Book 51
*Just to let everyone know, this post was "provoked" intentionally by my cousin who just don't understand what was really done, or said to my family and I under the microscope. Sugarcoating was a huge part of deceit blinded by guilt. "The main source of this matter (not anonymous) is far from the truth and she needs to look no farther than her own home where the magnitude of deception rears it's deceitful head."
*My FATHER'S words: Bold and Italic
Deuteronomy 28:7 - 7. The LORD shall cause thine enemies that rise up against thee to be smitten before thy face: they shall come out against thee one way, and flee before thee seven ways.
Psalms 37: 1 - 40 at its "Entire" Chapter
My immediate family and I had left well enough alone when I posted "Vengeance Is GOD, It's In His Hands" back on the 31st of January of this year. I remember it was Book 37. We left all of our frustrations, despair and grief from my father's demise in the hands of GOD and his son JESUS. Then all of a sudden...14 books later, Lucifer's imp (Angel) starts up again with a tweet from Twitter that provoked this post to come as I see fitting the character of ones ignorance without an ounce of sugarcoating my raft. This is the tweet in question:
A woman so beautiful and velvety looks absolutely beautiful on the outside, but what's on the inside? I see a display of ignorance and a human heart donor without an ounce of remorse for my family, or for myself. "Losing a parent is no joke!" She thinks my family and I didn't love my FATHER and that we never gave him a present for Father's Day. "Who told her that we didn't give my Father a present for Father's Day?
"Remember what was said at the beginning of my post posted in
RED." Why was it so hard for her to understand the possible outcome of being on the outside looking in when the real truth was sugarcoated by deception from the guilt of ones loins? What the heck did she know if she wasn't there to see my family and I give my Father gifts, cards and dinner invites.
Father's Day is coming up in June. She has the luxury of a FATHER on Father's Day. She get to see her father everyday of her life. My family and I don't have that luxury. My family and I will be spending our first Father's Day without my FATHER in our mist. One day she will 'clearly' understand how it feel not to have one, or both of her parents. It's been hard brick road every single day to try and put all the pieces of the puzzle back together again.
It's not easy holding back tears every single day. Yes...we might of not been there all the time for my FATHER, but...we loved him then and we still love him now...even in the grave. I need to display the real truth of the matter when it comes to my FATHER. GOD and his son JESUS bless his soul and may he rest in peace. But this must be said so that I can be completely understood when it comes to my family and I when we lived without my FATHER in our home for over 30+ years.
My mother Ruth, my twin sister Sherri, and my brother Wesley Jr. before he met his beautiful wife Neyome and married her back on August 29th 2015 in a half American and Sri Lankan wedding. We went through a lot of Hades knowing that my father was out traveling with other women and families around the globe...never giving my MOTHER the time of day to enjoy life after their children were grown and out of the nest. It was suppose to be their time to stretch their wings together and fly around the world. So...my mother, my twin sister and brother let him go...so that he can do what he wanted with those other women and their families.
"It was like...giving my father the opportunity to go and do as he please...like getting all what was in his system out when he was out in the world of despair."
My family and I did not interfere anymore after that. The only thing that didn't stop was our love for him unconditionally. We let my father go until he couldn't go anymore. Then the women left him after he was all dried out physically, emotionally and financially before becoming disabled and wasn't of any use to the women and their families anymore, before buying himself a campaign...which was his dog Sheba. After my father was down and out, we came; we saw; we washed and fed; I held father in my arms like a baby and gave him back rubs and we gave our lives to take care of him, love him unconditionally when he was ill until his death.
Yes...we did know about 'some' of his fiances when receipts and word of mouth were displayed to his immediate family unconditionally. I felt he was going into his retirement to fund his luxurious lifestyle with those women and their families and the Mercedes he bought back in the 90's. Believe me...my research and homework was done years ago. What I knew then and back when and now was reality. I would like for my beautiful and velvety cousin to understand stand me fully when I say this, "Know what really happen before you display your opinion on social media."
Believe me...I knew about my father's way of life when he was out in the world for 30+ years before he got his soul saved again by GOD and his son JESUS. Sweetie...you don't know what happened and you never will know baby if you're on the outside looking in and don't know the flavor of our kool-aid.
You had your father around everyday of your life. Please my love...enjoy him while he still living! There is a lot I regret and admit...so I don't sugarcoat my feelings, or hide behind a mask.
I display and quietly shout out my feelings in my writing, so I could completely be understood without throwing a punch with my fists. "I'm a lady first!" So as I said in Book 37 of my blogs posts, "Vengeance is GOD's, It's In His Hands", so I'm done! My family is done! We want no more part of ones indiscretions, or a family who don't realize that their reaping day is coming and it's coming with a vengeance for every single thing that happened almost a year ago this coming June.
We got to live with it! Now let us live in peace, because we want no part of the innuendos, indiscretions, the tearing each other down, or faces of deceit. My family and I are completely done emotionally, mentally, and physically! Before I close this post...let me give you a little bonus. My father's last words 2 days before he died with witnesses in the room (better known as his immediate family) to me as I stood over him. He looked me directly in the eyes when he said with his shallow voice,
"Get Minnie away from me; I didn't want to come home from the hospital!" And before I knew it, he went on to say to me as he stared me with a straight face with his eyes partially closed,
"She's killing me!" Now everyone know my raft and why everything is what it is when it comes to my FATHER and my family and through my posts.
My dear cousin...know the facts before you display on social media. I research before I display on social media. I just want you know this, "I will never forget what my FATHER said that (I never told anyone until this day) out of my head for as long as I live." That word of mouth coming from my FATHER from his own mouth and with enough oxygen going through his nose into his body will be instilled in my head for all infinity. What my family and I did for and with my father when he was alive was always under the microscope to everyone.
"You wasn't there to know what was done, said, or planned with my father!" So understand me fully when I say this my beautiful velvety China doll, "The damage is done and it can't be corrected." The Patriarch of both families (the remaining siblings and my immediate family) is gone for infinity. All my family and I want do is move on with our lives. We've had enough! Enough!
Leave it alone, because I did with your family. So please my beautiful velvety cousin, "Enjoy your "living" father for Father's Day and everyday after that for as long as he live and leave my deceased father (who my immediate and family and I will never see again) who is in his grave that my family and I will never touch again, laugh with again, or joke around with him again when he was living when he was still communicating with his immediate family until almost the end of his life and missing the awesome taste and smell of his barbecue again alone." Let us all move on with life! My family and I don't have strength for any of this nonsense ever again. DITTO!
So...Lousondra (Angel) Wright...you keep laughing at me and my family on our grief and about Father's Day without my deceased FATHER. With this post, 'You're feeling my raft with a vengeance!" You will definitely feel the raft, the grief, the hurt and the lies that were over shadowed by the source that started it all with my family almost a year ago one day in your life. I would of never did you, or to your family in that way, ever!
Please...my dear, read Psalms 37: 1 - 40 at it entirety. -- Know my dear...where your boasting, smiling and maybe laughing on my family's grief and what was done, or should of been done, has been done, your reaping for your 'big beautiful smile' is "noted"in GOD's and his son JESUS eyes for what you and yours did to my FATHER ultimately, to my family and to myself on our hurt; this is my teaching to you..older woman to young woman.
So...keep smiling dear, "Smile big!", because it will be wipe off your face when life challenges you and is done with you in the long run when its not funny any more. Never boast, or smile wide on someone's hurt, or what should of been done, or grief. "It's a dangerous thing to do!" Welcome to the consequences and the repercussions of your actions that you will be experiencing when vengeance is GOD's.
