Nothing But Reality And Memories

Book 84

Ephesians 6:17 - 18 - 17. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the world of GOD; 18. Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;







There are days I just sit around and do nothing. I sit around with so many memories of my father  floating around in my head, I still can't put all the pieces of together. It's like a puzzle. None of the pieces fit but reality, that's it. I know I must let go the past and start living for today.

I know that I've said this so many times through out my posts on this blog, but I believe this time I've decided to let go what was once was and live for today and GOD and his son JESUS willing...tomorrow. GOD is good all the time. I believe that with all my heart. I know that I must let this old thing called relex, or old clothes go, so that I can be forgiven by my pilots above. I'm starting to see what my twin sister Sherri has been preaching to me for so many months past advanced.

 Yes! I will miss my FATHER very much. That will not change in a heartbeat. I believe this is why I have the strength to move on, because I've been praying a lot more to GOD and his son JESUS for comfort, guidance and understanding. That's all can do. Sorry so short, because everything that has been done and said is reality.

What Is Life Without The One You Loved The Most?

Book 83

Exodus 14:14 - 14. The LORD shall fight for you, and ye shall hold your peace.




I think life is getting much much easier for me and my immediate family to endure with such wonderful gifts it has to offer us. I got be be truthful about my feelings though. I'm beginning to come to reality about the death of my FATHER. I'm hardly crying. I think more about how wonderful it is to know that my FATHER has made it to HEAVEN. I know he did.

Its almost time to celebrities the memorandum of his life and move on, because I know my FATHER is in the bosom GOD and his son JESUS. I'm pretty happy about that, even though...I will always miss him very much indeed. It would of been my FATHER'S 68th birthday had he lived. I'm planning to place eighteen roses on his tombstone. One for each of his immediate family members.

The six white flowers will symbolize his immediate family (his wife, his three children and spouses) the thirteen roses that are left will symbolize his grand children and their soon to be spouses and great grand children. It will a hard day with tears to match, but I will be just fine. Really I will! But...I will never forget the chain of events that occurred before and after my FATHER'S death and Minnie Lou causing all that havoc and chaos and still doing it this present time. I'm not going to let her indiscretions ruin my post, because I'm happy and GOD and his son JESUS vengeance is still on the horizon for her to reap what she sow for what she did to my FATHER and his immediate family and her own remaining siblings. What more can I say or discuss in this matter, but to let GOD and his son JESUS deal with Minnie Lou and finally move on until give me something to talk about and what needs to told in order people to know who she really is.

But...I'm not going to dawn on what once was, that is now and I'm hoping will not remain a constant reminder of what happened to my FATHER in general. GOD and his son JESUS is in charge here and I will continue to give my problems and my situation with Minnie Lou and Barbara Dixon (of whom I'm also including) to my pilots. Vengeance is their virtue! Maybe someday my family will get back to normal fully and continue to move on with life. Moretheless...me!