When All You Have To Be Thankful For Is Family

Book 92 - Special Edition Post

Psalms 107:22 - 22. And let them sacrifice the sacrifice of Thanksgiving, and declare his works with rejoicing.




Its Thanksgiving today. So many people celebrate this day like no other celebration in the world. Lots of food and family gather around different tables, observing the food that was given unto there from GOD and his son JESUS. We all give thanks for the abundance of each morsel cooked and thank GOD and his son JESUS for our lives, health and strength. We all sit down and eat.

For me...thanks not the real meaning of Thanksgiving. For me... Thanksgiving is about my immediate family circle. I give thanks that I have my immediate circle today. No one in my extended family, or in the equation of extended family members celebrate with my immediate family circle...ever. But you know what, "My immediate family members always have each other."

I find that a true blessing, no matter how I present it here today as I write this post. GOD and his son JESUS has bought my immediate family and I a very...very long way from desperate measures of being completely ignored in every event we have (or just family time) and the narcissistic hearts of my extended family. Even when I thought we were coming together as one 'family unit' I still have doubts if we'll ever come together again. My immediate family and I still live with the fact that we still don't get invited anywhere for family get together, or just have family time by our extended family members.

But you know what, "I've been dealing with a lot of things since my FATHER'S death and I'm totally thankful that I have my small immediate family circle for Thanksgiving." That's truly a blessing to have people who always do things together and have fun at the same time doing the things my immediate family and I love to do. Simply...that's all I need for Thanksgiving to celebrate. I wouldn't take it back for nothing in the whole world. Who's the say if having a group of people you love the most (immediate family) is enough to celebrate to celebrate the Thanksgiving holiday?

I say that my immediate family circle is more than enough to celebrate Thanksgiving in it's abundance and then some. I'm very proud of that and I'm truly thankful to have my immediate family circle to gather around one huge table and celebrate what many families around the world celebrate each year, for hundreds of years. Now that...I would give up for nothing in the whole world. Love around table, we take into our hearts forever and ever. I thank GOD and his son JESUS for my immediate family circle and the food we are about to eat around and about our beautiful table this year.

When Words Of Wisdom Means Everything

Book 91 - Special Edition Post

Proverbs 1:2 - 3 2. To know wisdom and instruction; to perceive the words of understanding. 3. To receive the instruction of wisdom, justice and judgement, and equity

It's coming up on the day that my FATHER told me he couldn't breathe. How can I come to terms with that? How can I come terms with the fact that my FATHER (not knowing at the time...in three days) that he was going to die? Who could of prodicted that my FATHER'S dying would happen? There were many question I had to ask to make since of what was about to happen.

It's been hard this past year and eleven months and two weeks exactly. But...I thank GOD and his son JESUS for bringing me through my trials and tribulations that I've endured.  There was not one day I don't think about him. But there are days I must come to terms with my FATHER'S death. It's time to do so and move on with life.

I know I must come to terms and move on. My sister-in-law told me something that made me think about the time my FATHER showed more love to my extended family instead of his immediate family, even in sickness and on his death bed. Don't get me wrong, I did love my FATHER, still do. I finally figured out some things that made me think about what's totally important, thanks to my sister-in-law Neyome. She is truly a GOD send. Thanks to her inspirational words of encouragement.

I see things now in a better light than I did when I was still weeping for my FATHER. I can now let go of my FATHER and really move on with life. It doesn't feel right some times when I come to think about my FATHER and what he really wanted was his siblings and my cousins more than he wanted his immediate family. That's okay with me now. Blood is more thicker than water.

Water was what me and my imediate family were, and that's what we will always be to his extended family. I could live with the fact that we were never wanted by my FATHER'S extended family and by my FATHER in a whole lot of ways. I can now live with that. I have no regrets about anything anymore. I've learned from from and given words of wisdom, and from my wonderful sister-in-law Neyome.

She sees things that no one else could see in an instant. The goodness in people and the faults in people that I wasn't aware of. Neyome saw that. I'm pretty much thankful for that. I see myself as a whole and no one could ever take that from me now.

The tears has stopped completely. I can now let go of my FATHER...move on. Let him rest in peace. I'm happy about that if only a brief moment. Im fine with it now.