Caution: The content of my post speaks a tone of volumes about my feelings towards some of my extended family members. I'm still trying to basically understand where (My mother, my twin sister, my brother and his wife Neyome and even Zachary) went wrong. I think I know some of the answers...then again...I'm just guessing nonetheless. What I'm trying to figure, is the whole concept of some of my extended family's actions towards my mother, twin sister, my brother and his wife, my son and I before and since my father's death nearly a month ago. "Where in the 'SAM Hades' did this unwanted attitude, dramatic mayhem, spasms, havoc and chaos come from?" Maybe...and I say...just maybe I will have an answer once I'm done writing. Then again...maybe I want! For everyone visiting...If I seem to complain about what I'm disclosing to everyone worldwide in my post...please don't judge me! My mother Ruth, my twin sister Sherri, my brother Wesley and his wife Neyome, even my son Zachary and I went through a lot, especially my siblings and I most of our lives. How we felt growing up in a family who seem to forget what was important to us in our lives growing up was, "The essence of a Family!" I for one and my immediate family chose to give up on some of our extended family members when my dad's eyes closed for infinity.
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What more can I say about some of my extended family who seemed to have forgotten where they started in life before they had any value in life, "Their roots!" I find it very sad that ignorance, extreme dramatic mayhem, spasms, havoc and chaos has gotten the best of some of my extended family. For my twin sister Sherri, my brother Wesley Jr. and his wife Neyome, my mother Ruth, my son Zachary and I...the members of that extended family has been "out" rated. I felt my immediate family and I have been lied to for many years when it comes to having a real family to gather around, go to events, spend quality time and all the holidays with. "I don't understand the real concept of what went wrong with some of my extended family before and after my dad's death," There was a moment in my life when I remember going out to my grandmother Bertha's grave site. I had a deep feeling come over me all the while I stood there over her grave. I said during that brief moment, "My grandmother Bertha was not rested and I thought, "My father and my aunt Celestine is not rested!" My first thought was that my father, grandmother and aunt will never rest in their graves until some of my extended family members settle their ignorant past without redemption towards healing all wounds between both extended and my immediate family instead of being thrown on the other side of the horizon and forgotten to a certain extent of non existence. I know I don't have the time or the patience to try and keep up with people I don't really know that much about anymore and are willing to forget about, since the Patriarch (Dad) is now deceased. I know for a fact that the people I knew as some of my extended family members are sparing no expense acting as they are truly the Joneses. They are truly doing a incredible job at it too, if you ask me! The one thing in my protocol I'm not considering is that when it comes to my immediate family, there is nothing to be jealous about in a sense when it comes to some of my extended family who are still ignorant to the fact of pushing away other extended family members and my immediate family who only wanted more than to bond as a "whole" family once again...is now no more infinity. "What was so bad about wanting to build on a brittle and broken family tree?" There was a memory I will never forget (that still hurts me until this day) before I close this post. I remember some time ago I did a (Go Fund Me) project for my autistic son Zachary, I really needed the help with expenses for my sons "Neuro" therapy. Each session of Zach's therapy would of cost me (and that's one of the best Neuro doctors in the City of Lakeland at the time of residence) $650.00 each session, including insurance already paid. I wanted my son Zachary to receive therapy before his problems and my problems with dealing with autism got worse. So...I decided to advertise my sons Go Fund Me project on Facebook, Twitter, and other social media sites. "I thank GOD for receiving just $30.00 within a 5 month period I had my sons Go Fund Me project up and running (before I decided it was no more use to keep it alive and running) So...I decided to remove my sons Go Fund Me project from all social media sites. I thank GOD and his son JESUS for my aunt Johanna and a woman from Texas for donating to my son Zachary Go Fund Me project. I even donated myself. No one else, not even from my extended family on "either side" donated to my sons Go Fund Me project. "It was sad to think that no one seemed to care about my son, especially from family." My son Zachary's problem with his Autism has gotten worse all the way around and I still can't afford to pay for his neuro therapy. "I know GOD and his son JESUS got something in store for my son Zachary. He will to finally receive Neuro therapy he so desperately need in so that he will be able to live a normal life. I'm very patient. I know GOD will provide for Zachary. From that point, I decided that enough is enough with at least some of my extended family. I thought, "Why continue wasting time on a some of my extended family members who forgot where they came before they had anything in valuable in life; who took my immediate family through Hades and back and Hades again and again for the past six months during and after my father's death?" I'm done completely! I'm focusing on my immediate family, even if it's without the patriarch of our family, "That is all that matters to me now!" I would not change it for the world. Even though, I'm still trying to come to reality that dad is gone from this earth. There is so much more I want to say about my immediate and some of my extended family's broken family tree, but I still don't have all the answers completely to continue this post. "So I was right!" "I still don't have all the answers I need to determine why everything went so wrong with both family's, All I can think of and totally see so far in this matter is "greed" and more greed. That's all there is to the matter of this brittle and broken family tree. There are no more concepts! I think I'll give this entire issue to GOD and his son JESUS almighty." My immediate family and I are so tired of the concept of being tired of being sick and tired of everything that has escalated during the past six months before and after my dads's death. We just want to move on with life from the ignorance, dramatic mayhem, spasms, havoc and the chaos. I think what is best to say is that my immediate family and I are going to start building on for (ourselves including the extended family members who has supported my immediate family from day one) our bruised, no name, broken family tree...restoring its brittle broken branches and its yellow leaves back to it's full blossom and glory without the extended family members who has brought us tears, pain, redemption, scandalous mayhem, heartbreak and my dad's death earlier than he had to leave (even though it was GOD and his son JESUS will to take dad even though the concept) sense day one. You know...I'm glad my dad isn't suffering on this earth anymore. He's gone through a whole lot...more than anyone know. I thought...why shouldn't dad rest now? That is what counts in my heart. RIP daddy...you deserve it! Your immediate family is now building on that family tree we wish you could always be a part of infinity.
"Our Family is asking everyone for prayer (whomever see this post) worldwide. We will appreciate everyone and we will acknowledge everyone prayers to the family in heart, mind, body and soul."
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