my self to not resuscitate our M O T H E R, because...we as our own family unit did not want our M O T H E R to suffer. That was the reason when I went to the hospital that day on the 8th of August to make that decision to sign what took me ten minutes or more to sign those papers to remove the ventilator, the medicines that my M O T H E R  was hooked up to, and the compressors around her legs and arms. 

I did not want to stay and watch that after I signed the papers. I had the nurses assistant to remove me from the ICU (Intensive Care Unit) before they removed everything away from my M O T H E R, because...it would of been too painful to watch. I was on a journey with my sadness. I was wheeled in a wheelchair, because...I could not walk up to see my M O T H E R in ICU. I was wheeled all the way to my car and helped into it. My niece Ta'Neisha did the driving for me, because...I was not able to drive not even a little bit due to my grief. 

After the drive...I was met with Sherri, her husband Lorenzo, Wesley and his wife Neyome that day so that we all could wait for that phone call in grief about my M O T H E R S passing and to ask us what funeral home we wanted to place my M O T H E R in. That was so hard to do; it was hard on all of us to wait around for my M O T H E R S passing during the awful pandemic COVID 19 virus. It took only an hour after I came from seeing my M O T H E R in the hospital for the call to come through about her passing. My entire immediate family cried without the reluctance of shedding tears. Those tears were ever so real in our hearts for our M O T H E R. 

I would never forget that day of my family's grief. I was totally hard not grieve for the "Queen" who has given us so much love, so much comfort as my F A T H E R did as well. The pain will never go away from us no matter what we do or say. It will be hard to do even if Sherri, Wesley, and I and the rest of the family. I was only the start of a very long process for years to come. 

Memories of a M O T H E R

 Book 170

Copyright © 2020 By Author:Terri Celestine Brunson. All Rights Reserved

Synopsis:  This post is totally personal to me. I felt I had to write and tell everyone how I feel when it comes to losing my M O T H E R. It is about love, grief, and pain. I pray I can someday be eased of the pain I feel and move on with my life. 

Ephesians 6:1 - 24 - 1. Children, obey your parents in the LORD for this is right. 2. Honor they father and mother which is the first commandment with promise. 3. That it may be well with thee, and thou mayest live long on the earth. 4. And, ye fathers, provoke not your children to wrath: but bring them up in the nurture and admonition of the LORD. 5. Servants, be obedient to them that are your masters according to the flesh, with fear trembling in the singleness of your heart , as unto Christ. 6. Not with eyeserivice, as menpleasers; but as the servants of Christ doing the will of GOD from the heart. 7. With good will doing service, as to the LORD and not to men. 8. Knowing that whatsoever good thing any man doeth, the same shall he receive of the LORD whether he be bond or free. 9. And ye masters, do the same things unto them, forbearing threatening: knowing that your master also is in Heaven; neither is there respect of persons with him. 10. Finally, my brethren, be strong in the LORD and in the power of his might. 11. Put on the whole armour of GOD, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. 12. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. 13. Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of GOD, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. 14. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the brestplate of righteousness; 15. And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace: 16. Above all, taking the shield of fatih, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. 17. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword the spirit which is the word of GOD. 18. Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the spirit and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints; 19. And for me, that utterance may be given unto me, that I may open my mouth boldly, to make know the mystery of the gospel. 20. For which I am an ambassador in bonds: that therein I may speak boldly as I ought to speak. 21. But that ye also may know my affairs, and how I do, Tychicus a beloved brother and faithful minster in the LORD, shall make know to you all things. 22. Whom I have sent unto you for the same purpose, that ye might know our affairs, and that he might comfort your hearts. 23. Peace be to the brethren and love with faith from GOD the Father and the LORD Jesus Christ. 24. Grace be with all them that love our LORD JESUS Christ in sincerity. Amen (To the Ephesians written from Rome, by Tychicus) 

No one could never replace my M O T H E R. My feelings are mutual when it comes to her. It was hard to see her without life in her body, but... to know that her soul is in Heaven, I know it! My M O T H E R was a "Legion of Love" and she was loved by everyone, known or unknown. She carried that sweet heart and sweet spirit everywhere she went.

When my M O T H E R went to glory on August 8, 2020, part of me went with her. It is hard to imagine life without my "Queen" but...with the help of GOD and his son JESUS, she helped guide me on the right path of righteousness. I acknowledge that very much to everyone who reads this post. My M O T H E R did so much for me, I can never repay her for what she has done for me in my lifetime. I miss times when me, my twin sister Sherri and I went to her favorite store "Ross." She would go into that store and get buried in the clothes in a heartbeat, while searching for that one dress to add to her collection of many dresses she had in her closet. 

Two hours she is in the store, while Sherri and I try to pull her out of the clothes. That was hard to do of course! But...Sherri and I let our M O T H E R shop as long as wanted to satisfy her needs to find a dress, or several dresses she wanted for church. My M O T H E R always shopped for a dress for church and other occasions that she was considering taking part of. She loved to shop that is all I got to say for a woman who dressed to perfection. 

I miss the times whenever Sherri, her husband Lorenzo, my son Zachary, and I would take a stroll in Lorenzo's SUV and we would go to Walmart, or to the Wawa, the fish market to buy fresh fish, or just riding around until the sunset over the horizon, my M O T H E R would always be in tow, no matter what. She was never left home...never! My M O T H E R was never lonely; never wanting to be alone. She basically rode all over the globe, especially when it came to traveling regional and international. My M O T H E R was ready and willing to travel with her suitcases already packed. I will miss that time with my M O T H E R the most. 

She loved hanging out with her classmates; since, she was on the executive board with planning Social gatherings: Banquets, Christmas Party's, Breakfasts celebration at the Recreation Center, or just getting  together with her classmates communicating about things that they loved and cherish. Either me, or Sherri would take our M O T H E R to these events. We never mind it at all, because...that was our M O T H E R. My thought...whatever benefits her enjoyment, Sherri and I made sure she had the luxury of getting there and having a awesome time at each event. 

My M O T H E R never quit, no matter how she felt being on dialysis, having diabetes, or feeling a little faint, that 70 year old woman would always push herself to beat all odds no matter how she was really feeling. I admired her strength totally in my heart. There were days when I thought I would not make it, and my M O T H E R was kicking boldly the rocks at full speed. I found myself honored and proud to have had "Mrs. Ruth Ann Thomas-Brunson" as my M O T H E R. My thoughts are totally clear when I carry this monologue I had about my M O T H E R. 

I can talk about her all day and stretching it out to the four winds of faith and peace when it came putting all my love I had for my M O T H E R, and still I still have that unconditional love for her in the grave. Everyone...love your M O T H E R unconditionally, because...once she gone, she is gone. You lose your whole word in a heartbeat. You cannot replace the "Queen" ever! She is the only one that bore you, nursed you, work almost 24 hours a day, sometimes without rest, gave love unconditionally. Everyone, love you M O T H E R while she is still on this earth, because...you will never get another M O T H E R in your lifetime. 

Our Legend Of Love Has Gone To Glory

Book 169

Copyright © 2020 by Author Terri Celestine Brunson

1 Thessalonians 4:13 - 14 - 13. But I would not have you to be ignorant, brethren, concerning them which are asleep, that ye sorrow not, even as others which have no hope. 14. For if we believe that JESUS died and rose again, even so them also which sleep in JESUS will GOD bring with him. 

1 Thessalonians 5:23 - 23. And the very GOD of peace sanctify you wholly; and I pray GOD your whole spirit and soul and body be preserved blameless unto the coming of our LORD JESUS Christ. 

Romans 14:8 - 8. For whether we live, we live unto the LORD; and whether we die, we die unto the LORD; whether we live therefore, or die, we are the LORD'S

Revelation 21:3 - 3. And I heard a great voice out of heaven saying, behold the tabernacle of GOD is with men and he will dwell with them, and they shall be his people and GOD himself shall be with them, and be their GOD. 

Synopsis:  This is a post that I will always hold dear to me and to my heart forever. My "Queen" is gone to GLORY! I want every one who reads this post to know that my M O T H E R was everything to me. This post will give who is viewing an idea of how much I loved my Queen. She was my entire world. 

I never got chance to tell my M O T H E R every thing I wanted to tell her before she passed away. I had so much to say to her. I had some things that I have done in my life to her that I wanted to apologize to her. I was not all bad about a lot of things I did in my life, but...there were some things that I have done to her that I wanted to apologize. I had this attitude about myself that I wanted to set straight with my M O T H E R. 

So, I went to South Florida Baptist Hospital where my M O T H E R  resided for almost two months.  I demanded that I see my M O T H E R in spite the COVID19. I was wearing a mask, but...I was determined to see her face to face so that I could tell her how I felt. Earlier that day as I give a timeline of what happened before I could give my apology, my M O T H E R had a cardiac attack during her Dialysis. She had died for 45 minutes, before she was revived. She had already a stroke two months before. 

But...with all that happened to her and being on a ventilator (life support) not breathing on her own, and being in a coma, I prayed that she could hear me even though when I apologized to her. I was wheelchair bound and on my way to my M O T H E R S room. I could not walk because I was so weak and numb dreading to see my M O T H E R in the state she was in. I arrived to my M O T H E R S room not knowing what to really expect. I saw my M O T H E R on a ventilator, wires were embedded into her neck and bags of fluids going into her veins. 

The nurses who were taking care of my M O T H E R had turned her towards me so that I could see her, because...I was not allowed to go into the room to see her, touch her, hug her, or kiss her, because...of the COVID19 virus had taken over every one's lives. I sat there in that wheelchair and I stared at my M O T H E R with tears in my eyes. It was a sight to see her hook up to everything I could think of her being hooked up to. She was not breathing on her own or responding to anything. My thoughts were, "I did not want to see my M O T H E R like she was and I wanted everything that she was hooked to taken off of her immediately."  

It was like, "I did not want to see my M O T H E R suffering anymore, because...she suffered enough throughout. She had a good 22 years since she had her magic kidneys and then after her kidneys shut down she been off and on Dialysis and that she had been in and out of the hospital." I knew that my M O T H E R would of wanted to be taken off of what was keeping her alive. Before I decided, I apologized to my M O T H E R for everything I did to her. I apologize for always yelling at my M O T H E R. I apologize for always trying to be right when I knew I was wrong for everything I done to upset my M O T H E R. I apologized for not being the daughter she wanted me to be. 

"In my heart, I know she heard my apology." I think about the times I did those things to my M O T H E R, all I be is ashamed of what I was to her. I cannot get back from my M O T H E R of what I should of been to her as her daughter in the first place. I got to live with that! I told my M O T H E R that I loved her unconditionally. 

And then...I made the hardest decision I had to make concerning my M O T H E R S fate." It took me 10 minutes to fill out the papers to remove the ventilator and all the bags of medications my mother was hooked to. I hesitated as I looked at my M O T H E R with tears in my eyes and then...I signed and I did not know how I signed, because...I had so many tears in my eyes. I was the last one to see my M O T H E R before I had the male nurse to take me away from my M O T H E R S hospital room, because...I did not want to see her nurses remove the ventilator or any of the medications she was hooked to. I would of been too painful to me. 

I was taken to my car by wheelchair, because...I was too numb to walk. As I looked back at the hospital, I wondered how long it would of taken after the ventilator and all the medicines and wires were taken off of my M O T H E R before she passed away peacefully, because...my M O T H E R looked like she was in total peace the last I saw of her. From the time I left the hospital, it was a little after 4:00 pm. It took almost 2 hours; my M O T H E R passed away very peacefully. She was in no more pain; she was not suffering; no more crying, no more Dialysis, no more in and out of the hospital. 

My M O T H E R was gone to GLORY! My sister Sherri, my brother Wesley, and I had to let our M O T H E R go, because...we did not want her to suffer anymore in her lifetime. We wanted her to have a wonderful life in Heaven as she lived a wonderful Christian life in the name of GOD and his son JESUS. Our M O T H E R was a beautiful woman in her FAITH and in her HEART. Especially...in love for every one known and unknown. "She was a Legend of Love!"

The Book Of Ruth

Book 168

Copyright © 2020 by Author Terri Celestine Brunson

*Links for COVID19

Ruth 1:21 - 21. I went out full, and the LORD hath brought me home again empty; why then call ye me Naomi, seeing the LORD hath testified against me, and the Almighty hat afflicted me?

Ruth 4:15 - 15. And he shall be unto thee a restorer of thy life, and a nourisher of thine old age: for thy daughter in law, which loveth thee, which is better to thee than seven sons, hath born him. 

I found out within a blink of an eye that my MOTHER Ruth's condition was deteriorating and that she may have to go into hospice, because...when you are in hospice, there was nothing more anyone could do but to make MOTHER comfortable. For her...I know that GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time and I know that my pilots will bring my MOTHER through her time of despair after having a stroke. I find that it looked as if my MOTHERS doctor's has already written her off just for extra beds during the COVID19. My MOTHER was deteriorating in my mind since I cannot go to the hospital and see her under the circumstances of the COVID19. 

I believed that my MOTHERS deterioration was due to the fact that she cannot see her family. She really needed her family for support. My family and I cannot see what is really happening with our MOTHER while she is in the hospital. I remembered something that my MOTHER said to my twin sister Sherri while on the phone with Sherri, "Are you all mad with me is the reason you are not coming to see me?" That was the last real conversation that Sherri and our MOTHER Ruth had with each other before she could not say anything else anymore.

Sherri assured our MOTHER that we (our immediate family) was not mad with her at all. We could not go to the hospital to see our MOTHER at any cost due to the COVID19 virus. That was the precautions that my family and I had to take in order to endure what our MOTHER and our immediate family are going through. It seemed as if we were in a nightmare knowing that my family and I do not have any real answers from my MOTHERS doctor's to help us understand what was really going on with my MOTHER and her prognosis since she recovered a little from her stroke. Her prognosis was the main source of information that we needed to understand my MOTHERS condition.

I felt as if the doctor's and nurses were going against protocol and holding back from my family and I the information that me and my family should know about. Sherri have been keeping me and our brother Wesley Jr. updated on our MOTHERS condition, since she is in fact the oldest. It was after 5:00 pm that day and I asked Sherri on our MOTHERS condition. Sherri have not heard from our MOTHERS doctor, but...she said that she was fine, because...she had conversed with a social worker about our MOTHERS health and condition, so, it was nothing to be worried about. It was late in the afternoon, and my MOTHERS condition seemed to have improved. 

Sherri had spoken to our MOTHER over the phone, since we cannot go and see her due to the COVID19 virus. Our MOTHER turned her head to the receiver and grunted into the phone to Sherri. Sherri and I felt that was a good sign that our MOTHER will be talking not soon, but...whenever GOD and his son JESUS see fit for our MOTHER to talk; our MOTHER will talk. We both knew that it would be a long drawn out process for our MOTHER. Sherri and I will not rush it! 

We will give our MOTHER all the time she need to recuperate from her stroke. The was the happiest moment of my life just to know that my MOTHER grunted into the phone to Sherri for the first time in a month. MOTHER is still not moving her right side (leg and arm) her left side, she is moving just fine. We feared that our MOTHER will be partially paralyzed that is for sure and that she will be in a wheelchair for quite sometime until it is time for her to receive physical therapy. GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time. 

Even though...my MOTHER is the same position she is in and that is how Sherri, Wesley Jr., and I will see her when she comes out of the hospital. My MOTHER is paralyzed on her right arm and leg...virtually her whole right side. Her left side of her body, she has motor skills. There will be no therapy required until my MOTHER comes back to herself. One week and a half later...my MOTHER seemed to have recovered more from what I thought was depression from not being able to see her family due to the COVID19.

She is moving the left side of her body; she is alert and responsive to sound and voices; she is opening her eyes and closing them; she cannot speak, nor move her right side at all, but...she is more responsive than anything we imagined. MOTHER is slowly coming back to us in a nutshell. It will be a while before my MOTHER recovers from everything that she has been through. Me and my family will be doing a lot of praying while she continues to recover from her ordeal. 

All me and my family know is that MOTHER will need total care no matter what we say or how we feel as much as we hate it, our MOTHER will have to be sent to a nursing home for her total care. With Sherri and I and my brother-in-law Lorenzo disabled, there is nothing more we could do to give my MOTHER the total care she needed to make her feel comfortable; she will have to go to a nursing home for her total care. It makes me sad of the thought of a nursing home, but...that was the only option me and my family had in reality for our MOTHER. I had wished if it was another way, or another option that we could come up with to secure our MOTHERS safety. Only GOD and his son JESUS only knew the answer to that. 

It was only obvious that the nursing home was me and my family's last option, and only GOD and his son JESUS will take care of our MOTHER throughout her care. All we could do is pray. As I update on my MOTHERS condition, "Praise GOD and his son JESUS Christ for bringing my MOTHER out of her catharsis state. She is now talking! She know who we are (Sherri, Wesley Jr. and I) and it's like we are now a whole family again. My MOTHER got a lot of rehabilitation to go threw and she will be fine in the mighty name of GOD and his son JESUS. My pilots has answered all of our prayers!

M O T H E R

Book 167 - Special Edition Post - Our Queen, The Matriarch

Copyright © 2020 by Author Terri Celestine Brunson

2 Kings 4:30 - 30. And the mother of the child said, as the LORD liveth, and as they soul liveth, I will not leave thee. And he arose, and followed her. 

Isaiah 66:13 - 13. As one whom his mother comforteth, so will I comfort you; and ye shall be comforted in Jerusalem. 

Sherri, Wesley Jr., and I longed for our MOTHER to be there for us when we needed her to be there for us. There was nothing that could pull us away from her even if she's not doing her best, we are there for her in spirit and in spirit...her every need. It is hard sometimes to know that we cannot be there at the time when things are so uncharted and so unclear to us. Sherri, Wesley Jr., and I know that GOD and his son JESUS is there on time when our MOTHER need them the most. Her time away from us is so precious, dear, and sweet. 

Sherri, Wesley Jr., and I know that our MOTHERS voice will not be silenced for long, nor her immobile status will not see to exist for as long as we know that GOD and his son JESUS is good all the time. We bring new hope to the table and we lay it down with the possibilities of what may occur when our MOTHER...the queen of the universe is not 100 times the fathom we want her to be. Those fathoms turn into security wrapped around Sherri, Wesley Jr., and I with our emotions and in our thoughts. Some codes are not made to figure out just how concerned we are when it comes to our MOTHER. She is the queen, our matriarch! 

How can we hold our composure; how can we keep our emotions intact without shedding an ounce of despair? It is quite obvious what is known to be true by faith from the ones above. GOD is good all the time! And there is nothing that could beat our pilots giving, if asked in their name and that Sherri, Wesley Jr., and I pray as hard as we could withstand the love that GOD and his son JESUS has for us and our MOTHER to come back to us a 1000 and 1 bubbly presents. We can see as far as the horizon when it comes to our MOTHER being in the center our world. 

Our queen, our matriarch...where art thou in our thoughts? We know that you will return with glory and strength. That would be a joy to see! It is a once in a lifetime gift wrapped in our prayers, our faith, our trust, our belief, and our joy. Sherri, Wesley Jr., and I will meet our MOTHER again when things are not so uncharted. 

Our MOTHERS charts will not be so uncharted for long once she began to blossom like a flower in a spring breeze. Then...we will know that our MOTHER is growing closer to us than we ever imagined her to be watered with purity. Our queen, the matriarch...GOD and his son JESUS got you when there is nothing more to worry about or to do. Your strength will be revised to you a 1000 times more than you ever imagined it would be. Patience has its abundance when it is not rushed, only if it is given with time in the name of our father GOD, and in the name your son JESUS, and in the name of the HOLY Spirit...it is done!.

The Wisdom of the Mitchell and Brunson Family

Book 166 - Special Edition Post - A Real Family

Ephesians 2:8 - 9 - 8. For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves it is the gift of GOD. 

Hebrews 11:6 - 6. But without faith it is impossible to please him for he that cometh to GOD must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him. 

Mark 16:16 - 16. He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned. 

Romans 10:10 - 10. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. 

There were many things that the Brunson and Mitchell family's did not take for granted, and that was love, happiness, trust, belief, faith, and glory. There was nothing we would do for family. We hang out together no matter where we were on the globe. My family and I would always be together. There was something in our lives that was too painful to take. 

It was not my FATHER this time, It was my MOTHER is the light of our lives. She got stuck down by a stroke almost a month ago without notice. I was told by my twin sister Sherri around 11:30 that night when I was getting ready for bed that our MOTHER was sick and that she had to go to the nearest hospital for care. I raced over to my brother-in-law Lorenzo's mother house to see what was going on with my MOTHER. When I arrived, my MOTHER was being placed in back of an ambulance. 

She looked like nothing was wrong with her. She was talking and looking around while the paramedics were securing her in the back of the ambulance. Sherri and I were then told by one of the paramedics that our MOTHER will be taken to the nearest hospital for treatment, because...he believed at that moment that she was having a possible stroke. Sherri and I was in shock about what the paramedic had told us. Sherri had told me that day when our MOTHER told her that she was in pain behind her left eye and that her left eye was incredibly red like a blood vessel had ruptured throughout her eye.

She also said that our MOTHER had just had dinner that night.No one thought no more about that something silently was going on with our MOTHER. While my MOTHER was eating, she had dropped her fork on the floor and began to lay back on the sofa. Sherri notice our MOTHER laid back on the sofa unresponsive. She told me that she immediately call 911 emergency at that moment to come out to the house and that our MOTHER did not feel well at all at that moment. Then...I received the call to come over to Lorenzo's mother's house to check on my MOTHER. At that moment, I did not waste anytime getting my clothes and shoes from my night attire. 

And that was the timeline of what I saw when I arrived at Lorenzo mother's house to see my MOTHER in the back of the ambulance. Sherri and I stood there in the yard as we watched our mother leave in the ambulance to South Florida Baptist Hospital. It was the nearest hospital to take my MOTHER for treatment, even though...I did not like that hospital for its history for how they treated their patient and not getting certain things done to improve the quality of the hospital. So with that said, my MOTHER had to receive immediate care. My family and I had to remain outside of the hospital, because of the COVID19 virus. 

I was very worried about my mother, because...of the COVID19 virus. I prayed as she was inside of the hospital that she would not contract the virus. Thirty minutes into my MOTHERS hospital visit, a nurse came out to meet with me and Sherri about our MOTHERS condition. She had informed us that our MOTHER had a stroke and that she had to air lifted to a hospital in Tampa, Florida. Our MOTHER was air lifted to St. Joseph's Hospital. It was one of the best hospitals for patients who experience what my MOTHER experienced during her time of despair. 

Sherri and I were totally worried about our MOTHER, because...her situation was a matter of life and death when she was flown to St. Joseph's Hospital in Tampa. We were distraught about what was going to happen with our MOTHER. Tears beaded down our faces as I tried to drive to Tampa following the helicopter. Sherri had gotten a call to turn around and go home from a nurse South Florida Baptist Hospital, because...there was no need for us to go to St. Joseph's Hospital. We were going to sit outside of the hospital anyway, because...of the COVID19 virus. No one was allowed through the hospital entrance where the patients were, or in the lobby crowding around. 

Sherri and I started back home so that we could inform our family about our MOTHER serious condition. It took less than twenty minutes for us to reach home. As soon as Sherri and I walked in the door of Lorenzo's mother's home, we started praying for our MOTHERS recovery. Continuously distraught, Sherri and I parted ways. I told Sherri and Lorenzo that I would come back over as soon as the sun came up good and when I gotten myself cleaned up. 

Our family came together to pray for our MOTHERS recovery. Wesley had came around to the house later that day, so that we could comfort each other in our time of despair. Our MOTHER was totally important to us and we did not want anything to happen to her in the midst of her stroke and the situation that she was in as she was placed in the intensive care unit at St. Joseph's Hospital. Sherri, Lorenzo, Wesley, and I could only pray for our MOTHERS recovery from her stroke and that would come out from that catharsis state that she was in. All that we knew, we knew in our hearts that our MOTHER would recover and that it was going to take some time until she was able to become mobile again with her body and that she will be able to become verbal to tell us that she will be alright.