The Penetrating Scar That Will Last For All Eternity

Book 124

Psalms 16:3 - 3. But to the saints that are in the earth, and to the excellent, in whom is all my delight.
             27:7 - 7. Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice; have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
             39:12 - 12. Hear my prayer, O LORD, and give ear unto my cry; hold not they peace at my tears; for I am a stranger with thee, and a sojourner, as all my fathers were.
             56:9 - 9. When I cry unto thee, then shall mine enemies turn back: this I know; for GOD is for me. 
             57:2 - 2. I will cry unto GOD most high; unto GOD that perfrometh all things for me. 
Isaiah 58:9 - 9. Then shalt thou call, and the LORD shall answer; thou shalt cry, and he shall say, Here I am. If thou take away from the midst of thee the yoke, the putting forth of the finger, and speaking vanity.
John 12:46 - 46. I am come a light into the world, that whosoever believeth on me should not abide in darkness.
Hebrews 13:5 - 5. Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. 




Who knows why things happen when you're living with a deep gash of a scar that effects my life each and every day, no matter the time, or minute, or micro second? I don't think I'll ever heal from that deep gash! What happen to my FATHER effects me when I least expect it to dawn on me like a bad memory. I know that everyone who reads this, get tired of me talking about my FATHER, but...he's the reason why I write about him consistently, so that I can gain some sort of comfort for what happened to him and my immediate family and I when life as I expected had gone totally bad. When you got Satan (Minnie Lou) on the other side of the horizon effecting everything that meant something to us, then I have a reason to talk about it and then some, so that the whole world will know her and what she did.

My FATHER is the reason why I express every trial and tribulation and the hell of what my immediate family and I went through with my ex aunt Minnie Lou and her blanket Power of Attorney over my FATHER'S life. I was in church today fellow-shipping with the body ("bride" in the book of Revelation) of the church. My cousin Amanda came up to my mother and I and gave us a sweet hug...acknowledging our presents. All of a sudden...my mother spoke about my FATHER and how Minnie Lou deceived our immediate family through her blanket Power of Attorney over my FATHER'S life. I gave Amanda the complete truth about what happened to my FATHER.

It was something she couldn't possibly know about when it came to the magnitude of what effects me to thus day. So...I had to give Amanda a brief refresher course of what happen during the last fateful six months of my FATHER'S life. First thing's first...I had to tell her about the last thing my FATHER said to me at close range, before he closed his eyes for all eternity. He said, "Keep Minnie away from me, I didn't want to come from the hospital, because...she's killing me!"  How do I cope with that on my own?

I can only ask GOD and his son JESUS for comfort, because I'm never going to forget what was like a thorny bush within reach for me to get poked. Who could forget what was once was after it happened? I know within a ounce of emotion, I will never forget those words my FATHER said towards the end of his life. My tears are real and plain as day as they continue to thus day when they roll down my face. My FATHER didn't deserve to be overdosed with morphine as instructed by Minnie Lou to the hospice nurse secretly behind closed doors.

I don't care what kind of comfortable she tried to administer like that morphine, my FATHER didn't deserve for his life to be cut short like it did. I will never forget it the day Minnie Lou helped my FATHER into a casket. Never! "Woe beyond the day Minnie Lou made sure the amount of morphine administered to my FATHER was fatal." Only jumping through hoops will fathom her fall, but...it will not clear her from the actual cost of reaping and sowing the possible consequences and the repercussions and everything she put my immediate family and I through with that blanket Power of Attorney and her extremely nasty disposition...she will ultimately suffer within that fate...only in the eyes of the GOD and his son JESUS she will suffer.

Bringing Down The Barbecue

Book 123

Matthew 18:20 - 20. For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.

John 13:34 - 34. A new commandment I give unto you, that ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.




I find myself sitting alone in the living room writing this post to my advantage. I'm sitting here thinking about where my next great idea is going to come from, and when it will take place. I decided to give it a name that is unique to my knowledge. It's, "Bringing Down The Barbecue" it's a name that brings new meaning to a great time that my family and I had in celebration of my nephew Lorenzo, and my niece Octavia's 🎂 Birthday Celebration. My brother-in-law Lorenzo Sr. cooked the barbecue (chicken, hot dogs, hamburger and steaks) the rest of us, just partied hearty.

My twin sister Sherri and I did the rest of the cooking as usual. Homemade barbecue baked beans and macaroni and cheese was the main part of our barbecue menu. It gave more texture and more love when it came to bringing down the barbecue. My family and I enjoyed every single minute together eating...most of us drinking virgin drinks and the rest, well...you know! We would always talk about old times, good times and conversations that were new and present at that particularly brief moment that would bring out a laugh, or a frown of sadness.

But...our family's conversations were very polite and totally tasteful. That's how we liked communicating with one another. Most of the time I found myself dazing out of commission from my family's conversations in thought of my FATHER when I looked at his picture in the middle of all the excitement. I remembered how it was when he barbecued. Boy...I miss his awesome barbecue.

I guess when my family and I have these get togetherness, I think of my FATHER and what it could of been if he was here enjoying these timeless moments with us as family. Wow! It's just I miss my FATHER so much when my family and I barbecue. Given in the memories we continue to share with him is only a brief moment my family and I will continue to carry in time.

Afterwords...I bring myself back from my daze to the barbecue and family. I continued to have a wonderful time with my FATHER in thought. It's much easier on me now I can say, because it's a awesome memory I will continue share with my family and those who were guests there at the barbecue. We continued to party hearty into the late night. Enjoying time with family and having barbecues like the one we had does bring back awesome memories of a lifetime.

We never take anything for granted when it comes to honoring the memory of my FATHER.